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The cold wave storm seems to have passed, and the overly dry air still retains the biting and desolate coldness, blowing constantly, and pedestrians coming and going can't help but raise the collars of their coats; however, the sparse and lazy sunshine slowly falls down , passing through the towering steel forest, casting mottled light and shadow on the bustling city streets, revealing a rare touch of vitality in the cold winter.
This is rare good weather in New York in the winter.
Opening the car door and walking out, the bright golden sunshine danced lightly on the bare skin, and the faint warmth whirled slowly. People couldn't help but spread their palms, feeling the momentary movement in their palms, and then closed their fingertips. , quietly collected it; he walked into the lobby of Mount Sinai Hospital, the sun fell behind him, and the warmth in his palms slowly passed away little by little, like an hourglass, and finally dissipated completely..
The hospital is still quiet, orderly, and orderly. The air is like still water and you can't even feel the turbulent undercurrent. Here, life and death, illness and pain are originally part of the composition..
“"Ding", the elevator reached the destination floor, and a group of people walked out of the elevator one after another. Renly turned right skillfully and took steps towards Heather's ward, but Andy's call stopped Renly's steps, "Renly , are you sure this is a good idea? Andy gestured to him, Roy and Nathan, "Isn't it impolite for us to just rush over like this?" Or, let’s just wait in the rest area here. After getting permission from our parents, we can go visit again..”
Renly's eyes fell on the faces of the three people. He paused for a moment and nodded in agreement, "You guys can wait here in the rest area first." The elevator entrance was only a few steps away from the rest area. Renly took the initiative. He started to guide them and led them to the side. "As for the smoking area, one is the balcony outside and the other is the stairwell."……”
Before he could finish his words, Derrick Cross and Elle Cross could be seen outside the bright floor-to-ceiling windows..
Both of them were holding cigarettes in their hands, with haggard faces and messy hair. They were casually wrapped in a coat to resist the cold. They were arguing about something face to face. They looked extremely embarrassed..
At this time, Heather's condition is still critical. Even if she is smoking, two people will not leave at the same time. At least one person needs to be left in the ward. Or... has the situation changed? This thought flashed through his mind, and Renly took the initiative to step forward. At least he needed to say hello..
Along with the footsteps, the voices of the two people gradually became clearer.
“…… Are you crazy? Why call him? He is a star, and the reason why he is willing to appear is to use our Heather to stir up the news.！”
“Ellie! Do you know what you are talking about? Have you lost your mind? What kind of person is Renly? You don’t want to believe your own eyes, but you actually believe those gossip media？”
“I don't know, I don't know! I only know that he is a stranger, a volunteer, and a volunteer. There is no difference between him and the staff in this hospital, but why? Why is he being so nice to Heather?？”
“Ellie! You are being unreasonable! You know what Renly means to Heather, yesterday's concert……”
“I know, of course I know! I know that if it hadn't been for him, if it hadn't been for last night's concert, maybe Heather would have been fine, and maybe Heather's condition wouldn't have deteriorated so quickly.！”
“The doctor has said that Heather's condition is inherently uncontrollable. Didn't the doctor tell us all the risks when we set out for the concert? We decided to go to the concert together.”
“No, it’s you who decides! It's you! New York experienced a cold wave last night. Even a healthy person may get sick walking outside, let alone Heather! It's your decision！”
“But if there is no concert, Heather will not be able to wake up at all. Have you forgotten?？”
“I don't! I haven't forgotten! but i would rather this！”
Ellie's crazy roar was out of control, and Derek calmed down in an instant. He stared at his wife dumbfounded, losing the ability to argue, but Ellie ignored it, her hair became messy in the strong wind, and she was hysterical. Roaring, as if to vent all the pain and despair in his heart, he continued to talk.：
“Yes, I said it, I said it! I would rather Heather was still unconscious, so at least, at least she is alive, can't speak, can't respond, can't smile, can't be in pain, but, at least she is alive! Do you understand? I want my Heather to live, I just want her to live. All dreams, music, Renly, get out of here! I want my daughter, I want my baby! I just want her alive.
I hate him! I hate him! If it weren't for him, Heather would be fine now, Heather would still be with me, and Heather could still hear me. I hate him! Did you hear that? i hate him！”
Gritting his teeth, cursing and hating him, he bared his teeth and claws on that ferocious face, twisted and flamboyant, and gradually blurred into a ball of light and shadow in the background of sparse sunlight and withered branches..
“Renly? "Derek saw the figure inside the glass door and shouted in astonishment. He quickly opened the sliding door and walked in in a panic. "Renly... uh..." He tried to explain something, but found that all the words All stuck in the throat, eyes filled with helplessness and helplessness.
Renly kept a slight smile on his face and nodded politely, "Derek." Then he nodded towards Ellie. Ellie was a little embarrassed, but stubbornly raised her chin and moved. He looked at Derek and refused to make any eye contact with Renly. So Renly looked at Derek again, "Is Heather's condition okay?？”
There was no anger or anxiety as imagined. The Renly in front of him was calm and calm, like a quiet and vast lake, deep blue; but the concern and worry in his eyes were still so sincere, as if all the words he just said , he didn’t hear it at all.
Derek opened his mouth to defend, apologize, and comfort. Countless thoughts were surging in his mind, but he couldn't say a word. He could only droop his shoulders in frustration, "No. She's not in a good condition now." Derek looked back. Looking at his wife, the fragmented back seemed to be falling apart at any time in the cold wind, "Well... the doctor said that the respiratory system is failing faster than imagined. In fact, in the past three weeks, the rate of deterioration has been constant. Speeding up. Now... there's not much they can do now……”
Derek's words were not very coherent. He just repeated the same content over and over dryly. In the end, he could no longer say anything and just stared at Renly blankly, "Sorry, Ellie.……”
Renly waved his hand and said with a smile, "It's okay, I understand..”
Renly knew that Ellie was not targeting him or anyone. She was just full of anger, angry at everything, and then aimlessly vented her anger on everyone and everything around her, as if she just wanted to Once the fault is denounced, Heather can get better and her heart can calm down..
Renly also knew that this would not work. When Ellie realized this deep in her heart, the helplessness and confusion were the most terrifying, like a bottomless abyss, entangled with herself. Some people , I will never be able to get out of this life..
“Renly..." Derek scratched his hair in annoyance. He always felt that he should say something, but in the end he couldn't..
It's not Renly's fault, it's not anyone's fault.
Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, in 2012, is an unpredictable, unstoppable, and incurable disease. It can only be remitted; but even with rehabilitation and remission, the effect is still unknown..
When Heather was diagnosed, the doctor told Derek and Ellie that they need to be mentally prepared at all times. The patient may die in just a year, or may live for more than ten years, but in the future Based on current medical conditions, the average life expectancy of most patients is about three to five years..
This is the seventh year since Heather's diagnosis.
They all know this clearly, but they are still not mentally prepared.
“Derek, can I go into the hospital room and visit Heather? "Renly didn't respond to Derek. If Elf Hall were here, she could speak comforting words with appropriate steps and etiquette, without seeming too close or too distant, but Renly I don't want this. This is not a polite social occasion..
“Oh." Derek reacted, nodded, and was about to speak when Ellie's shout came from behind, "Derek! We need to go back to the ward. The nurses' work should have been completed." Ellie walked out quickly and glanced at Renly, but finally did not dare to look into Renly's eyes. She speeded up, like a gust of wind, passing through Pass.
Derek was stunned, his eyes were in a daze, and his words were stuck in his throat for a while. Finally, Renly reminded him, "Go back to the ward quickly. I think Heather wants to see her parents around.".”
Derek nodded in panic, no longer caring about Renly, and ran after him. The two couples disappeared in the dazzling light of the corridor in a blink of an eye..
“Renly." Nathan's voice of suppressed anger and unwillingness came from behind. Renly turned around with a smile on his face, "It seems that my name was called too many times today. I sang last night. It seems that the aftereffects of the meeting have not dissipated yet..”
Even Andy and Roy had a slight worry between their brows, let alone Nathan. They were both fighting for Renly's injustice, and they were also worried about Renly's condition..
But as the person involved, Renly was the calmest one. The situation he experienced in the previous life happened again. Everything seemed familiar, but this time, he became a bystander. This feeling was really weird..
“You go and get busy with your work first. I'll stay in the hospital for a while and help." Ren Li made a decision immediately, "I will attend the party on time in the evening." Sensing Andy's hesitant look in his eyes, Lan Li made a decision immediately. Li nodded to confirm, "Believe me, I'm fine. Just like last year, if I felt bad, I would take the initiative to bring it up.".”
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