Pick Me Up-Episode 370
5. Light of Heart(3)
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Aaron focused his mind.
Where he stands is in the middle of the haze field..
There were more than ten scarecrows nearby.
“…….”
Boo-woong!
Aaron steps on, and the shadow of the line shakes..
The silver window he was holding was blurred, leaving an afterlife.
[Acid (散)]
[흑영만천(黑影萬天)]
Papapapak!
A dozen black young men emanating from Aaron's shadow at the same time Scarecrow Penetrated.
A visible hole was drilled in the middle of the scarecrow.
“Hou.”
Aaron sighed.
I just sucked another bunch of spirits into my skill training..
I cared for you as much as I could..
Hundreds of years.
No, it explodes a spirit that has been built over thousands of years in a single fight..
Up is a supernova that burns when a star that has lived billions of years is extinguished It was like light..
It burns bright enough to illuminate the entire galaxy, but there's nothing left after. Do not.
‘Strong, but not as unwieldy.’
A power that cannot be awakened without absolute self-determination.
Even cultivating ups consumes ups.
‘I think I know..’
Boy first time wake up since.
A number of challengers said they had come here to follow the boy..
Where did they all go now.
Be a revenant before you wake up..
Even if you wake up, you can't handle it, and you become a ghost..
The only thing that overcame the rebound of the up to the end was the boy himself..
The boy decided that the reason was, " Because I have no heart.".
‘I don't lose..’
Aaron looked sideways.
A red shadow stood.
I know..
The fact that that is a delusion that is visible only to yourself.
‘We need to jump..’
With a human heart, it completely swallows the ups.
By that time, the boy will be able to retire safely.
Aaron was ready..
* * *
This time is different.
The boy said his immortal feelings would cool over time..
The Human Mind is finite.
Aaron wanted to deny it..
There are things that change, but there are things that don't change.
I wanted to prove it to my mentor..
Aaron's pure dream of being strong is the source of his ups.
Here's another dream I've had with my heart.
‘I don't want to abandon humans..’
Even if the origin of the dream is pure longing, it is for Aaron to deal with it. There is a human heart that wants to protect precious things.
I wanted to protect it..
I wanted to give you happiness that won't be broken by any hardship..
I wanted to have the power to laugh at minor tragedies..
It's not the power you gained by giving up Nina, and your brother and colleagues..
It was a strength gained for them.
So I deny it..
Aaron denied 'innocence'.
* * *
Countless years have passed..
The boy said to Aaron in the haze.
“Get there..”
Aaron stopped stabbing the spear.
“What do you say, master??”
“Stacking ups. Just do that. That looks good enough..”
“Master, I'm still weak. After your master.…….”
“I want to die.?”
At the boy's threat, Aaron opened his eyes wide.
It wasn't a joke..
“If you build up any more, the shadow will swallow you up..”
Aaron looked sideways.
The red shadow looked larger.
“This is your limit. If you're more greedy, you're dangerous..”
“But…….”
I haven't been strong enough yet..
This doesn't protect everyone..
“How strong do you want to be? That's enough. If you go out right now, few people will scare you. Well, it doesn't mean you want to be strong at the temperature level.?”
“…….”
“Hey, don't do it. it's real.?”
“I have to be strong enough, and you can retire with confidence. Isn't it?”
The boy opened his mouth as if he were improbable..
“I want to retire me.?”
“I want to give you a rest..”
“That's why I want to be strong enough to retire me.?”
“Example.”
“Oh, my god..”
Boy kicked his tongue.
And I said, naively, " Oh, my god..
“Who says?”
“Example?”
“Who blew the wind on you?.”
“That's…….”
“It's obvious if you don't see it. It's Yurnet. I want to do all of a sudden, cook something that I didn't do, and I want to roll around. Ehhhhhhh.”
“The master said it was dangerous..”
“I'm in danger.?”
“I'm told that if you don't get it out of here quickly, you can't guarantee the future.. Hump, is his word wrong?”
Boy opened his mouth.
“So, I don't know what's ahead of me, so I can't guarantee what's ahead of me. Sold out?”
“It's…….”
“Why are there all these hoogoos? The guy who ate the business..”
Boy kicked his tongue.
“Stupid, do you think I don't know that much? If you really want to get rid of it, you'll come out of here on your own. So he's still alive. I don't know.?”
“If.”
Aaron was beaten..
“Why are you here? This is not a place where people live. I'm not strong enough to build up my training, but the Master is good enough. Isn't it? You can hang out with your colleagues outside.…….”
“It's not a place where people live..”
“…….”
“So, here we are..”
“It doesn't make sense..”
“People are where people live. Monsters are where monsters live. It's the right thing to do in the world..”
“……Don't be funny.”
Aaron shook it off..
“They were worried about the master. But you're trapped in this dangerous place without knowing why. I'm not convinced..”
“…….”
“If the reason you don't leave is because of your successor, I'll be..”
“You.?”
“Example.”
“How do you mean??”
“I'll be strong. More than now. So that your master can leave here with confidence..”
Aaron said.
“If the reason you don't leave is because you don't have a mind for your master,. So if you gave up on yourself to get along with them. I'll smash that futile prejudice of your master's...... .”
The boy was silent.
“I heard from my colleagues. You didn't do that before. But from one day, I heard that I didn't come out here..”
I didn't do that before..
In other words, the boy was working properly as a member of the 1st party.
Then it changed at one point..
The boy was in Luanan all day, and he had his face in Niflheim. It didn't shine..
The only thing that knows about the boy's existence is some of the old heroes and their colleagues in the 1st party..
What the boy looks like is a very small part of when fighting.
For the rest of the moment, no one comes, no one comes, no one comes, no one comes, no one comes, no one comes. In space, close to eternity, the years alone pass.
“It's not until you need it, is it?.”
Ups Build up in Solitude.
However, there is no reason to spend all the time in solitude.
If you believe that you have built up your strength properly, leave the place as normal You can live..
Rather, you should..
We need to refill our broken hearts and relationships..
Only then do not lose yourself.
I knew the boy didn't have to tell me..
Even if there is no limit to building up, there is a limit to the human mind.
If you go beyond the allowance, your heart begins to crack..
It was for that reason that the boy dried Aaron today.
If so.
If you fill up the allowance, you can get out of here from then on..
The boy's ups are filled with progress.
And I'm not going out..
Here, he continues his silence, twisting his mind.
“I don't know why you came here..”
Aaron once didn't even know why he was obsessed with power.
I know why you're obsessed with being strong when you know you're not. Could not.
I was putting myself out on an impulse that I didn't know why..
It was the boy who fixed that impulse.
“However, I know a few things.”
Aaron doesn't know..
I couldn't tell what happened to the boy..
“The master suffers from a disease of the heart. And the illness of the heart, leaving it alone doesn't change anything. We need to hurry up and treat it..”
Aaron spoke..
“If you leave it alone, your heart dies..”
“You told me you had nothing like heart.?”
“How do I get sick when I don't have a heart?”
“The sass is very dodgy..”
The boy's eyes became transparent..
It's about seeing the past somewhere..
“So, your heart doctor will prescribe me some heart medicine. I think.?”
“It's the same drug that cured me..”
“That's what it is..”
“Forgiving Yourself.”
Aaron said earnestly.
“This is what the master said..”
“…….”
The boy closed his eyes.
And so on..
“Puhat!”
I laughed aloud and laughed out loud.
“Puhahahahahah! I wanted this, I got it, I got it! Forgive yourself? Oh, did I say that? It's crazy. I'll turn it around.!”
Aaron didn't laugh..
“Oh, yeah. I did. All the people who come here said they had a disease of the heart. But that included me. This is outrageous..”
“Master..”
“It's okay, it's okay. Don't worry too much. My condition is not as serious as your worries. I didn't mean to die in this place..”
“Is it true?”
“Yeah, it's true..”
The boy laughed and said.
“If you get out of here, I'll get out. I got tired of playing alone. In your later years, you have to enjoy yourself..”
“…….”
“What do you look at with so suspicious eyes? I'm serious. What you think is a tragic past or a devastating event is exactly what you think is a tragic past or a devastating event. No. It was just because I was comfortable being alone..”
“So, have you changed your mind now?”
“It was changed, man..”
Beans!
Boy patted Aaron's head.
It didn't hurt at all..
“Aaron.”
“Example?”
“You're a serious, uninteresting type..”
“What are you saying??”
“Hey, let's ask one. You killed people on a mission.?”
“Why, all of a sudden, that's it.…….”
“Are you there? No.?”
“……There are.”
“That night, I couldn't sleep alone, I was fucking hot.?”
“That, not. I'm not jilted.!”
“Well, I thought about it this way! Didn't I have the people I killed, the family? Friends? What happens to those people? I didn't do anything absurd.?”
“No, not so far.……!”
“Puhahaha! When you go to bed, you can't sleep alone. I was lying down and shaking my palace. This is what I mean.!”
“Oh, no.!”
Aaron built a wool statue.
Of course, killing people wasn't easy..
But I got over it..
“If something like you comes out as the main character of the novel, I'll be swearing, man! I said, Where would this idiot be?.”
“……Ugh..”
“I advise you as a life senior,man. If you live like that, you're tired. Live like your brother..”
“Like you.?”
“I want to live in the spirit of my Al-Bahnani. What does it matter? Whether they have family or not..”
Aaron reminded me of his brother..
Han Israt.
He was sober and reasonable in mass.
The feelings after killing a person, the senseless hesitation for him. It was an obstruction..
So he didn't mind there.
I didn't shake the 'palace' without the bittersweet.
Aaron remembered Jenna..
Jenna Shirai.
So did the girl..
I cared for my colleagues, but I strictly separated my colleagues from others, which was unnecessary I thought I'd sort out my feelings..
He was a clever kid..
In fact, all the combatants in the waiting room did.
For them, the sting after the murder or the sympathy for the dead. It was a luxury and a waste..
I kill you because I block you in front of you..
Their affairs are not mine..
‘How am I??’
Aaron thought.
Would he have done it himself?.
“About one person.”
The boy looked back at Aaron's words..
“For one person in the world, wouldn't it be okay to have such a fool??”
“Well?”
“It's not my alva. I'm not interested in your affairs. If you block it, you kill it. If disturbed, handle. If you live this way, the world will be lucid. There may be no need to worry about it anywhere.”
“Cor. So in the end, you killed him, right? Those people.”
“Yes. I killed him..”
Aaron hesitated at first, but didn't afterwards.
He killed the humans who blocked the way in front of his brother and his colleagues..
“But, inside, I felt sorry for them.”
“I don't know what you call it.?”
“I know. Hypocrisy.”
I'm sorry, but I kill you in the end..
What's different if it boils down to one anyway.
‘If you thought like him,.’
When you killed them, you wouldn't have suffered anything..
Everything becomes lucid.
The world is clearly black and white.
What Helps me and What Doesn't Help Me.
You can judge good and evil by your own standards.
But Aaron wasn't..
“That's your way of thinking, that you're tired of the world..”
The world is not at peace now.
The infinite world is turned into a tower, and even at this moment heroes and monsters He's frying his blood..
What's the use of morality in this mess?.
Pity, Mercy, Love, What is worth.
Even if all the world cries for the Goddess of Mercy, she does not appear.
On the other hand, the Goddess of pure water appears everywhere and invokes the upper cup. There are.
You said one of your pure desires was more important than this universe..
For one is working to throw out all the other.
“That's right..”
Live tired.
Wear a wound that you don't have to wear.
“You're stupid, I know..”
On the rampage, Pure laughs at Mercy.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..
Fuckin 'like a fuckin' bitch.
On a topic that you can't even cover yourself..
Stupid hypocrite.
“Isn't it okay to be a fool??”
“What's okay??”
“It's the way I chose. Even if others laugh at me, I don't laugh at me. That's what you can do..”
“Ha?”
“My path is what I set myself. No matter how trivial and ridiculous it may seem, I'm just walking down that path. and…….”
Aaron smiled.
“If you're not a fool in the world, and you're all a genius, it's too hard to live. Isn't it?”
“That's right..”
Boy laughed.
“There's no fooling, there's no fooling, there's no fun in the world.. So I mean..”
“Example.”
“Don't worry about me..”
The boy's words followed.
“Your disadvantage is that you inflate useless worries. You don't have to buy a mind-boggling thing. Okay.?”
“Then…….”
“I have no intention of letting you follow me. I don't intend to stay here until I die. If you're moderately strong, I'll come out of here with you..”
“That's what I mean, seriously?”
“Yeah. I'll write you a contract.?”
“Then, prepare the paper…….”
“Hey, I can't distinguish between jokes.?”
“I'm kidding, too..”
“Come on. Anyway. If the Heavenly master asks you to believe, believe it. When you're moderately strong, I come out of here with you. All right.?”
“How strong do you become?”
“Until the shadow next to you becomes invisible.”
Aaron opened his eyes wide.
“Did you think you didn't know? How many times have I raised a disciple?.”
“…….”
“Rule your heart. I'm not dragging you up, I'm dragging you up. Unless it's clear, you can't get out of here. I don't know when you'll be haunted..”
“So the reason why you don't leave here is because you're not going to leave here.…….”
Does it mean it's because of yourself?.
Aaron can't rule his power properly yet..
If Aaron makes up his own, he'll get out of here with his mentor. I was saying that I could..
“I mean, your worries were of no use..”
“That's right. Thank god..”
“The piling up is here. Rule from now on..”
Aaron looked sideways.
A large red shadow was facing Aaron..
As soon as he is swallowed up in the red shadow, Aaron becomes a ghost.
‘You have to fight him..’
Who will survive in the end.
It's a pure dream to be strong..
It's Aaron's human heart..
If you don't make an end, Aaron can't get out of here..
This was the final test.
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