Beethoven Reborn - Episode 37
Beethoven Reborn Episode 037
10. 6Sal, entrance(2)
“honey.”
“That's because I want to hear Dobin's thoughts. What do you think, Dobin??”
My father looked at me with straight eyes, as he always did. I also made eye contact with my father, but I didn't lie..
“I want to go, but I want to live with my dad and mom..”
“Dad also wants to live with Dobin. Now, thanks to Dobin, we can live together as a family..”
"huh."
“But you also want to go to Germany, right? I also want to do music.”
I nodded heavily and my father stroked my head..
“Honey, let’s meet someone named Seunghee Lee tomorrow..”
“why?”
“We should talk about it. We just talked about it. Dobin doesn't talk.”
“what is that.”
“Because the Berlin Philharmonic wanted Dobin. I think I should convey Dobin’s thoughts. She wants to go, but she wants to live with her mom and dad..”
“What difference would that make??”
“It’s important to convey Dobin’s thoughts. My son is amazing?”
“honey.”
“It will be fine. I also have no intention of sending Dobbin to Germany alone. she would never do that.”
“……is it so. then.”
My father still asks me to kiss him, but at times like this, I am trustworthy..
It's not that I don't understand my mother's thoughts, but.
I thought it was right to convey my true feelings as a courtesy to Lee Seung-hee, who came from far away for me..
Seunghee Lee came to visit the next day and seemed a little surprised to see her father..
But then he bowed his head and said hello..
My first impression was that he was lively, but he was quite calm when dealing with his parents. It probably means that she is someone who knows how to keep her manners..
Her father also welcomed her warmly..
“Hello, father. My name is Seunghee Lee..”
“Welcome, Seunghee. Dobin is the father..”
Lee Seung-hee, who came to the living room and took a seat, slowly and carefully opened her mouth..
“I didn't expect to see my father. bump
Poetry: Is it okay to think that you are trying to tell me a different story from yesterday??”
“yes. I heard the story from my wife yesterday. I think I explained my and her wife’s position well to Seunghee..”
“Ah yes. sure. It was a completely understandable story..”
“I'm glad you understand. Actually, I think I should tell you Dobin’s position this time..”
“yes?”
“That's right, Dobin.?”
Leaving Seunghee Lee a little embarrassed, my father placed his hand on my back..
I pushed him a bit, but it felt like he was telling me it was okay to be honest..
It's as if he's telling me that he doesn't just see me as a child..
It felt like that.
“Thanks for the great suggestion, sister..”
“oh.”
Seunghee Lee looked a little happy. Half surprise, half joy..
“I know what a great place the Berlin Philharmonic is. I also want to make music with great people. but.”
Just as I was looking directly at Seunghee Lee, she also did not avoid her gaze from me..
I continued talking as I watched her face go from surprise to a completely happy expression..
“I have no intention of living away from my parents yet. I still have a lot to learn.”
It's definitely true.
Even if I have lived a lifetime, there cannot be no process of adapting to a completely new world..
180Now, over a year has passed and so much has changed..
It's definitely different from a typical child..
Because I was filled with completely different cultures and ideologies and things I didn't know as if I was born for the first time, I also had to go through a new, socialization process of my own..
The reason Sakamoto and Himura recommended using a computer to me was because the way of making music had already changed so much in this era..
If it weren't for my parents, Youngbin Bae, Nakamura, and Himura, I probably wouldn't have been able to show my music to the world..
Maybe it took a really long time.
Because I couldn't even think about 'recording' music and selling it as a 'CD' or 'file'..
Working in Japan, the United States, and more recently in our country, I have learned that I have a lot to learn and that I am still in a position to be protected..
I currently lack a lot to blindly pursue my desires, and my parents probably think the same..
Since there is a difference between what my parents think and my speed of socialization, there will come a time when I have to persuade them..
I thought it wasn't now.
I can't convey all of my feelings, but fortunately Seunghee Lee smiled at the end..
“okay. If that's what Dobin thinks, there's nothing we can do. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Dobin..”
Seunghee Lee extended his hand to shake my hand and I took his hand..
“ ah.”
“huh?”
“Is it okay if we can live together??”
“……yes.”
While shaking hands, Seunghee Lee suddenly said something strange and looked at her father and mother and asked.
“If you two could live in Germany... … It must be difficult?”
“ha ha ha. After all, I have a life to live. My wife and I want to provide Dobin with a good environment as much as possible. My wife is probably familiar with Germany, but I am not. There are jobs here too..”
“okay. It was like that. aha. I guess I was really in a hurry. I couldn’t take things for granted..”
I understand how much Lee Seung-hee wants to take me with him, but this is a bit of a stretch..
“If Dobin joins, it would be possible to find a house, so I asked just in case. I completely understand Dobin and their position, but I guess I still have regrets..”
Seunghee Lee also seems to be aware that she brought up an unreasonable story..
My mother and father both have jobs here, so they can't just go to Germany together..
Actually, I can somehow take care of the family's livelihood..
My parents are not people who only care about the money their 6-year-old son earns..
“Dobin.”
At that time, my mother held my hand and hugged me..
I had no choice but to be dragged to my mother, and soon I made eye contact with her, who was looking straight at me..
“Dobin likes music?”
What an obvious question.
But my mother was so serious that I nodded and answered..
“great.”
“If I have a hard time playing music, I promise to tell my mom that I'm having a hard time.?”
I have never been comfortable with music.
When it comes to music, I am always desperate..
Because it was a means to live in this world, a way to promote my value, and the only way for me to be myself..
So I spoke honestly.
“I've never had a hard time.”
Not only my mother but also my father and Lee Seung-hee seemed surprised by my words..
“Music is something I do to express myself to the world. It's not easy and it's never been difficult, but it's never been enjoyable..”
Mother's hand holding my hand.
This time I used my strength to catch it..
“I have to do music. I want to do that.”
The world is also waiting for me like this.
Now I can fully understand what Ryoichi Sakamoto said while explaining film music to me..
‘A great song must finally find its place. The great Mozart and Beethoven songs have been used in hundreds of movies. Can you understand what I mean??’
I raised my head and looked up at Ryoichi Sakamoto..
From his kind expression and straight eyes, I could feel that I could trust him..
‘There's a movie that needs your music. Please be with me.’
Not only movies, but the world and modern times still need my music..
There were people who were happy and comforted by listening to my music..
I personally heard the reactions of people who heard 'die mei ste Hoffnung (The Greatest Hope)' along with the movie..
Also, I realized this after hearing through Himura that people who were in despair were comforted to some extent by ‘Dobean Bae: Suite for Piano and Violin’..
There is no such thing as a sense of duty, but.
People want to listen to my music as much as I want to make music, so there's no way I can quit just because the process is difficult..
It's never something to quit just because it's hard.
Although it may be insufficient, I am now able to express such thoughts in Korean..
“So I wouldn't say music is difficult..”
After I finished speaking, my mother said once again
He hugged me tightly and sobbed..
“Our Dobin is special..”
At those words mixed with tears, I had no choice but to pat my mother on the back..
And soon, my mother, who had wiped away her tears, looked at my father..
“honey.”
My father nodded silently.
Mother turned her head and conveyed her thoughts to Seunghee Lee..
“Please provide a place for Dobin and I to live in Germany. And Dobin again
I would like you to confirm with me everything related..”
“……yes Sure!”
That's how my mother and I headed to Germany..
Preparing to go to Germany.
I felt uneasy at the thought of my father remaining in Korea alone, but he smiled brightly and said it was okay..
“Dobin can earn a lot of money and take his dad on a plane.?”
“yes.”
I definitely plan to do that..
I heard it later.
At this time, my father saw me talking seriously about music, which he had only seen as a child until now, and he thought he should not keep me in his arms any longer..
My mother and Lee Seung-hee exchanged many stories about various things, but there was one thing that surprised me..
Aside from worrying about my father, I was secretly looking forward to seeing how Germany would change now..
Even my mother seemed a little hopeful..
“What does Dobin want to do first when he goes to Germany??”
“hmm… … . I want to see the Rhine River.”
My old house in Bonn was by the Rhine River.
Even though my childhood was particularly painful, only the violin and organ, the kind Eleanor, and the Rhine River comforted me..
I thought of the beautiful Rhine River stretching out in front of my house..
“Rhine? okay. OK. really. You can see the Rhine River from Beethoven's birthplace, so it would be a good idea to stop by Bonn. Dobin also wants to go to Beethoven’s house.?”
“uh… … . yes.”
It's exciting to hear that my old house is still there.?
something felt strange.
I knew that people today praise me and call me evil, but according to my mother, I feel like I have become a tourist attraction..
It was just amazing.
Meanwhile, a thought occurred to me, and my mother seemed to know Bon's geography, so I asked her about it..
“Mom, how did you know that the Rhine River was near our house in Betthofen??”
“huh? ah. Her mom went to college in Germany. There is an art university called Düsseldorf, and it is a really nice place. ha. It was really good back then. I also traveled a lot..”
“Kunstakademie Düsseldorf?”
I was a little surprised to see the name of the university that existed when I wrote the name of 'Ludwig van Wetthofen'..
But my mother seemed even more surprised..
“oh? Does Dobin know too? how? where did she learn?”
There is no way I can tell you..
“……I just learned it on my own.”
“Hmm.”
I made a ridiculous excuse and started writing a letter to Himura and Nakamura..
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