Pick Me Up-Episode 367
4. Self-craving self-strength(8)
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Having no heart, feeling no emotion, feeling no emotion, feeling no emotion, feeling no emotion, feeling no emotion I'm feeling like this..
Aaron imagined it..
I imagined the landscape of a funeral.
The deceased is buried in a coffin, and everyone around him is crying.
I remember people leaving, things they didn't say, things they didn't say. I'm sharing my grief..
But of them, only one person.
There is a person who is dazed and stiff..
I'm not hardened to excessive grief..
It's hard to feel anything..
I know it by reason..
Now that this is a situation to be sad about. That it is time to weep and regret the parting with the deceased.
If you had a deep relationship in your life, it's even more..
But I don't feel anything..
I'm just standing up..
Not sad.
He's just dead..
I am convinced that I am sober..
The people around him looked and thought.
You can't beat your grief and your body is hardened..
You can't accept the reality that the deceased is dead..
That's not it..
It's not that human..
I didn't accept that he was dead..
It's just not sad..
I don't feel anything..
That's it..
If someone here looks into his mind, it's appalling. Or not..
He began to smoke emotions. This is why you get strange handling.
Pretend to be sad, pretend to cry, frown, hold the coffin and hang it.
With an empty heart.
With breasts that don't feel anything.
And, finally, he begins to doubt.
You're right with them..
What mutations are not.
And yet, I didn't feel the fear of it, so I didn't feel much fear of it. Not himself.
It was a bottle..
The Disease of becoming a monster.
He is ill..
* * *
The cemetery is situated in a quite remote location with huts.
It was a place you didn't want to show much in your master's position..
Aaron was convinced about it and returned to the cabin with the boy.
“What do you help? You're good, stupid.!”
On the way back, the Master's appointment followed.
Aaron handed it over with a smile.
“Oh, cheeky. Are you crazy, are you? Ang?”
The Master suffers from a disease of the heart.
He is a patient who needs to be cared for with a warm gaze and a gentle attitude.
“Hey, I want to die! Hey!”
I'm not sure it's because I'm so bad at this kind of shit.?
I was always in a position to help others.
You're not familiar with the situation in which you're getting help..
“It's all right, Master. I help the master...... Kuck!”
The boy went through Aaron's back..
Aaron fell down with his back..
“Don't treat the sick because you feel dirty. I can do it myself..”
“…….”
“……Are you dead??”
“Not.”
Aaron stood up with a laugh.
There was a line of blood coming from his nose..
The boy muttered in a freaked tone.
“Did you see all these guys?.”
“Do not worry. I'm strong..”
* * *
The two who visited the Luanan Dimension were leaving straight away..
The boy entrusted Aaron with the role of acting as a guest.
The location where the Dimension gate opens is a vacant lot in Yeon Armed Birdgil.
The 3D door was open in the middle of the vacant lot.
“You're here..”
The Dimension gate is connected to Niflheim.
Two figures stood side by side in front of him.
He was the first prosecutor in Niflheim, Ridgion, and the therapist he brought in..
The two turned their faces as if they were waiting for Aaron to come..
“I'm sorry I'm late..”
Aaron bowed his head.
“No, we were about to go back..”
“Do you have any other requirements for me?”
“My terms are already over.”
Ridgion shook his head..
What he had to do here.
It's probably for testing..
Whether or not he deserves to be the boy's successor.
As a result of the battle, Ridgion was convinced, and now he wants to return to the waiting room. Will.
Then the other thing is, the woman who introduced herself as the therapist next door.
She was looking at Aaron as if she had been eating him earlier..
The gaze beyond the mask was burdensome.
“Aaron, I'm glad you got the results you want..”
“Oh, yes, thanks.......”
“Ridgion seems to recognize you..”
Ridgion added:.
“It's not an acknowledgment. I just convinced him of his choice..”
“What choices do you mean?”
“The choice to stay here to the end..”
Two glances intersect..
An uncomfortable silence followed.
‘What's the atmosphere?.’
He seemed to be walking on a flesh-ice plate..
“If we decide, we have no right to rip it off..”
“So, I'm not here to convince you. Did Ridgion accept His decision??”
“I don't know. Repose was unknown. But if you decide to do that, you have to respect it as a friend..”
“Even if that determination brings your own danger?”
“Yeah..”
The therapist turned his gaze.
He seemed to be organizing his thoughts from the inside of the mask..
“I'll go first. Let's talk about it..”
Ridgion disappeared beyond the Dimensional Gate..
It was a hesitant exit..
“…….”
All that's left is Aaron and an unidentified woman..
Aaron swallowed his spit..
I couldn't even seed the atmosphere of this place.
‘Your determination. Persuasion. Risk?’
I knew that I was talking about the subject of the master, but it was detailed I didn't know the contents..
Then the woman's eyes turned to Aaron..
“Aaron, he said he was his disciple..”
“Yes.”
“Congratulations. As Lidigion recognized, he achieved the performance of Sogi It looks like it..”
Can not read emotions.
Whether to celebrate sincerely.
Or sarcastic..
“Whoohoo, it's too hard to drink. I'm not blaming you..”
“Oh, yes.…….”
“I just want to ask Aaron for one thing..”
“Do me a favor?.”
“It's about Him.”
The therapist spoke.
“Unfortunately, he doesn't listen to us. He must have closed his heart to us. It wasn't the case before, but it's a shame..”
The therapist said as if recalling the past.
The boy didn't do it before..
It suits them in the same place and always ventilates the atmosphere It was present..
At one point, the boy suddenly stopped coming into this space.
“You know that, right? The longer you stay with this dimension, the more it erodes the human spirit.”
“…….”
“Of course, I understand the power of ups. It will take a long period of asceticism. But if you continue to stay in this space even if you have built up enough power, You will pose more risks than you need.”
This girl.
What the identity of the up is, we are going through it properly.
“I also know that his heart is special. And yet limits exist. He has been here too long. It's too much to pass..”
“A little more, can you tell me a story?”
Aaron stiffened and said, " Oh, my god.".
“Let me tell you, I'm going to be honest..”
“…….”
“His Presence is alert.”
It's at an angle..
You're dying soon.?
“It's not life, it's existence. You know the peculiarities of Up, right? Those who wake up will not be life from then on. It's a kind of elemental thing..”
Complex terms pour out of the therapist's mouth.
Aaron rolled his head desperately to understand the meaning of the words.
“Do you know how Up's death takes place?”
“Well, I don't know.”
“Death of existence itself. The fact that it existed in the universe. That information itself disappears. No one realized that he was there, no one remembered him. Chae, it's forgotten forever..”
Aaron opened his mouth..
I'm not just dying..
The fact that it was there is gone.?
No one remembers.?
“No name, no face, no age..”
Such a death...... I hate it.
“At first, it could exist. But as time passes, Cha Cha is forgotten.”
No one remembers me..
You don't even know I was there..
It was a fear of death or more.
Aaron thought of his master's name..
‘…….’
Okay..
Of course I remember..
I can't forget it..
The boy was a benefactor and an unparalleled mentor who gave him the way. Because he was like another father..
I gave Aaron, frustrated, a second life to start..
“Do you know?”
The therapist said.
“He needs care. He must leave here and stay in a normal place. How do you extinguish the flames of Up, bring him back to man? There may be a way..”
The therapist said, as he affirmed.
The boy needs medical care.
We need to leave this crazy place right now..
‘Master is in danger..’
How long have you been here?.
How many years have you spent alone here?.
Aaron doesn't know..
Even if the boy doesn't have a heart, he doesn't feel anything., the passage of time undercuts everything.
You can outlive others..
Strictly, the limit exists.
“Even if he dies, he must die as a human being. It's something to do. If it goes away as an up...... We're done, even the fact that he was there. You won't know..”
“…….”
“Do you know?”
The therapist added the words:.
“It's a lonely word, but our situation is not good. The Master is somewhere else, and Siris has hidden himself.. There are many other problems, large and small, with herpes. That's why I have no choice but to ask Aaron..”
“That's what I can do..”
“Yes. To him, you seem special. It's very unusual for him to go out this time.”
The boy came out of Luanan to help Aaron grow.
That was something I couldn't imagine from that therapist's point of view..
No hesitation is necessary.
Aaron answered with a serious face.
“I'll do it. If it's for your master..”
“Well, can I ask you??”
“I've received a lot from my master. So, convince the master to take him out. That's what I'm going to do..”
The therapist nodded his head a little.
‘Your master's not in good condition..’
When you think about it, it wasn't natural..
The boy has been in this place since his son's past.
In any case, you may be the only one who can convince the boy..
“Can I trust you...... ?”
Masked woman said.
It was a soft voice, but there was a small tremor in it.
Aaron could see how much she valued the boy as a colleague.
“I'll do it..”
I give it back with my heart and my heart..
Aaron was prepared.
“Even if I was risking my life..”
“If so, I'll believe it..”
I felt like my face in my mask was smiling..
The therapist bowed his head politely and headed for the Dimension gate.
“Oh, wait a minute. Well, I have a few things to ask for you..”
“If I could do it..”
Aaron laid out some requirements.
“If that's enough, let's do it..”
“I'll ask you..”
“Huhu. Aaron is sincere..”
The therapist left a light laugh, then bent over the robe and opened the door of the dimension Disappeared into the.
And the dimension door is closed.
These two guests left Luanan.
For now.
For a very long time..
Aaron will have to go through a lot of twilight alone with the boy..
‘Two goals..’
He woke up and got his way, but Aaron's journey was not over.
Rather, it was a start from now on.
‘Make the ups mine sure.’
I barely took the first step..
The boy says, Up is a force like a bronco with a halter, and at the end of the day, it's a force like a bronco with a halter. He said it led the user to destruction..
The nameless tombstones were built that way..
You have to control this power and make it your own..
‘Get the master out of here..’
He said the boy's life was not long..
It may have been for that reason that I took Aaron and raised him.
Before he died, he was trying to leave a successor..
Then I was definitely recognized by the master and reassured him, and then he was here. Bring him out..
‘Two things.’
I don't know how much time is allowed.
But I decided not to forget..
I repeat life and death again and again, but I'm pure to be strong. As if I hadn't forgotten my dream.
Step by step.
Slow, slow, and sincere.
That was Aaron's way of Life.
‘This is the last test.’
Whether you are qualified to deal with ups or not.
Whether you can follow your master or not.
It was the last test to prove eligibility..
Aaron turned his back on the vacant lot.
He then made his way to the cabin..
* * *
Time passes..
Time passed..
Time passed..
The Dream of eternity is followed by biting and biting the tail.
Repeating Life and Death, Pure dreams only grow.
What was the strength for.
Time is Cyclical.
Crush all things and also cause them to be born.
Can the light of the heart withstand the power of even the light of the stars.
* * *
Chisel.
Chisel.
* * *
Wooung.
It was a familiar vacant lot..
The three-dimensional gate to Niflheim opened..
“Ha, it's taken a long time..”
The boy sighed deeply.
“It was only when you left here. Oh, it was the last event. Remember, kid.?”
Tuk-tuk.
The boy knocked on the back of the young man next to him.
“…….”
There is no light in the young man's eyes..
Empty and transparent light like glass beads.
But it's a problem..
The light of reason returned to his eyes.
The young man answered, unutterably..
“That's right. Then, it's the first time since I left the tournament. It feels like a very distant thing..”
“I think that's actually the case..”
“…….”
The light disappeared in the young man's eyes..
The boy laughed, and pulled the young man's ear.
Again, reason returns..
“Ayaya! Why do you!”
“You don't even pretend you heard an adult talk? It was a lot bigger, asshole.?”
“Oh, no! I just have something to think about.!”
“Do you want to catch up in front of your master??”
“That, that, that, that, that, that, that, that, that, that, that!”
“It's a great game. What is it? Important issues.”
“Important issues...... Important issues..... Important Issues……”
The light in the eyes fades..
The young man repeated the same words in the same tone, like a machine.
As the boy pulls his ear again, the young man squeals and screams I screamed..
“It hurts.!”
“You have to focus straight. Get up, man..”
“Well, let's get a little bit out of here.…….”
“You know what's going on outside??”
The young man looks back at the boy..
“The outside situation, didn't you think it was bad? Well, the master is in danger, the game system is broken, it's a bug..”
“It's broken.?”
“The goddess's word that if you climb the tower to the end, you will restore the world was a hoax.! Your brother ate a line of shit there,and his head turned. I'm not going to die, I'm not going to die, I'm not going to die, I'm not going to die, I'm not going to die.?”
“Brother? Is that really it!”
“Yeah. Your precious brother. One Israt. The goal you tried to be strong.”
Goals.
The light returns to the young man's eyes as he loses his reason.
“……!”
The young man grimaces midriff.
I was confused..
Memory is shuffled, shuffled, shuffled, nothing can be discerned..
‘Brother..’
The outside situation is not good.
Your life may be at risk..
Mentor said.
‘We need to help..’
If not, Aaron's years as far as he has endured become meaningless..
I couldn't finish it without swinging the spear once..
‘I, this I.’
Any help is good.
You have to do anything..
‘But.’
I feel like I missed something..
It was very important..
Unfortunately, I didn't remember well..
It's just like that..
I had a certain intense dream, but it just happened, so the content of the dream Not surfaced.
In fact, it's a dream here, too..
There's no realism..
“Master..”
“Why?”
“I think I had a dream...... .”
Aaron said in a hollow voice.
“In a dream...... I…….”
“Stop..”
“Example?”
“Forget that dream..”
“But.”
“It's a dream..”
The boy said.
“You're here, I'm here. Nothing happened..”
“Yeah.......”
Aaron was convinced..
Yeah..
Master is here..
He's here, too..
There is nothing to be the problem.
Because there's a more important problem in front of your eyes..
Aaron splashed the silver spear he had received from Ridgion..
Wooung!
Vivid shadows gathered at the end of the window.
‘& gt;.’
Made the ups definitely his own.
Much stronger than when I first dealt with the ups and got into a tinker with the guy You can use shadows effectively.
It may already be late..
The brother he admired was in danger, and now he's going to take it all back. It may have been impossible..
Anxious emotions flashed on Aaron's face.
“It's okay..”
The boy looked at Aaron.
As always, a humdrum look.
“Do something..”
“Example.”
Let's do something..
Because he has this power that he learned from his master..
Aaron walked toward the Dimension gate with a firm step.
“But master..”
Suddenly Aaron stopped.
The master looked back..
“What was your dream?”
The master blinks as if he were saying something..
“Well, I don't think I've ever asked you before..”
“It's my dream..”
The boy thought for a second, and then replied, " Oh, my god..
“I was chagrined because I didn't have talent..”
“…….”
“My dream was revenge on the world. I didn't like a world where everything is decided by talent. So I wanted to prove it.”
Revenge on the World.
I want to prove that I can do it without talent.
Aaron nodded.
‘The source of the Master's up is revenge on the world.’
Come on..
This wouldn't have been...... .
It's weird..
‘Revenge?’
The boy recited his past.
“I cursed God every night. Why did you give me this talent?.”
“…….”
“I mean, it's a bout. The world. Who wins, and continues this way…….”
“……Lies.”
“Well.?”
“All the dreams that the Master says are false.”
Aaron said.
“Because, I know. I know. What the master was here for. That dream…….”
“You're still less awake..”
The boy put his hand on Aaron's forehead.
Just that..
The Young man's eyes are blurred.
“It's okay..”
“…….”
“Let's start again.”
Chisel.
* * *
Memories mix and mix.
All of the above is false.
It's delusion, it's deception..
* * *
Wooung.
It was a familiar vacant lot..
The three-dimensional gate to Niflheim opened..
“Ha, it's taken a long time..”
The boy sighed deeply.
“It was only when you left here. Oh, it was the last event. Remember, kid.?”
Tuk-tuk.
The boy knocked on the back of the young man next to him.
“Yes, I remember.”
Aaron answered right away..
Unforgettable.
‘I think I had a dream..’
Long, long dream.
But Aaron decided not to recall the contents of his dream.
Dreams are Dreams, Reality is Reality.
Beyond this Dimensional Door.
Harsh reality awaits him.
“You're ready.?”
“Example.”
The outside situation is not bad..
I heard from my master..
You're in danger..
The ruined world may not recover..
I don't know if I'll ever see Nina again..
But don't give up.
I struggled a lot of time to get this power.
I decided to do anything..
It may have been late, but it couldn't be done this way..
‘Master..’
Aaron looked back..
The boy is next door, and he's here..
Only that was the truth..
“Do something..”
“Example.”
Aaron was determined..
Because he has this power that he learned from his master..
Aaron walked toward the Dimension gate with a firm step.
So,
Aaron Delkard's training in Luanan came to an end.
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