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What's going on？
Why won't the refrigerator door close?？
Why？
The feeling of anxiety is burning fiercely, and the beating of the heart is hitting the chest hard, getting faster and harder, and the savage force seems to be trying to break out of the ground. The panic and anxiety make the body unable to restrain itself. She started to tremble slightly, and her breathing started to become rapid..
What's going on？
What the hell is going on？
Why won't the refrigerator door close? Why? Damn chicken breast, damn it! Those damn chicken breasts! Why doesn't the refrigerator door always close?？
Breathing, he was about to be unable to breathe, his heart seemed to be exploding, and the pain swept over him without any warning..
What should he do? What should he do?？
Bang！
Bang bang！
Bang！
What happened to the refrigerator door? This damn refrigerator! He felt like he was going to suffocate.
……
Standing in the study, Renly faintly heard the sound of the refrigerator crashing. At first, he thought it was just Matthew who accidentally closed the refrigerator door and made the sound; but gradually, the crashes became more and more serious. The more panicked and anxious he became, revealing a deep sense of uneasiness..
Quickly putting down the book, Renly rushed towards the kitchen, and then saw Matthew standing blankly at the door of the refrigerator, covering his chest with both hands, breathing extremely fast, as if he was lacking oxygen, with a cold face. It's full of panic and can even capture the breath of fear.
“Matthew? "Renly called out, but Matthew didn't answer. This kind of Matthew was so abnormal that Renly had an ominous premonition, and he called out repeatedly, "Charles? charles！”
“I feel like something is wrong with me." Matthew gasped for air, and his whole body was shaking uncontrollably..
“What's the meaning? What's wrong? Are you sick? "Renly tried to help, but he didn't dare to approach easily because Matthew looked like he was about to collapse at any moment..
“……”Matthew shook his head, just like that, "I don't know... I..." Matthew's voice disappeared in his throat, and then he was caught off guard, tears bursting out of his body. He clenched his fists and tried to straighten himself down. , but tears still fell uncontrollably, "I feel like something is not right with me..”
“Are you feeling uncomfortable somewhere? "Renly asked anxiously, looking for his phone in a corner, trying to find help..
But the phone was not on him at all, which made Renly panic..
“I think I just felt a panic, I can't stop..." Matthew also felt that he was so strange, and had never experienced himself like this before, "I don't know, Renly, I don't know... you... you Can you please put these things away? Please, take them all away.”
“What? What? "Renly didn't know why..
“I don't know, I don't know, I don't know! "But Matthew couldn't breathe at all. Even if he opened his mouth wide and breathed, he still couldn't feel the oxygen..
“What? Chicken breast? Do you want me to take the chicken breast away? "Renly noticed the chicken breasts scattered on the floor..
But Matthew couldn't answer.
“Charles! Do I need to call 911? Do we need to go to the hospital? Charles, what happened? Are you having a Heart-Attack? "Renly was a little panicked..
“No, I don't know, no, no, no, no." Matthew just shook his head, just confused. He finally couldn't bear it anymore, pushed Renly away, turned and left the kitchen..
Renly stood there with blank eyes: he knew something was wrong, but he didn't know how to help. Matthew was so unfamiliar..
Renly bent down, quickly picked up the chicken breasts scattered on the floor, and stuffed them into the refrigerator. However, he found a box of chicken breasts stuffed in the crack of the door, making it impossible to close the refrigerator door. After pulling it out, he successfully closed the refrigerator door. , then walked quickly upstairs and knocked on Matthew’s room door..
The door is locked.
“Matthew, are you ready for bed? "Renly knocked on the door and raised his voice..
“I need silence." Matthew's voice came from behind the door panel, but it was faint and faint..
“Matthew, I don't think this is the best time for you to be alone." Renly shook his head and refused, "If you are going to sleep, then unlock the door..”
“……”Matthew didn't answer.
“Matthew, I will leave now and leave you alone, but you must unlock the door." Renly spoke again..
Matthew still didn't answer.
“Bang！”
The door panel of the room door was kicked open directly from the front, and a huge sound exploded like thunder. Matthew, who was lying on the bed, sat up suddenly and looked at Renly who broke in through the door in disbelief, "Are you crazy?" Already? Sebastian! I’m not a ten-year-old! Do you know what you’re doing?？”
“I said, unlock the door! Charles, you know that I refuse to accept 'no' for an answer, and you should not challenge my bottom line." Renly did not flinch at all, and fought back head-on, his voice even surpassing that of Matthew, "Are you having a mental breakdown? ? Do we need to go to the hospital now? I know this experience……”
“In "Mindhunter", Holden experienced such a moment in his last moments, and Renly knew exactly what it felt like..
“No! No no no no! Matthew stopped Renly repeatedly, "Don't use your acting experience to simulate my state!" don't want! You know I don't like it! "After venting his emotions, Matthew only felt a wave of fatigue. The deep fatigue pulled at his ankles. He didn't even have the energy to maintain basic etiquette. "I just... I'm just a little crazy..”
“No problem, everyone is allowed to freak out, but I can’t let you freak out behind closed doors. Remember? The door to the room in the Prince's Garden was never locked. I didn't do it, and you didn't allow it." Renly still refused to compromise, looking at Matthew who had taken off his disguise, as if he had returned to Eton College again..
At that time, Matthew had learned how to disguise, but he was not good at it. He always defeated the mask easily, and then Matthew had no choice but to go crazy next to him. This used to be his favorite prank..
“If you go crazy every time you see a frozen chicken breast, then I think we might need to find a psychiatrist." Renly said seriously..
Matthew raised his head speechlessly, looking at Renly with annoyance, anger, shame, and irritability. Then, uncontrollably, his eyes turned red again, "I don't want him to stay in the freezer. You know? It's like... it's like that damn frozen chicken breast. He's not... He's not.……”
Renly's shoulders relaxed a little. "I know he's not. But there's nothing we can do about it, is there? That's his children's decision..”
Matthew just sat on the edge of the bed, breaking down bit by bit..
Renly exhaled softly, walked into the room, and sat down on the sofa opposite the bed. He didn't say anything more, and just waited for Matthew quietly..
Time passes slowly.
Then Renly's voice gently broke the calm, "The last time you had a breakdown, was it at Eton? It seems that I used your reading notes to doodle.？”
“Get out of here." Matthew cut off Renly's words simply and roughly without raising his head, and the room fell into silence again..
Vaguely, it seems that you can hear the sound of strong wind surging outside..
Matthew sat quietly where he was, his turbulent emotions gradually calmed down. The panic and fear that made his heart palpitate had disappeared. His rationality finally returned, but he still couldn't think. He just felt so tired and tired that he didn't want to say a word. The deep sleepiness was slowly eating away at his energy..
“The refrigerator hasn't been sorted out yet," Matthew said in a low voice..
“I'll sort it out." Renly took the initiative and took over the work..
Matthew raised his eyes and glanced at Renly speechlessly, expressing deep suspicion..
Renly raised his hands, "Okay, I'll ask the apartment manager to come upstairs to help. I'll just help out. How about that? Is that more satisfying?"？”
Matthew nodded with satisfaction.
“……”Renly was speechless.
After a moment of pause, Matthew continued, "Renly, I am preparing to return to London to attend the funeral, or maybe Glasgow.".”
“Well, do you need me to accompany you? "Renly nodded, not surprised..
Matthew lay down on the bed again, keeping the prone position willfully - this is an incorrect sleeping position for nobles, and then said, "No, no need." His voice became more and more lazy, Heavier and heavier, like drooped eyelids, drowsily escaping into the darkness, "I...I hope I can send him off in person. I need...to face Henry and his children by myself, I need Do it yourself, just like you escort Heather.”
“Yeah." Renly responded in a deep voice..
Matthew didn't speak any more, and just fell into a deep sleep. His breathing gradually stabilized, his heartbeat gradually stabilized, and he finally found stability again..
But Renly still didn't leave, he just sat there quietly, guarding Matthew like this, listening to the sound of time slipping away from his fingertips..
It wasn't until he was sure that Matthew was completely tired and asleep, with no nightmares or panic, and his steady breathing sounded softly in the night, that Renly stood up and left the room quietly. But he still didn't turn off the light. , but left the cream-yellow lamp on the bedside table to dispel the darkness.
Standing at the door of the room, Renly let out a breath: separation is still so difficult after all, even if it has been experienced again and again..
Looking back at the door lock that was kicked to pieces, I finally don’t have to worry about locking the door..
He returned to the hall, walked around, and finally found his mobile phone in the key bowl at the door - although Renly didn't know why the mobile phone appeared there, and then dialed Philip Demba's number.
“Well, I won't go back. Matthew needs to walk this journey by himself, but he is not in good condition. If Henry comes, don't let him see Matthew. I don't like the way he handles things..”
Renly slowly came to the floor-to-ceiling window and looked at the lights outside the window..
“Philip, can I ask you a favor? Please talk to Haight's children and let them accept Matthew's sponsorship to help Haight return to Glasgow. This is his last wish. I know this is a bit too much to ask, after all, your position is also somewhat special, but I I really hope you can help.”
“Thanks, Philip.”
“Also, please give Hatter a bouquet of flowers on my behalf..”
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