464 Face it calmly
Adam just leaned on the steering wheel, and after venting all his emotions, his shoulders revealed a vague sadness. Under the weight of the night, those fragile lines seemed a little unbearable and might collapse at any time. The street lights The faint halo of light sparsely undulated along the lines of the shoulders, but it became more and more lonely and confused..
Raising his head and sitting upright again, Adam leaned weakly on the back of the driver's seat and exhaled a long, long breath. His thick eyelashes trembled slightly, and his narrow eyes revealed a hint of loneliness. , like butterfly wings in the drizzle, splashing a mist between the flutters, but it is difficult to conceal the fragility that breaks at the touch, slowly spreading in the rich night.
This is the end. The night before the operation, nothing happened, nothing changed. He just tried to drive once, less than two hundred meters away, and then it stopped abruptly. So void..
The air suddenly became quiet, and a mixed emotion filled the inside and outside of the car. One word was worth a thousand words. Seth couldn't help but bite the tip of his tongue gently, thus avoiding the embarrassment of tears falling down..
After experiencing the catharsis just now, Adam could feel that the fire in his chest had become milder, but still not extinguished. He cheered up again and froze in his seat to think about it. He always felt that he should do something more, but he couldn't. Without a clue, I suddenly remembered something and took out my phone..
“No! "The first time Seth saw the phone, he squinted his eyes and pondered for a moment. Then he understood Adam's plan and shouted out in horror, "Oh, no." Then he saw Adam open the address book and start flipping through it. Looking for the call information, the ominous premonition is coming true - is Adam going to call his ex-girlfriend Rachel?？
This is an absolute disaster! Think back to the usual Adam, who is always too kind, always easily deceived by Rachel, and always easily forgives Rachel. When facing death, Adam is very likely to forgive Rachel again. This is a typical Adam .As a result, all their previous efforts and persistence will be in vain, which makes Seth annoyed and angry..
Seth felt a tightness in his chest, as if Will's old story was happening again before his eyes, and he couldn't help but yelled depressedly, "No, you can't call her, man.！”
But Adam didn't respond at all, and just focused on looking at the phone screen. This made Seth bang the car window angrily, trying to attract Adam's attention, and roared, "Think about what she did to you!" But it still didn't help. , Adam successfully found the phone number, and then dialed it directly. Seth yelled, "You are a pussy! Adam！”
This angered Adam. He turned around and yelled back, "You are a selfish bastard!" His face was red, his mouth was foaming, and his eyes were wide with anger. He was no longer his usual gentleness, nor his usual well-behaved, and he used a lot of foul language. The ground came out, "Compared with being my friend, you care more about your damn love/encounter."！”
The sharp accusation made Seth stunned, and he avoided looking in shame. He took a step back, put his hands on his hips, lowered his head and sighed softly, but found that he could not refute at all, and in the end he could only stand there helplessly. I couldn't say a word and fell into a state of self-blame..
Adam found that he was out of breath. After just two sentences, he started panting rapidly. He felt that his breathing was a little uneven. He took a big breath of oxygen, but it went into the wrong trachea, causing him to start coughing violently. A feeling of weakness swept over his body quickly, his entire face turned red, and cold sweat began to break out on his back. The pain of his soul being ripped away made him frown..
The virus's raging in the body is so clear and real.
But Adam was not angry. Instead, a slight smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, mocking and sad. So what if he was unwilling? He doesn't have a choice anymore, does he?？
“Hello." The call was connected, but the voice on the other end was not Rachel, but Katherine, Adam's psychiatrist..
Not long ago, when he met Catherine, he attacked her with anger and hurt her like a bastard. At least, before the operation, he could express his inner apology..
“Cough." Adam was caught off guard and choked again, "Hey, this is Adam." The smile on the corner of his mouth rose, but after the ridicule, he felt a little embarrassed and jerky, and he involuntarily lowered his eyes to hide his emotions..
“Adam? "Catherine was very surprised, obviously not expecting that the other party on the call was actually Adam, "It's already midnight, what's wrong? "Catherine's voice was also a little panicked. She seemed to not know how to deal with the current situation..
This made Adam laugh. He chuckled softly and pulled the corner of his mouth down slightly. "Maybe he had a sudden nervous breakdown." Then he shrugged, "I think I just pulled my own throat." Yes, he used a rare word like "throat" instead of "throat", which was kind of weird and funny..
“……”This was Catherine's first reaction. She was stunned for about a second, and then she came back to her senses. Her panic gradually calmed down, and she lowered her voice and said, "I'm really, really happy that you will call over.”
That familiar voice seemed to have a healing energy. Before he could react, his eyes turned red. After experiencing the emotional breakdown just now, he now had no protective ability and would break at the touch of a touch. "I just want this to happen quickly." Click end." His voice began to become hoarse, and a powerful force dragged his legs down. A bitter smile just escaped from his mouth, but the crystal light in the corner of his eyes became brighter and brighter, "I'm really hurt. Enough of this disease.”
The sound suddenly stopped.
Adam gritted his teeth, but still could not suppress the gentle trembling of his lips. The luminous tears shone in the corners of his eyes. The pain that penetrated into the bone marrow was like smoke, entangled deeply, but he could not break away from the shackles of his eyelashes and fell down. He was forbearing and suppressing, barely maintaining the last trace of dignity, but still couldn't hold on any longer, so he had no choice but to surrender..
surrender.
In the end, he was defeated and chose to surrender. In front of cancer, he raised his hands, put down his weapons, and gave up all resistance..
Anna Kendrick was suddenly stunned. She was originally here to help with the scene. All she had to do was stand by and read the lines to help Renly get into the scene..
But at this moment, looking at the Adam who is sitting in the driver's seat, a little bit eclipsed, a little bit broken, a little bit surrendered, the pain and despair penetrate the distance, penetrate the screen, penetrate the night , slowly seeping in, like countless cow hairs, following her pores and blending into her blood.
Suddenly, Anna had the urge to cry. The uncontrollable sadness almost broke her psychological defense. The soreness coming from her nose made her lower her eyes and concentrate on the script in her hand..
“You know, if the operation is unsuccessful, then...that's it." Adam chuckled, but he couldn't feel the smile at all, just endless sadness, and the light in his eyes flickered gently, but The darkness around us is eroding bit by bit, as if we can see it with the naked eye. The remaining light is getting weaker and weaker. The flow of life is slowly, slowly, but cannot be stopped. It is so cruel and sad..
The smile stopped at the corner of his mouth, like smoke dissipating, and he let out a silent "whoop". Light, soft, dazed, lost, lonely. The indifferent light in those eyes was precarious in the rich night, but it was like a scene. A moveable feast, vast and vigorous, blooming in an instant and annihilating in an instant.
Anna couldn't help but hold her breath, fearing that any breath of her own might blow away the last hope of life. After all, she couldn't hold back her tears and slipped down. She knew that death was cruel, or in other words, she thought she knew, But now, when Adam's life and death were unfolding before her eyes, the turbulent emotions easily defeated her..
Reality is so cold, so cruel...so bloody.
“But... you know, I've never been to damn Canada..." Adam said mockingly, his voice became weak, and his nose ran down in an awkward manner. He didn't care, he raised his hand to wipe it, and tried to raise the corners of his mouth. He got up, but the light in his eyes was still gradually dimming, and the darkness around him seemed to be getting thicker and thicker, "I have never told a girl that I love her.……”
The words stopped here, a breath stuck in his throat, unable to be replaced. If he wanted to, he could continue talking, but what was the point? This is the end.
The eyelids drooped again, covering up all the emotions. The brilliance between the brows had no sound, no color, no movement. The look was like the damp and cold water vapor on the streets of Seattle after it rained. , “That sounds so stupid, right?？”
“No, not stupid." Anna found that her voice was trembling slightly. She wanted to continue to say something, but found that her mind was blank, and any words were so pale that she could not express her inner emotions at all, nor could she let go. Adam's emotions calmed down and he could only stop here..
She bit her lower lip to prevent her emotions from leaking out. But it was so difficult.
“Sorry, I was such a jerk that day." After finally saying the words of apology, Adam hurriedly raised his hand, wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and chuckled with relief..
“No, I am the bastard." Anna shook her head repeatedly and said emotionally, "I am too incompetent for you. This job is really too difficult. If I mess up, I may ruin someone's life.……”
Adam pursed his lips, paused for a moment, and murmured in a low voice, "I guess we are all beginners..”
“Yes..." Anna responded in a low voice, with a lingering sound..
The two of them fell silent, no one spoke, and the quiet air flowed slowly..
People always think that they have seen through life and death, people always think that they have defeated nature, people always think that they have mastered the laws of society, but in fact, people have never truly understood life, old age, illness and death. In front of the laws of nature, everyone is a beginner. , no one can get used to it.
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