465 A first glimpse into the door
he is still alive.
This was the first thought that came to his mind after he was reborn. He thought he had given up, he thought he was finally free, he thought he was at peace. During his ten years of bedridden life, his mood had gone through countless ups and downs. Fu, everything finally returned to calm, just wanting to end it all.
Just like what Adam said just now, "I just want this to end soon." The kind of collapse after extreme despair, the helpless choice to surrender, the pain and struggle hidden behind, all turned into helpless sigh.
He thought he was like this.
But when his eyes opened, he saw the light again, started to breathe again, felt the vitality again, and was sure that when he was reborn as a baby, he was covered in blood, weak, and short of breath, but life was so real. After all, he I couldn't hold it back and started crying loudly, as if I had lost the whole world but found it again. I couldn't stop crying..
As a baby, this is his right. The old soul imprisoned in a young body finally collapsed after experiencing the catastrophe of life and death. He was not hungry, nor did he pee, he was just... alive. Tears I can't stop at all, I just cry and cry without any end..
He knew that he still wanted to live. So sincere, so urgent, so eager. Not only did he want to live, he also wanted to breathe, walk, stand, live...want to be free. Once upon a time, This was all a luxury wish for him, and it was impossible to realize it, so he chose to give up and surrender. However, the fire deep in his heart never went out..
He is Chu Jiashu, he is Renly Hall. At this moment, he is still Adam.
He believes that Chu Jiashu and Adam are different. The difficulties they face, the hardships they experience, and the pain they endure are all different. Just like in the early stages of filming "I Fight Cancer", his mentality and emotions must be different. Make adjustments, even the rhythm, method and connotation of the performance need to be adjusted.
But today, he realized that Chu Jiashu and Adam were the same.
They are all suffering from illness and are helpless; they are all missing out on the excitement of life and regretting it for the rest of their lives; they are all longing for the continuation of life and rebirth from the ashes..
The night before Adam's surgery, the images deep in Renly's memory were awakened, images that he almost thought he had forgotten: after death, before rebirth, that dark passage, the long run, seemed to be endless, he didn't know He didn't know where the end point was, and he didn't know what was ahead of him. He just kept running with his head down, instinctively running towards the light at the end. The desire to survive dominated his feet, and he ran with all his strength..
Adam's despair, Adam's pain, Adam's repression, Adam's madness, Adam's release, everything is so real and clear.
Adam and Will, Adam and Chu Jiashu, Adam and Renly, each image is so distinct and unique, but at this moment they all merged together without any hindrance. The boundaries between method and experientialism completely disappeared, Even the control and framework of expressionism have disappeared. Performance is no longer a performance, but a resonance from the depths of the soul, everything is natural..
The eternal theme of life and death has sublimated Renly's thoughts and soul. The fourth-dimensional barrier in the movie and the different-dimensional barrier of two lives have all disappeared..
The moment when life is born and the moment when life dissipates are always so great and so magical. Sadness and happiness are intertwined, pain and joy are fused, but they never learn to face it calmly. Even if he is reincarnated as a human being, even if he is After escaping death, even if he is reborn, facing death, he is still just a beginner.
There was a sudden silence, and his brain calmed down. Those angry roars, those regretful sighs, those painful struggles... all the noise disappeared. After the hearty venting of emotions, calmness returned, whether it was Adam's, Whether it’s Chu Jiashu’s, it’s all like this..
He wants to continue living, yes, not just to survive, not just to live, but to make his life more exciting. One day, even if he lives just one more day, he will choose different Method. However, now the choice and decision-making power are no longer in his hands. He can only wait and wait quietly.——
Survival or death? This is a question and a fork in the road. He cannot face death calmly, but at least he can face tomorrow calmly..
His mind completely calmed down, and the tight shoulder lines gradually softened, and the vicissitudes and experiences of two lives were settled. He slowly leaned back on the chair, his back muscles relaxed a little, and the corners of his mouth inadvertently overflowed. With a silent sigh, his eyelids slowly drooped, hiding a touch of fatigue..
Anna stood there, looking blankly at Adam sitting in the driver's seat. There was a slight smile on his lips, and the light in his eyes finally returned to calm. The darkness swallowed most of it, leaving only the last bit of halo. , barely breathing, but his emotions have calmed down.
There is no anger, no despair, no sadness; similarly, there is no resistance, no struggle, no fight back, just accepting one's fate calmly..
Stand tall and embrace death. So calm, so calm.
Suddenly, the tears burst out again. Anna could hardly control her emotions and covered her mouth. The tears completely burst out..
Jonathan Levine froze on the spot, dumbfounded. He didn't know how Renly did it. Renly was only twenty-one years old this year, but his experience and wisdom, which had gone through many vicissitudes of life, made him His facial features were tinged with a thin layer of jade-colored halo, but a look in the corner of his eyes revealed the confusion between life and death..
Is this the power of acting? This is just the power of acting？
Jonathan couldn't believe his eyes. Renly's performance broke the shackles of time, the blockade of time, and the shackles of time and space, and told the theme of the movie vividly. Even though he was the director, the director who controlled the overall situation, at this time He couldn't help but feel moved at this moment, the warmth in his eyes made him extremely embarrassed..
It's not just magic.
Since the filming of "Fighting Cancer" started, Jonathan can't remember how many times he has felt this kind of shock..
Renly brought the meaning of his performance to the extreme, which far exceeded the weight of a comedy or even a movie. He perfectly interpreted the meaning of the movie about cancer, life, and outlook on life; at the same time, he also took into account The comedy effect, black humor and ridicule, even in front of Seth, are not inferior at all..
What's even more frightening is that Renly is only twenty-one years old.
God, when Jonathan realized this fact again, his jaw was almost dislocated. But at this time, he couldn't care about his jaw. He had to deal with the tears that fell down first..
The entire crew was silent. Just when everyone thought that Renly was affected by the Oscar and his condition plummeted, Renly gave them a head-on blow and a wake-up call. The wonderful performance brought everyone present into the story. During this time, I felt the pain of Adam and further felt the fear of death..
Those doubts are so ridiculous.
Travel sighed softly, his cheeks hurting, but he couldn't help but give a thumbs up, sincerely praising Renly. Faced with such a performance, he was absolutely convinced and had no objections..
At night in Seattle, the cold wind carrying water vapor was still blowing tirelessly, making people shiver, but Renly's performance made everyone immersed in it. In a trance, they had forgotten the coldness of the night..
Adam sat quietly in the driver's seat, and his whole body returned to a calm state. The bitter curve at the corner of his mouth gently pulled up, bringing out a light joking, "Before I call you, , what are you doing?" The calm words jumped slightly, "Are you on Facebook?？”
……
Silence, the answer to Adam was silence. Everyone in the crew turned their heads and looked at Anna. Anna should have continued to answer, joking to herself: You know, in addition to spying on my ex-boyfriend, I also have There are many things to do. Then the two of them started a conversation full of warmth and laughter, which ended Adam's last night before surgery..
With just one sentence, the transition from tragedy to comedy was completed, returning to the inherent tone of the entire movie "Fighting Cancer".
The most important thing here is Adam's emotional transformation, from the outburst of despair to calm composure, and then to hopeful self-mockery. This is a "concave"-shaped development curve, which is an extremely difficult test for acting skills. Well, it’s either too heavy or too light, which may have an impact on the sublimation of the movie and the tone of the movie..
Renly's performance just now deservedly won the hearts of everyone. It can be said that he swept the entire army with absolute strength. Even Seth's performance was smooth and smooth. But no one expected it, but it was the least likely to cause problems. part of the story, Anna got stuck..
All eyes fell on Anna, but they saw Anna covering her mouth, tears falling continuously, wetting the back of her hands, her eyes were red, and she even couldn't help herself. Don't say the right lines, it was extremely difficult to stand up straight..
Anna also realized her negligence, but she couldn't explain it. She could only shake her head dullly, stood there, bent over, and cried bitterly..
Jonathan knew that the filming of this scene had to be interrupted. He was depressed, but he had no choice but to shout, "It's stuck.".”
Renly, who was sitting in the driver's seat, didn't understand what was going on. He suddenly heard "stuck", but he had no strength to ask. All the strength in his body seemed to have been drained away, as if he had become Chu Jiashu again. Chu Jiashu, who was lying on the hospital bed, raised his head, looked up at the starry sky through the car window, and his thoughts gradually calmed down..
He knew that he was Renly, not Chu Jiashu, and not Adam. But in the scene just now, he was Chu Jiashu and Adam. This level of performance was completely different from before..
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