Chapter 140
Episode 140: In the days of foolish beasts.
Chuma's face turned red..
I couldn't tell if it was because of the alcohol, the sunset, or the shame I had buried for so many years..
“I think I need to drink more..”
I tried to stand up but sat down again..
I know the reason why the relationship between Hyeolcheondoma and Ilhwageomjon has worsened. The two people were once in love as a man and a woman, but then broke up on bad terms. But I didn't know that drunkenness would be involved in that breakup..
“From a long time ago, I and Geomzon occasionally drank and talked. One day, Geomzon asked me. Do you know what kind of person Thomas is? I asked why you asked. They say Thomas drew the picture. I asked to see what kind of picture it was. The painting was a painting of a beautiful woman depicting Geomzon. I knew the moment I saw the painting that it was more beautiful than the real thing. Ah, Doma likes Geomzone. I just got the feeling.”
These are them from their youth. A Hyeolcheon Domar drawing a picture for a woman! It's truly unimaginable..
“Sure enough, from then on, Doma began to show interest in Geomzon. I asked him out for tea and went for a walk. Geomzon told me the whole story of his meeting with Doma. You know how I felt back then?”
“Was it bad?”
“very much.”
“Did you also like Geomzon??”
“It wasn't like that from the beginning. Because Doma likes Geomzon, I suddenly became anxious. Until then, I thought Geomzon liked the cult leader. So I thought no one would accept it, but that wasn't the case. I had pure respect for the religious leader..”
I poured the drink into Chuma’s cup. He stared blankly into his glass and remembered the past..
“One day, while drinking, I subtly revealed to Geomjon that I liked him. But…….”
Chuma was speechless. I sighed and said instead.
“You were rejected..”
Chuma nodded slowly..
“He said he was in love with Thomas..”
Suddenly Chuma shouted loudly..
“Does that make sense? Does that make sense? That skinny, ugly cutting board was even older than us! I was so angry that I couldn't sleep even a wink. I was angry at myself for not confessing more carefully, and I was even more angry at being caught panicking at the moment of rejection..”
He did not hide his taste and told honestly everything about that time..
“These thoughts tormented me. Actually, I didn't like Geomzon that much, but when I heard that I liked Doma, I wonder if I didn't want to give it to someone else and confessed to it? Since the idiot got rejected, he even makes this excuse! I couldn't sleep for days.”
It was such a pure appearance that I couldn't even imagine when I think of this insidious drunkard now..
“Wasn’t that the age of foolish beasts led by instinct??”
“You are not?”
So did I.
“shit! Just thinking about that time makes me so embarrassed and annoyed that I die.!”
Chwima got up and started pacing back and forth around the pavilion. Then I leaned on the railing and looked at the now dark lake..
“From that day on, my heart has been crooked. Although I didn't express it outwardly, I wanted to somehow separate the two of us. However, as time passed, Geomzon's liking for Doma continued to grow. Then one day.”
Chuma lit the lamp attached to the pillar of the pavilion. Getting angry, talking, pacing, and lighting a fire. Chwima's complicated feelings are conveyed through his actions. When the lamp was turned on, the surroundings became brighter..
“As I was walking down the hallway, I heard Thomas’ voice. He was drinking with Namdo sect warriors. I wonder if they were talking about Geomzon, and the Namdo sect warriors were asking about Geomzon. How much do you like him, did you kiss him? Did you sleep? This is something that friends usually say when they get together, but I was furious. These bastards!”
Chuma emptied his drink. I drank too. Perhaps because of the atmosphere, I didn't get drunk even after drinking. I also felt like I was standing in the hallway of that building with a young drunkard..
“I should have kicked in the door and flipped it over. You bastards! Shut up!”
“Did you do it??”
“I felt like my life would end the moment I broke down that door..”
Now we know. Even so, nothing special will happen. In hindsight, I just remember it as a day of fighting and being terrible..
“When I met Geomzon the next day, I told him what happened yesterday. Actually, I met Thomas at Giru yesterday. That fact alone must have made her feel bad, and she even said something she didn't mean to say. It was as if Thomas had said what those who were with him were talking about, not what Thomas had said. Thomas was talking about kissing you. I still vividly remember my heart pounding like crazy as I said those words. That I would do such a shameful thing? Am I just this kind of guy? My heart was pounding and I was blaming myself, but my mouth was saying, ‘Usually men show off in front of courtesans.’ I don't even know if there was a courtesan in that room that day or not..”
Crackling.
The railings of the pavilion were torn off by Chwima's hands. I could see anger and regret in his drunken eyes. Now I can clearly see where those eyes that felt empty came from..
“After some time had passed, Geomzon said that. He said he had a big fight with Doma and broke up. From that day on, the two fought every time they met..”
“Did they continue to separate after that??”
Chuma shook his head..
“There was no need for that. Once the relationship went sour, it started to spiral out of control. On the contrary, these days, they fight as much as they want. Like Geomzon, I drink alcohol for the fun of swearing at Doma..”
“Have you ever thought about apologizing to both of them??”
“I tried it.”
“But why didn't you do it??”
“If it had been for a better reason, I might have apologized to Geomzon. But I couldn't bear to say that I did it out of jealousy. Or are you still hoping that things don't work out for you two?.”
Chuma looked at me and added,.
“I am such a petty and petty bastard..”
“I know.”
“what?”
“Then why would you have thought of Mr. Chwima as an upright and honest person? It was sneaky and mean.…….”
“stop!”
It feels like I'm boiling inside after hearing others gossip about me again..
“What did I do so wrong! If you're going to break up after just saying a few words, you're going to break up anyway, right? Right? It’s true that you went to Giru, and it’s also true that you brought up the story of Geomzon in the first place, right? Who wants to go? Do you want to meet me there? shit!”
I felt it. It turns out that Doma and Geomjon weren't the only ones fighting for a long time. Perhaps Chwima fought the fiercest..
“you're right. If two people really loved each other, they shouldn't be shaken like that. Even if we had left it alone, we would have broken up for other reasons..”
“yes? That's right?”
When I took his side, Chwima came next to me and laughed heartily. Then I suddenly sighed..
“When I said we broke up, I wasn't happy at all..”
Now is the time to ask why.
“Why did you tell me this??”
“Didn't you keep asking? Why did I approach you? Geomzon said that at a drinking party not long ago. You want to use Thomas and yourself as your left and right wings..”
“Are you here to clip my wings? Are you here to join us so we can fly together??”
Chu Ma shook his head..
“I don't know either. After seeing Doma and Geomzon hanging out together around you, I just thought I should jump in too. I didn't know I'd end up saying this.”
“Do you feel relieved after everything is said??”
“I'm already regretting it. Why did I have to reveal such a pathetic thing with my mouth? I'm possessed by a ghost. Don't be fooled by comments about half-purity or something like that..”
He lay down on the floor. And then he looked up at the ceiling of the pavilion and said,.
“You'll keep thinking about this every time you see me.”
“You'll remember it. Ugh, my ugly brother.”
Chwima laughed at my words. The small smile grew bigger and bigger. After a quick laugh, he asked:.
“Are you going to reveal the truth to these two people??”
I shook my head..
“It's not up to me to decide..”
“I don't plan on revealing it to them forever.?”
“Please do so.”
“I really would do that..”
“please do.”
Chuma jumped up and looked at me..
“Don't you want the two of you to reconcile??”
“Will those two become happier once they find out the truth??”
“!”
“Aside from their hatred for Chuma, the two will feel even more sorry that their love did not come true for that reason. Since I can't go back, the regret will be even greater. But is it only now that the two of you start a new love? Will that work? In the end, all three of you will be more unhappy than you are now..”
I think this is a truth that must be buried forever. The Hyeolcheon Doma may get angry and try to kill the Chuma. Even if he kills Chuma, Hyeolcheondoma will also have to pay the price. Meanwhile, what are Geomzon’s feelings like? In the end, it happened because Chuma liked himself too..
“I only have one chance to reveal the truth, but consider me wasting that opportunity now..”
It would make a big difference whether you told me or not. Because the past that clings to me like a ghost is not something I can deal with alone..
“If you free yourself from the obsession with revealing the truth, you might be able to reconcile the two people better. From now on, I will try to become friends with Hyeolcheon Doma, and when I drink with Geomjon, I praise him instead of gossiping. If you do that, won't an unexpected opportunity arise that will connect the two of you someday? Please give me wings right now.”
“You should do it.”
“I don't like it. If you're going to make fun of my ugly brother, it's only fun if he's your older brother..”
Chuma’s expression became much more relaxed. After saying everything, he looked relieved..
“Keep one promise.”
“something?”
“Limit your drinking and have snacks. This has already come to an end. I need to let my ugly brother live a long life..”
I don’t know whether Chuma’s fate will change with today as a turning point. Even if I do this, will I end up dying of alcoholism or will I live a different life?.
Maybe my fate will change and I may die earlier. But it's okay. Any death would be better than the end of a drunk dying from a bottle of alcohol..
“Brother, let’s get to it. I can't drink any more. and… … thank you for being honest.”
The look on his face when he looked at me was something I had never seen before. Will we be able to keep this look towards each other until the end??
“Ouch… … thanks.”
Chuma toasted my glass..
* * *
The next day my father called me..
When I entered Cheonmajeon, I felt that the atmosphere was different from usual..
The great general, Simamyeong, was also there, and his older brother Geommuyang was also there..
After saying hello to my father and Sima Ming, Geommuyang said to me:.
“It smells like alcohol. The smell of alcohol when I met my father.?”
“I drank too much yesterday. With the person who likes drinking the most in our school.”
I mentioned drunkenness on purpose. Geommuyang tried to act calmly..
“Yes, I heard that you hang out with Chuma a lot these days. Don't drink too much.”
Geommuyang must be in a bad mood. I would love to have Chwima come to me and cause trouble, but it would make it look like the two of us are having a good time..
Nevertheless, Geommuyang was trying not to show her emotions. The older brother definitely becomes a different person in front of his father..
“My brother shouldn't be more careful?”
“What do you mean??”
“I heard you're hanging out with the Dog King these days? I like alcohol, but you drink poison, right? Take care, bro..”
Although it was in front of my father, a tense battle of nerves unfolded. I didn't hide it on purpose. To my father and my brother.
As can be seen in the case of intoxication, hidden emotions ultimately lead to problems. They fight openly like this and have a war of nerves. If you want to fight to save your brother, this is the way to go. If you get angry on the outside, you will curse, but if you get angry on the inside, you will send an assassin..
My father watched our conversation with inexplicable eyes, then nodded and signaled to Sima Ming..
Then Sima Ming stepped forward and said:.
“Today, the two Confucius will be given different tasks..”
Sima Ming held two red envelopes in his hands..
It has finally come. A full-scale test to determine a successor has begun..
“To be fair, choose what you both like..”
The moment I saw that envelope, my heart was agitated..
Before returning, today came to mind. Two missions given to us.
My brother succeeded and I failed..
By ruining this mission, I completely lost my position as successor..
Just like in the past, my brother gave me the opportunity to choose first this time too..
“Pick first. Don't regret later if you made the wrong choice..”
“Probably won't happen.”
I slowly reached out my hand and chose one of the two envelopes..
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