423 violent reaction
From a distance, Seth and Will saw Renly who had just left the chemotherapy room..
Renly is dressed very simply today, wearing a dark blue T-shirt, smoky gray jeans, and white canvas shoes. He is full of youth, but does not look ostentatious at all. He is completely "the me who fights cancer." Ria's outfit. He stopped at the door, waved goodbye to the patients in the chemotherapy room, and then turned around.
Seth could catch a slight curve in the corner of Renly's mouth. It couldn't be said to be a smile, it could only be regarded as a faint smile. It was like the sunshine in early spring shining on a calm lake, but the gleaming light was not dazzling at all. Occasionally mixed with the residual coldness of winter, it spreads over the sparse face..
“Hey, why are you here? "Renly took the initiative to say hello. He pointed to the building next door, "I'm going to go there now. How about you?？”
In the past two days, the crew has changed the filming location. Renly is filming a scene opposite Anna Kendrick. The content is about the psychiatrist Catherine helping Adam to cope with his psychological problems. That building is some distance away from here, and he needs to bypass the hospital. Department, it takes about fifteen minutes to walk.
Will looked at Renly in front of him seriously..
On the surface, Renly looks very normal, and there seems to be no change. But if you look closely, you can find that his face, which was originally only the size of a palm, has lost a small amount of weight, and the look between his eyebrows has unknowingly changed. It became slightly dimmer, as if all the light had converged and was covered with a thin layer of mist..
“We are also planning to go there, how about we come together? Seth showed a big smile and said smoothly, and then tentatively asked, "How do you feel?" Will your stomach feel better?？”
“Very good. There is no problem." Renly nodded with a smile, and then chuckled slightly, raising the corners of his mouth, "Don't worry, if there is a problem, I will notify the Screen Actors Guild first and ask them to come to you. You are in trouble.”
Faced with this ridiculous joke, Seth couldn't laugh. He just said "hehe" twice with a smile, barely coping with it, because Renly was really not in a good condition..
Although Renly was joking just now and had a smile on his lips, the smile did not reach the depths of his eyes at all. It was just like a wisp of smoke, hidden in the depths of his eyes, looming, as if it only took a breeze to blow over. , will suddenly dissipate. You can't feel the surging vitality and vitality in your whole body. Such Renly is really too unfamiliar..
Seth became more and more worried, and turned to look at Will next to him, winking, trying to get Will to say something, but before Will could say anything, Renly's voice came again, "You guys go first. , I have to go to the bathroom, and then I will follow you." After saying that, without waiting for their response, Renly waved with a smile and walked towards the bathroom next to him..
Seth and Will stood there, looking at each other - this was so sudden.
Both of them were a little at a loss, and their eyes were involuntarily cast towards Renly, and then Will noticed. Renly's seemingly steady steps were a little impatient at this time. Could it be that he was really anxious to solve his physiological problems? need？
But Will's intuition told him that this was not the case. Before he had time to think about it, Will quickly chased after him. Seth was slow for a moment, but he immediately followed suit. The two of them arrived at the bathroom door and were about to prepare. He went in, but his steps couldn't help but pause..
“vomit.”
The embarrassing and turbulent sound echoed in the bathroom space, awakening the memory deep in Will's mind. He remembered, he clearly remembered, those moments when he got up in the middle of the night, went to the bathroom and vomited crazily while holding the toilet, as if he wanted to It's like hollowing out the entire body, and even the soul becomes void..
Those clear memories and cruel reality made Will stop. He grabbed Seth who was about to rush in, and shook his head gently. It was simple, but firm. However, the pain and struggle between his eyebrows made him stop. Begin to surge.
Vomit. Renly felt like his internal organs were about to vomit..
I met Seth and Will just now, and suddenly he felt uncomfortable in his stomach, very uncomfortable, as if someone was punching him in the stomach, one punch, and then another, and then the whole stomach began to spasm, and it was overwhelming. The surge was really too strong, far beyond the tolerance range. If he stayed there for just one more second, he might lose control completely..
Therefore, without paying attention to the two people, Renly rushed directly to the bathroom in embarrassment. Using his remaining reason and control, he let himself into the cubicle, closed the door panel, and then started to vomit while holding the toilet..
How ridiculous, isn't it? Even in the face of such a critical situation, he still did not completely lose control and hid his embarrassment and misfortune. The impact of twenty years of aristocratic education in this life was far more powerful than imagined, and it has even Gradually it became an instinct. Even if he didn’t like it.
Vomiting. It was as if someone was beating his stomach from bottom to top, trying to knock out all the objects inside. But here's the problem. He barely ate anything this morning and just drank half a cup of hot milk. Now all the I vomited everything out, but the urge to vomit still couldn't stop, and waves of sourness began to flow upward..
Vomiting until all the organs were crowded into the throat, blocking all the air entry channels, making it impossible to breathe. The suffocating feeling of frequent lack of oxygen still failed to suppress the boiling in the stomach, and began to vomit out again. , but only vomited a burst of acidic water. The entire throat was tightly blocked by the fist, and I couldn't breathe. I felt a burning sensation on my face, and then I realized that the tears had fallen down uncontrollably..
Cough cough, cough cough cough.
I couldn't vomit anything, but I choked on my own saliva, so I started coughing violently. But finally, the feeling of vomiting finally stopped temporarily. The turbid and hot air poured into the respiratory tract. It was so turbulent that The coughing became more intense, as if he wanted to cough up all the internal organs that he had not vomited just now..
He grasped the edge tightly with both hands, but found that the strength of his fingertips and arms was slipping away bit by bit. The feeling of being out of control hit his stomach hard, but he was unable to resist and slowly fell down. On the ground, he didn't even care about the filthiness of the bathroom or the etiquette of the nobles..
So embarrassed.
The whole person seemed to have just been fished out of the water. The whole body was soaked with sweat. Pain came from the temple one after another, as if millions of embroidery needles were pierced on the head at the same time. The thin The pain slowly penetrated bit by bit, not intense, but making people unable to cry out..
The cold sweat on his forehead was constantly pouring out, as if he was being burned on a flame or running wildly on the ice. The hot feeling was even more torturous than the refining fire of hell; but there was a coldness on his back, which started from his spine. It was cold all the way to the soles of my feet, and the chill that penetrated my bones caused me to shiver, so that my muscles began to stiffen..
The collision of extreme and extreme began to tear apart every part of the body, causing the last trace of strength in the muscles to disappear. There was no trace left. The whole person just collapsed on the ground, with his back reluctantly leaning against the marble wall. Face, the burning in his eyes made him close his eyes. Every pore was breathing pain, every cell was experiencing torture, and he could hardly find the strength to breathe..
He didn't understand why this happened. It wasn't a stomach disease or cancer, but he clearly felt the torture from body to spirit. The helplessness and despair that he couldn't help but dimmed the halo of his soul. point.
Falling to the ground, every part of his body was protesting and groaning, but he couldn't move..
It was as if the whole person was going through the process of sinking. The slow sinking process was slowed down ten times or a hundred times. He was slowly sinking millimeter by millimeter. He could clearly see the bubbles leaving the surface of the skin, as if full of life. It's like dissipating, but there is no pain. Instead, there is a magnificent and magnificent beauty, which thrillingly captures the poetry, song, and painting in the sight..
He realized that he was sinking, but he felt no pain, so he did not resist or struggle. He just allowed himself to sink gradually, and all the light around him slowly disappeared..
Renly knew, this was cancer.
When he realized that the last trace of air in his lungs had been consumed, when he realized that death had surrounded every cell in the body, and when he realized that only by fighting hard could he continue his life, everything was too much. It was too late. He could only wave his arms in vain, resist twice symbolically, and then surrender..
But what's even more frightening is that he can't feel fear. The link between reason and emotion seems to be severed. Reason is constantly giving warnings, and the alarm bells are ringing, reminding him that he should be angry, resist, and be excited, but his There is no response to the emotion, just silence.
He twitched the corner of his mouth and sketched a smile, which was bitter, bitter, absurd, sarcastic, and teasing. "Ha." He didn't know why he laughed, but he just wanted to laugh suddenly. It was all too funny, wasn't it?？
When he is facing death, he should be desperate and squandering everything; he has experienced death, so he should be strong and no longer afraid; he has regained his life, and he should be holding his head high and running towards the end of his dream. He is Chu Jiashu, he is Renly, and he is still Adam; but, he is not Chujiashu, nor Renly, he is still Adam..
The boundary between fantasy and reality has completely disappeared.
Sitting on the floor of the bathroom, he seemed to be lying on the hospital bed that had been there for ten years, humming a tune, seeming to have given up fighting and accepting the facts; he seemed to be sitting on the soft and comfortable chair, actively and cooperatively He underwent chemotherapy in the hope of defeating the cancer, but deep down, he was never sure what it was..
Until now, he wasn't sure what happened. Apart from the fact that he was sitting on the bacteria-infested floor of the hospital and vomiting in an extremely embarrassed manner. He wondered if Matthew Dunlop would be sweating all over when he saw this scene. stand up？
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