2398 outsider
Standing in front of the spacious and bright floor-to-ceiling windows, the field of vision suddenly opened up. The sparse and mottled early summer sunshine slowly fell down. It was unclear whether it fell on the river or on the outer walls of high-rise buildings. It reflected a colorful wave of light, shining like scales, looming. Supporting the light gray sky above, the rolling skyline begins to become blurred, and only undulating lines like mountains can be captured..
It is so beautiful that one cannot help but want to explore the lines and contours of the reinforced concrete forest. It vividly displays the strength and cruelty of human society at the same time. It is completely different from the magnificence of primitive nature, but it has another kind of magnificent scenery. Shocking, words can’t describe it.
Appreciate it, just appreciate it quietly.
“This building also has an underground parking lot, which can be accessed by elevator directly to each floor; the parking lot has a separate exit." Matthew's voice came from the side. Although there was no further explanation, Andy could be deeply felt in his words. and Roy’s multiple considerations when choosing this building..
On the contrary, Renly, who was the party involved, showed a faint smile, "There is an old saying in China, only a thousand days to commit a thief but not a thousand days to guard against a thief, but now we are obviously going to enter the stage of full armed force, maybe The paparazzi got irritated and then entangled us relentlessly..”
Matthew said calmly, "I think they will regret it.".”
“Haha." Renly didn't deny it either..
After a pause, Renly continued, "Matthew, you say, if I am really tired of it, I will never awaken the passion for acting again, just like those dead marriages, no matter how I try to save them, I can't save them." I'm back, so should I give up or continue to persevere?？”
Renly was afraid.
He has never really admitted it, or even refused to admit it - he is only twenty-five years old. If he is tired of acting now, where should he go in the future? The steadfastness since his rebirth was shaken for the first time. Even Renly couldn't help but hesitate in his heart..
“This is Renly's first time taking the course "Rebirth". He is also not sure whether he is right and will continue to be right. Or maybe there is never such a thing as "right" in life, only "choice" and "persistence", then , how should he choose now? How should he persist?？
Matthew was slightly surprised. He didn't know much about the "Rogue One" crew. He didn't even know the situation as well as Arthur and Andre. But he understood Renly, "Marriage? Seriously, this is your best adjective? I thought your vocabulary and imagination should be more than that..”
“Ha." Renly was amused again, "Why not? Being united because of the burst of love and dying because of the disappearance of love are the same as dreams..”
Matthew rolled his eyes, not hiding his disdain at all, "If that's the case, then give up.".”
“……”Renly didn't speak, just fell silent..
Matthew could sense Renly's hesitation and frustration. This little bit of "hesitation" made Matthew gradually understand, "Everyone has their own obsession, maybe love, maybe money, maybe... a dream, Giving up sounds easy, but learning to give up is actually very difficult because the true source of passion cannot be given up..”
“When a marriage dies, giving up is the best choice. Even if it is for the sake of your children, choose freedom and release yourself so that you can pass on your love and tenderness to your children instead of persevering with a ferocious face. The same is true for dreams. Don't wait. Only when I was suffocating did I suddenly wake up.”
In a rare moment, Matthew spoke at length; in an equally rare moment, Renly did not give any response. Unknowingly, the two people's positions seemed to have been swapped..
“Matthew, when a person is running towards a goal, the kind of concentration and devotion is unimaginable, so when the goal is destroyed, the kind of loss and confusion is also unimaginable. I must admit, I am a little... ...Fear." Renly's voice fell lightly, leaving no trace, and then it was cut off without a tail..
In the past, Renly might have refused to admit his fears, or at least refused to expose them. As he said, unswerving persistence and belief were the reasons for him to run all the way to this day, and he could not let himself relax..
Otherwise, he... wouldn't be him anymore.
But after experiencing the self-reconciliation of "Explosive Drummer", Renly finally began to face his fragility and weaknesses. He needed to accept his imperfections..
In fact, in Cannes, Renly tried to talk to Rooney, and Andy.
But in the end, I still couldn't say it, not because I didn't trust enough, but because they were all insiders. Everyone was in it and couldn't really see the situation clearly. About the performance, about the large crew, about Sisyphus Pictures, about Don Quixote The weight carried by the Quixote Channel, the weight carried by the name "Renly Hall" - the Heather Cross Foundation, the folk music festival that has not been launched for the time being, and countless Quixote dreams, are maintained in Renly had too many responsibilities that were dragging him down, and they were no exception..
Renly needs an outsider's perspective.
“Fear is a good thing, because it reminds us all the time: we still care." Matthew's voice seemed to be transmitted from the distant sky, suddenly pulling Renly's uncertain mood to the ground, "If it's true If you're tired of it, take a two-year break and no one can stop you.”
Renly was never in it for awards and box-office performances anyway.
There are countless actors who retired during their peak years. The most famous after the millennium is undoubtedly Maggie-Cheung (张/Man/yu). In 2004, she won the Best Actress Award at Cannes for "Clean". In the same year, she also had "2046" " was released, but at this time, she announced her official retirement.
Ignore fans are heartbroken, but no one knows why.
Now, Renly vaguely understood.
“Renly, life is both short and long. Nothing is 100% certain. Even if you are really tired of it, you can still start a second life. After all, this is your life, except for you. , no one can tell you what to do. Just like when you chose the path of being an actor, the choice is still in your hands..”
Matthew's voice was still lukewarm, as if he was discussing a math problem, but this calmed Renly's chaotic thoughts..
“No matter what, you are Renly Hall, and this will never change. Enjoy life, such as enjoying this luxurious apartment that everyone envies..”
Rarely, Matthew also made a little joke, which made the smile slowly flow out of Renly's eyes.——
The confusion and confusion swirling in his heart still haven't disappeared. In the past period, it was only temporarily suppressed. Even Matthew couldn't give the answer. Only he could find the answer himself, just like Edith; but that kind of panic was helpless. Help is slowly settling down.
There was no discussion of acting, no discussion of Sisyphus Films, no discussion of responsibility, Matthew just talked about Renly himself, and that was enough.
Outsiders cannot see the intricacies of the situation, and they may appear to be outsiders; but at the same time, they can also give the crispest and most straightforward answers from an objective perspective - even if these answers seem cold and ruthless, in many cases, they are exactly the same. is the correct answer.
Matthew is unable to give the correct answer for the time being, and Renly still needs to find it on his own, but an outsider's perspective gives Renly a chance to break away from his stereotypes..
“No matter what happens, at least you won't leave, right? "Renly said in a tongue-in-cheek tone..
Matthew shrugged lightly, "I'm not sure, but I promise, I will seriously consider it..”
This actually made the corners of Renly's mouth turn up, "Mr. Matthew Dunlop, that's a dangerous idea, very dangerous.".”
“Matthew Dunlop, a man walking on the edge of danger." Matthew said seriously.
Then you can see Renly frowning slightly with an expression of disgust on his face, goosebumps falling all over the floor, obviously this is a failed attempt..
Matthew responded calmly, "Don't look at me like that, I'm regretting it.".”
“Haha." Renly laughed loudly without any shame..
Matthew has black lines all over his head.
After the laughter subsided, neither of them spoke again, and quietly stared at the scenery in front of them, because a magical scene was taking place.——
A gust of wind blew past, quickly walking between high-rise buildings, making a roaring sound, sparkling waves of light rippling, and the refracted light from different angles intertwined and woven together, and the entire Manhattan was enveloped in a colorful and gorgeous halo. Like thick fog covering the city.
Like a fairyland.
Even the scene under the feet is blurred in the halo, and only the lines of the busy traffic can be vaguely captured, flowing endlessly..
This is natural art created in the city. It has no modifications or embellishments, but it is equally magnificent and breathtaking. At this moment, sounds and conversations are superfluous. Just calm down, quietly appreciate and enjoy After a moment of peace, your mind can calm down.
Renly has already fallen in love with this place before he has officially moved in, especially the 90-degree glass wall, which is like opening a door to another world. Even if he is just sitting by the window sill, looking at the city. The flow of water never stops, and he can spend a whole day.
……
Renly has officially moved.
With the assistance of the moving company, both Renly and Matthew successfully completed the move - Andre, who was busy in Los Angeles, also completed the move-in procedures remotely..
“"Female Spy" is about to be officially released. This is the first commercial film of Sisyphus Films. Renly did not attend the premiere, but Andre had to sit in personally, looking forward to Sisyphus Films being able to go beyond the artistic field. The first shot in business - they also urgently need box office revenue and profit dividends to get the company's operations officially on track to see if they can enter a virtuous cycle of self-sufficiency and get rid of the capital pressure of Wall Street.
However, the move itself does not require Andre's physical presence.
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