My girlfriend is so good to me - Episode 2
Ep. 2
"yes. Rehabilitation of the leg─recovery...what is not possible─"
I couldn't hear the doctor who was talking to my parents properly. She didn't feel any immediate pain, perhaps because of the anesthesia or the painkillers. Still, it was impossible to get up on my own right away..
In the hand mirror that I had to urge several times to get from my brother, who was usually very picky, I saw my face wrapped in a yellow bandage that seemed to have oozed pus..
"......"
It was a stupid thought, but I thought I was being punished for living an easy life..
It was because of my harmonious family and my good looks that I found my life so easy and comfortable. But now the smiles on my family's faces had disappeared, and half of my face, which had been praised for being so pretty, was crushed. Even walking alone was impossible..
everything is ruined.
I put down the mirror from my weakened hands and stared blankly out the window. In the meantime, the doctor, my parents, and my brother told me various things, but I didn't listen to anything..
How much time has passed.
When the sunlight was so strong that it was difficult to look outside.
"...It's Heena."
Yeonhu has come.
My brother probably contacted me. We've seen each other a few times and exchanged contact information..
But, right after I opened my eyes, I missed you so much..
I couldn't turn my head now..
After we started dating, he told me that other than my face, he liked other aspects of me, such as my simple personality and playfulness, and that he had improved. But the fundamental reason he liked me was because I was pretty..
So I was afraid.
Having Yeonhu face what I am now, rather than myself,.
With such feelings, I cannot bear to see him and am shedding tears silently..
"It hurt... a lot.?"
I couldn't stand it any longer as he carefully hugged me and asked me that question..
"Black...it hurts...my...legs...can't move...sigh...not even my face......"
In that voice.
In that warmth.
Even though I was so upset and sobbing, I couldn't turn my head, and Yeonhu didn't force himself to look at my face..
But I just hugged him.
"are you okay. Everything will get better. I heard a little bit about it earlier, and they said that if you rehabilitate your legs, you can move them sufficiently..
So don't worry. I'll continue to be by your side."
That says so...
I like it more than love.
My boyfriend felt more comfortable than excited..
Rather than saying anything more, Yeonhu just quietly hugs me..
I was so grateful..
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The months of rehabilitation that followed were not easy..
My body and legs didn't move as much as I expected, and the pain in my mind was greater than the pain in my body right away..
Friends I have been close with, seniors and juniors at university, etc. After visiting the hospital once in a while, showing concern, and leaving the hospital room with a smile,.
Since then, the number of people I have been able to see again can be counted on one hand..
My phone, which was always full of new messages regardless of whether I had work or not, was surprisingly quiet. Except for a few really close friends and Yeonhu, all contact disappeared in an instant..
I didn't think it was wrong..
We haven't really interacted very deeply, but it's really amazing that they keep in touch with us on a regular basis..
but.
The point in time when contact was cut off was mostly right after visiting the hospital..
It was enough to shake my heart..
Know.
The reason people became friends with me was usually because of my pretty face. It's not that I abused it, and it's not wrong to approach it that way..
I took advantage of myself and became friendly with people easily. Because the people I became friends with so easily left so easily..
Look at my distorted half face.
Even though I admit it.
Even though I knew it in my head, I was sad..
So much so that I want to die right now.
Still, if there's a reason I can't die, it's that my family is by my side and smiles in front of me no matter what..
and.
"Yo! Heena! Oppa is here!"
"What kind of oppa are you? I did well in class?"
"uh. It was fucking hilarious. The real task has arrived..."
It was thanks to Yeonhu who stopped by here every day, even for just one minute..
It's been a few months since the accident happened and we were able to visit each other again. During those few months, Yeonhu came to visit me every day..
As a second year student, I entered a university that was better than my abilities, so classes were difficult and I was busy in many ways..
They kept coming..
Although I was always faced with the hideously distorted half of my face, which I had somehow managed to hide at first, but now reveals with resignation..
"Oh. Do you remember Jeong Yunseong? He came too. I decided to have dinner later."
"your high school classmate? "
"Oh right. I waited outside and parked for a moment.."
"Come in together."
"If you don't see that guy often, you're shy... You felt uncomfortable when you first saw him."
"Ah...you did, right? I remember she asked me to play with her and she ran away."
I opened my mouth eagerly, not wanting to miss a single word of the trivial conversations we had every day..
I want to remember even a little more the voice of my grateful boyfriend who comes to visit me even at the end of visiting hours like now..
Rehabilitation exercises that I did all day without making any progress.
A shaken mentality due to people disappearing in an instant.
I was able to forget everything the moment Yeonhu came..
"Oh, I came too late today."
"it's okay. Thanks for coming... go now. I'll wait for you my friend."
"Alright. You said there was rehabilitation tomorrow morning, right? I'll come a little early tomorrow."
He said it would be difficult to come every day, so I didn’t have to come for just one day. I wanted to say that, but I couldn't open my mouth..
Because it was salvation.
As always, Yeonhu’s bright smile that caught my eye even before we started dating..
It was a treasure of mine that I couldn't live without anymore..
If I don't see you even for a day, I might cry..
"huh. See you tomorrow."
"I'll go~"
The sound of footsteps slowly moving away.
I looked at the door of the hospital room where Yeonhu left for a moment and then slowly rolled the wheels of the wheelchair..
It would be better to lock yourself in the bathroom when you are in a wheelchair. In my current physical condition, even getting up and down on the bed was a great exercise..
-Squeak
As I was slowly turning the wheel and heading to the bathroom, pondering my conversation with Yeonhu, I heard a voice coming from a place not far away, right in front of the reporter's corner..
Today, I didn't hear a visitor coming to a nearby hospital room, and it was very late. So, I thought maybe Yeonhu had stopped by the bathroom for a moment and hadn't left yet, so I was quietly approaching him..
"But... are you going to continue dating her??"
I stopped moving when I realized that the voice I was hearing now was the voice of the friend Yeonhu had mentioned, a voice that remained very vague in my memory..
"Well, heena?"
"uh."
"Of course dude"
"It doesn't matter if you like it... but he said there was almost no chance for him. leg."
"...after. It looks a bit difficult."
-flinch
knew.
It's been a few months since I started rehabilitation..
There is still no improvement, but I didn't believe it would get better in the future..
just. Because I had to show that I didn’t give up hope so that my family and Yeonhu would be happy..
So I was just doing it mechanically..
However, that was a minor detail. The question Yeonhu's friend asked was a topic that had been bothering her all the time she couldn't see Yeonhu..
What does Yeonhoo think of me now?.
I was so curious and afraid.
if.
Even if.
If you leave me behind.
Because you will never be able to catch it. Even if it's because I'm grateful. Even if I'm sorry.
"Well... why am I saying this here, but is it really okay? If we keep seeing each other, it will be more difficult in the future...."
"hmm..."
There was no word for a moment.
Cold sweat flows from my hands. Unlike me, who feels nauseous due to sudden tension,.
Yeonhu continued speaking cheerfully as always..
"I listened to you and thought about it for a while.."
"however?"
"We won't break up."
"why?"
Me too, I’m curious too.
Why on earth?
Yeonhu’s answer to that was very clear..
"It's just... I just like it.."
"Sometimes Heena has a hard time."
"Rehabilitation doesn't go as planned... There's this and that.."
"Maybe if I ask you to break up, you might smile and say yes.."
"Honestly... Heena didn't like me as much as I liked her.."
"Plus, it seemed like he was a little sorry that I came to visit him every day.."
"But none of that matters."
"He didn't tell me to break up.."
"I just won't break up with her because I like her, and I keep coming because I miss my girlfriend.."
"It's not a sense of duty or sympathy.."
"Actually, I don't think I'm that good of a person, and at first I thought I was like that too. I thought my heart would cool down like those kids who secretly gossip about Heena at school.."
"It wasn't like that.."
"I miss you every day, and I feel good after seeing you."
"Like when we first started dating."
"I just think I like it so much"
Although it was really an insignificant reason, it was something that was deeply engraved in my heart more than anything else..
'Because I like it'
I covered my mouth to prevent sobs from escaping, and sobbed..
As Yeonhu said, I have a crush on her, but I didn't start dating because I liked her that much..
However, the more we dated, the more I was attracted to him, and he slowly soaked my heart like coloring a canvas..
Still, I don't think it was love.
It was my first relationship with Yeonhu. I didn't have the experience to clearly define what the feeling of love was..
I think about only one person, like I see in cartoons, novels, and dramas, and my whole life is swayed by that person..
I didn't know such passionate feelings.
I didn't know. I didn't realize it.
Until this moment.
My shining self and my current hideous appearance.
Just like me without unnecessary words.
I liked him.
When I think about it, I was always hoping for Yeonhu to come..
I think about the conversation I had with him and our date..
Because he came, I did all the rehabilitation exercises..
Just in case, even in a delusion, I think about where I will go with him when he gets better..
I was like that.
Not just gratitude. In his face, in his expressions, in his gestures, in his words. I'm having fun with it all.
I was like that.
Only now I.
learned to love.
I wish I had learned just a little bit earlier..
Meeting more people, going to more places, and going on more dates..
I could have liked it even more... than I do now..
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