2488 emotional edge
“Renly, I need to return to Manhattan..”
Matthew calmly explained his decision, not asking for opinions, but announcing the results. He could not continue to mess around like this. His patience had reached its limit. If he did not take a stand, this farce would not end. He needed a sharp knife. Cutting corners and saying "No" to Renly”.
At this time, it is already afternoon.
They were busy running around all morning, from New Jersey back to New York, and from New York back to New Jersey.：
First, they went to Brooklyn to buy some paintings by local artists, and then went shopping in the flea market in Queens. They had lunch in Long Island. According to the "Lonely Planet" guide, they found an authentic Cuban family restaurant and tasted it. Beef prepared locally——
During this period, I also met a few guys who were suspected of being smugglers and mistook them for "guests". Although the misunderstanding was quickly clarified and no further accidents were caused, there is a high probability that they were Italians selling smuggled cigars. Once they were involved, , things may be more troublesome.
Then he returned to a second-hand furniture market in New Jersey. After walking around for nearly two hours, he returned to Manhattan..
Unexpectedly, on the way back, Renly changed his mind again and prepared to continue heading north towards Boston..
Matthew realized it had to end here.
Renly turned his head and looked at Matthew carefully. He could sense that Matthew's emotions were on the verge of breaking out. He could feel the heavy low pressure hitting his face even in the silence, but Renly still didn't ask, just He nodded and said obediently, "Okay. I understand..”
Matthew breathed a sigh of relief.
“Then you can just drop me here, and I can hitchhike all the way to Boston." Renly said calmly, with a look even a little hopeful, "I've been planning to try hitchhiking along the way before, this is the most interesting part of the American road trip. Part of it, hippies do it, now you can finally try it and see.”
Matthew turned to look at Renly, but received no response, which made him grit his teeth secretly. Without saying anything, he turned the steering wheel and pulled over..
Renly opened the car door, got out of the passenger seat neatly, and waved to Matthew, "Good work, remember not to work overtime tonight..”
After saying that, Renly closed the car door, then turned around and took steps.
Matthew ignored Renly, released the handbrake, and drove off..
Anger was boiling in his blood vessels, and the emotions of irritability and annoyance were burning. He suppressed and suppressed, controlled and controlled, but ultimately failed; he raised his head, glanced at the rearview mirror, and then he could see Until Renly actually raised his hand to stop the car on the side of the road..
The problem is that the direction is wrong——
He was about to go to the north, but he was facing the south at this time, and the road did not change sides. Even someone who couldn't tell the difference between east, west, and north still wanted to hitchhike along the road? Or is he ready to see what it will feel like when the headline in tomorrow's newspaper says "Renly Hall was dumped in the wilderness"?？
Damn it！
Damn, damn, damn！
Damn it！
Matthew stepped on the brakes hard, shifted into reverse gear, backed up all the way, and returned to Renly's side. He stopped and opened the passenger window..
“Reverse direction！”
Renly didn't know why, "What?？”
“You should go to the other side of the road, the opposite direction is to Boston, this is the direction back to Manhattan." Matthew had to explain aloud..
“Oh, thank you." Renly suddenly realized and said briskly, then looked around and prepared to cross the road..
Patience, Patience, Patience.
But after all, Matthew couldn't bear it any longer. He opened the car door and walked out directly. All his anger erupted like a volcano..
“Why？”
Matthew said loudly, which made Renly stop. He stared at Renly intently, "Why did you deliberately provoke me today?"？”
“According to the itinerary, aren't you on a flight to Los Angeles today? The music festival starts tomorrow, but what are you, the organizer, still doing in New York? Isn't this what you've been waiting for and preparing for? You should arrive at the scene, which is the result of the hard work of countless people.”
At first, his voice remained calm, just explaining his irritability, but as he spoke, his emotions completely escaped without warning..
“Why are you ordering me to do these stupid things that make no sense? You know I have a job! I have a morning meeting! I have an important meeting waiting for me! I still have tons of work to get done! You should have my back, Renly. You should have my back more than anyone else. Why? Why do you keep provoking my bottom line like this today? You shouldn't use me again and again like this.”
After saying that, Matthew turned around and walked towards the driver's seat, opened the door, and was about to sit in, but after thinking about it, he couldn't help but go back..
“You shouldn't be so willful, Sebastian! You should know that I won't always be by your side, I won't! Neither does Rooney! Neither Edith nor Arthur! One day, we will all leave! We will all die! In the end, you are the only one left！”
“You should learn to take care of yourself, understand? You should...you should learn to organize your life, you can't always put your hope in other people! We can't accommodate you forever, do you understand? Even Rooney, even me, we have no obligation to accommodate you forever. We also have our own lives, we also have our own difficulties, we also have our own frustrations and pains, and we will all leave eventually..”
“What if... what if Paul really left like Heather? What if I disappeared tomorrow? What about you? what should you do？”
“You can't...Sebastian, you can't...you can't put all your trust in us, you will be hurt, we will be hurt, you need to rely on yourself. You can't just rush into me unreasonably office, then ruin my meeting, ruin my day.”
“I...we won't stand still forever.”
Matthew, out of control..
He was completely out of control, yelling like a child, without logic or ideas, repeating words that he didn't even understand over and over again. His slightly trembling voice revealed his pain and struggle. , red eyes filled with the bitterness of despair.
“But I will always stand where I am." Renly was not embarrassed. Not only was he not angry or embarrassed, but he also showed a slight smile..
Matthew looked at Renly and shook his head slightly, "No, you won't, and neither will I. No one will. You shouldn't make a promise that you can't fulfill, Sebastian, you are worse than this. Smart, you know it will never exist, you yourself can’t believe this promise.”
Light tears blurred his vision, but Matthew took a deep breath, and all the tears disappeared completely, refusing to surrender to weakness, "Heather will not come back, she will never come back, understand? This is something you don't have either. way to change the fact, so you shouldn't make that promise.”
Renly nodded slightly, "I know..”
Matthew stood there, looking at Renly quietly. All the irritability and anger slowly subsided, replaced by sadness and helplessness. The fragility in his eyes was trembling slightly, silently sending a message to Renly. Signal, finally, whispered, "Sebastian, I need help.”
“I know." Renly said softly again, "So, I am here." Renly met Matthew's gaze and called out softly, "Charles, I have always been here, and I have never left. It's like Same as you.”
Matthew could feel the warmth in Renly's eyes. He slowly closed his eyes to hide his embarrassment and embarrassment, but all the disguises were falling apart and he could no longer hold on. The power suddenly pulled him out of the darkness of self-pity..
Then, he was forced to face up to his wounds.
Haight Wesley, deceased.
The Dunlop family's butler, Hayter Wesley, suffered a heart attack three days ago and passed away in his sleep..
This morning, when Renly called Alexander Hamilton at Newark Airport to express his gratitude, Alexander mentioned this matter - Henry Dunlop mentioned this matter to Alexander, and he called Matthew to ask if Matthew was willing Returning to London to attend Hayter's funeral, Matthew refuses.
“Because I still have work on hand, please express my condolences to Wesley's family on my behalf." These were Matthew's original words, but Henry was obviously not satisfied with Matthew's perfunctory behavior..
Originally, Renly needed to go to Los Angeles today, and then drive to Indio, because the Pioneer Village Music Festival was about to officially open tomorrow; but after learning the news, Renly canceled his ticket and turned around to return to New York. Rushed to Matthew's law office.
Because Renly knew something was wrong——
Matthew didn't mention Haite to him, or even talk to him; Matthew didn't return to London, and still buried himself in heavy work..
Matthew is escaping reality.
Renly had experienced it himself, and he knew clearly what kind of emotion it was. It was so complicated that it was difficult to describe, but it still lingered..
Therefore, Renly took the initiative to drag Matthew around, trying to get Matthew out of the paralysis of work, trying to keep Matthew busy and temporarily forget the sadness, and most importantly, trying to get Matthew to open his heart willing to face himself. He knew that Matthew needed his company.
Matthew just stood there, his whole brain was like a mess, countless thoughts were raging and intertwined, and he was so tired that he couldn't think..
Slowly opening his eyes again, Matthew once again saw Renly standing not far away, carefully looking around the road. This made him feel slightly relieved, but he was not ready yet, and he did not want to discuss it. The elephant in the room, but doesn’t know what to discuss.
“What to do next? Are you really heading to Boston? "Matthew asked, his voice was a little hoarse, and he felt tired from the bottom of his heart..
“Maybe we don’t have to go to Boston, I think it’s not bad nearby, there is a hiking trail there, we can go explore.” Renly really took his steps..
Matthew's eyes were filled with astonishment. He looked down at his leather shoes and didn't know how to respond..
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