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I Became God of War's Youngest Disciple - Episode 294

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What did it do to end up like this??

Ramon suddenly became curious..

So, how did he, who was just a goblin, end up making his way through the white snow?.

No one will remember their first memory clearly..

But, you can tell what your oldest memories are..

Disgusting sewer smell, maggots, and the annoying squeak of gutters... And it was hot. No, was it hot? I do not know.

Anyway, it's clear that he wasn't in his right mind..

A rotten city, a group of goblins living in the sewers - Ramon was born into that group, but ever since then, he has always had doubts..

Why can they drink Chinese water? Isn’t it dirty to just eat a rat? When a conflict arises, why do you always want to fight to resolve it? Wouldn’t it be okay to give in to each other and find a compromise?.

I was beaten up for expressing such an opinion. If he hadn't run away he might have been beaten to death..

Ramon, who was kicked out of the group, thought.

The place where I was born and raised was not the place I wanted to be..

Then where will I be??

Then one day, Ramon, who was covered in scars, got his first glimpse of the world beyond the sewer cover..

“Buy some fruit! The seasonal apples are amazing.!”

“The flowers are very pretty! If you buy it now, you will get three flowers for the price of one.!”

“how much is this?”

“for a moment! If you don't want to buy it, don't touch it.!”

“…….”

Even though I didn't even understand the language.

Ramon, who was born as a monster, was moved by the sight. He was unable to digest the torrent of emotions and was swept away with them..

Dressed up, walking down the street with graceful movements, there was no conflict even though there were so many people gathered around..

Even in the simple act of taking a bite of an apple, you could feel their dignity as intelligent beings..

Ramon instinctively realized.

I was on that side, not this side..

Ramon wanted to get out of this smelly gutter and go to them right now..

couldn't do that.

When I looked down at my outfit, my face turned red..

That was Ramon's first feeling of shame..

‘I need to wear something.’

Before even knowing the word clothing, Ramon realized the first element of food, clothing, and shelter..

One by one, they donned human clothing as they wandered through a garbage dump near the city..

It seems like it took quite a long time.

He found clothes that fit, learned the language by reading discarded books, and compared his pronunciation with his own by peeking out from the sewer..

1years, or more.

After completing his preparations, Ramon went to the city with a trembling heart..

It's a scene I've seen over and over again over the sewer cover, with the expectation that I can finally become one of them..

“Apology, ha, me, Jusei…….”

He spoke in clumsy but clear language and held out a precious silver coin.-.

Of course, Ramon was beaten to death again..

A violence more terrible than anything he had once experienced from his own people struck his whole body..

It was not an instinctive violence to eliminate competitors..

malice, hatred, disgust.

Those gazes were engraved on Ramon much more severely than the physical pain..

ran away again.

And then I thought.

Why can't I be like them??

What is the difference between me and them?.

On a day with heavy rain, I ran and ended up in a garbage dump again..

Ramon found a broken mirror there..

…Wearing a bug-ridden shirt, torn pants, shoes with the soles off, creaky glasses, and a worn-out coat.…….

I saw a monster.

“Hehehe…….”

I laughed.

I realized this with the first sculpture I made in my life..

A monster is a monster no matter how well you imitate it..

But if neither above ground nor underground are places to belong, then where should I belong??

I couldn't figure it out.

From then on, the dumpster became Ramon's home. I lived my life eating food waste, avoiding collisions with other beings as much as possible..

However, I could not give up my interest in the broken clothes, tools, books, and toys that humans sometimes throw away..

Ramon's head flew high..

I completely learned the language by reading books alone. Even speaking became possible. Fluent pronunciation was no longer any different from that of a human..

What does it mean?.

I don't even have anyone to talk to.

…It was like that for a few years..

One day, I saw a kid being beaten by another kid near the garbage dump..

‘Ramon was also aware of the concept of 'play', but their violence was outside of that category even in Ramon's eyes..

Beating someone so hard that blood flows from their nose and mouth is not called play..

When Ramon saw that scene, he remembered his past when he was beaten by his own people..

“Kieeeeek!”

“Wow!”

“It's a monster.!”

There was no need to fight.

Just by showing up, all the kids ran away..

Ramon realized that he had committed an irrational act..

Now that I've found out that there's a monster living in the dump, I might have to leave this place..

Why on earth did I do such a stupid thing??

At that time, the boy who had fallen staggered to his feet and made eye contact with Ramon..

Ramon instinctively tensed and bared his teeth..

It growled as if imitating a wild beast..

The boy trembled, but that was all..

“Thank you…….”

Eventually, he bowed his head and left the place..

“…….”

And an indescribable wave rose in Ramon's heart..

My heart sank, my vision became blurry, and something warm ran down my jawline..

“Ah, ah…….”

That's how Ramon's life finally began..

Since then, I have lived in a garbage dump and helped many people..

A child who has lost his way, an old man with a sprained back, a woman who has lost something precious.…….

Instead of revealing himself openly, he helped them secretly. He didn't have the confidence to face it yet..

That was it except for one person..

“Ramon! You were here!”

He was the boy I first saved..

It was the boy who gave Ramon his name, and he said his name was Tom..

“Today I brought bread from Aunt Rosa’s house! There's, uh, something in it, and it's a little cold, but it'll suit your taste.!”

Ramon nodded after taking a bite..

“It's apple jam. It's delicious.”

“right?”

“hmm. Thank you again today.”

“What, between us.”

Ramon thought that this kind of life was not bad. The dump site was a barren and smelly place for humans to live, but it was a pretty good place for goblins..

There was a roof to protect us from the wind and rain, and even though it was food waste, we were able to fill our bellies. It was quite fun to find treasure among all kinds of junk..

And the conversations with this little friend who came every now and then were quite special to Ramon..

However, the peace did not last long..

“Well, there really was a goblin.?”

“oh my god… … ! I need to kill him right now!”

One day, several city residents armed with weapons came and chased Ramon out..

Ramon was kicked out of the garbage dump like that..

I found out later that it was true, but the cause was Tom, a boy who often came to the garbage dump to play..

To be exact, the boy's parents..

The mother, who became suspicious because it gave off a foul smell of garbage every time she went out, followed him and caught a glimpse of her son talking to a goblin..

Ramon left the dump, but strangely enough, he felt calm..

Is it because it is a place that cannot be called home at all??

So what is home?.

From what I read in the dictionary, it said it was a place to eat and sleep. In other words, it will be a nest..

However, Ramon did not feel that the dump was his home. A shelter where a wanderer stayed for a while, that's exactly the impression..

Then, the sewer filled with my fellow countrymen is?

Was that my home??

Isn’t it the place where I was born and raised?.

‘no.’

It wasn't my home either..

And it occurred to Ramon that he probably wouldn't have a home until he died..

Although he left the dump, Ramon had no choice but to search through the trash again to survive..

Then, I guess I ate something wrong, and at some point, my condition deteriorated rapidly..

My vision became blurry and my breathing became difficult. Her five organs and six organs seemed to be twisted..

Even then, I felt hungry..

Ramon lost consciousness while trying to take a bite of stale bread..

In my clouded consciousness, this thought occurred to me..

…Wouldn’t it be easier to just die like this??

* * *

When I opened my eyes again, Ramon was lying on a bed in a shabby house..

“hello goblin.”

“…….”

And then I met Lanfero..

This young man, wearing a sloppy coat, had a body that was elongated rather than tall, and was sipping a teacup in a very awkward posture that did not match his appearance..

“You're the talking goblin in the dump, right??”

“…….”

“That's strange. I heard he can talk.”

“…I know how to do it.”

“oh. That's a cool pronunciation. You must have practiced quite a bit?”

“What do you have to do with me? I have no money and nothing to give you.”

“this. I'm so immersed in the dark side of civilized society..”

Lanfero, who was laughing heartily, said.

“I didn't ask for anything in return..”

“Is that possible?.”

“What is that reaction??”

“Humans don't give anything unless you pay for it, right? I can't even eat a piece of bread if I don't have money..”

“hmm… You're not wrong..”

“And sorry to the person who saved me, but you didn't have to save me..”

“what?”

“I thought that dying like that wasn't that bad..”

“That's not it.”

Ramon raised his head at the unexpectedly firm voice..

“Don't give up your life easily. Each person has their own role. It's not your job to die rummaging through trash cans, right??”

“…….”

“And that's it. There are a lot of idiots in the world who do good deeds without asking for anything in return. I think you qualify too..”

“yes?”

Lanfero's smile gradually faded, and his ruby ​​eyes looked at Ramon..

“The reason I saved you was because I received a favor from the city residents. Old lady Olaire said she was worried because she couldn't see you, who had been helping her carry her luggage. Lambert sometimes entrusts you with repairing crawfish, right? When Amy ran away from home, we gave her food..”

“…….”

“And he said he saved a kid named Tom from the first time they met. Did you expect anything in return from that child back then??”

Since Ramon didn't answer, Lanfero grinned mischievously again..

“but what is your name?”

That's how life began.

I got to know Lanfero, I got to know Araksad, I got to know Corrupted..

It was quite eventful..

It was a mind-boggling time..

Ramon did his best to somehow run this clan as a clan among clan members who had no sense of economics..

“Hmm…….”

Ramon stopped walking..

It's like that day.

The day I met Lanfero.

Just like when I was unconscious, my head was pounding, and I had a fever, I saw an old knife through my blurry vision..

There was a blizzard so strong that even visibility was unclear, but because I had a compass, I was able to know the direction..

I asked Ymir directly for directions..

When he playfully touched Mjolnir, secretly so that Luan wouldn't hear..

It was half a gamble, but it paid off..

Ymir only gave directions to Ramon..

After that, I took sleeping pills in the stubborn boy's car..

It wasn't a very effective sleeping pill..

There are times during your journey when you have to force yourself to close your eyes, so prepare a little something for those times..

But I think it was enough to put a tired Luan to sleep for a while..

‘Master Luan must live..’

Simply in this ice cave… I don't mean that.

Has an eye for people.

The boy with that mysterious charm will grow into a bigger figure in the future and become an indispensable figure not only for Corrupted but also for Heros..

So Ramon's role today is to pave the way..

hot.

I grabbed the hilt of the knife and pulled..

However, the ice had hardened and was not easily removed..

Ramon laughed..

They said it was a sword that even a child could easily draw. Obviously, your physical strength right now is worse than that of a child..

‘A guy like me is like this even at the end.…….’

To the subject who left so beautifully and deceived.

- I know that? To me, he looks like a person who desperately wants to die. I just asked... Do I look like a small, weak goblin?…….

“…….”

- I never once thought that way after meeting my senior. Rather, isn’t it a senior who thinks of himself that way??

It's as they say.

- I don't think I can help you through normal means, so I thought I would sacrifice my life to help with this mission.?

He was a rough, unruly, sometimes sly boy who reacted emotionally to most things, but there were rare moments when he showed a sharp side..

I saw it through very accurately..

Ramon always had self-deprecating thoughts..

Compared to other clan members, he had an inferiority complex as he only had office skills at best..

So is this the price??

Did he end up like that because he disparaged himself as a small, weak goblin?.

Is it my last chance to die without being able to hold a sword that even a child can wield, and without being able to be of any help to my colleagues?.

‘…no!’

I gritted my teeth.

That can't be possible..

The past years and my identity as a member of the Corrupted clan did not allow for such an ugly end..

me too…….

Because I, too, am a hero.……!

Clumping!

As I pushed to the limit, my frozen fingers seemed to fall off..

In fact, a few pieces fell off..

It didn't matter.

Even the blood vessels were frozen, so no blood came out and there was no pain..

Ramon held the hilt of the sword with bloodshot eyes..

“Wow……!”

Echoes ring through the snowstorm.

the pole, the pole……!

Even though I was no hero.

Although he was not the owner of Mjolnir, the relic of the giants,.

Wow-!

Here,

I was able to pull out an old knife for my comrade..

Ramon saw the knife drawn..

Joy filled the half-opened eyes..

‘It was today…….’

Ramon smiled faintly..

‘Brother Lanferro, it was today..’

This moment today, paving the way for a young hero who can protect the world in the disguise of this colossal giant..

‘That is… my role…….’

It's a wonderful role that is too much for a goblin who fills his stomach with food waste and sleeps in the gutter, and it's the end..

‘but…….’

If there's anything I regret, it's that I wasn't able to introduce the young hero to another family..

I didn't want to give up that role to anyone..

…Well, if it’s this much of a disappointment, it’s not that bad..

Because no one can get everything they want..

Before I knew it, I couldn't feel the cold, and Ramon's body, which had drawn his sword, slowly collapsed..

Slowly both eyelids close.

Whioooooo…….

The swirling snowstorm gradually stopped, and gentle snowflakes fell from the sky..

Snowflakes honored the resting place of the great green-skinned hero and covered his body with warmth..

goblin ramon.

C-rank hero belonging to Corrupted.

Age 17.

At the end of the giant's stomach, winter closes.