Beethoven Reborn - Episode 66
Beethoven Reborn Episode 066
16. 7Sal becomes a teacher(2)
Himura became very worried after hearing the story about Bae Do-bin from Bae Young-jun..
Burn out syndrome).
I have heard of a case where a person who was motivated and immersed in work complained of extreme fatigue..
Himura immediately looked for related information and roughly guessed the situation..
It is said that people who are passionate and do their best often become lethargic and lethargic due to what they experience after completing their goal..
I was worried because I was told that I could become emotional or have physical problems such as headaches..
I thought about finding a professional counselor, but considering my image in Korea, it might have been a hasty decision..
First of all, it was explained that when looking for a solution, it is better to solve it through conversation, work at a set time, and get enough rest (hobby activities) other than that..
Himura nodded, recalling the memory of Ryoichi Sakamoto, who had been watching Dobin Bae for several years, telling him to get enough rest..
He seems to have predicted that Bae Do-bin might experience these symptoms..
Himura picked up the phone..
-Looks like you're busy. long time no see.
“haha. sorry. sorry. It's definitely been a bit busy. How are you?”
-I'm dying because of rehabilitation. I'm glad Ryoko is by my side. How are you??
“It's crazy. Dobin was in the US for work, and Tomoe and her son appeared in her dream. Why isn't she coming?.”
“I went late and prayed for everything. haha.”
-……Tomoedo and Hideo will understand. Isn’t he a warm child?.
Nakamura’s clumsy consolation.
Himura choked..
1Years have passed, but the wounds of losing my wife and son have not healed at all..
Only when I listened to Bae Do-bin's music was I able to forget the pain, even if only for a moment..
‘Dad, a kid the same age as me actually made this.?’
‘I miss you too. Do you want to be friends?.’
‘I want to learn the violin. Can we play together??’
Suddenly, my son Hideo, who was particularly fond of Bae Do-bin's music, came to mind..
Music that my son liked.
Himura, who pledged to make the music that brought hope to a disaster-stricken Japan shine even brighter, is currently.
I was even more obsessed with the guilt that I might have ruined Bae Do-bin..
-Himura?
Himura barely opened his mouth..
“Oh, it's just that I have something to ask you. Have you ever experienced burnout syndrome among the people you were in charge of??”
-Hmm. There was. Could it be Dobin??
“I think so. After returning home, he didn't seem to do much about music. He just keeps sleeping. Why didn't he say that when he's mentally stressed, he sleeps a lot as a defense mechanism to protect himself?.”
-I've heard of it. If you say that, it seems like it's serious enough? What on earth happened??
“that is……
To Himura, who explained his itinerary after returning from Berlin..
Nakamura shouted..
-Are you out of your mind? Dobbin is still six years old! It's strange that even you, as an adult, are fine after five months of an exhausting schedule.!
Himura couldn't speak..
It was all because Nakamura was right..
As much as Himura thought especially of Bae Do-bin, Nakamura also thought the same..
In particular, Nakamura, who worked as a manager for Bae Do-bin back and forth between Korea and Japan until the disaster, couldn't help but be angry at Himura's handling of his affairs..
Because he was my most trusted friend and colleague..
Himura was angry that he treated his precious child like that..
-If you're going to do it that way, Dobbin send it to someone else! I really can't believe it. Even when I look at people wrong, I still look at them wrong for a long time. I'm going to hang up!
pop _
Too-too-too-too-
The call ending sound followed..
Himura's arm, which was holding the cell phone, fell weakly..
**
Maybe it's because it's spring, but I keep getting sleepy..
As I was basking in the gentle sunlight, I began to fall asleep without realizing it, but I've been feeling like a sick chick for several days already..
I lost my appetite too..
I didn't want to eat much other than orange juice. Sometimes I put a little effort into the spicy food my mother cooks, but other times I just skip it..
‘Am I feeling unwell??’
2012In 2018 alone, I gave eight concerts, composed six songs, and appeared on TV and radio two or three times a week..
Not only that, but because he had to travel long distances a lot, he seemed to be very tired both physically and mentally..
I didn't have the slightest will to do anything..
I just want to keep turning on the TV and watching people say and do funny things and drink unsweetened orange juice..
No, I didn't want to do anything even more intensely..
“Dobin.”
“yes.”
My mother called me from the living room and I went out, and she and my father showed me a piece of paper..
It looks like a pamphlet for some festival..
“There was an expo in Yeosu. I heard it's really pretty. I want to go take a look.?”
I tried to say that I wasn't going because it was a hassle, but my mother and father's eyes were so bright that I couldn't answer easily..
“look. Looking at the garden here will help you change your mood..”
It certainly looks like there is a lot to see in the photos introduced in the pamphlet, but I wasn't that interested..
“Mom and Dad really want to go here..”
But seeing him try to make me feel better by saying things like that, I couldn't refuse..
I nodded because I saw that he seemed worried about me being helpless not only now but also for a long time..
“yes. song.”
The two of you are smiling, so that's okay..
I plan to visit in moderation..
two days later.
I thought only my family was going, but there was a girl and someone who appeared to be her parents..
“hello. Oh my, are you Dobbin? So handsome.”
“Dobin, it's the lady and the uncle next door. Greetings.”
“hello.”
I haven't seen any of my neighbors since I bought a new house, but that's because I was busy and didn't have much contact with them..
When I noticed, my father seemed a bit awkward, but my mother and aunt were close, so it seemed like they had become close friends after coming from Berlin..
I turn my gaze and look at the girl..
Was it about four or five years old?.
He was a cute child with big eyes, white skin, and braided hair..
“ not.”
“Wow!”
“……Hello.”
“oh. Chae-eun, why are you crying??”
“Wow.”
I raised my hand to say hello, but suddenly started crying..
I was embarrassed when I saw the little boy crying sadly in the arms of his neighbor..
** *
There was a lot to see at the expo..
I'm a little used to it now, but after I was reborn, everything was amazing..
From audio to computers and improved musical instruments..
Every day was fresh and mysterious, but recently that feeling seemed to have slowed down a bit..
In the meantime, I was able to feel that feeling a little bit at this place I visited..
There were some places like ice caves (I was wondering how on earth they were made)..
Little Chae-eun, who had been carried on her back by a neighbor at first, started toddling around and looking around with wonder..
Then, I caught him when he was about to fall because his legs were twisted, but when I saw him quickly run back to his father and hide, I thought it was not a good idea to become close to him..
After that, I didn't worry too much and just spent some time looking around..
It was annoying before I came, but once I got there, it wasn't that bad of an outing..
After visiting Yeosu, Himura came to visit me at home..
I thought he had brought something new, but he said something so unexpected that I was shocked..
“Sorry, you two. And Dobin.”
‘What did this friend eat wrong?.’
I asked what was going on..
“What happen?”
“I said I was a manager, but I didn't think about the most important thing, your health. When I think about how hard it has been for you, you can't forgive me. I'm sorry, Dobin..”
I looked up at my father and mother, wondering if they had said something to Himura..
But my parents shook their heads and said they didn't know what was going on..
Clearly, both my parents and I have complete faith in Himura..
The reason my mother didn't come to America was possible because of Himura..
asked Himura.
“Why are you doing this all of a sudden? What's going on?”
Himura hesitated for a moment and then opened his mouth..
“I came back from America and heard that you don't even listen to music. It's probably because I was so tired. It's all my fault for ruining your rhythm.”
I guess I'm misunderstanding something..
I asked the question again to make him realize that he was mistaken..
“Why is it Himura’s fault??”
“I knew I had to adjust my schedule so you could always be in good shape. But I wasn't very good at it.”
“I know, why did you do that??”
“that.”
As he waited for an answer, Himura let out a sigh..
“It's because of my greed. I wanted to let you know how amazing you are. Because there were many requests to know about you, not only in Korea but also here and there..”
“I told you that I would handle the entire schedule. Mom and Dad heard it too.?”
After seeing that my mother and father were nodding, I continued speaking to Himura..
“I want to let more people hear my music. Himura's desire to make me known is probably greater. That's what she lives for.”
“So there's no need to apologize for something like that. Apologizing is something you do when you don't get something done..”
“but.”
“I was exhausted. It's definitely my first time doing something like this, so I'm just taking a break. Don't worry. Because my body is already feeling better.”
and.
“I can't imagine not making music. Don't worry, I haven't thought about anything else, and I have no intention of doing so..”
Before.
That happened.
When it took 3 to 4 years to compose a song, some uneducated guy went around bragging that Bethofen was over..
However, my song, which was finally completed, became a hot topic throughout Europe, and countless nobles flocked to my concerts every time..
genius.
Although the name is respected, it can also sometimes be met with envy and jealousy..
Also, everyone has no choice but to be interested, and perhaps because of that, even if they do not show slightly greater results,.
‘It's over now.’
‘It's going downhill.’
‘It's a pity.’
Negative perceptions and comments follow..
I knew this very well, so I told Himura clearly..
I say this to Himura, but I also say this to my mother and father who are here..
“I appreciate you worrying about me when I'm tired, but worrying about Himura doesn't make me feel better. I'm just tired like any other person, and I can move again after I get enough rest. That's it.”
‘‘Increase’.
In my opinion, I am just taking a short break from the satisfaction and exhaustion that came from creating a masterpiece comparable to Eroica..
I made it clear to Himura.
“I wish you all the best in the future.”
“••••••okay.”
I smiled at Himura, who had made a firm decision, and then turned around..
“I'll get some sleep then.”
I keep feeling sleepy.
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