245 Helpless
“There is no feeling between me and her! "Jacob's voice became tense, but there was no anger at all. It was more of a deep tiredness and helplessness. You could even feel it. The muscles all over his body were tense, and his hands were stretched straight, but he was trying to restrain himself. I didn't clench into a fist.
But Jacob's helpless attitude angered Anna. Her handsome eyebrows couldn't help but become tangled, and her anger became unstable in her irritability. She closed her eyes to prevent herself from making more mistakes. He acted out of control, but his voice still revealed the gnashing of teeth in his heart, "Between you and her! There is clearly a feeling."！”
“No! "Jacob's emotions seemed to be a little unsuppressed, and his voice rose slightly, "Not at all.！”
Ana opened her eyes, her voice continued to rise, she suppressed Jacob hard, and stared at Jacob in disbelief, "It's obvious! I just read your text message！”
“She is just my colleague！”
Both of them raised their voices. Anna's sharpness and Jacob's richness collided together, echoing in the small space of the kitchen for a long time. Anna's body couldn't help but lean forward. She had the upper hand..
“she! you! "Jacob opened his palms frantically, wanting to scream to the sky to vent his inner irritability and depression, but all the emotions were tightly suppressed in his chest, and it was extremely difficult to express them, let alone vent them. , he could only roar angrily, "You shouldn't read my text messages.！”
Ana looked away in panic, but then realized that she couldn't show weakness, so she turned her head again, looked at the angry Jacob, and shook her head irritably, "Why are you yelling at me?？”
The injured fragility fainted between the eyebrows, like a sap, hitting Jacob hard on the head. Looking at those bright eyes, the helpless emotion pulled his ankles down quickly. , like a free fall, all the emotions disappeared, and I could only feel helpless, deeply helpless, "I'm sorry I just yelled.".”
Jacob raised his hands to support his head, and inserted his fingers into his hair. He felt that his heavy brain was about to explode, but he was powerless. That helplessness, powerlessness, and helplessness left an emptiness deep in his heart. He didn't want it. quarrel.
However, Anna did not receive the message, "Don't be angry with me." Anna regained the upper hand and said condescendingly, "If you continue to shout, other people will be attracted to you..”
The disappointment and blame in the words stung Jacob. He raised his head and looked at Anna in front of him through his hands. His eyes were full of disbelief. He couldn't believe that Anna really said this. Those dark brown pairs In his eyes, you can see anger rising and then dissipating; irritability rising and then dissipating; excitement rising and then dissipating. That mixed expression is silently accusing.
Anna looked away uneasily. Jacob's gaze made her feel uneasy. She wanted to reconcile, but the words she said were different, "This is very important. If someone else comes over,.”
That raised voice, that deep disappointment, that restless anger, Anna listened to her own voice, unwilling to believe that it was her own voice, these were her own words, every thought in her mind was resisting With these words, even she hated herself. However, she still said it.
Anna turned around, hiding her panic, because she knew that she had made a mistake. Even with her back to Jacob, she could feel Jacob's anger after he was extremely sad. This kind of Jacob is her She has never seen anything before, and she doesn’t have the courage to face it.
Yes, Jacob was angry, his eyes widened, and the fragmented emotions surged again. He knew that he should shut up and the quarrel should end at this time, but his body stood up impulsively, as if the anger had taken over. Taking away the control of the body, "Who will come over? Simon？”
He could hear his own voice clearly in his mind. He hoped Anna could deny it, he hoped Anna could fight back, and he hoped Anna could confront him again. However, he was disappointed. This time, what was waiting for him was silence. Except Silence, still silence.
Jacob just stood there, as if he wanted to sit down, but he stood again; as if he wanted to stand up straight, but couldn't bear the weight on his shoulders. He was half-squatting like this, and every muscle in his body was stiff. He stood in place, and then slowly and slowly stood up straight. All the emotions on that face began to ebb little by little, the rosy face became pale, and even the anger at the corners of his mouth and eyes disappeared. No trace, replaced by despair, deep despair.
There was still silence. Anna started cutting the zucchini again, thinking only of the sound of the blade colliding with the cutting board, and the sound of the frying pan making people start to feel irritated..
The last glimmer of hope in his dark brown eyes was extinguished, and a look of disbelief flashed across his face. The overwhelming anger made him take two big steps forward, but the kitchen was really too narrow. Just two steps He hit the stove hard, but he didn't care at all. There was only one thought in his mind, "Have you slept with him?？”
Anna didn't answer, she was still concentrating on cutting the zucchini. Jacob patted Anna on the shoulder, "Have you? Answer me！”
“Do not touch me! "This is Anna's only response.
But such a response irritated Jacob. He looked at Anna with ecstasy, lowered his head, tried to look into Anna's eyes, looked into those crystal clear eyes, and heard the answer to the question - even he was not sure. Do you want to hear the answer, "Have you slept with him? Yes or no？”
“Jacob! Do not touch me! "Anna roared at the top of her voice, and then pushed Jacob away. But this time, she was at a disadvantage..
“Is there any? "Jacob was like an angry lion, roaring with all his strength. The desperate anger dragged him into the endless darkness..
“Jacob, no! "Anna put down the knife, raised her hands, closed her eyes, but never dared to raise her head, and said coldly.
“What don't you want? "Jacob slammed back against the wall, and then froze in place, looking at Anna's side face, looking at the side face that refused to exchange eyes with him, the sadness and bitter emotions were so sparse. The ground pressed on his shoulders, and the heavy weight almost made him breathless. Jacob looked at Anna sadly like this. It seemed that in just a moment, the anger disappeared, leaving only confusion and freedom. The loss of falling but not being able to land.
“Is there any? This is a very simple question, yes or no." Jacob said calmly, as calmly as a lake without any ripples, crystal clear to the bottom - you can clearly see the ripples and wreckage deep in the lake bottom. "Is there any？”
One second the conflict was extremely heated, like a comet hitting the earth; the next second it was calm, so quiet that the sound of the frying pan became noisy again..
Anna didn't speak, she just silently put down her hands and looked at the zucchini on the chopping board. Her eyes suddenly lost focus. She wanted to raise her head and look at Jacob, but she didn't have the courage. She knew that the picture she had deeply loved All the light and color has now faded from love's face.
Jacob just looked at Anna quietly, quietly. Then he drooped his shoulders, turned around and walked back. He sat down again with half interest, picked up the red wine, and said nothing..
“I won't answer your question." Anna started busy again, picked up the knife again, and was about to cut the zucchini. She shook her head slightly and whispered..
The red wine in Jacob's hand paused, "Why can't you look me in the eyes and answer me?" But his question still didn't get a response, and the emotions in his chest were rampant, tearing him into countless pieces, as if It will explode in the next second, venting out without warning, "Look at me!" Jacob screamed desperately, like thunder on the ground, this was his only request, he wanted to see those pairs of himself again eyes of deep love.
Anna was startled, closed her eyes, shrank her shoulders, and her whole body shrank, but she was unwilling to back down, turned around and yelled back forcefully, "Don't scream.！”
“I can yell if I want to！”
“No, you can't. Not in my house！”
The two people's unreasonable roars stirred in the air, and the whole room began to tremble. Even the warm yellow halo was tinged with a layer of coldness, and the uncontrollable anger burned away all the restraints of reason. There was no time to think, all the words just broke through the shackles of the throat.
“Okay, then I'll go back to my home! I really want to go back to my own home! Don't I want to go back to my home? I want to go back now! "All Jacob's emotions exploded and poured out like a flood. His muscles tightened and he yelled loudly, holding his neck..
Anna was also completely angry. She still held the sharp knife in her hand and hit it back without showing any signs of weakness. "Why are you yelling at me?"？”
“What qualifications do you have to say that to me? Jacob's eyes were fixed on Anna's back, but he couldn't get any response, "Yes, I just want to yell at you here!" I don't fucking want to be in my own home！”
“Don't yell at me..." Anna's voice was completely drowned in Jacob's roar like a surging river, and she was unable to resist at all. She simply threw the knife directly into the sink, turned around and left, Refuse to continue communicating.
Jacob was still looking at the sizzling oil pan in front of him, his eyes never followed Anna's footsteps, his movements were frozen in place, and he watched quietly as the thick smell of gunpowder slowly dissipated, and the smile between his eyebrows The loneliness slowly settled down, the light in the depths of his eyes gradually disappeared, and the lines of shoulders that were tense due to anger slowly softened, and then began to fall apart..
A flash of pain slipped through his eyes, but he didn't even have the strength to close his eyes; he still held the glass of red wine in his right hand, having never taken a sip, and even alcohol could not numb his nerves..
Sizzling, sizzling, the sound of the oil pan echoed in the kitchen, it was so quiet that it was scary.
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