814 So sad
“No, you're not Heather Cross. You're a coward.”
Renly looked at the figure on the hospital bed angrily. She just closed her eyes peacefully. She gave up resistance, gave up struggling, and gave up hope. She refused to wake up again and refused to fight again. She persisted for too long. For a long time, she was too tired to hold on. She just wanted to close her eyes and rest for a while..
He knows, he knows. He has also experienced it, and he has been in the same state. It seems that as long as he gives up, everything will become easier..
However, the simplest thing in this world is to give up. Anyone can give up, but not everyone can persist. After giving up, it is over and there is nothing; if you persist, you may not be able to see the rainbow or have anything. Hope, but at least you can embrace a possibility.
It is precisely because he has experienced life and death, and it is precisely because he has experienced reincarnation that at this moment, Renly is even more angry and helpless, "Heather, fighting may mean pain and suffering; but giving up also means There's nothing left.”
At this moment, Renly revealed the most precious and secret secret in his heart: he was once Chu Jiashu, and he had experienced everything Heather faced..
However, Heather still didn't respond. What greeted Renly was still silence, deathly silence..
Losing control of his emotions in an instant, Renly stood up suddenly, knocking over a stack of books on the table next to him and scattering them all over the floor. The sound of "crash" echoed in the quiet ward, breaking the silence of the ward. In silence, Renly's reason dragged him back to reality. The turbulent emotions gathered again. His chest was so tight that it hurt. He let out a long breath. Renly squatted down and put away all the books..
A piece of note paper fell. Renly picked it up and was about to put it into the book page again, but his eyes fell on Juanxiu's handwriting on the note paper..
The fonts, stroke by stroke, were crooked, like the handwriting of a child who had just learned to write. However, Renly knew that this was Heather's handwriting. Practicing writing was the simplest and most basic part of Heather's daily physical therapy. Xiang, the doctor would even ask Heather to write a diary to record her feelings and thoughts..
This is not a diary, but... Renly doesn't know what it is. Essay？
There are a lot of messy drafts on the note paper, fragmented text fragments, both pros and cons written haphazardly. Among them, there are only a few sentences that can form complete sentences, but they are firmly grasped in the chaos. Out of sight.
“I love you too deeply, but you never know it. I am too afraid of separation and can only pretend not to care. I long for you very much, but I never show it. I hope to stay with you silently until our heads turn gray..”
The curves and turns of each word are so stiff and so forceful, it seems that all the strength of the body and all the weight of the soul have been poured into it. The longing and romance between the lines are really so strong that it makes people breathless. Come. The simplest language, but the deepest emotions.
Secret love is the most powerful and powerless word in the world. It can make people enter heaven, but it can also push people into hell. This is a solo dance that belongs to oneself, dancing selflessly and wantonly in one's own space. The earth is blooming, but no one knows it. So beautiful, but so lonely.
The power was so strong that even my heart couldn't help but tremble slightly..
“When you look back at me, at that moment I forget my age and just want to dance with you at this moment. Your charm will never fade. Let me guarantee that you will only be more moving in the future. You inexplicably make me want to have a family..”
Involuntarily, fragments of memories appeared in my mind.
When he first came to Mount Sinai Hospital, under the guidance of Anita, he visited the main departments and facilities of the hospital and listened to the explanation of precautions..
In the rehabilitation room, a little girl was having a tantrum. She stubbornly threw away everyone's help and the support of the parallel bars, and walked forward firmly and resolutely on her own feet. Her steps were a little staggering. , staggering, but without any problems, slowly, slowly and steadily moving forward.
However, by accident, his left foot tripped his right foot and he almost fell down. Renly happened to be nearby and quickly helped the girl, but before he could regain his footing, the girl pushed Renly away angrily. Li, roaring sharply, "I can do it, I can do it myself! Who needs your help? I am a normal person, there is nothing wrong with me! Don't treat me as a patient！”
The girl's parents rushed over in panic, but the girl was pushing and shoving her with all her teeth and claws, refusing everyone's help..
Renly, who was closest, also hurt Chiyu and was hit on the shoulder and head. After confirming that the girl was standing properly, Renly released his hands and said with a smile, "It's not just the sick who need help. Every normal person may need help." ." After saying that, Renly politely gave up his position and prepared to leave under the leadership of Anita..
The girl's mother shouted, "Young man." Renly turned his head, "I'm sorry, and thank you..”
That was the first time he met Heather, the girl with thorns all over her body, the girl who fought hard and refused her fate, the girl who was stubborn and would rather fall than admit defeat..
“I want to stay with you, through death, because you are always waiting there, when I need it most. I will always love you until I use up my last breath, until death takes me away..”
At the age of sixteen, she spent nearly half of her life in the hospital, with her hands and feet bound in this small world. She could not see the bright future or the meaning of life. , even the right to love and be loved has been deprived.
She wants to be like every girl, falling in love with the most handsome boy in school, secretly falling in love with him, getting excited because of his look, and being excited because of a brush with him; she wants to be like every girl, Secretly putting on makeup to show off her best year, enjoying the beauty of youth and reveling wantonly; she also wants to be like every girl, longing for the beauty of love, dreaming about meeting her significant other, and being close to each other. Hold each other's hands and walk towards the end of life.
But, she can't and can't see.
She could only carefully treasure her longings, expectations, and beautiful visions deep in her heart, and even did not dare to reveal her emotions of envy and yearning. Staying together until the moment of death, how magnificent, How magnificent, yet so out of reach.
His eyes fell on the bottom of the note, and then the familiar yet unfamiliar words hit his eyes, "Renly, Renly, Renly, Renly, Renly..." Cycle, cycle.
One name after another, one gesture after another, quietly telling the girl's thoughts, timid and shy, sweet and bitter, beautiful and romantic, a simple word can contain the most powerful and most powerful words in the world. tender emotions.
Caught off guard, Renly's nose felt sore. All the lines of defense were completely defeated. He was helpless and surrendered. He just squatted on the spot, unable to do anything. At this moment, Renly was so helpless and so confused. He was like this I was stunned here, put down my weapons, put down my guard, and felt so sad..
He doesn't know, he never knew.
Carefully put the note paper back into the book, then put the book in his hand back on the table, and sat on the chair again. He quietly looked at the green and immature face, which was so pale that there was no trace of blood, and it was peaceful. In silence, a smile appeared on Renly's lips, and he greeted softly, "Hey, Heather, just in case you forget my voice, I'm Renly.".”
“Remember? You said you would never let go." Renly said sincerely and attentively, "Last time in the Pioneer Village, we watched 'Buried Alive', met Lily Collins, and solved a gunman. , later, I composed the song "Go Forward", do you remember? You said you would never let go.”
“"Go forward bravely", this song was originally composed by Renly for Heather, the lyrics go like this：
“My beloved, don’t worry anymore. When the world is freezing cold and my heart is heavy, I will hug you warmly and never let go. Never, until the blood dries up, I will stay with you. Don’t worry anymore. I firmly believe that we are will move forward courageously.”
So when Heather left, she whispered in Renly's ear, "I will never let go.”.
“Now, it's time to fulfill our promise." Renly reminded, teasing softly, "We are all people who keep our promises, you don't want to leave with a reputation of being 'treacherous'.”
Looking at Heather's pale face, the faint blue blood vessels were flowing slowly under the skin, and it seemed that one could clearly see that the vitality was dissipating bit by bit, gently tugging on the heart, and the slight pain continued to spread. Come on, it's not fatal, but it's unbearable.
“Remember 'Me Fighting Cancer'? Adam didn't give up, and you shouldn't give up either." Renly slowly stretched out his hand and carefully covered the back of Heather's left hand with his right hand. The fair skin still had a faint warmth, but under Renly's hot touch There was a slight throbbing in the palm of the hand, which made people shudder..
Renly said in a deep voice, "Adam has a new life, and you can too. For example, your dream? To sing my songs on the stage of 'American Idol'? I am waiting quietly; for example, what is your dream?" , my movie? 'Transcendence' is about to be released, what will happen to the box office without you?……”
The sound stopped abruptly here, dragging out a long tail note, trembling slightly..
Renly couldn't help lowering his eyelids, hiding his embarrassment, "Let's take the concert as an example. Maybe one day in the future, I can go on stage and hold a concert. Although I don't think there will be an audience, maybe all the tickets will be I can't sell it; but, it doesn't matter, as long as there is one audience, as long as you are willing to appear in the audience, I am willing to complete this concert. What do you think of this deal?？”
There was a bitterness in the soreness of the nose, and it was almost difficult to swallow, but Renly showed a big smile, bright and bright, raised Heather's little finger, and gently pulled it, "Heather Cross , let’s make an agreement like this, okay?？”
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