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“This performance is really bad.”
There was a fire in Renly's chest, a fire that could not be extinguished. His emotions still had not completely recovered from the performance situation just now. The anger became even more public, and uncontrollable anger burst out from all over his body. Irritated, this made him just want to vent properly.
However, the remaining reason told him that it was wrong to anger others and vent his emotions on others at will. So he used the last bit of reason to say, "Sorry, I need to calm down. give me thirty minutes.”
That sonorous and powerful voice had a firmness that could not be refused. If he did not leave, he would not be able to predict his next move. Then Renly turned around, and the bustling crowd stood against the wall, giving way to a path. On the road, Renly barely maintained the last etiquette, nodded to everyone, then walked coldly and left the room quickly..
Everyone looked stunned and shocked, not understanding what happened..
Jonathan was full of questions and confused. He looked at Seth, but Seth also had blank eyes. He stood there blankly, silent for a while, and said cautiously, "He... is on his period."？”
“Seth! "The serious and stunned atmosphere was immediately destroyed, and everyone laughed helplessly. Seth spread his hands innocently.
Jonathan could only look at Will. Will was thoughtful and seemed to understand, but he didn't seem to understand. He was not an actor after all, and his way of looking at things was still different. "How about we watch the replay again?" ?" Will tried to suggest..
Jonathan nodded in agreement, let’s watch the replay again..
However, after Renly left, the atmosphere on the set became a little strange..
Everyone thought that this performance was wonderful. The director, producer, and prototype of the story were all present, and everyone unanimously agreed. However, Renly, as the person involved, disagreed - it was not just about being picky and improving, but directly. What does it mean to be rated "bad"?？
Are you criticizing your own performance? Or are you criticizing the rest of the crew for not being professional enough, so they think this kind of performance is excellent? And he turned around and left without saying a word, bypassing the producer and director, and directly asked for a thirty-minute break. This was not only impolite, but also a big deal! So, what's going on now? Does Renly want to enjoy the majesty of a big name? Or are you pretentious and want to show off your professional attitude as an actor?？
I don’t know who this gesture is for.！
“The crew of "I'm Fighting Cancer" was a little restless and commotion for a while, with exchanges of glances and whispers. At first, everyone was still shocked by Renly's performance, but in the next second, a 180-degree turn happened. His "professional attitude" is really dislikeable and even repulsive..
Not to mention the staff, even the actors such as Anna and Bryce were stunned and had no idea what was going on. However, if you think about it carefully, from the first meeting to the present, every move Renly made was full of surprises. Incomprehensible weirdness, then it’s no surprise today.
But even so, what does it mean to suddenly call your own performance "terrible"? Is he waiting for more praise, and then everyone will follow him and say that the performance just now was wonderful? Or are you really criticizing your own performance? Does he think he is some kind of acting master? Robert De Niro or Meryl Streep? Such a cold and proud high posture really makes people have the urge to sneer..
Renly didn't have time to pay attention to this, nor did he have time to explain it. He had to leave that space, that suffocating space where he felt like his blood was burning; he had to breathe some fresh air to cool down his chaotic brain; He had to reorganize his thoughts and organize his thoughts from scratch.
The whole person was like a restless volcano, on the verge of erupting at any time. He knew that this was not normal. With Chu Jiashu's anger, Adam's confusion, and Renly's irritability, all the emotions collided. All together, this left him at a loss as to what to do, but he had no way to start. He could only get angry at himself..
After hurriedly coming outside, the fresh air poured into my chest and I calmed down a little, but it still didn't help..
Renly's reckless footsteps suddenly came to an emergency stop. He stopped, touched his pockets, and found that he was wearing a costume and all his pockets were empty. He raised his head reflexively, looked around, and then saw a man. A doctor in a white coat stands in front of the glass window of the overpass, thoughtfully.
This overpass is a bridge connecting two buildings of different departments. Directly in front of it is a large floor-to-ceiling glass wall. It is still considered an indoor category, but it is cleaner in comparison. The soft light of Seattle shines through the glass windows, making people feel The entire interior is filled with a gentle light blue. The sense of space is unknowingly amplified..
Without any extra thought, Renly walked over, suppressing the surge of emotions, and said politely, "Do you have any cigarettes?"？”
The doctor turned around. She was a woman with neat short hair, narrow eyes and delicate eyebrows. Her facial features were very deep and she looked like a mixed race. Her face without makeup had a Jiangnan water town vibe. Clean, not amazing, but very comfortable.
“Don't you know that this is a hospital and it's non-smoking? "The doctor raised his eyes slightly and asked in a serious voice, but his expression was not sharp..
Renly patted his pocket to show his innocence, and then added, "I don't need a lighter..”
The doctor paused for a moment and looked Renly up and down, as if he could see through the skin. After about three seconds, he took out a box of cigarettes from his pocket and handed one to Renly, "What are you doing?" Do you know I have cigarettes?” She is a woman and a doctor. In fact, many people don’t know she smokes..
“Need a reason? "Renly's rhetorical question made the doctor stunned for a moment, then a smile appeared on his face and he nodded in agreement..
Renly held the cigarette in his mouth without lighting it. The faint smell of tobacco lingered under his nose. The agitation all over his body was slightly relieved. It was as if he could see the lingering smoke entwining his fingertips, but his impetuous mood was still there. There is no way to calm down completely. The whole person feels restless and irritable. The turbulent feeling is really terrible, as if everything is out of control, making people unable to adapt..
The doctor could feel the negative emotions in Renly. She lowered her eyes and a slight smile appeared on her lips, "The work is not going well.？”
Renly shrugged, "Life is never easy." He glanced at the doctor from the corner of his eye, "What about you? Things are not going well in the operating room.？”
“The sentencing has just been carried out." The so-called sentencing is to announce the time of death. The doctor looked down at his hands, as if he could see blood on his hands..
Renly understood this simple action immediately. In the face of death and illness, they always thought that they would just get used to it and they would gradually become numb, but this was not the case..
“Maybe you also need a cigarette." Renly's response made the doctor raise the corner of his mouth. He glanced at the cigarette at the corner of Renly's mouth. He didn't light it, he just held it in his mouth like that, and there was still a cigarette between his eyebrows. The gloom that cannot be shaken off, but with the wanton publicity of youth, uninhibited and unrestrained, so dazzling that people can't take their eyes away.，
The doctor did not take out the cigarette, but stood up straight, "I'm ready to go back to work, the world is still waiting for me to save it.".”
Renly took down the cigarette, turned his head, and there was a hint of ridicule in his eyes, "That's it? Just breathe fresh air here for three minutes, and then go back to work.？”
The doctor put both hands in the pockets of his white coat and shrugged, "Life still has to go on. Take a short rest and then start again. I hope that every time is a new beginning, but..." The following words did not continue. , just shrugged, the teasing and ridicule in his eyes could not be more obvious..
This is a hospital, there is no starting over, only going on. Even if the operation is successful, even if it is cured, the impact of an illness on life will still be indelible, and even completely change the trajectory of life; but if the operation fails, then There is no future.
The hospital is not a hell, but it is a place where life and death meet. In one minute and one second, this place has changed. In the face of life, old age, illness and death, all power is weak. This is true of Chu Jiashu, and so is Adam..
“"Cancer" and "death" are nouns without tendencies and attributes, but when they are connected with their own destiny, the trajectory of life begins to change. However, standing in the quiet space of the hospital, all All the confusion suddenly surged up, so sour that it made people breathless..
Even as a bystander, this is the case.
Renly has experienced it all, Will has experienced it all, and the doctor in front of him is experiencing it all.
In the doctor's tranquil eyes, Renly saw both his former self and his current self..
Renly and the doctor looked at each other, smiled, nodded, and then the doctor turned around and left without any nostalgia..
The two people only talked for three minutes, shared a cigarette, and didn't even exchange names, but Renly's irritable mood gradually settled down..
This is not the end of the world after all.
He is a newcomer, he is still a newcomer. Having appeared in several successful works does not mean that he has become an excellent actor. He has never been a genius. In front of those real geniuses, he can only be regarded as a perseverance at best. Just a tireless worker, like Sisyphus.
“Whether it's "I Fight Cancer" or "Detachment", both works require him to go all out without making any mistakes. Therefore, what he needs now is not impatience or urgency, but to calm down and start from the beginning. start.
He took a long breath, held the cigarette in his mouth again, looked through the glass, and looked at the quiet and peaceful scene in Seattle. Renly finally calmed down..
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