243 musical bridge
Derek began to rummage around the house, and finally they actually found a keyboard in the storage room, stored in a dusty black leather case. The thick dust looked like it had not been touched for many years. , but when you open the leather case, you can see that the keyboard inside is carefully wrapped with foam paper. The inside is still as clean as new, as if time has been blocked outside the leather case and has never touched the keyboard inside..
None of them knew the story hidden behind this keyboard, but Renly couldn't help but wonder if there was once a dream that was sealed in this leather case, and if there was once a firm belief that stood at the end of the bumpy road. Still abandoned……
Sitting in front of the keyboard, looking at the bright black and white keys, his face could even be reflected, and mixed thoughts were gently surging in his mind..
Humans are really strange animals, aren't they? We all once firmly believed in something, and then overturned it with our own hands and re-established the belief. But then we found that this belief was still wrong, so we overturned it again and re-established it again. Gradually, we became He has become someone he doesn’t recognize, or someone he once hated..
We couldn’t help but comfort ourselves, this is growth.
But the innocence of childhood and the persistence of youth can never be found again. Once, we believed in dreams, freedom, and the future; once, we believed that our hands could change the world; once, we thought we were The center of the world; once, we were pure and real, as if there was no room for any impurities... In the end, all of this was annihilated in the years, and then grew into a mediocre member of the turbulent society, and all the edges and corners disappeared. All gone, thousands of people look alike.
Is this growth or death?？
His hands fell on the keyboard, and the ethereal and clear keyboard sound poured down like moonlight. The light musical notes slowly spread in the lazy breath of the afternoon. He suddenly looked out the window, and then realized that the sky was unknown when it would be covered again. Dark clouds covered the world, and the whole world fell into a gray twilight..
“In the night you declare the end of everything, but you are just lost in the darkness.”
The mellow and vicissitudes of the voice rises like smoke in the melody, hiding the fragility and confusion in it, like the crystal tears hanging on the eyelashes, blurring the line of sight, but never falling, and the blank loss makes the eyes lose sight. He lost focus and looked around with all his strength. The whole world fell into a blur of light, colorful and gorgeous, but he could not find his goal. The feeling of emptiness deep in his heart began to slowly fall..
“Preset all your emotions, hoping that this will bring comfort; I don’t want to continue to climb obstacles, I don’t want to continue to break through obstacles. I don’t know if I still believe (Believe), I don’t know if I still Believe, I don't know if I still believe, every word you say to me.”
Felicity felt a tightness in her chest, as if she had been hit hard by a heavy punch. Suddenly, tears of despair filled her eyes, so hot that they almost burned her cheeks. She opened her mouth wide, but couldn't let it out. There was no sound, but he just stood there dumbly, as if he could see his world falling apart with his own eyes..
They are themselves, they have built barriers between each other with their own hands, they have pushed each other away from their own lives, they have re-wrapped themselves with their own hands, giving up communication, dialogue, and trust, so , that hot and scalding heart began to gradually cool down..
She doesn’t know if she still believes that they can continue to reach the end; he doesn’t know if he still believes that their efforts are the right decision; she doesn’t know if she still believes that their love can overcome everything; he doesn’t know if he still believes that their love can overcome everything. , they still love each other deeply.
She doesn't know, and neither does he. Faith and belief have collapsed, but they still don't know.
This fact strangled her neck so hard that she almost couldn't breathe. Tears were rolling in her eyes, but they couldn't fall. What was more terrifying than despair was their numbness. So, after all, they still You can't go back, can you?？
“I have a strange feeling that your words don't mean what you say. I'm tired of misunderstandings. Is there any other explanation for this? I don't know if I still believe it, I don't know if I still believe it, I don't know if I still believe it, every word you say to me.”
Felicity covered her mouth, fearing that she would make a sound. What on earth were they doing?？
She was accusing him of stealing, but what was she doing? She was accusing him of ranting, but didn't she start this war? She was complaining that he didn't want to come and live in London, but wasn't he trying his best? She was complaining that the two of them were drifting apart, but wasn't she the one who made the mistake in the first place?？
She doesn't want this, she really doesn't want to, those words are not sincere, those accusations, those angers, those complaints, those fatigues are not true. She just... she just... she just doesn't know whether she should continue to believe it. Go down.
“So open my eyes and tell myself I'm kidding myself, there's no way we can go on if I have to guess what's going on in your head.”
Felicity opened her mouth and tried to say something, but found that all the words were stuck in her throat, her mind went blank, and she couldn't say a word. She wanted to tell him that she still loved him deeply. , she still dreams of a life that belongs to them, she still thinks that they can overcome all difficulties, she still believes that their happiness is each other, she still believes unswervingly, she still believes……
However, the words were stuck in her throat and she was frozen in place. She couldn't make any sound. She could only shake her head vigorously in denial..
“Say something, say something, even if it's just 'I love you'; unless you want to turn around and leave this annoying noise.”
In that passionate and galloping melody, that sad and painful cry completely defeated all of Felicity's defenses. She held her head in her hands and cried silently. "I love you, I love you, I love you..." She really loved him, but she pushed him further and further away with her own hands. After the pain reached its extreme, she could hardly breathe..
As if she was parachuting in the night sky, she slowly fell, falling continuously. The gravity of the earth pulled her down crazily. The rush of free fall set off an alarm all over her body, but she was indifferent and just let it go. As I continue to fall, the possibility of being shattered into pieces, fragile and desperate, actually brings a little bit of pleasure..
Then she landed like this.
“I don't know if I still believe it, I don't know if I still believe it, I don't even know if I want to believe it, everything you say to me.”
“I don’t even know if I want to believe it.” That sorrowful doubt pulled her fiercely under the water of the ocean. The huge impact of the free fall caused her to be quickly surrounded by the icy water. The biting darkness devoured her flesh and blood bit by bit, and even her soul began to feel the heartbreaking sadness..
How on earth did they get to this point? If time went back, would things be different? Is there no point in continuing to persevere? Why are they arguing and why are they insisting?？
She opened her eyes again, and in a daze, she became Anna, looking at Jacob's lonely back, at a loss what to do; she became Felicity again, looking at Renly's focused profile, feeling sad. Starting from the heart; she became Anna, listening to the melody under Renly's fingertips, feeling at a loss; she became Felicity again, listening to Jacob's sighs, and burst into tears..
“So open my eyes and tell myself I'm kidding myself, there's no way we can go on if I have to guess what's going on in your head.”
Golden musical notes danced wantonly in the air, sad but gentle, painful but helpless, desperate but confused. The light emotions firmly grasped everyone's heart, in the mellow and slightly hoarse voice. Fermented, dense, and lingering, those questions are more like asking oneself. The bitter and lost taste slowly fades away on the tip of the tongue. The passionate and cheerful melody is like a carnival march, reflecting the ubiquitous atmosphere. The loneliness and desolation, dragging my ankles, started to fall, and kept falling.
Before the brain realized it, the tears broke through the defense line of the eyes and fell down in embarrassment..
They understood, everyone understood. This is a story that belongs to Jacob and Anna. It is also a story that belongs to every two people who truly love each other but have their work separated. Even if they love each other, they may not be able to reach the end. end.
No one is an exception. It is like being firmly surrounded by the melody, savoring every emotion in the song. Like a bard who has gone through vicissitudes of life, he sees through the world, the world, and life, but there is a trace of indifference in the sigh. There is no yelling, no crying, no ups and downs, just humming out the helplessness and sadness deep in the heart, but it easily penetrates the defense line and defeats everyone's softness..
Derek had completely collapsed. He stood there with his shoulders slumped, like a lost child, sobbing helplessly and unable to stop. He knew that they missed it, and they still missed it after all. He missed it. The woman he has loved all his life and will continue to love.
The melody stopped, and everyone turned away their cheeks, wiping away their tears in embarrassment. The sound of blowing noses was heard sparsely, disrupting the silence in the room, but increasingly outlining the helpless sadness. Before I could wipe away the tears, my eyes became blurry again..
Note: Believe——MumfordSons）
Comments