242 firmly believe
Holding the cigarette in his mouth, Renly took a drag subconsciously. Only then did he realize that the cigarette was not lit. He was a little impulsive and wanted to light it..
The brief contact just now lasted only three or five minutes. Everything was so familiar, as if Renly had never left. The eighteen months disappeared in an instant, and he returned to the repressed memories in his memory. And in the years of confusion, tolerance and struggle,.
“You are not a genius, never have been." "You are not stupid, at least you should know how to give up." "Dream? That is an illusion that only losers and poor people believe..”……
Those cold and biting words kept echoing in my ears. From childhood to adulthood, they were always cruel, always indifferent, always cruel. They seemed to never disappear, like the algae wrapped around the ankles, like a nightmare that follows them, like the sharp knife hanging above the head. The sword will never go away.
I searched my pants pockets and clothes pockets, but found no trace of a lighter. After my panic reached its peak, I calmed down. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and took another deep breath..
Maybe, he is not an acting genius; maybe, the dream will not come true after all; maybe, persistence is just stupid and meaningless resistance; maybe, Hollywood's fame and fortune will swallow him up in the blink of an eye; maybe, the dazzling eyes of "Pacific War" and "Buried Alive" A performance is just a moment of brilliant fireworks; maybe, people have to learn to compromise with life after all; maybe, the beauty of people transforming society only exists in utopia, but in real life, society changes people after all; maybe, no matter how many edges and corners there are, it will It will be smoothed out; maybe, giving up as soon as possible is kind to yourself; maybe, maybe... maybe this is all a fact, an ironclad fact.
But he doesn't regret it.
Looking back at the footsteps he had walked along the way, he was faltering and dripping with blood, but he was happier and satisfied than ever before. He spent ten years regretting, a lifetime wandering, and a lifetime exploring. This time , he will no longer hesitate, nor will he hesitate any more.
Even if the end is an abyss, he will not give up.
He was no longer Chu Jiashu. He opened his eyes again, took off the cigarette from his mouth, and the raging and boiling thoughts in his mind settled down again, becoming clearer bit by bit. The long-lost calmness and touch returned again..
Looking at the streets of London in front of him, strange yet familiar sights, he gradually began to appreciate the city..
Rethinking the scene just now, Renly found that his thinking had deviated slightly, or in other words, his footing had deviated. The focus was not on the fatigue accumulated from applying for a visa, nor on Jacob and The relationship between Sam, Anna and Simon is speculative, but lies in the shaking of faith..
Both Jacob and Anna knew clearly that there was a problem between them, but they didn't know where the problem was, and naturally they didn't know how to solve it. Their inner irritability took over, and they began to blame and blame Visa. problems, accusing the other party of cheating/derailment, accusing the exhaustion of life, accusing the other party of being incomprehensible to her, and even, like Anna, accusing Jacob of speaking too loudly……
Are these the source of the problem? Maybe both, maybe neither.
This kind of difficulty and confusion caused their faith to waver..
Once upon a time, they believed so firmly that love could conquer everything, that distance could not separate them, and that the obstacles in life would eventually be overcome. Even if they had to climb mountains and ridges, and even if they faced all kinds of obstacles, they would eventually be able to get there. together; but now, they are beginning to question their original beliefs: can they still make it to the end?？
This is like a placebo in medicine. The doctor tells the patient that this is a special medicine and it is very likely to cure the condition, so the patient's condition really improves, and even the cancer is cured - although the odds are extremely high. It’s so small, but it really happened. People call it the power of faith..
However, when this "belief" collapses, the entire world built before will fall apart and disappear..
Jacob and Anna still love each other deeply, but their belief that they can overcome everything no longer exists. They try to find out what went wrong and long to accompany each other until the end, but they have evolved into each other. The accusations, especially the irritability and anger, boredom and confusion, magnified the details of every emotion to the extreme, and even began to become ugly..
They are all working hard, but they all feel frustrated; they are all angry, but they all feel helpless..
This reminded Renly of the feeling he had when watching "Crazy Love": they loved each other so deeply, but had to choose to break up..
He raised his head again and saw that Elf and Matthew were no longer at the end of the street. If his faith was shaken, where would his life go?？
Withdrawing his gaze, Renly went back upstairs again and opened the door to the room. Everyone was still crowded in the small hall, sticking to their posts. No one relaxed or was lazy. Renly nodded to everyone and expressed He apologized, "Sorry, it took a little time. I'm ready and can shoot now.".”
However, Drake pulled Renly and shook his head. Renly didn't know why and cast a doubtful look. Derek pointed at his hoarse voice - after taking the risk to speak just now, he has basically said no now. After speaking, he pointed to the kitchen again, shook his head, widened his eyes, and tried to explain something to Renly..
But Renly was confused.
Director assistant Brian Stannis, who was standing next to him, had to step forward and explain in a low voice, "Felicity is in a bad state, very bad. She sat there without saying a word, and she hasn't said a word since you left. She hasn't moved. Just now, Derek tried to come forward to communicate with her, but she dropped the red wine glass on the ground..”
Renly could imagine everyone's shock, because Felicity was usually a friendly and gentle person, and suddenly she couldn't control her temper, which probably scared everyone..
However, Renly also understood how Felicity felt. It was like being trapped in a transparent cocoon. He could clearly see everything outside, but no matter how hard he struggled, he could not break through. His brain was completely in a mess. If you can't sort out your thoughts and force yourself to perform, you'll only end up getting more and more confused and completely losing your rhythm and touch. This feeling is really terrible..
But even if Renly wanted to help Felicity, he couldn't.
Acting is a very personal matter. Others can teach methods and tips, but in the end it still depends on the performer's own understanding and digestion, and then reinterprets it. The same role, or even the same emotion, can be performed by different actors in different situations. The feeling presented every time is unique - this is also the charm of stage drama. It has been half a century since watching "Hamlet", but people still enjoy it, that's why.
What's more, Renly is still in the exploratory stage on his acting career, and is far from being able to guide others..
Felicity needs to get out on her own.
Renly fell silent and thought for a while. Maybe he couldn't give direct guidance, but he could give some guidance and pass on his own understanding of the scene to Felicity. But the problem was that Felicity was emotionally agitated now. The brain is confused and there is no way to calm down and think. Dialogue cannot solve the problem. So, they are back to the starting point.
“……”Drake raised his chin and pointed in the direction of the kitchen, giving Renly a look. This time Renly understood. Drake hoped that Renly would do something to solve the current problem..
Renly shrugged, saying there was nothing he could do..
Derek rolled his eyes, pointed at his watch, and then at the camera. His look was really funny, like an acrobat performing in a circus..
Renly understood that Drake was saying that during previous performances, he could play a guiding role and bring out the best in the opposite actors. This was true for Felicity and the same for Jennifer. But Renly was not. A magician cannot create something out of nothing. When Felicity is in good condition, he can guide her; but now Felicity is not in good condition at all, and he is helpless..
“What to do? "Drake's eyes widened and he said in an extremely hoarse voice. There was almost no sound, as if a ball of steel wire was stuffed in his throat. This made Renly couldn't help but laugh. Seeing the smile on the corner of Renly's mouth, Derek was annoyed. I was angry again and wanted to get angry, but then I imagined it, but I also felt that this state was too funny, and I couldn't help but laugh..
The problem was that Derek couldn't even laugh. After he laughed, he started to cough, and then his throat felt as if it had been exploded by gunpowder. It hurt sharply, and he had to quickly pick up the water glass next to him. , gulping down water in large gulps. It looked really funny.
The atmosphere on the set suddenly became joyful.
In fact, the crew is under tremendous pressure, not only because this scene is crucial, not only because Renly and Felicity are both in bottlenecks, but also because this house was borrowed by Drake from a friend. Tomorrow is the last day. After that, there is no way to use it even if you pay. But the problem is that they have two scenes of Anna and Simon that have not been filmed tomorrow. Time is getting tighter and they are now stuck. Got here.
But at this moment, everyone still chuckled, temporarily letting go of their inner worries and pressures. Renly looked around, scanning everyone's happy expressions, and an idea came to his mind..
Maybe, music can be a bridge between Felicity and Anna. Now Felicity's brain is in a mess, she can't think at all, and her language communication method is blocked; what about music? The language and metaphors of music can always be a powerful tool to break down barriers and barriers, establishing a connection between reason and emotion.
Not sure if it works, but at least try it and see.
“Can you find a keyboard at your friend's house? "Renly looked at Drake, and then saw a blank expression on his face. He chuckled, "If you want to start filming quickly, then find a keyboard..”
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