The Thousand-Slayer Swords Association-Episode 184
EP.184 Chapter 19 - Cheonghae, rich man (4)
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Zhuge Shan did not love Zhuge Bye..
If you were to consider all the feelings you had for him, the two of you had a relationship that was at best a level of resentment..
Therefore, Zhuge Shan never once approached Zhuge Byeok first..
If he didn't talk to me, I didn't talk to him first, and when he asked me something, I answered half-heartedly and just acted like a stranger..
For the first time, Zhuge Shan went to see him upon hearing the news of Zhuge Byeok's second marriage..
“It's not possible!”
He sits in his office as always..
He was looking at work as always and had an indifferent face as always..
Zhuge Shan hated that so much..
I hated the composure he showed, as if his second marriage was nothing..
“I have a mother, but I'm getting married again! I absolutely cannot allow it! As the Grand Duke of the Zhuge family, I will be the first to oppose it.!”
“opposition is not permitted.”
“what is that…!”
“The other person is the only daughter of a famous family in Hubei. There are benefits to be gained from this marriage, so don't be emotional..”
“emotion? Did you say emotionally??!”
How can you say that?.
Isn’t marriage a lifelong promise of love for each other?.
It's something that can be taken lightly just for the sake of profit..
“mother loves you!”
“know.”
“If you know, you shouldn't do it! Even if you can't take care of your mother, you shouldn't push her into a corner any further.!”
“Still, it has to be done..”
“All you have to do is take care of your mother!!!”
Zhuge Mountain shouted as if his throat were torn apart..
I hoped he would understand my feelings at least a little bit..
But maybe that was too big a wind?.
“…go back.”
Zhuge Byeok said this in an indifferent tone and turned his attention to the text..
It must have been from then on..
The feeling of resentment within Zhuge Mountain changed into sticky hatred..
“live.”
“mother.”
“San, don’t do that..”
Zhuge Mountain cried..
It was so pitiful that his mother couldn't shed tears even though she was so sad, so she cried her share..
But it wasn't just crying..
He tried to persuade the elders and gain the support of the Sega warriors..
At the age of only 8, Zhuge Shan lived as a grand princess for his mother at a time when he should have been a child, wondering if he would ever see his mother again..
“The Archduke seems to have changed..”
“Anyway, since he set his sights on martial arts, his achievements are beyond words.!”
“Isn’t this the matriarch’s legitimate child? This probably means that the blood of the Zhuge family runs deep in the Grand Duke.!”
“okay! What is the Emperor of the Nangong family? The future of the Zhuge family will be just as bright.!”
There were voices of praise and looks of anticipation..
However, Zhuge Shan was not happy about them..
All that Zhuge Shan needed was their support..
Was it too big of a dream to even hope for one support?.
“I heard that my second wife gave birth to a son..”
“Then the succession structure is….”
“well.”
‘The world has abandoned me.’
Zhuge Shan fell into grief that day..
No matter how hard she tries, her position as a mother continues to get smaller and smaller..
“Sana, this mother is okay..”
What does it mean to be okay?.
Why are you raising the corners of your mouth when you have such sad eyes?.
Zhuge Shan must have felt a sinking feeling inside..
So 9-year-old Zhuge Shan said:.
“Mother, I am on your side. Please hold on just a little longer. I, I will become the head of the family and punish those who dishonor my mother..”
“Then I guess we’ll just have to trust Sani..”
“It's natural!”
It's too early to give up.
Zhuge Shan could not fall, even for the sake of his mother..
Fortunately, time was on Zhuge Shan's side..
All you have to do is secure your position as archduke before your half-brother even takes off the thousand-character sentence..
And you can inherit the position of head of the family..
Zhuge Mountain rose again with the determination not to fall no matter what adversity was presented before his eyes..
So at the age of 15, I studied Jihak.).
Zhuge Shan solidified his position by becoming a first-class military man..
The succession structure was organized, and he also shined as a military commander..
Zhuge Shan ran to his mother..
Now that everything has been sorted out, my mother, who has gone through all sorts of hardships, will now have only things to smile about..
You suffered so much that you were lying in a hospital bed for a day or two..
Your mother will be overjoyed when she hears this news..
With that in mind, Zhuge Shan entered the main house and realized one thing..
“mother! Don't worry anymore!”
That the world is not on your side.
“…mother?”
It's the day I solidified my position as successor..
This is a day when, among peers, he has reached a level that no one except Namgung Jincheon can dare to follow..
And it's a month before the first Yongbong branch meeting in my life..
“…mother.”
Zhuge Shan had to face his cold, dead mother..
In a cruel way.
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Why did this happen?.
Zhuge Mountain wanted to find the reason..
For about a year, Zhuge Shan became a ruiner and destroyed everything he had built up with his own hands, and investigated the world by himself..
Only at the end did he learn that his mother's cause of death was poisoning, and that the culprit was the family head's second wife..
Zhuge Mountain found Zhuge Wall.
“Did you know?”
he was still the same.
I was still indifferent to everything, just like I remembered when I was young..
“Did you know why your mother died??”
I prayed in my heart.
Even though I still hated him, even though I hated Zhuge Biye so much, I hoped the answer would be different..
I didn't know either. sorry. I will punish my second wife..
I hoped those words would come out of Zhuge Byeok's mouth..
However, Zhuge Byeo was not a man who lived up to such expectations..
“then.”
Zhuge Byeo said indifferently.
“So what to do?.”
Do you know what it feels like when the world falls apart?.
If there was anyone who knew that feeling, Zhuge Mountain would ask..
How lonely your life has been.
Do you know a life in which even the smallest amount of faith is not reciprocated?.
Do you know how it feels to have a heart that hates others?.
It was a strange thing..
The moment he heard Zhuge Byeok's answer, Zhuge Shan felt his once very hot head cooling down..
While everything in front of me was fading to gray and white, I felt that only Zhuge Byeok was becoming clearer..
How could we not know that this is a deformed phenomenon?.
Is it just a change in emotions that makes my heart cool the moment I raise my head and make eye contact with Zhuge Byeok?.
Insulating property).
The more you lose and become lonely, the brighter the star shines.
On that day, Zhuge Mountain realized that there was a star dwelling in me..
“I resent you so much. To the point where I want to kill myself.”
“….”
“So I will live for it. If you want to stop it, just stop it. If you're afraid of the future, try killing yourself..”
I finally managed to suppress the feelings that I didn't want to even talk about..
“If you can't do it, I'll keep going. Until the moment I have the power to kill you.”
That's how I left my family behind..
An enemy who must be avenged with all his heart..
For Zhuge Mountain, the Zhuge family became those people..
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This is the moment before the main base of the demons..
After sending off Mu Liwon, Zhuge Shan was lying down on a tree and taking a short sleep..
The expression was very frowned upon..
It was because of something from the past that I had been dreaming about ever since I started moving with Jegal Sega..
“live.”
Zhuge San's eyes opened at the sound of that voice..
Zhuge Shan rolled his eyes and looked down..
There was a wall.
As always, he looks up at himself with a face full of indifference..
‘Am I still dreaming?.’
When I was being bullied in a dream, I opened my eyes and saw that face..
A thought occurred to me, how could even the sky be so indifferent?.
“Come down.”
“Yes, yes. Your neck must be stiff when you look up..”
Zhuge Mountain came down from the tree with a light gesture and faced Zhuge Wall..
He crossed his legs and added sarcasm to his expression..
Does that not even bother you?.
Zhuge Byeok spoke in a feminine manner with his back turned..
“There will be a battle soon.”
“I know.”
“There will be a demon of transcendence. avoid that place.”
“Are you even worried about me??”
“There is no reason to change people’s names in vain..”
Zhuge Mountain’s teeth clenched..
The rebellious look in his eyes had deepened..
“If I want to fight the transcendent demon?”
“I'm going to die like a dog.”
“Does it relate to you? Succession? Doesn’t that handsome concubine have a son?.”
“it's your mother.”
“my mother―!!!”
Zhuge Shan shouted loudly and immediately stopped talking..
I didn't want to show my anger..
This was the reason why I wondered if even this feeling was something to be ridiculed by Zhuge Byeok..
While gritting his teeth and glaring at Zhuge Bai, Zhuge Shan said:.
“…Don't say the word mother in front of me.”
“Okay, then I'll give you another reason..”
Zhuge Wall turned around.
It was as if he was about to leave..
“Didn’t you say you were going to aim for my neck? Make your life count.”
With those words, Zhuge Bai returned to the barracks..
For quite some time since then, Zhuge Shan has been raising his hatred by looking at her back..
It was clearly being replaced by Zhuge Mountain's air power..
See next episode
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