85.Results report, and want to chat with everyone
Results report, and want to chat with everyone
There are still forty minutes until twenty-four hours. The first order result in the background is 24682. That’s about it..
I finally had a good sleep last night. During the day, my friends also urged me to update quickly, and then asked for monthly tickets. There are few chapters in the early stage, so it is faster to get the results for the list..
From the time I opened the book to now, I have never asked for any recommendation votes, monthly tickets, etc., and I mainly focus on the idea of having no desires and no demands. Rather than updating, I want to have a good chat with everyone, after all, I have disappeared for more than half a year..
It was very painful when I wrote the last part of the healing game in the last book. I guess readers who read the last part can also feel that the whole person's mood and state have reached the point of being unbearable..
It is roughly equivalent to going to work every day, all year round, with zero social interaction, no games or chatting after get off work, and almost no entertainment activities. After dealing with all kinds of trivial matters, I watch suspense movies and related books, as well as various cases and witnesses. Author's description, etc. After reading it, I have to think deeply and conceive every day. I close my eyes and write down the plot of the day. It seems that I am catching up with each other day by day, and I am very anxious every day..
In fact, I have a way to write something very scary. I completely put myself into the perspective of the victim and restore the atmosphere bit by bit until my breathing rate changes. I turn on the computer and start writing, but after writing it, I feel even more uncomfortable..
After finishing the book, I took the train to many places by myself, and later lived in a small border town in Heilongjiang for a while..
I had a really good impression of the local people. I went to eat noodles on the first day. When I entered the store, my glasses fogged up. A man wearing glasses took out a piece of cloth for me to use. I didn’t recognize him at all and didn’t say anything. Passed.
I stayed in Heilongjiang for a month and I was never ripped off by a taxi driver. The driver’s brother and sister were very good at talking about everything from national events to history and culture. They just wanted to open your heart..
I caught the morning market there, and for five yuan I could eat a huge variety of breakfasts. For lunch, I had a big box lunch for eleven yuan, which was huge, with two meat dishes and one roasted eggplant that was more fragrant than the meat dishes. , that eldest sister has a spoon full of meat..
The county town has no scenery, but it is very similar to the environment I lived in when I was a child. I also went to the only Internet cafe in the county to surf the waves. Six years later, I played a game of Warcraft. I chose the undead and was fucked by a medium-sized computer..
Staying there, sometimes I feel that a lot of things that I couldn't let go of before are actually no big deal..
After leaving the county town, I took a train to Harbin. I didn’t catch up with the Ice and Snow World, but I met my high school classmates. I hadn’t seen each other for a long time. The two gentlemen drank from twelve o’clock to four o’clock in the afternoon, and they were completely separated..
Next, near Central Street, there is a cafe called Can Box, hidden in an old Russian-style building in a residential area. I met our book friends there. The owners of the shop are a couple who are very nice people. The four of them just sat there and talked about various Northeastern ghost stories..
After coming out from there, I went to many places. It was getting dark in the afternoon. At the window on the second floor of Chow Dasheng Jewelry on Central Street, there was a handsome guy playing the saxophone, Jay Chou's "Daoxiang", Zhang Xinzhe's "Love is Just One Word", etc..
Many people were watching below. I was also sitting on the curb, listening to a very familiar rhythm. Everyone was listening together. I suddenly felt very happy to be with many people..
After the trip, I returned to my hometown in Henan and talked to my mother about various things. She still spoke with a Northeastern accent. My mother asked me how the food was. I said it smells delicious！I started preparing for the new book in about May. Until the scheduled release time, I had five completely different ideas and seven versions written. Not all of them were suspense genres, some were science fiction, and some were realism genres, but they were all There are some problems.
I was very happy to write at the beginning, then became impatient, and then all kinds of things happened, and the plan completely deviated..
The serialization officially started. The more anxious I was to write something out, the more I pushed away the feeling of writing..
Probably when I was writing about the phobia part, I slept for almost three hours in two days, and I fell into a huge state of self-blame and guilt. Wouldn't it be better to write like this? Would it have been easier to choose another version? Is there anything that needs to be changed?？
On the third day, my mother couldn't stand it anymore and said, "You haven't committed any heinous crime, so why don't you let yourself go?"？
I said you don’t understand. I want to speed up the pace and write out my settings before putting them on the shelves.……
But after I finished speaking, I realized that the bad emotions had already surged up, and I seemed to have fallen into the weird circle in the late stages of the healing game again..
I am a rather paranoid and stubborn person, and I did get into trouble. Anyway, I continued to write with that emotion until Gao Ming came out of the tunnel. At that time, I realized that I could not go on like this..
Not only the content in the book, but also myself in reality.
I should make a good adjustment and re-examine it, so as not to fall into the same pit..
When making some decisions, you can also try to truly listen to your inner voice. There are too many external voices, so don’t ignore your own feelings..
It's a bit strange to write about this atmosphere. This is not my final speech, nor is it asking for leave. I am just chatting with you. I will update as usual tomorrow.！
Again, as long as you are healthy and safe, everything will be fine.
If you are not in a beautiful mood, just curse a few words. If you feel wronged, you can come here and chat together. If it is a birthday, Gao Ming will say happy birthday every time he uses that photo..
Okay, good night, see you tomorrow.
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