878 belated farewell
The sky in February is high and far away. The icy blue sky is tinged with a faint smoky gray, revealing a sense of coldness. When you stretch out your fingertips and touch the sun, a shallow warmth dances between your fingers, but no matter what, No matter how hard you try, you will never be able to touch the clouds in front of you..
So, I closed my fingers, leaving my index finger, and carefully described the shape of the clouds. Using the sky as the curtain, my fingers as the pen, and my thoughts as the paint, I sketched a magnificent picture in my brain, and the whole world became brighten up.
“It's a pity about the weather. You know, there are not many sunny afternoons in New York in the winter. I originally wanted to come over and ask you to fly a kite together. To be honest, have you not gone out for exercise in a long, long time? Ha, I always like to be lazy. Rehabilitation exercises must be carried out every day. You should know better than me..”
“Hey, what do you think of Alaska? I've been thinking recently whether I should try snow sports, such as sledding or something. Do you know? Paul had previously filmed a sled dog movie. He said sledding is a very interesting sport, and it must be very exciting to run wildly in the snowy fields..”
“Yesterday, Fox TV called. They said that 'American Idol' wanted to invite me to the stage to sing 'Beast' during the first week of this year's live broadcast. Ha, how about it? Isn't it ridiculous? How could I possibly agree? They really got carried away..”
“However, I agreed to their request to use the copyright of 'Beast'. Andy suggested that during the opening performance, all the finalists sing this song together. To be honest, I think this proposal is a bit funny, a prank, and generally speaking They all sang classic songs, and 'The Beast' is not a classic. But the entertainment effect is the most important. So, I didn't refuse..”
“……I'm still looking forward to your sung version.”
Quietly, quietly lying on the lawn, crossing his legs, holding an unlit cigarette in the corner of his mouth, looking at the blue sky above his head, chatting nonchalantly, as if Heather had never left, as if time Never passed, they returned to Mount Sinai Hospital again, they returned to those times again, small troubles and worries were always on their lips, but the sunshine was so beautiful..
The entire cemetery is so quiet. You can hear the chirping of birds and the whistling of the wind. It is not affected by the outside world at all. The hustle and bustle of the media, the hustle and bustle of hype, the twittering of debates, and the vigorous attention. Everything is blocked outside, as if entering a completely different world.
Heather, sleep right here..
This is New Jersey, a state adjacent to New York. Compared with the bustling and noisy New York where every inch of land is precious, New Jersey seems a little too quiet. The leisurely atmosphere of the countryside and the desolate vastness of the suburbs make every inch of soil under your feet contain Vibrant.
To New Yorkers, this "vitality" seems to be despicable and low-grade taste, and they all laugh at it; but to the deceased, this "vitality" buries the exuberance and vitality of spring, as if to imply, The end does not mean the end, but the origin of another beginning.
Renly always had an illusion. Heather didn't leave..
He knew that this was an illusion. Heather passed away, the funeral was over, and he was now lying next to the tombstone. His consciousness was very clear, his reason was very certain, everything was extremely real, and there was no misunderstanding. But, he I still have this illusion that time seems to be frozen forever on a certain afternoon on Mount Sinai, and everything in the world has stopped..
Unknowingly, the smile on the corner of his mouth rose, and a smile appeared in his eyes..
“If George and Elizabeth saw this scene, they would be furious, haha. By the way, George is my father and Elizabeth is my mother. I have never had the chance to introduce you to each other. You are my friend and they are my family. .Last time, when my second sister Edith came to New York, I thought about it, but it still didn’t happen. Now it seems that this is a regret.”
“Oh, parents. They are down-and-out nobles. You know, they still have titles, but their wealth and territory are gone. Now they still have to rely on work to make a living. Of course, the difference is that they still live in the upper class and maintain Live a glamorous life while maintaining the etiquette and style of aristocrats.”
“So, when they see me lying here among a bunch of tombstones and enjoying my afternoon leisurely, they should be furious. No, angry, that's not the right word. They should be ashamed. In denial, they Get to know me, and then pretend that nothing happened or never happened, and treat me completely as a transparent person. Well, this is correct.”
……
Smiling, there was a hint of bitterness in the smile on the corner of his mouth.
“Sometimes, I actually envy you, I envy Ellie and Derek's care and consideration. After you passed away, they put all the blame on me, I know, but I don't mind, because they need someone to blame , they need someone to express their anger to, otherwise they will not be able to persist. Losing you is an unacceptable fact for them... I am really envious.”
The words paused for a moment, and suddenly there was a burst of warmth and sadness in his eyes. Renly closed his eyes tightly. His emotions disappeared quickly like an ebbing tide, and his smile bloomed again..
“Heather, let me tell you a secret. This is my second life. My name is Chu Jiashu. I once spent ten years on the hospital bed. I know all your depression and struggle. ;Finally, I also reached the end of my life. When I woke up again, I became Renly Hall..”
“Heather, did you hear that? This is why, this is why I always refuse to give up, this is why I chase my dreams, this is why I am different. If you can hear it, remember it, run, keep running towards that touch The light of hope keeps running. If you have a second chance, don't give up this time. Don't give up..”
The biggest secret hidden deep in the heart is whispered to another soul, a soul that is so similar and so connected to him, as if lying next to him is not Heather Cross, but the former Chu Jiashu, Overcoming the barriers of time and space, he once again saw himself in the past and Heather in the past. The two images gradually overlapped and became difficult to distinguish..
This is the first time and the last time. This is a secret that belongs to Renly and Heather, just like "say you won't give up".
The light sunlight fell down, and the sadness and melancholy hovering in the chest melted and disintegrated; a touch of warmth penetrated in, flowing along the blood towards the heart. The smile was outlined again, and when he opened his eyes, the dark brown eyes regained their consistency. the look of.
I sat up straight and turned my head to look at the epitaph on the tombstone, "Heather Cross, 1995-2012. When the musical notes are flowing, I will realize that there are some things that the darkness cannot escape from me after all. taken away.”
Renly chuckled softly and read the epitaph carefully. He liked this sentence and always did. A trace of relief flowed in his eyes, "This time, Don Quixote will not regret it until the end of his life." For a moment, she was still a dreamer." Then, she gently patted the tombstone, as if patting Heather's shoulder, and then re-flyed the butterfly kite placed in front of the tombstone..
“Goodbye, Heather Cross." The farewell finally came, even though it was late..
There was no hesitation, no sigh, and no reluctance. Renly stood up, took steps, and left the cemetery..
Suddenly, a strong wind blew up. Renly turned his head reflexively, and then he saw the butterfly kite beside the tombstone, fluttering and turning in a hurry, outlining the path of the wind. Flying higher, flying higher and higher, whizzing by, flying freely.
Finally, it disappeared into the icy blue sky, seemingly touching the outline of the clouds and melting into the golden sunlight, never to be seen again. Renly knew that it was finally free..
He withdrew his gaze, took steps again, and walked slowly towards the entrance of the cemetery..
The huge cemetery covers a vast area, and it may take thirty minutes or even sixty minutes just to measure it with your feet. Therefore, people always drive their cars directly into the cemetery, park on the side of the road, and then climb up the steps to carry out the process. sweeping graves.
However, Renly did not drive here today. He just stopped a taxi and left New York. When he arrived at the cemetery, he waved to the driver to leave. He needed some time alone and some time to say goodbye. .As for how to leave, Renly never worried.
I left the cemetery slowly and leisurely, my feet did not feel tired. There was a small town nearby, not noisy and prosperous, but not desolate and remote, just a small town full of life..
I let my footsteps lead me, without consciously identifying the direction. I walked for a long time, I don’t know if it was ten minutes or forty minutes. Finally, I felt hungry, so I stopped at a dilapidated bar on the roadside and opened the door. go in.
The old bar is full of smoky historical texture. Five or six guests are sitting sparsely, peeling peanuts and chatting without a word. The tranquility is a little restless and filled with a touch of warmth. Compared to For New York, the bars here always seem friendlier and more approachable.
“Good afternoon, may I ask what you need? "The young bartender standing at the bar dropped the rag in his hand and walked over..
Renly's eyes fell on the small stage next to him. A middle-aged man was sitting on a high stool, adjusting the guitar in his arms. His long golden brown hair was messy, and his unshaven beard made him look even more miserable. Wearing a greasy and dirty top hat, without lights or microphones, he concentrated on his own business..
“Is there anyone in the kitchen now? Renly asked skillfully. After receiving a positive answer, he ordered the simplest hamburger and fries, then ordered a glass of beer and enjoyed the afternoon leisurely..
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