060 meet again
Jennifer looked around the room casually, and soon noticed the mess left on the bed next door, a dark blue backpack, a pair of scraps of paper, and some handicraft making tools, "What is today's activity?？”
In order to keep her muscles developed and flexible, Heather needs to undergo a lot of reconstruction every day. Even the movement of her fingers, such as writing, can be regarded as a type of reconstruction..
“Kite." Heather answered subconsciously, but then realized that her answer was wrong, "No, today's reconstruction is not about making something, but..." Heather was a little irritated, but she didn't want to continue talking about her reconstruction. , so he cut off the words directly, "Anyway, those are not reconstructed things, just... just..." Heather couldn't find a suitable word to describe it. This feeling was really terrible.！
Jennifer could sense Heather's contradictions and entanglements. She did not press further, but half-jokingly condemned, "So, what about the kite? Did this guy make half of the thing and then ran away?"？”
Heather didn't speak. She turned her head and looked deeply out the window. Her obscure expression made it impossible to guess..
Jennifer couldn't help but be a little surprised. She walked to the window and saw the happy crowd below - Alex was holding a kite in his hand and running quickly down the slope. Behind him stood a little girl pulling the kite shaft. Behind her, a tall man squatted down, grabbed the kite string with both hands, and controlled the speed of the kite. Then a group of little guys ran aimlessly behind Alex..
Laughter, noise, hooting... were flying freely under the early spring sunshine. The vitality in the air broke through the shackles of winter and was vented heartily. There were many hospitalized children and parents standing nearby. Everyone, everyone seemed to be watching the fun, with smiles on their faces involuntarily..
Inadvertently, the corners of Jennifer's mouth also slightly raised.
Mount Sinai Hospital is a children's hospital. Although people work hard to stay optimistic and the children's laughter is always boiling, the heaviness deep in their hearts never goes away. Those young lives who are suffering from diseases It's always unbearable. But today, the laughter that was shattered by the breeze made the whole hospital come alive..
Looking back, Jennifer saw Heather quickly letting go of her teeth, but the slowly returning color of her lips revealed what she had just done, and the stubbornness in her eyes could not conceal the surging envy..
In the past few months, she would come to visit Heather whenever she had time. Perhaps because they were both girls and close in age, Heather did not object to her approach, which made the two of them become good friends. But Today, Heather's reaction was really a bit abnormal..
After thinking about it, Jennifer asked carefully, "Heather, is he the person who made the kite?" Although she didn't specify, Jennifer's intuition told her that Heather knew who she was talking about, but Heather didn't. He answered directly, but lowered his eyes and avoided the question, which is even more strange..
Suddenly, an idea flashed in her head, and Jennifer said tentatively, "So, he is that guy?" The guy who disappeared for nearly eight months because of work.
Jennifer's ears grew calluses when she heard the story about that guy. Every nurse here knew him, and many people praised him. Later, he left New York for work, and he kept calling. Come back to ask about the situation. Even Heather is no exception. She is always happy to tell interesting things about that guy. It seems that the memories are all bright yellow..
But as time went on and he never came back to New York, Heather gradually began to lose her smile, almost thinking that he would never come back, just like the friends who gradually disappeared in her life. So Heather closed her door again I have lost my heart and refused to make new friends. I am not so active even in reconstruction, as if... I have given up..
As soon as Jennifer said the words, you could see Heather's brows frowning, and the turbulence in her eyes could hardly be concealed. Even if she didn't speak, Jennifer had already got the answer she wanted..
Jennifer couldn't help but turn her head and look out the window again. Because the distance was too far, she couldn't see the face of the man. She could only vaguely see a palm-sized figure, but the bright smile that was enough to eclipse the sun was clear. The ground comes into view, making the eyes always lean towards him involuntarily..
“Yes, that's him." Heather answered abruptly, breaking the silence in the room, "That's Renly..”
“The legendary Renly! "Jennifer joked meaningfully. The secret code between the girls couldn't be more obvious. Jennifer was hinting in a barely concealed way that Heather had a crush on Renly..
These teasing words made Heather grit her teeth, "I just like the music he recommended." After explaining it, Heather felt it was still not enough, so she added, "He is a very knowledgeable person, and it seems that he has something to do with it." Everyone knows that I just enjoy the process of talking to him..”
No one can know everything. But Jennifer did not burst Heather's fantasy bubble. Every girl will have a crush. That person seems to be omnipotent and shines like the sun in every move. As long as he appears, That's the whole world. Every girl is the same. But Jennifer couldn't help but recall her crush, that was... high school? Or junior high school? The memory has actually become so blurry.
“So, shouldn't you be happy that Renly is finally back? "Jennifer asked curiously.
Heather looked out the window quietly, with a trace of envy in her eyes. She envied those people who could run wildly and feel the solidity and thickness of the earth with their feet; she envied those people who could laugh loudly and never feel it in their lungs. Burning and blockage; she envied those people who could enjoy the sun like normal people, talk, write, and walk. These things that were taken for granted for other patients were stripped away from her body bit by bit. She felt a sense of humiliation. feel.
“However, he will leave again eventually, right? "Heather said softly. After experiencing separation again and again, she was tired of it..
Jennifer sighed softly, "How do you know that he is not worried about your leaving deep down?？”
“How could I leave? I'm stuck here! Forever! "Heather shouted excitedly, even sitting up directly, clenching her fists, her cheeks flushed, and using all her strength to express her anger..
Jennifer wanted to give her a hug, but she held back, because she knew that at this moment, Heather did not need other people's comfort and pity, "Heather, you know what I mean." ALS is a disease like this. There is no cure now, so at the end of time, the first person to leave is likely to be Heather, not Renly, or someone else. "Renly chose to come back. He is more courageous than others, and you chose to escape.”
Jennifer's words were so cruel, cruelly cutting off Heather's fig leaf, leaving her embarrassed, but she did not stop there, but continued, "The doctor said, you can still walk now." Heather's condition The development speed is somewhat faster than expected, but it has not deteriorated to a bad level. Now Heather can still walk, but she chose to give up..
Heather was stabbed in pain and was speechless. She could only shout at Jennifer, "You don't know, you don't know anything. You are a healthy person. You just stand by and watch my joke. Your The words were so easy, but you don’t know what they mean to me!” Heather pointed in the direction of the door, “Get out, I ask you to get out.！”
Jennifer opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but after hesitating for a moment, she finally strode away..
She wanted to help Heather, she desperately wanted to help Heather, but after all, she was still too young. In her twenty-year-old life, she had not experienced so many storms. Sometimes, even if she wanted to help, she was powerless. .This sense of powerlessness and frustration made her hate herself a little..
However, she also knows that this is not about herself. The patients who are suffering from the disease are the protagonists. She can't force the patients to accept her kindness just because of her own sense of powerlessness and eagerness, can she?？
After leaving the ward, Jennifer's mind was in a mess. Before she could raise her head, she saw a wall at the door. She couldn't help but take half a step back. When she raised her head, she saw Renly standing at the door. She couldn't help but froze. ——Because, she recognized at a glance that this was the man she met at the Los Angeles Airport last time, and the kite in his hand at this time hinted that he was the Renly that Heather said, and he had a lot of information. It was so big that Jennifer couldn't handle it for a while..
Renly also saw Jennifer in front of him, and his eyebrows could not help but rise slightly. He had heard the end of the argument just now, and was still wondering who it was. Unexpectedly, he saw a completely unexpected figure. However, at this time, there was also With more important tasks at hand, Renly smiled and nodded at Jennifer. Without saying anything else, he opened the ward door and walked in..
“go out! "Heather didn't even see who was coming, so she yelled over. However, this time she didn't get a response, so she yelled again, "Get out! "Raised his head, and then saw Renly.
Renly held a butterfly kite in his hand and stood there with a smile. He didn't show any signs of abnormality due to Heather's emotional ups and downs. He just stood there peacefully and calmly..
Heather only felt that she had hit a cotton wall. It felt terrible to be unable to use her strength, so she turned her head angrily and refused to communicate with Renly in any form..
Renly took another step, walked to the window, carefully put the kite up, and then took two steps back to take a closer look. After confirming that it was correct, he smiled at Heather and said, "I'm leaving first. See you next week, Heather." As if nothing happened just now, Renly walked to the side, packed his things, and then left the room..
The room became quiet again, but Heather's eyes couldn't help but fall on the kite. Behind the transparent window was the blue sky. The kite was placed there motionlessly, looking a little inconsistent but extremely harmonious. She couldn't bear it in her mind. I couldn't help but start to describe the appearance of this butterfly kite flying into the sky..
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