717 Warm and touching
Adam gradually became numb.
He knew that he had cancer, everything was so real, the pain of chemotherapy tortured his body all the time, and the sensitivity of his bare head in the sea breeze of Seattle did not help. He was no longer calm and indifferent. , no longer as if nothing had happened, his world has been turned upside down, and he can no longer remain indifferent..
But, he can't feel any emotion. He's trying, he's trying, but he's getting nothing..
Kyle used his cancer to hook up with girls, but he didn't feel anything; he didn't feel his mother's constant killing spree; Rachel betrayed him and had sex with other men, but he didn't feel it; Rachel tried to excuse herself with sweet words , Kyle condemned indignantly, the two of them had a quarrel, and he didn't feel anything.
He faced chemotherapy and cancer alone, walking through the huge city alone and lonely, but he didn't feel anything; while walking the dog, a girl showed interest in him, but he didn't feel anything; Kyle took him with him He went to the bar to meet up with a girl, chatted, drank, and slept with her, but he still didn't feel anything..
His weight is dropping, his body is protesting, his stomach is rejecting all food... He has no feeling.
The world of cancer and the real world have merged. Cancer is changing every aspect of his life, but he doesn't feel anything. He tries to be angry, he tries to be sad, he tries to care, he tries to be this Part of the world, he tried to reawaken his feelings, he tried to connect with life again, but, he failed..
He was experiencing all this, but he couldn't feel it. It was as if... it was as if all the changes brought about by cancer were naturally integrated into his life. All the complicated emotions slipped through his heart little by little, and he Clearly aware of their existence, he knew that he should be angry, he should be lonely, he should be sad, he should be lonely, he should be in pain, he should be afraid, he should be afraid, but, nothing. He couldn't feel anything..
numbness.
this is how he feels.
Seeing Adam sitting quietly at the bus stop, waiting for the bus. Without Rachel to pick him up, and Kyle still had his own work, Adam could only take the bus back and forth. Tessa tasted a faint sadness..
With those thin shoulders, pale lips and confused eyes, cancer has become more real than ever before. There is no ups and downs, no crying, no sadness of self-pity, no strength to force a smile, just numbness. , like a hiker in the desolate autumn, walking alone through the mountains and ridges, with difficulties and obstacles extending under the feet, but the lonely and indifferent back outlines the grandeur and magnificence of the entire world..
Gently sticking out the tip of her tongue, Tessa tasted the taste of tears, but this time, her eyes were dry and there were no tears. The taste on the tip of her tongue penetrated deep into her heart..
Catherine saw Adam on the way home, and forcefully invited Adam into the car and escorted him home..
Looking at the car that was like a garbage dump, Adam's cold eyes flashed with a trace of speechlessness and disgust. Catherine seemed to have noticed what Adam meant, and she twitched her lips awkwardly, "I'm sorry for being so messy, I'm not very good at sorting this out. thing.”
“You can see it." Adam's head didn't move, he just squinted his eyes. He didn't roll his eyes, but it created the effect of rolling his eyes. The disgust was overflowing, and the corners of Tessa's mouth couldn't help but curl up again..
“If you need me to stop the car or anything else, just tell me." Catherine said considerately, "For example, chemotherapy..." Finally, Catherine simply stated her original intention, "If you feel nauseated, just tell me. Will park the car.”
“Okay. Thank you." Adam said in a hoarse voice, but his neck still did not turn, and he stared straight ahead..
The carriage fell silent again. This strange silence had a sense of absurd joy. Adam's expressionless face and Catherine's rich expression formed a sharp contrast..
“So you don't have a car？”
“No, I don't even have a driver's license.”
“oh? Why？”
“Because... well, it's too dangerous. Probably the fifth leading cause of death? Adam blinked, then blinked again, still expressionless, "I guess this is just a little behind cancer." Still expressionless..
Such a cute contrast, the whole screening room burst into laughter. Tessa and Hope were no exception. But after laughing, the faint sadness and bitterness surged up again, and my heart was empty and without a trace. I was in a trance. For a moment, Tessa seemed to feel the same way, deeply feeling Adam's numbness..
“But...what about the bus? Catherine was still surprised, "Take the bus after chemotherapy?" "This sounds so sad. Where are the family? Where are the friends?"？
“Oh, yes." Adam seemed to react belatedly at this moment, "Rachel usually comes to pick me up. But..." Adam paused for a moment, with a trace of thinking in his eyes, as if he was thinking about what happened. It meant something, but he couldn't think of a reason. When he came to his senses, he quickly said, "But we broke up. She cheated.".”
Fact, just stating a fact.
Catherine was already stunned. While driving, she kept looking back at Adam, her face full of worry; but Adam still had a calm face, which made Catherine blink her eyes and ask questions, "Adam, do you want to talk? Talk?？”
Adam pursed his lips and raised his eyebrows lightly, "Actually, there's no need. We just left the hospital, so there's no need to turn the carriage into a clinic. Now you're giving me a ride like a friend.".”
“Yes, Adam." Catherine couldn't stop her worries at all, "If……”
Adam's voice rose slightly, "You know what we really need to talk about is that there is garbage on your ground!" Maybe he still cares. Deep down in his heart, those emotions and emotions are real, and it's just him. Choosing to forget and ignore. It’s just that he doesn’t want to talk about it now. “This doesn’t make sense! I mean, you can at least put a garbage bag in the back seat..”
“Adam, your girlfriend betrayed you." Catherine interjected, but then she saw Adam's gaze turning around. For the first time, Adam responded and made a move, and those calm eyes made her panic. The ground dodged away, "We don't have to talk about this, there's no need.！”
Adam noticed Catherine's panic, and when he looked away, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but raise, and his numb and stiff eyebrows gradually softened..
Catherine was a little embarrassed and a little jerky. She tried to resolve it, so she continued to talk, "I just broke up with someone else. It feels really bad.".”
“real? Oh, sorry." Adam didn't expect this development line..
“No, it's okay, that's good. Because..." Catherine suddenly stopped and stayed there for a long time, "We shouldn't talk about this actually..”
“Why？”
“It is inappropriate to talk to you about my personal matters. Because if you know about my personal problems, the relationship between doctors and patients will be difficult." Catherine's explanation made Adam understand, but she still endured it. She couldn't help but add, "But I have to admit, I still check his Facebook every day to see if he is dating anyone. This is really sad." As she said this, Catherine frowned. His brows were filled with regret, "I shouldn't have said that, I shouldn't have said that.”
The smile on Adam's lips also rose high, and he nodded vigorously, "Yes..”
Awkward. "We should listen to the radio." Catherine turned on the radio, letting the sound buffer the awkward atmosphere between the two people..
Adam turned his head and looked at Catherine quietly. There was not much expression on his face, but the tenderness after the laughter just remained, which sparsely settled between his eyebrows. His dark brown eyes were filled with stars. But I can't tell whether it's the refraction of light and shadow outside the car window or other reasons..
“Stop the car," Adam said without warning..
“What's wrong, are you feeling uncomfortable? "Catherine panicked and immediately parked the car on the side of the road..
“I just..." Adam opened the car door and collected all the garbage under his feet. "I can't bear it anymore." Then he got out of the car with the garbage in his arms and walked towards the trash can next to him..
“are you serious? Catherine's voice was distorted, she was extremely panicked, and then she ran all the way to catch up with Adam, "Adam, wait, wait, you don't have to do this, that's my dinner. That brown bag is my dinner.".”
The entire screening room burst into laughter instantly. Tessa couldn't help but hug her belly and watched Adam holding a lot of garbage. Then Catherine pulled out a brown box from it and signaled that it was her dinner. All the audience couldn't stop laughing. Then the two people started cleaning up Catherine's car on the side of the road..
A simple conversation seems to have no special content, but it makes people feel warm, a touch of warmth. The eye contact between the eyebrows, the emotional exchange between words, watching, listening, and smiling. The corners of every audience member’s mouth and eyebrows were not noticed at all..
However, Adam noticed that his emotions seemed to have returned, and his life seemed to have returned..
Rachel came back in embarrassment, frustrated by her career and abandoned by the artist. She hoped to get back together with Adam, but he asked her to get out of his house; Rachel kept one of her paintings at Adam's house and did not take it away. The nickname was given to him, and he and Kyle smashed eggs at the painting and burned it.
He joined Alan and Mickey, sitting in the courtyard, leisurely enjoying the magical life brought by a marijuana in the afternoon, and then complained about his work.
He bravely rejected his mother's excessive care and said that he could be strong; he opened his heart and tried to communicate with Catherine, and the psychological consultation finally began to bear fruit; he actively accepted chemotherapy and began to fight against cancer..
However, all this stopped when Mickey passed away. Mickey passed away, a cancer patient passed away, and his chemotherapy patient passed away..
TV news is reporting, "A volcano at Mount Moa in the Savai'i Highlands is presumed to have erupted early this morning, spewing a black plume of ash and smoke four miles high. Initial reports said the volcano's activity was waning." But now according to the analysis of our experts, its activities are actually intensifying.”
Adam sat there, looking at the news, and was stunned..
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