450 sacrifice for drama
The shooting was over, but Renly was still standing in front of the mirror, looking at his bald head..
The crew was a little quiet, and no one made a sound. Everyone thought that Renly was mourning his hair. His originally thick and handsome hair has now disappeared, and everyone needs a moment..
But Will knew that Renly was adapting to the reality that had just poured into his body. What he was mourning was not his hair, but the chain reaction caused by cancer. He was sliding into the abyss bit by bit. This sense of reality made people feel sad. Being caught off guard makes people feel even more sad..
In a daze, Will seemed to see himself standing in that position, with his hair shaved, Seth still yelling next to him, and he had the urge to cry, but he couldn't cry, so he could only be dumbfounded. I stood there dumbfounded, cancer became more real than ever before, and I couldn't come back to my senses for a long time..
This is not a performance, but reality. Even the bitterness, loss, and confusion in his eyes are so similar. It is so real that Will can't breathe..
Life is not a movie after all.
In the script of "Fighting Cancer", Will can laugh and curse, telling those sad and painful memories in a joking way, with humor and absurdity; but in real life, But Will knew that the feeling of free fall into the abyss could not be stopped, dragging him step by step into a state of mourning from which he could not extricate himself..
Positive and optimistic? Easier said than done.
Will has never believed in the power of performance, because performance is "performance" after all, it always has the element of "acting", it is not real life, it is an art. Even those actors who are famous in history, their performances can It is said to be wonderful, but it is still an integral part of film art..
Compared with performances, Will believes in the power of words, because words are the cry and refraction from the soul. Every detail is so real and delicate, and there are traces to follow..
But today, Will saw himself in Renly, his true self, his past self, his complete self. The emotions contained in every look, smile, and movement were so profound, without the slightest polish. , but he was obsessed with it, as if his soul was placed in that body, recreating the vivid but painful moments in his memories again..
That powerful force severely defeated Will. Those hesitations, those fears, and those panics surged in, almost suffocating him. His whole body was trembling slightly, and even one of his fingers was shaking. Unable to move, the stiffness and dullness frozen into ice can be clearly felt from the depths of my soul..
When writing the script of "I Fight Cancer", Will had already escaped death and recovered smoothly. Therefore, when writing, he could be relaxed, witty, ridiculed, and humorous..
The pain and struggle in those memories, the confusion and bitterness in his mind, all became light and cheerful. He could laugh and talk to Seth about those hilarious moments, and he could talk about those moments with self-mockery. For a moment, like a walking corpse, he can laugh and curse while writing words that originate from life but transform into art..
However, Renly gave the joking and flamboyant words a different kind of vitality. He was ridiculed but also very fragile, humorous but also confused, and playful but also slightly sad. It seemed that he could clearly see that. The scarred soul, the light around it is dimming little by little. It hurts to the extreme, but cannot cry out. It feels sad to the extreme, but laughs..
This is comedy. This is also life.
Therefore, Will understood Renly's current state. He just stood there, looking at Renly who was stunned in the spot with tears in his eyes. The vague loss made the hot tears fall down. I can't stop, the whole world is plunged into a blur of halo.
The scene was still quiet, and the crew was a little at a loss. On one side was Renly, who was standing motionless in front of the mirror, and on the other was Will, who was falling apart. The scene just now was funny, shocking, funny, It was complicated, and the indescribable emotions slowly filled the air. For a moment, no one knew whether to cry or laugh..
Seth looked at Renly and then at Will. His conditioned reflex was to comfort his old friend, but in the end he did not move and his eyes fell on the back of Renly's head..
As an actor, even if he is an "unqualified" actor, Seth understands how difficult acting is..
In just this scene, Seth had completely blurred the difference between performance and reality. The powerful driving force made all emotions rush away like a flood, unable to stop; what's more, Renly The knife was lifted and dropped neatly, and the whole scene was shot in one go without any hesitation. This is even more rare..
Seth couldn't imagine how much effort Renly put in, but he knew that he would never be able to do it..
However, Seth wanted to comfort Renly, but he didn't know where to start. The feeling of being neither up to nor down made him stand there at a loss. He raised his hand and tried to pat Renly. His shoulders felt too unfamiliar, and he touched the back of Renly's head with his palm. This was even weirder. He could only raise his hand and scratch his head, with a troubled expression on his face. He was constipated again..
“If you are planning to attack me, then you have missed the best opportunity." Renly's voice came over, startling Seth..
Seth put down his right hand in a panic, pretending to be fine, holding his chin, raised his eyes and glanced at Renly quietly, and then saw the gentle smile on Renly's face, and he couldn't help but reveal a dry smile. , "Hehe." Trying to fool the situation just now, "Are you okay?？”
“I'm fine." Renly nodded..
In fact, he was not good. Because he felt Adam's emotions. After being hit by reality for the third time, the suffocating drowning feeling gradually became real, and the energy all over his body was slowly dimming. He couldn't I like this feeling. But he knows that he is fine and he can persevere.
The disease is like this, eating away at the patient's willpower all the time, wearing it away bit by bit, and finally surrendering. Will is like this, Adam is like this, Chu Jiashu is like this. Also, Heather is like this, The same is true for Anne, Alex, etc. No one else can help, only you. This is a battle between yourself and yourself, fighting alone. The so-called shouts and encouragement of onlookers are just watching..
He knows that he can persevere. In his last life, he has walked the entire long road and has seen the end. He will not be afraid or give up..
So, "I'm fine." Renly repeated it again, as if to strengthen his persuasion. However, he didn't know whether he was convincing Seth or himself..
Turning his head, Renly saw the stunned silence of the entire crew. He raised his hand and touched his head, glanced at the mirror from the corner of his eyes, and said with a chuckle, "I feel pretty good about myself. Why, do you think it's terrible?"？”
“No! Of course not! "The voices sounded one after another, but because they were too eager and too unified, they had no sense of reality. They sounded like polite perfunctory, which made Renly laugh. Everyone was aware of this laughter. I couldn't help but look away, and my voice gradually became lower..
Renly didn't care, and his eyes fell on Jonathan, "How was the effect of the presentation just now? Please tell me, you have good news, I don't want to do it again." The joking voice made Jonathan's mouth slightly raise. , but seeing Renly's fragile and tired face, his eyes like pebbles soaked in spring water, warm and firm, his nose felt sore inexplicably..
As a director and a member of the crew, in the past half month, they have witnessed with their own eyes what Renly has gone through for this role. His physical and mental conditions have almost deteriorated. Now after shaving his head, he is exposed His complete facial features were no longer covered, and the haggardness that could not be concealed slowly seeped out, as if he had truly walked through hell..
Jonathan wiped the leftover nose in embarrassment and laughed exaggeratedly, "Why did sand suddenly get into his eyes?" Then he lowered his head and rubbed his eyes, and then raised his head again, "Very good, the scene just now was very good. .To be precise, perfect! I can't think of any better way to perform it. How about it, do you want to come over and watch the replay?？”
“Of course." Renly did not refuse, simply nodded in affirmation, and then walked to the monitor, only to see Nathan's worried look on his face, his eyes filled with tears, and he did not dare to fall. Renly He pursed his lips and smiled at Nathan. Without saying anything, he turned to look at the display screen, waiting for the playback..
Not only Renly, but all the staff at the scene gathered silently..
People always say that the film industry is so magical, but for practitioners, after the secrets of the film production process are revealed, the magic seems to disappear. Everything is fake and there is no magic at all. But today , in Renly, they once again saw the magic of movies, the powerful power of acting, dragging everyone into a magical world, and truly feeling the emotions of the person involved. Bitter, but wonderful.
The playback started, and six shots from different angles were displayed on the monitor, truly recording all the details of the entire scene. The joking, complaining, humor and highlights between Adam and Kyle were really exciting. People couldn't help but laugh, and the comedy style of the entire movie was fully utilized, especially the on-the-spot gags between the two people, which was particularly brilliant and triggered bursts of laughter from everyone - now I can finally laugh as much as I want..
Especially when Jonathan was teased, everyone clapped their hands and laughed happily. Such laughter is exactly the charm of film shooting, the collision of sparks of wisdom.！
But, this scene is obviously more than that.
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