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“tumor？”
“Yes.”
“I？”
“Yes.”
The ridiculous smile surged up in Adam's eyes, and he couldn't help but laugh. He lightly shrugged his shoulders, as if he had heard the funniest joke this year, and shook his head slightly. His movements were even a little funny, "But that doesn't mean it at all. Doesn't make sense.”
Then he realized that his reaction was disrespectful to the doctor, so he coughed lightly, regained his composure, retracted his jaw, and apologized with his eyes, "I was not challenging your authority." Adam He bit his lower lip, raised his right hand, lightly scratched his forehead, and then raised his head again, "I mean, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I'm still a recycling type.”
After speaking, Adam raised his eyebrows, showed a self-deprecating smile, raised his hands slightly, and brought that self-deprecating spirit to the extreme. However, his actions soon calmed down, and the doctor The smile on his face gradually dissipated with his words.
“In fact, your situation is rather strange because the cause of your disease is very rare.……”
The curve of Adam's mouth froze a little. He looked at the doctor's eyes seriously, but the doctor still avoided eye contact and just explained incessantly. In that professional and dedicated posture, he did not mean to joke at all. Adam was stunned..
Tumor? he？
The nagging sounds in my ears were like the echoes of the valley, getting farther and farther away and getting fainter. In the end, there was only a chaotic echo. I couldn't hear the specific sentences, it seemed like it was just the whistling of the wind..
So, what does this mean? Does he really have a tumor? Malignant tumor? Then, what did the doctor just say? cancer? Does he have cancer? Why did he get cancer? What exactly is cancer? What is the difference between cancer and tumors? However, just now the doctor said that his blood and urine tests were normal, so what is going on?？
Question marks, countless question marks, kept popping up in his mind, more and more, gradually filling up the whole brain. He only felt dizzy for a while, but his brain seemed to have stopped functioning temporarily, and he could not think well. .Everything becomes the simplest word, "cancer", magnified in my mind, and magnified again..
Andrew was reading the manuscript according to the report. He read those professional medical vocabulary countless times, and finally became fluent, but his concentration was always a little unfocused. From the corner of his vision, he could see Adam in front of him, with his dark brown eyes. His eyes turned into chaos, the smile disappeared, the sunshine faded, the focus faded away bit by bit, leaving only a blank.
Suddenly, time seemed to stop and even the air stopped flowing..
This little bit of confusion, no sadness, no pain, no anger, no struggle, just incomprehensible confusion, but with a touch of bitterness, spreading on the tip of the tongue.
Adam lowered his head and thought about it seriously, but found that he still couldn't sort out his thoughts. He gently pushed the chair back, then used his hands to support himself and stood up. His arms were actually a little weak and his body staggered. For a moment, but reflexively held on, he unconsciously smiled at the doctor, seeming to be mocking his own embarrassment and apologizing for his rudeness. However, his eyes still couldn't see the focus, so naturally he couldn't see the focus. indistinguishable.
Then he stood up and walked to the window.
The sound in his ears was still echoing, but Adam needed some fresh air. Standing by the window, watching the cars coming and going below, the focus stopped on a big red car, moving forward with the traffic, and then... The blur disappeared again, and I was stunned. The voice echoing in the room became clear again, "... first reduce the tumor to a manageable size, and then consider surgical treatment..”
By the way, he had a tumor. To be more precise, a worsening tumor, which is cancer..
This idea came up, and the brain that had stopped thinking couldn't help but start functioning again, and the reality gradually became clear. His fingers couldn't help but curl up, and the fingertips were cold. What does cancer mean? die.
A simple word came out, and Adam's finger movements couldn't help but pause. The doctor's calm and objective voice came to his ears, "...Next, chemotherapy may cause infertility." But he turned a deaf ear and called directly. cut off the doctor's words, "But I'm going to be fine, right?"？”
Andrew raised his head and looked at Adam. There was a little nervousness between the sparse eyebrows, and more doubts. The uneasiness slowly faded away like smoke, but it was not turbulent. Gradually, gradually The ground wraps around the eyebrows, extending bit by bit.
Andrew inexplicably felt his shoulder muscles tighten slightly, and invisible pressure began to spread. He avoided his eyes and tried hard to recall the words to respond, but his mind went blank..
“right？”
There was a faint smile in Adam's voice, and his eyes looked over intently and seriously, revealing a hint of expectation..
“…… If you want to find someone to talk to." Andrew finally thought about it, but it was extremely difficult to say a sentence, and he even stumbled a bit. He raised his hand, but put it down feebly. He was not sure why he did it. After this action, what exactly did he want to do, "Uh... Our hospital, um... has some excellent social workers and psychiatrists.……”
The doctor's words gradually became blurry in his ears again. Adam looked out the window again, and his brain gradually became blank. It was not a blank like a white paper, but a chaotic blank. Countless thoughts were gently surging. He looked at it, but it became a mess that could not be sorted out at all. The depths of his pupils revealed confusion and confusion, and time seemed to have stopped at this moment..
The pair of dark brown eyes were still clear and bright, but for a while there was no trace of the soul; through the thin shoulders, it seemed that the jumping elves could be seen gradually falling silent, and the bright sunshine slowly dissipated, The cheerful atmosphere slowly calmed down, and the whole world fell into a mass of gray, not bright white, nor deep black, but vague gray, full of uncertain swings.
Will just stood there quietly, staring at the figure from behind..
That figure with confusion, loss, confusion, and loneliness. Everything was light and not turbulent. I just felt that the aura of the whole person was gradually weakening, like a bright flame, lost. After being supported by firewood, it gradually dimmed. A faint residual warmth could still be felt around the fireplace, but the temperature still dropped uncontrollably..
This process of hypothermia is so slow, yet so helpless. What’s more, it’s more of a confusion—a confusion that wants to resist but doesn’t know how to start, so it just freezes in place..
Inexplicably, Will tasted a hint of bitterness.
It’s not the kind of pain that is overwhelming, earth-shattering, heart-rending, nor the kind of shock that is touching, making people cry, or directly hitting the soul. Everything is just like a glass of warm water, just right, gently tugging at the wounds deep in my heart, that dull feeling. Only you can taste the sourness.
Will suddenly turned his head and couldn't bear it. Because in that back view, he saw himself, he saw himself at a loss and at a loss. The memory finally came back again, everything was so lifelike and real. It was so scary that it made him breathless..
Jonathan just stood there blankly, with a smile still on his lips - the small expressions, details and lines in Renly's performance just now had a natural sense of banter that made people smile. , he liked this kind of moment, the moment of joy in suffering. But immediately, Jonathan tasted the bitterness, so strong that it was almost impossible to swallow..
He finally understood what Renly meant.
Unlike the previous performance, there seems to be nothing in this performance. There is no trace of exertion, no burst of emotion, no ups and downs of drama. Everything is understated, allowing people to savor it carefully. to the delicate emotions hidden within it——
Dazed, confused, lost, that sense of emptiness makes the focus lose its direction. It seems that we have never truly understood what cancer means and what it will bring? It seems that they never really understand what cancer needs to face and what the future path is.？
The confusion that surged up at that moment was like a three-year-old child who had overturned the cake plate. He was anxiously worried about his parents' scolding, but he was not sure how bad his behavior was. The innocent eyes revealed innocence and innocence. The simple confusion, but easily hits the softness deep in the heart, so sour that one can't breathe.
cancer.
Just the weight of this word weighs on my chest like a mountain.
Renly restrained all the dramatic outbursts, but Yun Guo Wuhen's delicate handling made everything become logical..
In comparison, the previous performance was as ridiculous, exaggerated, ridiculous, and even greasy as a monkey show. Such a comprehensive performance, when placed here, seems cheap. At a glance, you will feel shocked. A powerful blow; but after careful reflection, it was too fierce, too powerful, and too impatient. Everything burst out in one breath, but it was only on the surface..
There was no need to explain or argue. Jonathan just licked his lips, and the bitterness on the tip of his tongue made his whole face wrinkle. He knew that this was a truly outstanding performance..
No wonder. No wonder Renly was so dissatisfied just now. No wonder Renly's words were so intense just now. No wonder Renly asked for a break just now despite being rude. The difference in state made the performance completely different. If Jonathan knew Renly can give such a performance, then he will definitely sneer at his previous performances..
But what's commendable is that, unknown to him, Renly took the initiative to bring it up..
This professionalism made Jonathan's cheeks feel slightly hot. Thinking back to his speculations and complaints just now, he couldn't hold his head up..
“……Card! "After a full five seconds, the entire set was silent. Jonathan's birth broke the balance. He scratched his head awkwardly, thought for a while, and said proactively, "Let's watch the replay..”
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