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Chapter 1540: Clouded Judgment

The feeling of restlessness Sunny had felt after leaving Twilight returned. Something strange was going on with Cassie… had been going on for a long time, maybe. He was almost sure of it.

But it was the "almost" of it all that made the situation so difficult. He did not know what to do… confront her? Share his concern with others? What would he say?

That Cassie should not have survived Twilight? None of them should have survived there, really. That she kept journals? There was nothing wrong with that, and claiming otherwise would only make him seem strange. That she was too quiet and unassuming, which made him feel as if she was hiding something vital from them? That sounded like paranoia talking.

In fact, it was — it was the Sin of Solace whispering into his ear. The Sin of Solace, whose only purpose was to drive him mad. Was he a fool to listen to these whispers?

Sunny was not even sure himself what he was suspecting Cassie of, just that he did not feel comfortable with her secrets. But…

Was it really because there was something off about the blind girl, or was it simply because he had never trusted her? Was he still secretly holding on to the grudge after what she had done on the Forgotten Shore, which painted his perception of her? Sunny would be lying if he said that he had let go of that grudge completely. None of the others seemed to suspect Cassie of anything, so why was he the only one looking for faults in her actions?

'Ah, damnation.'

What was he supposed to do?

Did he even need to do anything?

So what if Cassie had a pile of old journals? So what if she kept secrets? Was he the right person to blame someone for not being entirely honest?

More than that, he had always known that Cassie kept much of what she knew to herself. In fact, Sunny was the reason why she had closed herself off, to begin with — he was the one who had told her how destructive of a poison her visions were… in the most cruel way he could think of, at that. Nephis was aware that Cassie knew much more than she was letting on, too. She had told him so herself, during one of their conversations on the Ivory Island.

Her personality had only begun to change after that bitter conversation they had in the medical complex of the Academy, right after coming back from the Forgotten Shore.

Nephis was aware that Cassie knew much more than she was letting on, too. She had told him so herself, during one of their conversations on the Ivory Island.

So why was Sunny reacting so strongly now? 'Because we are so close to victory.'

Because this Nightmare was so dreadful, and its end was swiftly approaching. Sunny was nervous that something would ruin their chances of returning to the waking world, and the ominous shadow of Torment was the last thing standing between them and salvation. Torment had never appeared before them, and so, she was as frightening as their imaginations could make her. Perhaps Cassie was just a substitute for all that fear. …Or perhaps there was really something ominous going on with the blind seer.

"Oh, she is definitely planning to betray you. Again."

The Sin of Solace smiled, looking at him with dark amusement.

Sunny cursed and threw a wooden tray at the sword wraith. The tray passed through the apparition and fell to the floor, clattering loudly. The hateful wraith laughed. "Fool, you are simply incapable of learning, are you? Even after what she did to you, what she took from you, you are still willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. No wonder you ended up being made a slave by her… ah, and she never even apologized. I bet she doesn't feel even a little bit remorseful about her betrayal. Since she doesn't, what is going to stop her from turning on you again?"

Sunny glared at the Sin of Solace, then took a deep breath. He slowly calmed down. "That… doesn't even make any sense. At least try to be convincing when you are spouting nonsense, will you?"

Sunny was prejudiced against Cassie… that much was apparent. Deep in his heart, he still harbored resentment toward her. He valued and cared for her, as well, but that was beside the point. Humans were complicated and contradictory creatures, indeed… just like Nephis had said, they could love and hate someone at the same time. Because Sunny's judgment was clouded, it was easy to find fault with Cassie. But if he flipped his perception and looked at the situation from a different angle, trying to find the opposite, any suspicion that the blind girl could have been doing something to harm the cohort would crumble. It was a preposterous idea. Almost every action Cassie had taken was for their benefit. They would have never made it that far without her. From start to finish, she had been nothing but a selfless ally, putting herself in harm's way on numerous occasions. Finding the scattered members of the cohort, escaping Aletheia's Island, surviving the depths of the Great River… none of that would have been possible without her. So, no matter what secret Cassie was keeping, it was not something that would harm the cohort. Sunny had no reason to worry about that. After realizing that, he felt his heart calming down.

But then, it suddenly felt heavy once again.

Because while Sunny did not have a reason to worry about the cohort…

There might have been a reason to worry about Cassie. 'She's not… preparing herself for something drastic, is she?'

A deep scowl appeared on his face once again. He remained silent for a while, then shook his head. 'No, she wouldn't. Cassie might seem soft, but she is one of the strongest people I know. She's much stronger than anyone gives her credit for.'

Still, a tiny seed of doubt remained. Sunny cursed quietly, threw a hateful glance at the Sin of Solace, and turned his attention back to the Transcendent charm.

The day of their departure was swiftly approaching, so he had to perform the alteration as soon as possible.

 

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    Dadadai Shukosha
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    Chronos watching Sunny talking to himself and throwing the tray: 3
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      Bastard Son of Fate
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      Pretty sure cronos isn’t there
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    kollosus_na
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    What are the chances those journals survive each loop intact and that's how she knows what's going to happen?
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    Roachmann
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    Hasn't effie been eating nightmare creature meat while she was still pregnant? Or am i wrong?
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    Pro100zver25
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    1545: Purest Sound.

    The delivery did not go smoothly. Sunny, Kai… and Mordret, of all people… remained on the stern of the ship for more or less the entire time, waiting for the results. Sunny at least had a task to keep him occupied — guiding the Chain Breaker across the black void was not very difficult, but it still required attention.

    Mordret did not seem to care that much, but Kai was extremely concerned. He paced nervously, sometimes glancing down, but then hurriedly turning his gaze away.

    It was a bit strange. All three of them could learn exactly what was going on — Sunny thanks to his shadows, Mordret through the reflections, and Kai due to his Awakened Ability. However, none of them made use of that opportunity, preferring to remain in the dark about what was happening below deck.

    It was not like they did not receive any signs, though.

    The Chain Breaker seemed to tremble from time to time, and Effie's voice eventually reached their ears, penetrating the impregnable wood the enchanted ship was built from.

    Hearing the barrage of curses pouring out of her mouth, Sunny was a bit reassured. Things could not be going too terrible, considering that she had enough energy for such eloquence.

    …At the same time, he felt his ears slowly turning numb. Some of those words, he did not even know. Others seemed familiar, but used in an entirely new context. Even after growing up in the outskirts, he was on the verge of blushing a little..

    «Really… is there a need to be so descriptive? She has been chewed on by all kinds of Nightmare Creatures. How bad can the pain be?»

    Nevertheless, the process continued for many hours. After a while, Effie's voice grew tired, and his expression grew dim.

    It was taking too long.

    Even without being able to precisely measure time, Sunny knew that Effie had been in labor for longer than usual. It has already been a full day, at least, and there seemed to be no end to it.

    Nephis, Cassie, and Jet were with her, handling the process. They would have called upon him and Kai if they needed help, but none of them had appeared from below the deck. Sunny was growing more and more uneasy, and Kai was entirely beyond himself, by then.

    «Should we… do something?»

    Sunny looked at him somberly.

    «Do what? There's nothing to do. Calm down. Neph is there, so everything will work out.»

    Kai hesitated for a while, then nodded.

    It was hard not to feel useless.

    It was even harder not to feel burdened by the uncertainty of the future. They were going into battle very soon… the timing of it all was extremely unfortunate. Disastrous, maybe.

    This whole Nightmare had been one disaster after another, starting with the dire necessity that had forced them to enter the Seed, to begin with.'

    And the man responsible for landing them into this situation was right here with them, yawning as he looked into the darkness.

    Sunny suppressed the desire to toss Mordret overboard. Not because doing so would lessen their chances of prevailing in Verge, even, but simply because he knew that getting rid of the bastard would not be that easy.

    Letting out a heavy sigh, he moved the steering oars slightly and looked ahead.

    Time slowly passed. The intensity of Effie's labor only grew, while at the same time, her voice became more and more fatigued.

    And then, after something that felt like several days passed…

    They finally heard a new sound.

    The shrill, loud sound of a baby crying.

    Kai let out a long sigh and simply sat down where he stood, looking completely exhausted. It was as if it was him who had given birth to a child, not Effie.

    But Sunny knew how he felt.

    It was indescribably strange, to hear a child's cry in the black emptiness of the Tomb of Ariel. A pure sound like that did not belong in this dreadful place… it seemed wrong and alien.

    And at the same time, strangely uplifting.

    Feeling a profound sense of relief, Sunny poured his essence into the runic circle and slowly brought the Chain Breaker to a halt.

    The flying ship hovered in the dark abyss, unmoving, the leaves of the sacred tree emanating a beautiful glow.

    Sunny remained motionless himself, for a while, then took a deep breath and left the runic circle.

    Glancing at Kai, who seemed too mentally exhausted to think straight, he shook his head and said:

    «I'll go check.»

    He walked across the deck of the Chain Breaker and descended below deck, eventually finding his way to one of the cabins. In front of it, the air was heavy with the scent of blood. A radiant memory illuminated the gloomy interior of the corridor, and Cassie was standing in front of the door, her face tired.

    Hearing his steps, she turned her head slightly.

    Sunny stopped, feeling his heart beating rapidly.

    «How… how is she doing?»

    A faint smile slowly found its way onto the blind girl's face, illuminating it beautifully.

    «It wasn't easy… but she's fine. They're both fine. Nephis helped."

    He hesitated.

    «...What about the timing? Wasn't it too early?»

    Cassie remained silent for a moment, then shrugged with uncertainty.

    «Everything seems fine.»

    Then, she suddenly remembered something and raised a hand.

    «Oh. Can you… lend me the Endless Spring? I was supposed to bring more water, but the nearest barrel is all the way in the cargo hold. We'll wash them off. And then you'll be able to see them.»

    Sunny summoned the Memory and placed it in Cassie's hand, feeling a storm of emotions raging in his wildly beating heart.

    «What the hell. What is this damned Nightmare, even?»

    «Right. Sure. Of course. I'll… I'll go tell Kai.»

    He turned to walk away, then froze.

    «Oh! I forgot to ask. Who is it? A boy, or a girl?»

    Cassie smiled wider and then opened the door of the cabin, slipping inside.

    «It's a healthy boy!»
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      Pro100zver25
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      1546: Raised by Wolves.

      Although Effie had gone into labor prematurely, both she and her infant son were alright.

      The worst fear of the cohort had not come true, either. Perhaps because the child had been conceived in the waking world, or perhaps because he was born in the black void outside the currents of the Great River, at the very heart of Ariel's Tomb, he was not Riverborn.

      At least that was what they surmised after cautiously setting the Chain Breaker in motion and observing no change in the appearance of the baby.

      It was an immense relief.

      Even Sunny, who always expected the worst and was usually prepared to receive painful blows from fortune, felt like an incredible burden had been lifted from his heart.

      The immediate danger had passed. Of course, the future was still uncertain. They still had to fight Torment and destroy the First Seeker. The child's life still hung in a fragile balance, because it was unknown what would happen to his soul after the end of the Nightmare.

      But, somehow, Sunny felt hopeful..

      After everything had been said and done, the Chain Breaker continued sailing through the dark abyss. The members of the cohort took turns spending time with Effie and her newborn, full of contradictory emotions.

      The huntress herself had been exhausted by the prolonged labor, but was regaining her vigor and vitality at an incredible rate.

      She still looked tired and drained, though, when Sunny came to see her.

      Effie was in her cabin, sitting in a comfortable chair. She was wrapped in a blanket, and holding a sizable bundle in her arms, looking at it tenderly. Sunny was actually startled by that gaze, unaccustomed to seeing his friend so… openly vulnerable.

      And strangely content.

      Hearing him enter, Effie looked up and smiled tiredly.

      «Ah… Uncle Doofus. Welcome, welcome.»

      He approached and looked at the bundle, finally laying his eyes on the newborn.

      Effie's child… looked pretty much like all infants did, with the exception of the fact that he was entirely too large to have been born mere hours ago, at least twice the size of a normal baby.

      «That poor woman…»

      Sunny looked at the huntress with pity. Effie had always been unreasonably tall, and her son would grow up to be a real giant, from the looks of it.

      Internally, Sunny sighed.

      «Another beanpole. Gods. That brat is going to be taller than me in no time, won't he? Well... he might just grow up to be taller than anyone. That's a relief.»

      Effie's smile grew wider.

      «He's beautiful, isn't he?»

      Sunny stared at her in confusion.

      She… had really chosen the wrong person to ask that question.

      «What are you talking about? He's absolutely ugly. All infants are. And don't give me that look… you know I can't lie!»

      The huntress stared at him for a couple moments, then laughed and gently stroked the sleeping infant's soft head.

      «Well, I think he's beautiful. Almost as much as his mom is, eh?»

      Sunny shook his head, wondering if all parents were a little sick in the head. Well, they had to be. Otherwise, what would make them care for the poor infants? A bit of unreasonable affection went a long way...

      He hesitated for a while, thinking about the little life in front of him. The infant… actually, it was not very convenient to keep calling him the infant. Glancing at Effie, he asked:

      «What are you going to name him?»

      She remained silent for a bit, smiling. Letting out a quiet sigh, Effie shrugged.

      «I can't just go and name him right away. I need to consult his dad first.»

      There was a moment of somber silence, with both of them refusing to mention the fact that the baby's father was most likely long dead.

      Effie looked back at her son and smiled again.

      «Ah! But… look at him. He looks like a little dumpling, doesn't he?»

      Sunny's eyes widened a little.

      «I knew it!»

      He shook his head energetically.

      «No… bad Effie, bad! You can't name your son Dumpling! That's a very bad idea!»

      She giggled.

      «He-he. Well… I'll just call him Little Dumpling for now. We'll come up with a proper name after getting out of the Nightmare.»

      Sunny just stared at her for a while, then shook his head again, this time slowly.

      «Whatever… do what you want. Don't come complaining to me later, though.»

      Effie gave him a mischievous look.

      «Sunny… you, of all people, should know better. I mean, did you mom not name you Sunless? And look at you! You turned out… well…»

      Her voice gradually turned doubtful. Then, she grinned.

      «Actually, never mind. I think you might be right.»

      Hearing her laugh, he hesitated for a moment, then asked tentatively:

      «How are you feeling?»

      Effie looked at her son again, her smile turning slightly solemn. Eventually, she shrugged:

      «Like I've been run over by a pack of Nightmare Creatures. But don't worry. Nephis healed me up pretty well. I'll be good as new, soon.»

      She caressed the infant's soft cheek and added, her voice hiding a somber undertone:

      «Maybe… maybe it's for the best. At least this way, I'll be able to participate in the final battle. I've been drowning in self-loathing because of being so useless, you know. Now… either we survive Verge, or not. In any case, we'll be together until the very end.»

      Sunny frowned, studying her face. Her eyes were sunken, and her gaze was dark… but, at the same time, fierce.

      It would be of great help to have the fearsome Raised by Wolves fight side by side with them, of course.

      But…

      «Are you sure? What about your son?»

      Effie hesitated for a moment.

      «...If we fail, he will die. So, I'll hide him in the Black Beast Locket. And do everything I can to make sure that we both get to live.»

      She remained silent for a while, looking at the sleeping baby.

      Then, Effie turned to Sunny and suddenly looked him in the eyes.

      «You know, Sunny… I once told you that the world we live in is dying. And I still believe that — no, I believe it even more, after experiencing the last few years.»

      A light smile slowly appeared on her face, and something fearsome suddenly ignited deep in her sunken, tired eyes.

      «But, you know… now, I find myself in the mood to go and turn the entire world upside-down. Maybe even tear it down completely and rebuild it from scratch, if need be.»

      She took a measured breath.

      «Just to make sure that there's enough space in that world for this little guy to live a life that is worth living.»

      Effie looked at Sunny for a few moments, and then laughed.

      «Someone has to, after all. And if we won't… then who the hell will?»
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        MefetraN7
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        А прикиньте кэсси все предыдущие циклы писала же в дневнике, поэтому она знает про ребёнка и про исход тех циклов. Но почему она не рассказывает?
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          shaakh
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          If she tells what's gonna happen then they try to avoid that situation but it might lead to another unforeseen, more dangerous scenario, so i think she gonna try to overcome it by harming or sacrificing herself maybe
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          RedFox
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          I think , that Cassie cannot know past cycles because in them the entire cohort was infected with defilement and then cassie became defiled, it’s like the prince had to create a memory limiting the blade of sin of consolation so that Sunny would not be desecrated
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            MefetraN7
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            Но дневники то которые вела кэсси в прошлых циклах не заражены)
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        Rei-absolute
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        MY hero
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        BlankDjinn
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        Thank you kind one :)
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      LordMr
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      Seguindo a lógica dos amigos, pobre casal que terá uma filha... O de Effie vai passar o carro
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    REN・DOVERঐ
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    Hope we're not all forgetting that Sunny isn't the Father.... sigh
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    Sunless
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    We await more updates my glorious king @Pro100zver25 bow

    It really would be poetic if Sunny named the kid wish

    What do we think?
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      BlankDjinn
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      I would love it if the child got a name like that meant wolf cub in a different language or something along the kind of Sunless and rain to keep with that families weird naming scheme!

      And I as well wait for the chosen one, if they so choose to bless us, but if not there kindness has already been more than anything I could hope for :)
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      DragonGhost
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      Honestly now it would be quite a problem to beat the nightmare not because Effie have to protect child but also because if they do beat nightmare...will Effie child stay in nightmare or not?
      I am leaning more towards the former
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        shaakh
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        Nah child will be straight up awakened when they leave the nightmare oru2x
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          DragonGhost
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          Hacksss wiseacre
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          6pain
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          Child will be transcended
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