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Never touch Eldmia Egga - Episode 441

[441Flower] Flowering

[I know that I'm just curious about everything from one to ten..]

Not only does it sound in your ears, but it also resonates in your head..

[However, we failed to make every effort to have a conversation..]

It's not that he's louder than me or that he's shouting, but my body vibrates every time he utters one word out of his mouth. I know it's okay to relax my prayer posture because it's already a space disconnected from my body, but I can't because I feel like I'll collapse as soon as I relax my posture..

[You know better than me that just by facing me and hearing my voice, my consciousness is being chipped away..]

He very slowly gets up from his chair and takes a step towards me. Every time he shortens the distance, I feel as if the force of gravity is doubling. Even though there is no intention of any threat towards me in all of those actions, I can't help but feel intimidated just by encountering them..

That's why Goddess.

We cannot help but feel acutely the presence of a transcendent being that mortals can never bear..

[So ask only what you think you need right now..]

Epaga looks at me as I waver trying to hold on to that godhood, and his gaze is extremely gentle..

There is not even a trace of God's arrogance there. That gaze, filled with nothing but mercy and affection like Hae-hae, only contains consideration for me..

Unlike the rough attitude you showed at first,...

[Uh huh.]

Hehehe.

Thanks to this, I was able to calm my mind as much as possible and ask the most fundamental questions..

"Why did I reincarnate in this world??"

[...Because your death wasn't an accident..]

Even though he was able to read the thoughts in advance and respond, unlike the first time, Epaga did not do that. It felt like the very act of voicing my doubts out loud was respected..

[To say it all, it is a very long story. What I can tell you right now is that the beings of this world were involved in your death. I was late trying to stop this, and I tried my best to save your soul..]

This is what that damn robber did in this world.?

The reason I was able to live with my past life as a past life was because I thought it was a bitter ending to a very unlucky life..

But it turns out that the problem originated here. Even my parents died unfairly because of that.?

It wasn't something I could understand at all, so I couldn't even speak, so Epacah looked at me with even more pitiful eyes..

It was a gaze filled with many meanings. A gaze with a meaning so clear that you can understand what it means without having to explain it in words..

[When the path becomes a little more solid, I will definitely tell you everything. I promise.]

So don't get buried in the past now..

That was correct. Because there were a lot of unfair things in this life too..

"Was it because of me that my parents and my village were attacked??"

[It's my fault.]

This time, it was an unexpected answer. Mr. Epaga was silent for a moment as if he was deceiving his words, and then explained..

[I had no intention of making you a warrior. This is because, like her status as a saint, she has the power to bind fate. I just wanted to give the gift of a slightly more comfortable life as minimal compensation for the absurd death of my previous life..]

Contrary to my expectations that gods would make judgments and take actions that are far from the emotions of mortals, Ephaga showed a very humane reaction and carefully crouched down in front of me..

For some reason, I felt sadness in the two burning eyes that had no pupils and were just fluttering light..

[However, in order to do that, rather than using my own divine power, I had to borrow the power of a relic I had gifted to my children in the past. Because spiritual power is not something that can be controlled just because you want to. According to the original arrangement, you should have been born as a demon..]

As soon as I thought that I might have lived a life where I couldn't even turn my head when I sleep, even Epaga, who was immersed in sadness, tilted her head as if it was absurd, but was there anything I could do? Thoughts don't flow as intended. It was like a divine power that could not be controlled, so it was unstoppable..

[That's right. Anyway... I found out later that, contrary to my original plan, all connections with my relics on the ground had been lost. I realized it was an anomaly because I couldn't do that by simply sealing it, but not only the relic but also the 'way' for communication itself became problematic. However, it was not possible to neglect your soul, a being from the other world, until the problem was resolved..]

"so..."

[okay. Using the power of the only intact holy relic, I reincarnated you in the nearest village. Eldmia Egaro, son of Ethan Egar and Evisher Ruina. Although you are ordinary, you have a past as an adventurer, so even if you have some extraordinary abilities, unlike ordinary farmers, you are a child of those who have the knowledge to develop your talents without any problems..]

It had to be that way, but it shouldn't have been that way..

After saying that, Epacah frowned with deep regret and continued speaking..

[I didn't know my kids would do that. For some reason, the Demon King's army was searching for my traces and cutting off the connection with me. Through the relics of a temple forgotten in the flow of time in a corner of the human land, he was so persistent that even the brief use of his power was noticed and moved..]

On the 8th year, the Demon King's army successfully tracked down our village and recovered the relics..

It was an event that wouldn't have happened if I hadn't reincarnated..

[I was complacent..]

That's why Epaga was blaming himself..

"If you hadn't done that, I would have ended up dead.."

my answer is fixed.

There may be a lot to ask and a lot to argue about, but I'm not here to blame others..

"How can we blame God for being merciful and giving us one more chance that we never had before? I just feel grateful for Epaga’s grace.."

Even though there was no need to say it or wait to say it, I spoke and Epaga listened. I tried to make a joke in my diminished spirit..

"You can read my thoughts, so you know what I'm saying in times like this.?"

[Yes, that was a poignant statement. I'm so sorry.]

I laughed too when I saw Epaga laughing as if she was dumbfounded..

It's not that I don't have feelings of resentment. It's not that I'm not angry. But it's so clear where this anger should be directed that I just don't want to vent my anger in a wrong way..

So, I collected myself as calmly as possible and continued asking questions..

"Why did they do that??"

[I think he wanted the power of a hero. It is clear that the moment they checked the artifact, they realized that I had influence and took action to erase your hometown from the map..]

If Effa, who noticed their actions, gave power to the humans, their plan to take the power of the warrior would be ruined. It's a reasonable guess..

So, for the first time in a long time, something that made me cry came to a boil inside me..

They all had no choice but to die for such an uncertain reason..

"Was it because you were concerned about that that you sealed the divinity in me??"

[To be precise, the magic power was also sealed. The fact that the seal was loosened due to an encounter with a human wizard was a variable that far exceeded my expectations. If you had grown a little faster... or if your house had been a little closer to the village, I think you would have died on the spot too..]

"Is it a variable...."

[It may be possible for God to be omnipotent, but there is no possibility for him to be omniscient. Children sometimes think they know everything because they have an oracle. That's another story.]

It feels really dull. There are too many people who have died to be thankful for being lucky... but it is not a situation to be depressed about..

However, as Esmuet said, there was no reason to waste limited time worrying about something that could be done later, so I decided to ask a question that might be my last, hoping that my mind, which seemed ready to break at any moment, would endure a little longer..

"what do you want me to do?"

If what Epaga says is true, in the end, all of this is a by-product of coincidence, not fate. As you didn't wait for this opportunity to come, I asked the question thinking that Epaga would also want something other than answering my questions..

And I plan to do my best to make Ephaga's wish come true, unless you tell me not to seek revenge. I gave you a chance to live again, but I don't think you could do that much.?

[I hope you continue to walk your own path.]

However, Ephaga's answer was synonymous with saying that there is nothing to hope for..

[No, it's different. I'm not telling you to go your own way because I don't want anything, but because I want you to move toward what you want to do without God's will..]

"...Can you tell me why??"

It was more nerve-wracking than I expected, but fortunately, I was able to hear Epaga's final answer with a gentle smile..

[That's why we envied the world you lived in.]

My eyes opened.

In a way, it was similar to talking to the spirit, but the fatigue was much more severe..

As soon as he opened his eyes, he fell forward without any resistance and the saint who was watching was so scared that he ran to me..