The Thousand-Slayer Swords Association-Episode 192
EP.192 Chapter 19 - Cheonghae, rich man (12)
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“Didn't you say you can't use your legs??”
“…It's something you have to endure..”
Gajura became half-crippled, and Zhuge Shan smiled bitterly..
How should I look at you?.
The worries I had been thinking about the whole time were now moving towards answers in a blurry form..
Before you know it, you’re in front of the main house’s door..
“Good work.”
“yes.”
The fight took a step backwards and moved away..
Zhuge Shan looked at the closed door for a moment..
Whenever I hesitated at the door like this, Zhuge Byeok said,.
-Come in.
Saying that indifferently.
But there is no such thing anymore.
The saying that he died as a warrior really resonates with me..
Now Zhuge Byeo will be a common citizen who can't even feel the spirit..
‘Mom, I knocked on the door first..’
I was sure it would never happen in my life, but it ended up like this..
I said to myself the words that would not be conveyed..
And then I start laughing again..
Zhuge Shan said.
“Head of house, can I come in?.”
After speaking, as always, only after counting to three did Zhuge Bai respond..
-Come in.
My voice was weakened..
Zhuge Shan gritted his teeth and opened the door..
“Did you come?.”
What you can see is Zhuge Byeok sitting on the bed..
The hair has faded to gray and the skin is flaky and dry..
Even though it is the downfall of an enemy who has always existed only as a wall, it is something we do not want to see..
“sit down.”
“…There really is nothing to see..”
Zhuge Shan stood and asked.
“why did you do that?”
Zhuge Mountain straightened his back, taking in the calm presence of Zhuge Wall with his whole body..
Then Zhuge Byeok said:.
“You're asking the obvious.”
“It's natural.”
“Isn’t it a father’s job to protect his son?.”
I flinched, Zhuge Shan’s fingertips trembled..
“…Are you saying now??”
“I thought I should do it now.”
“Why??”
“Because I don’t want to repeat the same regret twice.”
Zhuge Byeok was still expressionless..
The tone was also flat as always..
That look, as if he was stating an extremely obvious fact, disturbed Zhugeshan's insides..
“…What kind of change of heart is this?.”
Are you feeling bad? No, it's the opposite..
I am filled with indescribable emotions as Zhuge Byeo finally tells me the truth..
Still, I asked because I had some anxiety..
Isn't that the image he created to make himself the head of the family?.
Those worries come to mind..
Zhuge Byeok seems to have understood the sign..
“Being dishonest is a sin. To his children and his wife.”
As he spoke, the corners of Zhuge Byeok's mouth began to pull up..
It's really awkward to force a smile..
And the bitterness that lies within it is truly regrettable..
Zhuge Shan clenched his fists..
There were a lot of words I wanted to spit out..
It's all your fault, you ruined it all so much.
You caused me and my mother so much trouble..
It's nice to be an asshole and look good.
But nothing comes out.
It must be because of the smile that Zhuge Byeok made all winter..
What should I do about this?.
What comes to mind along with my worries are Mok Riwon’s words from last night..
-In my opinion, the person closest to the charlatan in the Longfeng Troupe is my older brother Zhuge..
What is a charlatan?.
If you are a charlatan, what should you say here?.
Zhuge Shan closed his eyes..
Zhuge Byeok said.
“I will not ask for forgiveness. I'll just atone as best as I can..”
“what is that?”
“It won't be a bad thing for you.”
Zhuge Mountain pondered Zhuge Byeok’s words..
The unsteadiness disperses..
To that, he blurted out the words..
“You gave birth to me alone.”
“My sins are so deep that you were born that way.”
“You raised me very lonely..”
“My shortcomings have raised you so much.”
“You want to leave me alone.”
“My vices will make you like that.”
Seeing him obediently admit all his mistakes, Zhuge Shan finally opened his eyes..
Everyone said he looked like a weasel, but his impression was so droopy right now..
“Yes, the head of the family made it that way. But… I wonder what to do with them.”
I wonder what to do with what has already become like this..
“Because of this fate, I feel like I will be lonely..”
“….”
“It will become a wind that will not be able to take root anywhere throughout its life..”
As soon as possible.
“I will live the life of a guest..”
I will live my whole life as a guest..
When I say that, Zhuge Byeok's expression becomes very sad..
Zhugeshan pursed his lips, closed them again, and pondered his words..
This is why I feel frustrated trying to say something really difficult..
Since he had to say something, Zhuge Shan did not hesitate any longer..
“If you're going to live as a guest, that is..”
If only that kind of life were possible.
“I want to become a loyal guest among guests..”
As I spoke, Zhuge Byeok's eyes began to open wide..
“…live.”
“Because that's what my mother told me. You could become a great charlatan.”
This may have been just a word of encouragement to a child who loves the Battle of the Strongest and the Famous Heroes..
It may be a word that pushes the back of a child who is trying to run through the wide midfield..
However, Zhuge Shan wanted to believe what he said..
“I hope that no child will live with the same sadness as me..”
I felt like I could go further if I did that, so I wanted to do that..
“Hani is the head of the family.”
“….”
“There is something you must do to become my ally..”
Zhuge Mountain looked directly at Zhuge Wall..
Zhuge Byeok also had a serious expression on his face and was looking at Zhuge Mountain..
A heavy silence falls.
Only when the smell of medicine filled the room filled Jegalsan's nose did he break the silence..
“My brother said so.”
Grinning and raising the corners of your mouth.
“A charlatan is a person who takes the most difficult path..”
A look of surprise appears on Zhuge Byeok's face..
Well, it was so amazing to see Zhuge Byeok's expression so rich, so Zhuge Shan smiled and said.
“So I'm going to try the hard thing.”
Zhuge Shan approached Zhuge Byeok and knelt down..
I said to Zhuge Byeok, who was still shocked and frozen..
“I want to forgive you. father.”
We held together our weakened hands..
My hands were so dry that my bones were bulging, and it made my heart ache..
“…I.”
Zhuge Byeok stutters..
“Am I truly a person who can be forgiven??”
I knew it wasn't just something I was saying..
This is why a single tear flows down Zhuge Byeok's cracked cheek as if there was a drought, revealing his regret..
“Am I worthy of asking for your forgiveness? I am a person who cannot do that..”
He is a man who committed sins because he was dishonest and cowardly..
This is a man who only hurt himself and made him lonely..
However, it was clear that what he had was love, so Zhuge Shan tried to cover up the matter..
“It must be difficult right now. It will take me a very long time to forgive you.”
How can you forget an old grudge with just a word?.
Are humans really that simple?.
However, there is one reason why I have to say this..
“So please live until then. If the day comes that I completely forgive you, please forgive me again that day. i hope that.”
Because I want to see him again the day he shows forgiveness instead of hatred, and smiles instead of frowns..
“…Take a break.”
Zhuge Shan slowly got up from his seat..
Then he bowed his head and turned around to leave..
Behind Zhugeshan's departing back, the faint sobs of a weakened man were scattered..
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“Zhuge brother.”
When I left the main house, Mokriwon was welcoming me..
Zhuge Shan said with an awkward smile, still in a dazed state of mind..
“neck aww.”
“I've been there?”
“I've been there.”
Did I do well?.
Did I make the right choice?.
Zhugeshan couldn't figure it out at all, so he asked Mo Liwon, feeling like he was grasping at straws..
“neck aww.”
“speak.”
“Can I become a charlatan??”
Could this be someone who can forgive something so difficult??
When asked, Mokriwon smiled brightly and answered.
“I didn't tell you!”
I gave the answer I desperately wanted to hear to Zhuge Shan..
“Brother Zhuge is already the greatest charlatan among the later leaders I know.!”
Only then was Zhuge Shan able to smile openly..
He was finally able to break free from the shackles that had bound him all his life..
“That's a good thing!”
Zhuge Shan moved forward.
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