234 Delicate and vivid
Derek choked and stood there helplessly. He stood there helplessly. The warmth and bitterness of his tears completely defeated all defenses. He was stunned and the turbulence in his heart swallowed him up like a beast..
His confusion, his loss, his pain, his struggle, his confusion, his loneliness...At this moment, they surged continuously, and the powerful power of memories dragged him into the bottomless abyss..
If possible, he doesn't want to break up, he hates breaking up, he still loves her deeply, he still doesn't want to give up, he still dreams of a happy life for two people, he still firmly believes that they can overcome the gap of distance; but, Love is not a magic weapon to overcome everything. They were both too young, too impulsive, and too self-centered. Breaking up seemed to be the best decision for both of them at the time. Maybe, as time goes by, they have matured, and they have both matured. When they grow up and become sensible, things will be different, but...but……
When Drake saw the happiness in Renly's eyes turned to astonishment, when Drake saw the tenderness on Renly's face and put on a mask, when Drake saw the vividness in the corner of Renly's mouth lost all life...then This overwhelming pain and loss came over him, leaving him unable to breathe at all..
Suddenly, he couldn't tell whether it was Renly or Jacob in front of him, or even whether it was Jacob or himself in the story. Time seemed to travel back to those moments in his memory, real and vivid.
“"Ding ding, ding, ding," the phone in the studio rang. Jacob turned around and his eyes fell on the drawings in front of him. His movements seemed a little slow and he couldn't react. He hesitated whether to stand up and answer the phone. , and then Sam walked downstairs quickly. The sound of going downstairs made Jacob turn his head and look over..
Sam was only wearing one of Jacob's shirts. The large shirt covered the graceful curves of her upper body, but revealed the alluring lines of her long legs. The long sleeves completely covered her palms, which was a bit funny. , also somewhat sexy.
Sam smiled at Jacob, motioned for Jacob to sit down, and then quickly answered the phone, "Jacob Furniture Store, this is Samantha." Sam sat down and said skillfully, “Hey, hello… No, no, not later than three weeks… Okay, okay, remember to tell me……”
Jacob regained his attention and tried to focus on his design, but the trajectory of the pencil seemed to be out of control. He unconsciously scribbled in the blank space next to the design drawing, without even the pencil lines. In reality, there are only a bunch of empty lines, as if they were messed up balls of wool..
He knew that he had to concentrate, but he couldn't concentrate at all. He unconsciously raised his head and looked at Sam on the phone on his right, but the focus of his eyes kept wandering, and he couldn't find a focus, not even the line of his shoulders. Becoming faintly tense, he raised his left hand to touch the end of his eyebrows, but quickly put it down, groped on the drawing paper, and then put it aside again.……
“ok bye……”
Sam hung up the phone, Jacob shrugged and said proactively, "Did they say it can be completed within three weeks?" His tone was even a little impatient, as if he couldn't wait to join the topic..
“Yes." Sam saw Jacob's handsome face, and she noticed Jacob's movements. Jacob couldn't calm down at all, and his attention was always paying attention to her every move. This was a good thing, Isn't it? This shows that Jacob cares about her, which makes the smile on Sam's mouth rise, and she has to bite her lower lip to prevent her smile from being too proud and revealing her true emotions..
Jacob saw Sam's action of biting his lip, but he couldn't help but was stunned. This was Anna's favorite action. His muscles stiffened, and even his back could feel his tension..
Sam walked forward, touched Jacob's cheek with both hands, looked at the man in front of him carefully, couldn't help but lowered his head and pressed a kiss on the lips, then pressed his forehead against his forehead, rubbing the tips of his noses The tip of his nose and the happiness in his eyes overflowed, "Yes, they have always been able to do it.".”
Then Sam squatted down and changed from looking from top to bottom to looking from bottom to top. He looked deeply at the light in Jacob's eyes. He raised his fingers and lifted Jacob's slightly frowning eyes. Smoothing his eyebrows gently, his fingertips gently touched the corner of Jacob's mouth, seeming to depict its upward appearance..
Jacob showed a smile, a helpless smile, "I know." There was a look of endearment in Sam's eyes. She wrinkled her nose slightly, a smile overflowed from her eyes, and whispered She said, "I still have housework to do, so you should work quickly." Those words with a slight reproach were indescribably sweet and intimate. Then she stood up and swayed back to the second floor..
Jacob sat there, still maintaining the same posture. He was stunned, raised his head and glanced at Sam; Sam seemed to be aware of his gaze, looked back and smiled, the corners of his mouth curled up reluctantly, and then he looked a little embarrassed. He turned around and tried to start working again. However, he looked at the design drawings in front of him and fell into deep thought, and his brain seemed to go blank..
There is no sadness, no surprise, no regret, not even loss. There is no emotion at all. It just reveals a sense of confusion, but in a few strokes, it outlines the loneliness deep in the heart. It is heartbreaking..
John Gulleserian raised his head from behind the camera and glanced at Drake standing next to him. As a photographer, he must obey the director's instructions and cannot make his own decisions; however, the scene has been filmed at this time , but Drake still didn't respond. The entire set was waiting for Drake's instructions. Then... what should we do?？
John looked around and saw that there were only a few people in the crew. He had no choice but to leave the camera and came to Drake, patted him, and then saw Drake turning his head suddenly, Those eyes were filled with hazy tears, and deep sadness shone in the tears. The pain of struggling was so clear..
John couldn't help but be stunned, but he still suppressed his inner shock and said, "Drake, the filming of this scene has been completed..”
Derek paused for a second, and then he came back to his senses, "Ka!" The light and fluttering voice had almost no weight. The suffocating loneliness and confusion firmly stuck in his throat, but in the end, it ended. The filming work of the drama, but the shock deep in my heart is immersed in the memories and I can't extricate myself..
It wasn't until this moment that Drake truly understood the purpose of Renly's performance..
In Jacob's eyes, he still thinks that he and Anna are still together, he still thinks that the warmth at home comes from Anna, and he still thinks that he and Anna live a happy life... So, when reality breaks the dream, Jacob's confusion and loss were so obvious that they were almost impossible to conceal..
Anna is no longer in Los Angeles, and now it is Sam beside him, and he has no idea how this happened. How absurd, how ridiculous, but it really happened.
What's even more cruel is that Jacob suddenly realizes that he and Anna have completely broken up. He wants to work hard to restore it, but he doesn't know where to start. The confusion caused by that sense of powerlessness will destroy everything. His emotions were all broken down, leaving only nothingness. He was like a walking zombie that had lost his soul, sitting there blankly..
So real, so delicate, so turbulent.
Drake could barely hide his emotions, turned around, and completely collapsed. If he had made a different decision, would the outcome have been different? If he had chosen to go to London, would things have been different? If he had been willing to open up and communicate , whether it will change in the future; if……
Countless "what ifs" overwhelmed him, and he was so painful that he could hardly make a sound. Taking a deep breath, and another deep breath, Derek exhaled the heavy air in his chest for a long time, wiped the embarrassment on his cheeks, and finally calmed down. come down.
The scene just brought back his memories from many years ago, but in fact, he knew the outcome of the matter. He and her finally broke up. There were too many reasons, but they could not be generalized. Love is really too complicated. But precisely because he knew the result, the sadness became more intense.——
They can't go back after all.
After he came back from London, the outcome was already doomed, and all subsequent efforts were in vain. However, if he could turn back time, he would still make the same decision, return to London, marry her, and do his best for the future of the two of them. Try your best to save it, like a moth to a flame, even if you are scarred and bruised, you will not hesitate..
She is the only love of his life. Although the two have separated now, they still cannot change the fact that for the rest of his life, he will never love another person as deeply as he loved her in the first place..
Taking another deep breath, he still couldn't calm down the thoughts in his mind, but he finally stopped being embarrassed. When he turned around, Derek saw Renly and Jennifer standing two steps behind, and even Felicity came over. , standing about three steps away, which startled Derek, "What's wrong?？”
The people's gazes made Derek feel a little uncomfortable. His most private emotions were openly displayed like this. The naked feeling of having his secret seen through was even more embarrassing than taking off his clothes. Lake had to cough a few times to hide his embarrassment. The silent air seemed to be flowing with a trace of care, a trace of embarrassment, and a trace of rawness. No one knew how to deal with such a situation..
Then, Renly shrugged and said proactively, "We just want to ask, how was the scene just now? Does it need to change the performance method and rhythm? You know, you are the director, we need to get the exact answer, otherwise there is no way to continue shooting below, right?？”
Completely professional and respecting Drake's privacy. This made Drake stunned, and then he chuckled and nodded, "Yes. That's it..”
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