790 give up on oneself
The camera once again switched to the interview mode at the beginning of the movie. Henry looked at the camera sincerely. In a super close-up, the rays of light in his eyes were so clear, as if he had crashed into the stars in the sky. He stretched out his hand and You can touch the complicated emotions.
“Children have too much energy. They are bored." Henry's words were calm, as if he was lost in his own thoughts, "If you don't have anything substantial to share, how can they believe you? Believe those...what about literature in the classroom? "After saying that, Henry's eyes were still calm, without much disturbance, but it always made people feel that there were stories hidden in those eyes, waiting for people to discover them..
After class was over, the chubby girl who spoke to Henry did not leave. She still stayed in her seat and asked curiously, "Why did you only kick Marcus out but let Jerry stay?"？”
“I have to kill the chicken to scare the monkeys." Henry raised his eyebrows slightly, with a smile on his lips, "Marcus insulted you verbally. In my class, this is not allowed. It doesn't matter what you say about me." After a moment of silence, Henry asked, "What's your name?"？”
“Meredith.”
“Nice to meet you, Meredith.”
Seeing Henry's smile, Meredith looked away blankly, "Do you really not care about the children being rude to you?？”
Henry thought seriously for half a second, and then shrugged invisibly, "Maybe I've already gotten used to it..”
Meredith showed an envious look, "I wish I were that strong..”
“This is not about being strong, Meredith." Henry let out a long breath and said with a smile, "You have to understand that, unfortunately, most people act according to their own sense of self, and you have to remember that because you don't have a chance. Starting over, you will meet the same kind of people at every stage of your life.”
Mark adjusted his sitting posture. To be honest, he didn't understand the intention of this work. Naughty students, caring teachers, so this is a work like "Dead Poets Society" or "Springtime of the Cowherd Class" ? But in Renly's performance, the deep and sad power never goes away. This is why？
Immediately afterwards, Mark gradually understood something: this is a school that has fallen into an abyss. The students are stubborn and disobedient, uneducated, swearing, and self-destructive; and the parents also refuse to reflect on themselves, shirk responsibility, are stubborn, and are punished. Improper.
Every teacher is deeply trapped and desperate. They try hard to complete their work, but are unable to do so. Each shoulder carries an unbearable weight..
In the dead of night, Henry could not sleep. He wandered on the streets all night long, muttering to himself and singing his own poems, like a lonely soul, wandering in the bright lights of the night, feeling lost; He dragged his tired footsteps back home, but the call from the hospital forced him to leave the house again..
His grandfather, who was suffering from Alzheimer's disease, locked himself in the bathroom again and kept shouting the name of "Patricia" - that was Henry's mother, refusing to come out; Henry had to go to the hospital in person to bring his grandfather to the hospital. After persuading him to come out, he helped him go to bed to rest. Looking at his grandfather talking to himself about death and the blank diary, Henry fell into deep powerlessness and pain..
So, he vented all his anger on the nursing staff in the hospital. After bursting out heartily, he slammed the door and left. However, sitting on the bus home, he fell apart bit by bit. When he saw a When an underage special service provider was serving an alcoholic, despair and pain completely broke down all defense lines. He opened his eyes wide and let tears flow freely, but there was no trace of soul in those eyes..
Mark was shocked, completely shocked.
Tony Kaye once again used the close-up lens of the pseudo-documentary. The rough film quality can even clearly see the noise surging restlessly under the night. The unpolished original texture is completely It is completely close to the actor's cheek, magnifying every detail in the expression to the extreme..
There are no lines, no plot, and even no context. Renly's eyes truly and clearly show the entire process of emotional ups and downs, silent shouts, silent roars, and numb wailings, which gradually lose focus. The tears in my eyes couldn't stop at all, as if I could truly see the process of the light of the soul dimming little by little..
The delicacy and publicity of the acting skills are magnified and magnified on the big screen with unprecedented shock..
Mark involuntarily opened his mouth slightly, and his soul froze in place, completely losing the ability to think. Inexplicably, his vision blurred, but before the tears had time to condense, they dissipated and evaporated, leaving only the hazy The world, full of bitterness and sadness, fainted like ripples.
This is the encounter between Henry and Erica. Even though she had just "served" a drunk man for free, not only did she not ask for the fee, but she also got a slap in the face, but Erica didn't care at all and captured Seeing the pity and pain in Henry's eyes, he immediately followed Henry off the bus, trying to complete the second business of the night, and even pestered Henry endlessly, blaming all the faults and responsibilities on Henry..
That indifferent and self-defeating attitude makes people feel distressed and even more angry..
“She used to be a gentle and lovely girl, but she always had too many demands on life, so what right did she have to be dissatisfied? Her mother and I had tried to meet all of her needs, so why was she suddenly so surly? So crude? So mean? We don't understand. Frankly, it has nothing to do with us, we were competent parents, but she repaid our efforts by committing suicide, a selfish and stupid minor, and now she will never have a chance to attend Princeton University ——Anonymous.”
This was an assignment assigned by Henry in the first class. In the second class, he shared these assignments with the students. This was an assignment from an anonymous person. The indifference and cruelty between the lines reflected the inner feelings of this student. pain and suffering.
As a substitute teacher, Henry didn't know what to do. Logically speaking, his duty was not to "teach and educate people", but just to maintain order and wait for the real teacher to come and take over. Then he would complete the handover of the work and move on to the next step. A school. But the problem is that the real employees don’t know what to do..
The foul-mouthed, careless gangsters; the scantily clad underage girls who have no self-respect... If they are not willing to save themselves, and if their parents are not willing to help, then what can the teachers do? What should we do?？
Henry's grandfather's condition became worse and worse. Not only did he become incontinent in the hospital bed, but his memory became increasingly blurred. He kept mentioning his daughter Patricia and seemed to see Patricia coming to visit him in the hospital. But Henry was unwilling to respond and fell into painful suffering. He looked back at his grandfather who was confused and overwhelmed, but he was helpless and could not help..
On the way home, Henry saw Erica again at the bus stop.
Erica tried to borrow money from Henry, ten dollars, because she was hungry; Henry eventually relented, took Erica home, and made her a sandwich.
Inadvertently, Henry discovered traces of scars on Erica's exposed skin. He carefully unbuttoned the fishnet stockings, and then saw Erica's scarred inner thighs covered with blood. His dark brown eyes dimmed slightly, and he looked at Erica seriously, "Have you been raped by anyone recently?"？”
“What do you care? "Erica was like a hedgehog covered with sharp thorns, pricking back directly..
“I'm not sure how to deal with it." Henry still remained calm, without sympathy, pity, or anger, "But if I say so, I will wear more clothes..”
Erica didn't appreciate it at all. She tried to continue to sell her services, and was even willing to discount, one hundred dollars, now only fifty dollars, but Henry skipped these tricks and took Erica to the bathroom, leaving After unloading the medical supplies, he taught Erica how to disinfect; he left a clean bath towel and asked her to clean herself; then he went to the hall, made a floor for himself, and gave Erica the sofa bed..
Looking at Henry's leaving figure, Erica felt a little dazed, as if she was too unfamiliar with everything..
Early the next morning, Henry went to work, leaving Erica at home. But it was another bad day..
Hooligans who get out of control with violence and destroy public facilities; parents who try to blame the school and even take the opportunity to extort money; introverted students who torture and kill small animals for fun but are unrepentant; parents who are completely unaware of the seriousness of the problem and don't care. …The whole world is full of negative energy.
When Henry returned home, he found that Erica was servicing a middle-aged man with her mouth. Henry lost control of his emotions, and he grabbed the man's collar fiercely, "Did you pay? Did you pay?" Is there any money?” The frightened middle-aged man only had time to leave a pile of green banknotes and was kicked out of the apartment..
Facing the furious Henry, Erica shrank on the bed in fear, and just said timidly, "Don't hit me.".”
Henry didn't take action, he just handed the tissue to Erica; then took out the clean sheets and asked Erica to change them. Looking at Henry with a disappointed face, Erica knelt down in front of him carefully and said, "No. Angry, okay?？”
“I'm not angry." Henry shook his head slightly..
Erica's voice trembled slightly, "Don't think I'm hopeless, okay? I'll never do it again, I promise.”
Henry looked at Erica blankly, lowered his eyes, and carefully pulled up Erica's open shirt, "You don't need to promise me. No matter what it is, whatever you want to do, you just do it. Just do it." , not here. Do you understand?？”
Erica tried to catch Henry's gaze, but failed. She knelt there blankly, motionless..
Involuntarily, Mark felt a sore nose. The depressing and dull emotion blocked his throat. He couldn't make any sound, and his mouth was full of bitterness..
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