405 bipolar challenge
The buzzing sound echoed in my ears. The plane took off slowly and left JFK Airport. A forest of steel bars spread out in a criss-cross pattern under my feet; the blue Hudson River flowed quietly, as if it had settled. Like billions of years of glaciers, Manhattan Island is surrounded, lonely and lonely, isolated from the entire world..
The coldness and desolation of winter spread slowly under the blue-gray buildings and the gray-blue sky. The imprint of this city is always so clear and profound. When I live here, I always want to leave; when I leave, , but began to miss it again.
Today, Renly left New York and headed to Seattle to prepare for the filming of "Fighting Cancer".
Renly was originally scheduled to attend the Gotham Independent Film Awards this weekend, but the plan couldn't keep up with the change, and a sudden unexpected situation ended up causing Renly to miss the ceremony..
For this reason, Renly personally called the host committee to express his apology and regrets..
The chairman of the Gotham Independent Film Festival was quite surprised. They are not the Golden Globes or Oscars, and their influence is very limited. There are really not a few guests who are absent every year. The best thing is for the agent to send an email to express his gratitude. Sorry, more often than not, he was silently absent. Renly's solemn and thoughtful behavior showed enough respect..
Not only that, when the committee learned that Renly was absent because he was filming another independent work, it made people even more sympathetic..
In the end, Paul attended the awards ceremony held on Saturday night in Renly's place and went on stage to receive the Breakthrough Actor of the Year award.——
The results of the awards were announced a week before the awards ceremony. Renly relied on his wonderful performance in "Buried Alive" to absolutely defeat Jennifer Lawrence and once again won the recognition of the independent film industry..
Renly was indeed disappointed to be absent from the Gotham Awards; but sitting on the plane, his mind had already entered the state of performance, or in other words, the state of memories..
“"Fighting Cancer" and "Transcendence" are two completely different works, not in terms of film style, subject matter, type, etc., but in terms of performance, especially Renly's performance..
So far, the four works Renly has starred in each have their own merits and challenges, but one thing is certain: he has been exploring the fusion of expressionism and method..
How to find the right balance between out-of-control and control, between explosion and restraint, between devotion and objectivity, between madness and reason, not only to interpret the character, not only to dedicate the performance, but also to serve the character. Inject distinct and full tension, let the character and the story complement each other, or integrate a unique and profound personality into the character, leaving his own personal mark.
this is not an easy task.
Now Renly goes back and looks at his previous four works, especially the three that have come out. They all have flaws to varying degrees. If he performs it again, he will be more mature and the details will be different..
“"Pacific War" is too restrained, too delicate and not explosive enough. The characters lack the power that bursts out instantly when making a fist..
“"Buried Alive" is too liberating. Certain emotional details are deliberately amplified to increase the drama, but also appear slightly distorted, and the traces of carving become obvious..
“"Love Crazy" was too involved, and his own personal characteristics gradually became blurred. At certain moments, the shadow of Derek Doremus can be seen, and the recognition is slightly lacking..
Of course, Renly also knows that he has just started on the road of acting. He cannot become fat in one bite. He must move forward step by step. There is no shortcut to the accumulation of experience and the polishing of experience. There is no shortcut. Keep your feet on the ground. , polishing skills sincerely, this is the only way.
Therefore, Renly also realized that he had been a little too hasty. He had not learned to adjust his breathing when running, and he was already thinking about flying. In just one year as an actor, he has achieved a lot, but he can also watch It can be seen that the urgency accumulated in two lives is the eagerness to prove oneself, the eagerness to realize the dream, and the eagerness to advance in strength. On the contrary, this is putting the cart before the horse and ignoring the solid basic skills..
This is one of the important reasons why Renly did not hesitate to accept the "Transcendence" script.
“"Transcendence" can be regarded as Renly's graduation exam, which truly allows Renly to strip away all the fancy work and return to the formal learning stage of the academy..
Starting from the basics, learn how to analyze the expression of each emotion, as well as the ups and downs, in-depth gradients, rich layers, explosions and convergences of emotions; return to the basic skills of lines, expressions, eyes, and body movements, and truly master the ten elements of expressionism. All eight kinds of martial arts are taken out and polished.
It is foreseeable that this will be a difficult challenge. It is extremely terrifying for any actor to put his or her performance under a magnifying glass for review, and no mistakes are allowed..
"Fighting Cancer" is another extreme. It can be said to be a completely new and unfamiliar field, but it is also a familiar field that we are accustomed to: method acting..
The reason why I say it is unfamiliar is because Renly has never really studied the system of Method acting, let alone signed up for a Method training class in the United States or Russia, and systematically studied Method acting, how to study characters and analyze Renly knew nothing about the script or expanded background, and could only rely on his own understanding and guesswork..
But what Renly can be sure of is that the most important thing about method acting is to put yourself in the shoes of the character, put yourself in the character's shoes, and re-examine the world - at least the world constructed in the script.
This is why I say familiarity.
In the story "Me Fighting Cancer", Renly will play himself, at least his former self, or a part of his former self. Without any effort, Renly can resonate with the character and feel the same..
This means that during the performance, the boundary between reality and illusion does not actually exist..
But the problem is that this is not the story of Chu Jiashu, nor the story of Will Reeser, this is the story of Adam. Even if the script is derived from life, it is still the story of a movie, and the details and The plot will inevitably deviate from life. Therefore, the boundary between reality and fantasy must exist.
How to devote yourself wholeheartedly, how to tell the story amidst madness, how to avoid turning Adam into Chu Jiashu... There is no doubt that this is an unimaginably difficult challenge for Renly..
Renly wants to hone his basic skills, and now he has the best chance.
One work is the pinnacle of expressionism, and the other is the pinnacle of method. Before trying to fuse these two performance methods, Renly won the opportunity to polish both methods carefully. Think about it and experience it. When both skills are mature, maybe Renly will have a completely different experience and get a glimpse of a higher level in the performance world..
Looking out the window, New York City gradually became smaller, like a toy city, like the artificially created virtual society in "The Truman Show". This made Renly gradually break away from reality and enter a world. A wonderful illusory state, that unreal sense of drama surging in my mind.
When he opened his eyes, it was not vision that awakened his brain first, but hearing. All kinds of noises came to his ears, including angry curses, irritable nagging, and sad sounds. Sobbing, all the sounds were mixed together, making it difficult to distinguish. It just felt like I was in a place that didn't look like a wet market but still looked like a wet market..
Then, he heard the doctor's explanations, about the car accident, about the surgery, about the current situation...a lot of ramblings, but he actually didn't hear them, as if he was sitting in a big bubble. In the bubble, you can see some scenes, but the scenes are covered with a halo; you can hear some sounds, but the sounds seem to have inaudible echoes..
From the corner of his vision, he saw Ding Yanan standing at the end of the bed..
The usually neatly combed hair became messy, with some messy strands on both sides of the cheeks, and the bun was loose, but there was no time to tidy it up; he covered his mouth with his right hand, covering most of his expression, hiding his True emotions; the thin shoulders stood up stubbornly and strongly, but the heavy despair made people breathless, and the shoulders were almost unable to support them..
There are also those eyes, covered with bloodshot eyes, the tears that have just been wiped clean are still wet, the sorrow and pain rising from the depths are overwhelming, and you can even see the whole world falling apart..
Then, he heard what the doctor said, "High paralysis.".”
He is not a medical student, but he still understands the term. He knows what it means, but he has no sense of reality. Instead, he is still thinking about other trivial matters..
The first thought that came to my mind at that time was, "What should I do for the interview? I missed the interview today. Should I call and apologize? Otherwise, it would be too rude.".”
Until a long time later, he suddenly felt the urge to urinate and wanted to get up to go to the toilet, but before his body could move, he had already started urinating. The sudden sense of shame hit him hard. , he tried to struggle, tried to control, but found that it was all in vain, and then he froze.
He was stunned like this. It seemed that even the operation of his brain had stopped, and he just stayed in place. All sounds, all colors, and all movements disappeared, and the world fell into chaos. The feeling of shame that is left is sweeping from the soles of the feet to the top of the head, making people suffocating..
He moved his fingers, but he felt nothing; he moved his calves, but still nothing. He began to struggle, struggling desperately, as if his body was tied up. He struggled with all his strength, trying to break free, but his body did not react at all. No. That kind of panic began to spread throughout the limbs.
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