406 Emerald City
He could clearly feel every muscle in his body, the blood flowing under his skin, and the nerves filling every corner of his body. However, he had completely lost control. Except for his eyeballs, no matter how much he struggled, No matter how hard he tried, no matter how much he resisted, he remained motionless.
It's like the brain and body have been completely cut off..
He felt as if he was a package, tightly tied up and airtight. He couldn't even do simple movements like twisting his neck, and then he was thrown directly into the lake..
The cold and biting lake water began to penetrate into the pores, the temperature of the body began to drop little by little, the remaining air in the lungs began to disappear little by little, and the light around the sight began to dim little by little. Calm. There were no waves or undercurrents in the lake. He could clearly feel the traces of water gently sliding over his fingertips, but he could not move at all..
His lungs began to burn, and his brain began to fall into a state of panic due to lack of oxygen. Suddenly, he realized that he was paralyzed from a high position..
He can still feel the existence of the body's limbs, but cannot control them to make any movements; he can still feel the call of the body's instincts, but cannot control the movement of any muscles; he can still feel the existence of the world, but can only I can watch helplessly. This is not a joke..
No anger, no fear, no panic, no sadness, no pain...and no despair.
He just lay there quietly, stunned. Time and space seemed to have lost their meaning. He knew what it meant, but he didn't know what it meant. The chaos and confusion at that moment made him He lost the ability to react.
Renly originally thought that the memories had become blurry and that it was a lifetime ago..
After lying on the hospital bed for ten years, he has long been accustomed to that state. It is as if his soul is bound in a Rubik's cube the size of a fist. No matter how hard he struggles, his world is only so big. Enjoy freedom. The only way is to give wings to thoughts and fly freely through movies. This has become the norm in life..
But when I reawakened my memory, those details deep in my mind resurfaced again, vivid and lifelike. It seemed that I had never forgotten them, and I had never really gotten used to them. That feeling of nothingness, that feeling of being overwhelmed. Shocked, that kind of confusion is still so real.
Renly's eyes widened and he looked straight ahead. There was only a large expanse of white in his sight, spreading from every corner, slowly surging over, eating away every inch of space around him, and even swallowing his body. Fingers, feet, wrists, ankles... That extremely slow process had an unstoppable momentum. He tried to struggle, but to no avail..
All parts of my hands, feet, body, and head have lost feeling, even my fingertips..
The moment of panic was immediately swallowed up by confusion, and Renly didn't even have time to think: What on earth is going on? Isn't he on a plane heading to Seattle? Hasn't he been reborn? Didn't he realize his dream? Hasn't he gotten rid of the trouble of memories? Wait, is this the filming scene of "Buried Alive" or "Me Fighting Cancer"?”？
All these question marks just flashed by, and a sound came from the ear, from far to near. One second there was only a rustling sound of wind, and the next second it exploded like thunder above the eardrums. "Sir, are you okay?？”
Turning his head suddenly, his head was free again. Renly blinked subconsciously, adjusted his sitting posture, and then saw the flight attendant standing next to the aisle, with a polite smile on her face. But he was slightly stiff, and there was still a trace of undisguised worry in his eyes..
Renly twitched the corners of his mouth, his facial muscles a little stiff, "It's okay. I'm fine..”
I was just distracted just now, awakening the memory of the previous life, and instantly fell into the rut of memories again. The sense of substitution is too real and too turbulent, and there is no need to be "buried alive" like the last time. Effortlessly, I felt that emotion again..
He thought he had forgotten it. Sincerely.
The flight attendant carefully looked at Renly's face. Although there was some sweat on his forehead, his eyes had calmed down and the aura around him seemed to have stabilized. Maybe he just had a nightmare. Since Renly said he was fine , she didn’t ask any more questions..
“Sorry to disturb your rest, Renly, I personally like your performance in 'Pacific War'. I wonder if you can give me an autograph." The flight attendant said carefully. In fact, this is against the airline's policy. But as long as the guest's consent is obtained, the steward will turn a blind eye..
Renly twitched the corner of his mouth again, and this time he successfully formed a smile, "Of course, it's my honor..”
The other party showed a big smile and said in a low voice, "Thank you so much." Then he took out the napkin and carbon pen that had been prepared long ago. His eyes were filled with excitement and he could hardly suppress himself. excited, "Congratulations on winning the award at Sundance. That work is something that several good friends and I are looking forward to very much.".”
Renly had calmed down again and his thoughts had calmed down again. He quickly signed his name on the napkin and asked at the same time, "Who are you giving this to?"？”
“Betty. Just Betty." The other party's voice was trembling slightly..
After signing, Renly handed the napkin and carbon pen back and said with a smile, "Miss Betty, thank you for your support. I hope you won't be disappointed after watching 'Crazy Love'.”
The gentleman's decent words were a little ridiculing, and the flight attendant laughed. However, in order not to affect other passengers, she had to keep her mouth shut, which caused her shoulders to tremble slightly. She He nodded vigorously to Renly, "Don't worry, I will never be disappointed..”
Then, she took half a step back, with a smile on her face, and friendly reminder, "The plane is ready to land. We will arrive at the destination in fifteen minutes at most. I hope you have a pleasant journey this time." Those wonderful pairs of The eyes are shining brightly.
Renly didn't answer, but just smiled and retracted his chin. He could feel the love and admiration in the flight attendant's eyes. He believed that as long as he spoke, tonight's date would be secured. But, Renly now I wasn't in the mood, so I politely ignored the other person's hints..
The flight attendant was slightly disappointed, but she nodded and left..
Renly turned his head. There were still layers of white clouds outside the window. Occasionally through the gaps, you could see the city scene below. It lacked the towering sky of New York and the gray and cold darkness of New York. The continuous The pure green makes people feel relaxed and happy. Renly's thoughts slowly settled down, no longer turbulent, no longer exciting, no longer boiling, but just falling gently..
People always imagine that when they learn big news, such as terminal illness, death, or madness, their emotions will rise and fall dramatically, but this is not the case. After the news is transmitted to the brain, the first reaction is a lack of reality. Sensual.
just like other people.
There are always countless "other people" in life. When disaster and misfortune befall others, it always feels like it happened to other people. A certain child became an orphan because his parents were in a car accident, a certain student He chose to end his life because of school violence, an office worker died suddenly at his desk because he stayed up late and worked overtime... Those are other people's stories, which make people feel sad, but they never feel the pain..
However, when misfortune befalls you, you become "other people" in the eyes of others, and the sense of distortion is like a free fall, falling instantly and feeling at a loss. There is no emotional collapse, no dramatic explosion, Just confused and confused——
What happened?？
When Renly first learned that he was paralyzed from a high position, he was stunned. There was no absurdity or fear, he was just stunned until the sense of reality slowly penetrated into his skin, cold and sharp, His thoughts started to work again - or maybe it was Chu Jiashu who experienced all that, which is more accurate..
At first, he had no idea what high paralysis meant..
It's not that he doesn't understand the term, or that he doesn't know his situation - he knows that he can't move, he knows that he has to rely on others to survive, and he knows that his life will come to an abrupt end at this moment; Rather, he could not truly feel how much impact such drastic changes had on his life..
Those changes seep out bit by bit in the process of life. A look, a conversation, a crossing of eyes, these indescribable small details, change life beyond recognition..
Then, at a certain moment, the sense of reality finally completes the acceptance, and the pain and despair will suddenly explode, and even I can't bear it..
Was it the same when Will Reeser first learned he was diagnosed with the disease? Is this the case for Adam in the script? If it were Renly instead of Chu Jiashu, facing the same situation, would things be different?？
Renly stared at the scenery outside the window, and the green gradually became more and more green. The emerald green shrouded in mist and rain stretched continuously along the beautiful river. Emerald green, blue, indigo, and smoky gray were like ink paintings, floating in the clear. The spring water that has bottomed out is full of water..
The undulating city skyline reveals a graceful and soft temperament. The tranquil, elegant and far-reaching landscape is like a girl from a water town in the south of the Yangtze River, wearing a cheongsam and holding a paper umbrella, wafting through the drizzle. Haven’t seen it yet. Even though you look good, time has stopped at the edge of the umbrella.
Seattle, here we come.
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