Never touch Eldmia Egga - Episode 108
I waited endlessly for Esmuët and Ragnis in an awkward silence, but they showed no sign of coming even though it seemed like a lot of time had passed, perhaps because things were complicated on their part..
Thanks to this, I felt no different from sitting on a pincushion, just watching the endless rain pouring down and then watching Asilier's eyes over and over again..
Asilier was the first to break the long silence..
"So, which girl are you interested in??"
The horse seems calm, but I have no choice but to doubt everything, having already realized that my own intuition may be at a hopeless level. Above all, the cold atmosphere I felt earlier was real, so I couldn't help but feel very nervous even though I wasn't going to lie or say anything embarrassing..
"That, sister? It's true that I can't reject someone who likes me. I still have big goals in life.?"
"So no matter how those girls approach you, I have no idea right now.?"
what? I feel like I'm feeling déjà vu in this situation where I'm being robbed of what I have to say.?
"Ugh...that's right. That's my position."
"Should we take the fact that L.D.'s position is like that to mean that the girls are already acting differently from your position??"
"Uh...right...right."
"And seeing as you didn't reply at all when I asked 'which young lady' you were interested in, it seems that Esmu includes not only the princess but also Ragnis.?"
I was at a loss for words for a moment..
I never imagined that I would be subjected to interrogation like this.!
"Hmm..."
Asili, who accepted my silence as a positive expression, lowered her eyes for a moment and began to think with a calm expression and atmosphere..
I had no idea that their long-awaited reunion would become entangled in such unintended political issues. Even though I feel like I just passed the point of death a little while ago, the temperature difference is too severe..
But more than anything else, it's so unsettling and difficult that something like that makes Asilier worry and sink..
And I could clearly see that it was not just a matter of being a guardian and causing concern to my family, but that I was afraid that this would lead to a situation in which Asilier would be disappointed or misunderstood me..
I felt like I had forgotten for so long that I was finally realizing that it was the desire to always look good and not disappoint the person I like, but for now, I could only wait until Asilier opened her mouth first..
"Eldy heading towards danger... Yes. It's hard, but it can't be helped now. I understand. I think I was able to be sure of that this time.."
Asilier said as if she had sensed my wish..
"And now I know for sure that I don't want to continue to be by L.D.'s side as a guardian.."
At those words, my heart began to beat like never before, even when I look back on my life so far..
Asilier looked straight into my eyes and quietly held my hand and continued speaking. She had no tremors. In her infinitely calm state, she seemed determined to convey her feelings in a calm manner..
"120You might think that an elf who has lived for years is the main character, but I love L.D.."
Although he may look a bit older, he is ultimately just a 15-year-old kid. Where did he feel love from? Even though she tried hard to appear as adult as possible without worrying about her age in front of her, in the end, I thought that she wouldn't have been like that in the end..
I only thought that the day when I would be accepted by her as an adult of equal status, as I had retained memories of my past life and only had a higher mental age, was far away. So she couldn't help but ask.
"I don't think I... am just a child.?"
"If you really think about it, from my sister's point of view, most humans are children. Should I say that it is a characteristic of the long-lived species... Age actually has no meaning. Ultimately, it is greatly influenced by the mental connection with the other person.."
Asilier, who was talking while looking at my hand, smiled quietly..
"Originally, I wanted to speak confidently when L.D. returned after achieving his goal. I believed that if it was L.D., she would be able to do it. It's not that I don't believe it even now... but after seeing the injured L.D., I got scared. Without being able to convey my feelings like this, I couldn't think of anything because I thought that L.D. might disappear without me. I even found out that fellow human children had similar feelings towards L.D. Hmm, hmm. Um...I was jealous.."
So I overreacted a bit at first. I couldn't tell Asilier, who said that, that it wasn't just an overreaction, it was scary..
"In the past, when I saw my friends being swayed by things like this, I thought they were stupid, but after actually experiencing it, it was completely different. I was so impatient that I couldn't stand it. Sorry."
I didn't know what I was sorry for, so I just held Asilier's hand tightly..
I was so embarrassed that I couldn't get the words out, but I felt like I had to say this, so I managed to get it out..
"I love Asilier too."
"as a family?"
"...You know it's not."
What I felt along with my heart pounding was a deep sense of relief..
In addition to the assurance that it does not have to end in a quasi-family relationship, the affection I felt during the time I spent with Asilier was unintentionally reciprocated, and while I was feeling the warmth of our joined hands, unable to find anything to say in the feeling of being faced with an unexpected barrage of gifts. Asilier stood up and hugged me..
"If I think about it, I guess I was thinking of L.D. like a hero without even realizing it.."
"Warrior?"
"huh. A warrior who learns, grows, and endures hardships on his own, but does not give in and ultimately achieves everything on his own and saves the world. Actually, other than saving the world, it seemed like they were doing something similar.."
Looking back, I think it was just a struggle to survive in this world, but I guess Asilier interpreted it in a pretty good way..
"Even a hero can't do everything on his own, but I guess I overestimated L.D. because he was so good at it.."
"That's totally crazy..."
"Let's not ruin the mood?"
"Yes."
Now, I feel like I can get scared just by looking at those eyes that are wide open. Asilier looked at me with dissatisfaction for a moment, then burst into a small smile and stroked my head..
"Even if it's just to go on a trip together, I think it's right for me to work hard to help LD achieve his goal.."
"...That's right. Because I promised."
How long has it been since I felt the warmth of a person through a proper hug? In fact, there has been quite a bit of physical contact these days, but I can't remember a time since I was young when I was hugged so comfortably..
"But what on earth were you doing to seduce the princess?."
While I was completely relaxed and immersed in the warmth, Asilier's question suddenly struck me..
"Just in case, I'm telling you! It’s not like I’m going to be released or something just because I went to the capital? Did you live diligently while thinking about life after revenge? I deliberately took on the duties of a butler to avoid incurring as much debt as possible to Ogatorf. Really. I didn't write a single lie while sending the letter.."
Thanks to that, I worked so hard that my average sleep time was less than 5 hours, so I wasn't embarrassed at all, but for some reason, I ended up saying it as if it was a lame excuse..
I don't know how she felt when she saw me like that, but Asilier tilted her head and smiled in a more relaxed mood..
"I know that. So, I didn't stop L.D.."
For no reason, I was scared like a numb thief, but while I finally breathed a sigh of relief, I felt a little strength in Asilie's hand as she patted my head and hugged me again..
"For now, I'm satisfied with this. Now I have to chat with the cats.?"
"to?"
"Don't worry. I don't mean to say anything bad."
As she spoke clearly, the door opened and Esmuët and Ragnis came in..
And Asilier spoke first in a calm tone, as if she knew he would come in..
"Can we say hello properly now? Princess Esmueh."
Esmuye, who made eye contact with Asilier, looked at me for a moment, then nodded and tried to approach me with Ragnis..
"Eldmia. Are you feeling okay??"
"uh. The potion is also a potion, but I'm fine except for feeling drowsy, as if they were treating me while I was sleeping...?"
I tried to correct my posture by speaking casually, but Asilier's hand wouldn't loosen..
"sister...?"
"If it's okay, let LD take a break and we can talk for a moment.?"
"Uh... well, since you saved her, I'd like to thank you properly and hear the circumstances directly...."
Even though she was clearly smiling, she felt an unknown pressure and was so nervous that she kept rolling her eyes. It seemed like Esmuye was opening her mouth as if she had been slightly defeated in a battle of wits..
"It would be better to have such a conversation when both of you are tired. Then LED? I'm resting. We'll talk separately.."
"Uh, uhh..."
Asili, who was instantly overwhelmed by the atmosphere, stood up from her seat and began to leave the room, leading confidently against the princess of the empire..
In that brief moment, Esmuye, who was tossing her head between me and Asilier, looked very worried, but Asilier grabbed her hand and almost dragged her out. She had not been able to say a word since the moment she entered the room. Ragnis was no different..
I was left alone in the room like that... I just gave up thinking and went back to bed..
Because that was the only choice I could make. it will work out somehow?
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