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Chapter 35 The Last Letter

Chapter 35 The Last Letter

【The envelope was delivered by the postman. You thought it was an invitation or an invoice. The moment you got the letter, you realized that your expectation was wrong..】

【There was a bulge in the center of the envelope, and the rest was very thin. From the feel of the envelope, you guessed that there was a piece of silk cloth and a thin piece of letter paper inside..】

【Chiju Kazumi was not at home. She went to a senior citizen club an hour ago. These highly educated old ladies suddenly became interested in educating the children in the orphanage and often became voluntary teachers. Last month, she even You went to a music class.】

【Chishou Kazumi was relatively dull when she was young and was often alone. Now her hair is gray and she is more interested in socializing. On the contrary, you now have nothing but letters with other friends of the same age who have the right to speak in the industry, and you are too lazy to write a word or say a word to others. talk.】

【You should not have a letter sent to you like this, but your name is indeed written on the letter. You suspect that Chiju Kazumi participated in some activities and left your name. This letter is actually sent to her..】

【After hesitating for a moment, you decided to open it and take a look.】

Minami Yuki closed his eyes, and the memory scene appeared under his closed eyelids..

In the middle of winter, the faint morning light shone on the bare shrubs in the garden. The elderly Minami Yuki walked slowly to the pavilion, sat at the round table, and tore open the envelope with wrinkled palms..

In the envelope, a transparent sealed bag wrapped two things, a piece of letter paper and a handkerchief..

Although the handkerchief is white, the corners are badly worn..

Over the years, Minami Yuki has touched many high-end fabrics. As soon as he got his hands on it, he knew it was a bargain..

He couldn't recognize the handkerchief for a while. When he unfolded it, he saw the word "南" embroidered with blue thin thread on the corner. He suddenly remembered that this was the handkerchief he had when he was a child. It was his handkerchief more than forty years ago. A handkerchief given to a woman.

After sixty years, his hands that could still press the keys, pluck the strings, and hold up the pipes steadily began to tremble in the winter sunshine..

Folding the handkerchief and putting it back into the sealed bag, he took out the letter and unfolded it..

Slightly messy handwriting appeared in front of him.

「Feel sorry.」

At the beginning of the letter, a sudden solitary apology appeared on the paper..

This did not soften Minami Yuki's heart at all, but made him complain even more.

Since you chose to leave at first, what letter did you send now? What are you apologizing for?？

「Last week, the employees of the electric power company came again, urging me to pay the long-overdue fees. My last money was spent to buy a blanket, and I was at the end of my rope..」

Minami Yuki frowned. He didn't expect that Asano Nao would fall into such a situation in his later years. In the previous sims, her savings were clearly enough for the two of them to use up their old age. Was she deceived by others? Or spent it randomly?？

He doesn't mind supporting Asano Nao materially, or in other words, he can't wait to use this as a reason to have Asano Nao appear in front of him.

The emotions of forty years ago have been buried in the corners of my heart by more than forty winter snows. The snowdrifts were thick and solid. But the moment I saw the handkerchief, the cold snow that had accumulated for most of my life was silent. The ground melted.

He looked down eagerly, wanting to see an address and contact information.

「I didn’t buy a new piece of clothing, I didn’t buy a new piece of furniture, and I stopped buying games, comics, and novels forty years ago. I resold my previous things, and resold the things my grandma left me. I didn’t dare to sell them piece by piece. You know what kind of torture this is to me. I asked a shop that collects second-hand goods to pack them up and sell them..

I have no money to pay the electricity bill. Three days ago, at the tail end of the cold wave, the electric power company cut off the electricity to my home..

I light a candle and write this letter to you on a table as cold as ice. My body is a piece of ice, and my temples are bulging and painful. It makes me write such a letter with such stiff muscles and such a slow brain. tortured.

But if I don't write to you, what other solution can I find? You were everything to me in the past, and you are everything to me now.！」

Minami Yuki turned up the collar of his coat. The cold wave had passed, but the temperature was still very low, especially at night when the wind was blowing. He couldn't imagine what kind of bone-chilling cold he had to endure without electricity or air conditioning. these days.

He wanted to grab Nao Asano by the collar and ask her why she didn't write to her earlier..

「I didn't want to disturb you, but you who are reading this letter may be full of anger, you may be indifferent, you may have forgotten me. Your anger burns in my heart, your indifference makes me sad, and your forgetfulness Denies the meaning of my existence.

But I have to write this letter. You are my last hope. I am floating in the sea of ​​suffering, and only you can hold me back..

I want to tell you everything. I will not explain what you already know. My physical condition does not allow me to write too much. Every time I write a paragraph, I have to stand up and rub my body to warm it up..

I still clearly remember that you came to the apartment behind my house at three o'clock in the afternoon on March 25th. You came alone, carrying a large gray travel bag and a silver large suitcase.

That day I went to the study to get comics and when I closed the curtains, I accidentally glanced out the window and saw your figure. You were standing behind my house and under my window. You were holding the suitcase with your left hand and resting your right hand on your forehead. Go out into the shade, look around, you're looking for your apartment.

I was attracted by the luggage you brought. You looked like you had just graduated from junior high school, but you were able to carry your luggage alone and come to this completely unfamiliar city..

I was finishing the newly released game and was in a state of idleness. I paid attention and always looked for you outside the window. Without even realizing it, I had been staying in front of the study window all day..

I was twenty years old at the time, and I had never cared so much about a boy, or observed him so carefully, until you passed by my window. I write this to let you understand that from the moment my love sprouted, it was completely yours.

My pen can't write my feelings for you, and my body doesn't allow me to say more. Is my handwriting very sloppy? I'm so sorry. I beg you to read it..

You may have noticed that I had a plan to leave you. That plan was made on an ordinary night. That day we went for a walk and met your band classmates. Their respect for you made my heart ache. I am convinced that being with you will only drag you into the abyss of a failed life..

After I left you, I went back to the house left by my late grandma, who came to take care of me. She worked hard all her life. First she lost her son and daughter-in-law, and then her only granddaughter became like this. She must have suffered a lot. But I can't care about her.

Grandma died thirty years ago, and a distant aunt from my family organized the funeral. This was someone she contacted.

I didn’t pay for it, nor did I attend it. The funeral was at grandma’s hometown and I couldn’t go there. Everything was kept simple for the funeral, using grandma’s meager savings. I couldn’t pay for it, so I did the math. I had enough money to cover the expenses. . I didn’t expect that something like that would happen later..

Yesterday, the hospital called me and told me that it was time to pay the next payment. I could no longer raise the money. All I had left was the house in Misaki City..

I can't touch that house. You might still go there, open the door with the key, lie on the sofa where you usually sit, touch the wooden table where we dine, and gaze at our happy bed. This is my comfort. Just thinking about this Maybe, my heart will tremble with joy.

But I have no money anymore. My grandma’s house in my hometown has been sold by my grandma, and all the money was given to me..

I have to pay the hospital fees. I can't delay. I can't let the hospital cut off treatment like the Electric Power Company did, cut off our daughter's treatment..

My beloved poor daughter, I feel sorry for her, her hair is like mine, her eyes are like mine, her shoulders are like mine, and her hands are like mine. It is because she looks like me so much that she is in this situation.！

Sorry, there are a few wrinkles on the letter paper. Please forgive me. I no longer have the strength to write on another piece of paper. I no longer have the courage to write again..

Go ahead and talk about our daughter, she is the piece of you that I stole from you..

All over her body, only her lips resemble yours, those lips that are as warm as the sun when you are happy. I touched it countless times, kissed it when my daughter was unaware, and wanted to touch you through it..

Sometimes, I feel jealous of her for having these lips. Just because she has these lips, she can be different from me..

I couldn't bear the fragility of my heart, couldn't bear the departure of my parents, couldn't bear the ridicule of my classmates, so I ran home in a daze. But she, with such a ridiculous mother who only wanted to ridicule her, still finished her studies strong..

I didn't name her Rikka. On the one hand, I felt ashamed to use this name, and on the other hand, I was afraid that when you pass her by, you would recognize her because of this familiar name. She is the only fragment of you I have left, even if it is You can't take her away from me either！

I did not use the surname Asano, but my grandma’s surname before marriage - Yiyuan..

Our daughter’s name is Yiyuan Miyu.

You may be familiar with this name. During the summer vacation twenty years ago, Meiyu returned home and told me that she was very happy in the college and that a professor named Nan took good care of her..

I froze on the spot, and Meiyu shook my shoulders, and I came back to my senses. I remained calm and asked her about the professor, and she happily told me everything..

I heard your name from her mouth, and my heart was in a mess. For so many years, I deliberately avoided your name. I never browsed the news in the music industry. I didn't expect that this name would appear in Meiyu's mouth..

Miyu has been a smart child since she was a child. When I was in school, her grades were only in the middle of the pack. She got first place every time. She must have gotten her extraordinary talent from you..

Selfishly and arbitrary, I wanted her to be more like you, so I enrolled her in music classes and asked her to join the wind instrument club. She was admitted to Misaki University of the Arts, a school like yours..

I didn't expect that you would teach in that school.

When Meiyu was young, every time I waited for her to come back by the window, and when I woke up from my dreams late at night, I was worried that Meiyu would follow the pull of her blood, meet you somewhere, hold your hand, and leave me. By your side. After all, she is the piece of you that I stole from you..

By the time Meiyu grew up, such an illusion had not reappeared for a long time. I didn't expect that it was lurking in reality and was about to give me a heavy blow at this moment.！

I saw admiration in Meiyu’s eyes. A daughter should admire her father. I believe that as long as you wave your hand, Meiyu will leave my side and stay with you.！

I tossed and turned, I had imagined such a scene, in those scenes, I forcefully took Meiyu away and ran to a corner you didn't know! This is true in all the scenarios I envisioned! Without exception！

But I hesitated at that time. I didn’t know if I should restrain Meiyu like this. Meiyu has been away from you for eighteen years. Destiny has made her meet you. Do I still want to break you up and let her go back to the eighteen years without her father? in life?？

In this hesitation, a rare beautiful delusion came into my mind. I thought that I could hide myself. As long as Meiyu didn't mention me, you might not guess that Meiyu was your daughter. In this way, Meiyu still belongs to me. , and I can get your news through Meiyu.

My heart started beating violently. I was energetic all night and didn't fall asleep until early in the morning..

It was my fault！

This is my punishment for imagining things I shouldn't.！

I woke up at noon and called Miyu, but there was no answer in the empty house. When I went to Miyu's room, my heart sank to the bottom..

Meiyu fell between the bed and the closet. She clutched her chest, her eyes were closed, and her lips were pale..

If I hadn't slept so hard in the morning, I could have heard Miu's movements and gotten our daughter to the hospital earlier.！

Meiyu has had heart problems since she was born. I can’t remember the name of the disease the doctor said. I have a severe headache now. I really want to use a hammer to break open my skull, but I can’t. I still have to finish writing this to you. letter.

Our poor daughter has been taking medicine since she was born. Her little body has been stuffed with a lot of white pills and colored pills. She has grown up enduring the pain of illness and medicine..

The savings my parents left me, the compensation the company gave me, the royalties for that book, most of my grandma’s savings and the money raised from selling her country house were all left to Miyu to buy medicine..

I had already calculated it! It was already calculated! I should have enough money left to take her medication until she's ninety！

It's not enough now, I've run out of money because I slept too hard that morning and didn't hear anything from Miu！

I called an ambulance and sent Meiyu to the hospital. I missed the best time to rescue her. Meiyu was still alive, but she could only spend the rest of her life under the care of the hospital..

I ran out of money.

This house is very dilapidated. The wind comes in from nowhere and beats my back. I can no longer feel the existence of my feet and my teeth are chattering..

I don't have money to pay the electricity bill. I don't have to pay the electricity bill, but my Meiyu, our daughter, needs to pay for medicine, nursing fees, hospitalization fees... I have no money anymore. How is the temperature in the hospital? Did Meiyu receive the blanket I purchased online?？

I am a useless person. I can't make any money. You taught me how to write books, but I can no longer write anything. If I have money, I can rent a house next to the hospital and ask a live-in nursing team to take care of Meiyu. , Miyu won’t have to stay in the hospital！

I wrote to you, pleading with you, please take care of Miyu, please pay the hospital bills, I wrote the hospital information at the bottom..

If you can, please hide it from Kazumi. I'm sorry for her. She doesn't know anything about Miyu..

I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for Miyu, I'm sorry for grandma, I'm sorry for Kazumi……

When you get this letter, I will definitely be dead in the corner of the room. This dead woman begs you to save your daughter..」