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Pick Me Up-Episode 378

6. Beyond Nihilism(5)

Some time later.

Aaron realized forgotten memories.

I didn't have the power to protect my family..

And that it could not be a boon to a colleague.

Aaron was encroached on deep-seated trauma.

Very few people come here..

If you don't usually give up, you don't get this far..

Aaron wants to stop, but he can't stop..

‘Haa.’

How many patients have you killed like that?.

The boy ventilated Aaron's purpose to induce treatment..

‘Did you say Nina?.’

One family and sister.

For that child, Aaron said he had to live and go back..

If so, you don't have to be strong..

‘All you need to do is go back..’

And yet did not give up.

Aaron remained here without threatening to kick him out..

If I save my life, I don't know if I'll meet my sister safely..

The boy lowered his eyes..

In front of the open dimension door.

There was Aaron, who couldn't step on his feet..

“Your feet aren't falling.?”

Aaron looks back at the boy..

My eyes were shaking..

“I think your real goal wasn't to meet your sister..”

“Did you......? I…….”

“I expected it. It could be. Then, I tried to kick my ass and kick him out.…….”

The boy didn't..

“That's weird..”

What should I call his condition?.

It's different than it's ever been..

His mind and body seemed to be playing separately..

“I'm...... Nina.…….”

“Put it away, Aaron. Let's do it in moderation. You came here, it wasn't for your sister.?”

That's it..

I've never met a guy like you before..

Perfect.

As the boy popped his finger, the dimension door to Niflheim closed.

“Now you only know one thing. Will you be dead or will you move on to the next level?.”

“……!”

“I'm waiting for you..”

Yes, too..

Because the illness of the heart can't heal that much..

‘…….’

The remaining process is one.

Whether Impurities are Mixed in Aaron's Cravings.

Or a transparent, pure dream..

‘If it's electronic, it kills it right away..’

If it's the latter, you'll realize the ups..

But the results are not different for both.

‘Even if you realize, it's the same to die..’

The boy looked at the sunlit plain.

‘Why didn't I kick him out?.’

It's the same thing to die anyway..

If so, isn't it reasonable to kick him out?.

But the boy didn't..

‘Unknown.’

Why not?

So far, he's been able to calculate all his principles of action..

I'm digging into the labyrinth more and more..

Impulse.

Question.

Distrust.

‘The body refused my instructions.’

I had to kick him out..

Whatever happened, the boy didn't let Aaron out..

The order and the result were wrong..

‘I know..’

Aaron didn't stop when he saw what was going to happen, the end..

In the meantime, the boy accepted the disciple, the possibility that he could heal It was because I believed it..

After repeated research and effort, one person overcame the disease Because he thought he would fulfill his dream.

But failed.

No one survived..

That's why you didn't judge me..

Let's stop bringing in successors..

So the procession to Luanan, which was active in the early days, is now coming. It was completely disconnected..

Sometimes the things that come were forced out..

Whether their performance or not, they've done it that way.

Minimum 60 years.

After up to 120 years, they are forced to export.

It was a thorough calculation and a decision was made..

“Whims.”

The boy muttered.

And then he burst into a laugh..

“Puhat!”

Oh, yeah..

You were forgetting..

I had something to do..

Then, you shouldn't have let him out..

This is stupid..

You look like him.?

A hundred years have passed since then..

Aaron's reason was completely worn out and he became like a doll..

The boy was fine..

I didn't have a heart..

“I warned you, right? You have to go back..”

The boy laughed and said.

Let's see, what's the result of fishing?.

Aaron and the boy's conversation follows.

“Master, I had something I wanted to do separately. If not, there's no sense in leaving me here..”

Oh, that's right, Aaron..

I have a reason to keep you here..

The fool said.

“Maybe it's better..”

Maybe it's good..

It means it doesn't matter if a colleague or friend dies or not..

And yet there was one thing left in Aaron's mind..

‘You're winning..’

Pure dream to be strong.

You are qualified to earn up.

All right, all right..

If so, let's continue.

The boy said.

I can make your dreams come true..

Your efforts deserve to be rewarded..

And Aaron closed his eyes, thanking his master.

“See you again, disciple..”

The boy told the dying Aaron.

“…….”

Let's see you again..

The boy's face was firm..

I just said, I didn't come out because I wanted to..

But the look disappeared soon after.

Soon, time passes..

Aaron is distraught, frustrated, but doesn't give up and makes up He piled up..

The boy sometimes advises Aaron, and he will look back on his memories later. When you can fully recall the power, you can use multiple uses of the up I informed you..

He sometimes went outside to help Aaron grow.

The boy himself was a geopolitical figure..

‘Because.’

The moment his dream comes true, the gates of hell will unfold..

No one can escape.

Not a boyish monster..

It was the last gift..

Yeah, a boy leaves a young man before he dies..

‘I think it's a little early for me to die..’

If you're going to die anyway..

If it's gonna go away from me..

You're right to use it in a little better direction..

“That's right, Aaron.?”

The boy was alone..

I told you the ups, so you have to repay me..

Drop the idea that you have to be a master..

‘When Aaron was completely encroached on his dream.’

Eat it without leaving it..

If you combine two dreams into one, you will recover your disappearing existence Can.

This is the right thing to do.

So the boy left Aaron.

It doesn't make sense without that..

‘I mean,.’

Warm words I hand to you.

Cheer and encourage the young.

It's all a lie..

I don't have a heart..

It's a monster, not a human being..

It was a pretense and an act to deceive and use him..

“I won't be in that place, but remember. I've been with you all the time..”

All these words are not the boy's essence. .

“Can I call you a master??”

Oh, yeah..

Call me at will..

You're gonna die for me anyway..

Aaron Delkard.

You're really fooled..

Yeah, if you calculate, the only answer is this..

I'm raising you to eat you, to prolong my life. That's it..

You don't know anything..

You don't know you're being used, you believe and follow at will..

I'm a teacher, so I don't have any inspiration when I try to fuck you..

No, I killed all the things you said to me from the beginning..

So the moment you called me a master, you were scheduled to die. It was there..

You still don't know.?

Keep an eye on it, please..

“Master, can I help you??”

When I said I didn't have a heart, I should have known it would happen..

What can you help me with??

“Just as the master opened the way before me, I reward the master. I would like to.”

The moment Aaron fights Ridgion and realizes his ups.

The boy was digging Aaron's cemetery.

And then I came back and said, That's what I'm talking about..

I didn't laugh..

“The Master said he didn't have a heart, but it's not true..”

You're messing around..

“Just as you saved me, I have something to do for you. There may be.”

I have a job to do..

The boy looked at Aaron.

There was only one thing he could do for himself..

‘Let me realize your mind.?’

How do you realize what you don't have in the first place.

Just as you have trained hundreds of millions of years and you don't know anything, so does the boy of eternity I spent years, but I didn't know my mind..

Rather, I didn't know my heart, so I could pass on eternity.

‘You're helping me..’

The disciple believed in the Master like an iron stone.

He said he was a benefactor all his life, and he was trying to help him with his life.

It was a stupid thing to do.

The boy finished the calculation.

Why didn't you kick Aaron out?.

Why I encouraged, supported, and made you realize your ups to the end.

Why I taught and helped you Pretend you can't win.

‘There's only one..’

The boy's presence soon disappears.

To fit those broken pieces together, we need to make a new pottery and combine it together. & gt;.

There was that pottery in front of my eyes.

‘Oh, yeah..’

Everything's gone bad..

The efforts the boy has been making.

Things that I've been trying to prevent my colleagues from sacrificing..

Things that brought up Disciples.

In retrospect, it's useless for anything..

If he's hungry, let's eat it without leaving it..

After that, I decided to do the things I had been considering.

‘Wasn't the direction the opposite??’

The boy wants to know what he feels sorry for, so he wants to protect and help others. I did..

But there was no performance.

If you do the opposite here,?

If you break it, you don't protect it.?

If you kill, break, and get rid of all the things you were trying to help yourself to the end, you're gonna get rid of it. I don't think you can tell me that you're sorry.?

For example, Niflheim.

For example, colleagues of the 1st party.

For example, Mobius itself..

I don't think it's impossible..

If you eat him, you can do things you haven't been able to do in a while..

It can be freed from troublesome constraints.

You can build up indefinitely..

If so, no one can stop the boy.

In theory, if you build up to infinity, then the power is infinity..

It's Tel, so what do you do, you can't stop the boy..

‘It's possible..’

The boy didn't have a heart..

He was a monster, not a human..

‘I can only interpret it that way..’

If only one disciple had lived..

If you showed the boy the possibilities,.

Didn't I have to make this judgment?.

“Master..”

Aaron called the boy his mentor..

I treat you with extreme sincerity, and even if you don't have a heart, you don't have any doubts. I did my best for the boy while I was not.

‘Cooking?’

Stupid..

You didn't try it.?

‘Gardening?’

So is this..

If you can do it, I've done it all..

The only way Aaron presents is simple, one-dimensional behavior.

‘Oh, yeah..’

The situation went back in favor of the boy..

There was a stir outside Luanan..

Mobius's standing is at stake..

Siris leaves Niflheim and wanders, normal to know the truth of the game I lost my judgment..

‘If you believe blindly, you lose judgment when things go bad..’

I need to be forced to send him to Earth to save the master. He was making strange claims..

Even the convocation order was issued..

The other members do the same..

I didn't catch my eye in the chaotic situation..

‘Did I need to protect them?.’

The boy was active in the mission until he was ready for his annihilation.

He's dying in return..

And if the results are like this.

‘I shouldn't have done anything like sacrifice..’

Efforts. Courage. Sacrifice. Trust.

It's a dirty word..

The essence of the world is darkness and chaos.

Mortal efforts are thwarted before talent.

Courage collapses on the wall of reality, and no one knows the sacrifice., Trust hesitates as one minor instrument.

‘I've been thinking that my heart is a total set of things..’

Despair. Frustration. Greed. Jealousy.

If the essence of the mind consisted of these things.

The boy should have made a different choice.?

I've seen it..

I've been looking at the boys here for a long time..

I've watched countless efforts to cut bones break down by random coincidence.

All the people in the world take advantage of someone, trick them, trample them. They're trying to exploit it..

‘Do you need to know the same thing as the heart?’

If it boils down to that way in the end..

It's a good thing to live where you don't feel your mind..

“…….”

The boy intended.

I left the room on purpose, and Aaron wrote the contents of the convocation sent by Siris. Waited to see.

Already Aaron was suffering from shadow whispers.

“I didn't do anything...... …….”

Aaron, noticing the truth of Mobius, began to falter..

The effort was betrayed once again.

As always..

“Learned ups! It'll help somehow.!”

The boy intercepted Aaron..

I can't..

With that power, I can't do anything when I've gone out..

“Can you win? Shadow next to you.”

So the boy invited.

Don't give in to the whispers of the red shadow..

He called on his disciples to exert courage and effort in order to face adversity.

“……I'll win..”

Aaron vows..

I swore to my master that I would not lose to reality..

Once again believed in the power of hard work and will.

It was all as the boy intended..

‘I'll win.?’

You can't win that..

If it had been said that you were eating your heart, no one would have died..

The boy was silent.

The end of that young man was decided the moment he set foot here.

The boy left Luanan in accordance with the decree of the convocation.

‘…….’

By now, in Luanan, Aaron has stopped time and gone through eternity. There will be.

You said you were overcoming the red shadow..

‘After.’

If you build up, the more you build up, the better.

If you do, the purity will be higher when you eat it..

The fate of Niflheim and Mobius meant nothing to the boy now.

‘Gonna be true.’

I'm looking forward to it..

How ripe is the fruit.

“We need to save his life..”

“Did you ask the Master's will?”

“I'll tell you I'm staying..”

“If so…….”

My old colleagues saved the Master. I wasn't interested in what to do..

Siris saw the boy.

“I'm sorry, Muden. He wouldn't be in good condition..”

“Oh, do it at will. I don't care..”

She's still wrapping her head around something pathetic..

But.

‘I'll do it in the end..’

Because that was Siris..

‘It doesn't matter to me anymore..’

No matter what your colleagues do.

Since the beginning, the boy has no heart, so his relationship with them is established. He didn't..

“Are you okay with that, Mr. Muden? Don't overdo it.…….”

“It's okay..”

It's okay..

Everything's fine..

“Please take care of your body. We know your condition.”

You're worried about me..

The boy wasn't like that..

Rather, if you kill them all, you can feel sorry for them, seriously. This is what I was considering.

“…….”

Yeah, I'm taking it seriously..

Why did I overdo it for them?.

What put him on the verge of death.

‘I didn't want to be sorry.?’

No.

I can't feel sorry for you, but do you need to.

I don't know. I don't know..

“Siris.”

Blonde knight looked back.

The peevish eyes lit up the boy's figure.

The boy decided to mock him..

How pointless you are..

How stupid, stupid.

“Don't stop.”

“Well.?”

“That's not the end of it..”

Siris's eyes were wide open..

‘That's outrageous..’

Boy kicked his tongue.

This wasn't what I was trying to say..

I was trying to make fun of you, but you're going to get it all done anyway..

Your mouth moves like it does..

“If you were, you could find a way..”

“What do you mean? Is there an alternative??”

“Well, that's right..”

The boy whistled and smoked.

‘You'll do it..’

You're going to take the wrong choice now, the right path to the future..

In that place, your colleagues will be with you..

‘Me?’

I don't have.

Because I'm gonna eat Aaron. .

And I decided to be free..

But really, you can't tell a human being..

I tried to mock him, but he got a word of cheer, and instead of the ruin of these guys, he succeeded. I'm hoping..

The heart is a blue frog..

Why does it move exactly the opposite of the boy's will.

I don't know. I don't know..