2217 Be with you
“Haven't you two rested yet? I'm going to have a glass of whiskey and you guys are welcome to join me, how about it? "Arthur was wearing a set of dark blue plaid pajamas. He poked his head in through the dim light leaking from the crack in the study door, and then saw Renly sitting on the sofa and Edith standing at the door. He didn't know What happened, but he knew he wasn't the only one who couldn't sleep tonight.
Edith raised her right hand, "I sign up..”
Feeling the gaze of Arthur and Edith, Renly nodded, "Give me a drink.".”
Arthur cheered.
Edith and Renly exchanged glances, with a look of familiar helplessness in their eyes - this was the Arthur they were most familiar with, and then Edith continued, "Everyone is trying to persuade me to rest. It shouldn't be any less important than yours. I thought you could give me some better advice..”
“Find a psychiatrist." Renly then gave an opinion. This is what Edith needs now. Her mental state needs professional help..
Edith rolled her eyes, walked to the side and sat down heavily, putting her feet up on the coffee table. Her whole body exuded uninhibitedness and spontaneity, and then complained, "Huh, you Getting super boring now.”
“He's been bored all this time, okay? "Arthur came over with whiskey and handed it to Edith and Renly respectively, "Humor is not his strong point, thank you..”
Arthur's complaint made Edith laugh happily, "I agree." But Renly also rarely refuted, and accepted Arthur and Edith's "attack" calmly.”.
Arthur sat down on the sofa on the other side, and the three brothers and sisters formed a triangle, scattered in different corners of the study, keeping a cold distance..
Because Renly didn't refute, after the laughter, the whole study became quiet. After hesitating for a moment, Edith tried to say, "Renly, you know this is not your fault, this is my decision, you You should stop blaming yourself." She could sense the depression deep in Renly's heart..
“Don’t worry, what I’m best at is excusing myself.” Renly laughed softly and said nonchalantly..
Renly laughed softly and pushed away Edith's inquiry in an understatement, but Edith was not confused, "Phillip is worried about you..”
Renly's smile stopped slightly at the corner of his mouth, "Phillip is also worried about you." Seeing what Edith was about to say, Renly cut her off in advance, "This is about you, not about you." My. Let's not change the focus. Edith, you need to get professional help and don't try to run away from it..”
“Renly..." Edith wanted to continue arguing - it was clearly Renly who was escaping, so how could it be that she was escaping?？
“stop! Stop, stop, stop! Arthur couldn't help but intervene, "You need help, you also need help. Here, I am the only one who doesn't need help. So, you all stop, okay?" Stop pretending you're fine and stop trying to blame others. No! Arthur said this, paused slightly, his temper was a little irritable, then he took a deep breath and tried to slow down his tone, "This is not Bayswater.".”
Growing up, they had been accustomed to the way George and Elizabeth got along, and now that they had left Bayswater and came to the Prince's Garden, they really shouldn't repeat the old traditions of the Hall family. Arthur really didn't want to do it again. See those meaningless quarrels.
Renly and Edith both fell silent, quietly staring at the whiskey in their hands, the amber liquid was flowing..
Then Renly said softly, "...this comes from the man who forgot to take care of his beard..”
“……”Arthur felt like he was going to explode. Now that he had finished trimming his beard, his stubble had become decent and clean, but it still became the subject of conversation again. He deeply believed that this matter might not be washed away for a long time..
Renly and Edith both laughed happily and even exchanged glances, as if they had completed a tacit pass. Arthur's eyes widened in strong protest, "I'm busy, okay? I'm just busy!" Don't try to turn the tables on me, you are the ones who need help.”
Renly and Edith didn't continue talking, which made Arthur awkward.——
He knows, they all know, that Arthur is the type who pays great attention to his life image. Otherwise, how could they complain about Arthur over and over again because of his sloppy beard? Precisely because of this, Arthur's embarrassed image also shows his worries. He is the same as them..
they all need help.
Arthur raised his head and took a sip of whiskey, his expression frowned slightly, and he spread his hands, "Very good, now three psychopaths are gathering together for a meeting. What, are we going to film 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest'?？”
“I guess, judging from the standards of the Hall family, we are still within the normal range. No, we should be considered a model. Even if we are insane, we still have not lost our etiquette." Renly said calmly, The smiles on Arthur and Edith's lips rose..
Gently shaking the wine glass, the curvature of the corners of her mouth slowly calmed down. Edith's thoughts settled. She seemed to have thought about it for a long time. She spoke again, "If I said, I still want to go back to the battlefield.？”
The calm voice lingered like smoke, and the coldness of the night began to jump on the fingertips. It trembled slightly, and there was obviously no big movement, but it exploded in the ears like thunder. Then, silence was like a tide. It surges forward, only the halo of whiskey refracted is swaying.
Edith knew that now was not the best time to discuss the topic, but the problem was that there seemed to be no best time at all. The reason why she found Renly tonight was because Edith herself was full of confusion and she needed to talk about it. Talk - although she didn't know what she wanted to talk about, or even whether she was willing to talk deep down, but... As a result, the first topic came up with a heavy bombshell, and Edith herself was a little confused and nervous. The emotion captured her heart like this.
“Have you thought about it? "The first person to speak was Arthur. There was a trace of hesitation in his heavy voice, but in the end he did not question or directly object..
Edith was slightly surprised, surprised by Arthur's words and the content of his words. She asked, "What about your opinion?"？”
Arthur let out a long breath, "If possible, I also hope that things can be simpler, so that we don't have to worry about it every day; but I think... you should have your own choices instead of changing yourself for us. .no matter what, we'll be standing here, you know how to find your way home.”
Edith's nose was slightly sore. This was what she longed to hear most. When she was alone on the front line chasing the truth and recording the facts, she needed to know that she was not fighting alone. Her ideals, her persistence, Her fight...everything is meaningful. Even with a weak power, she hopes to change the world..
Arthur seemed to be aware of Edith's move, and his emotions were a little turbulent. He hurriedly continued to speak to cover up his panic, "It's just a scene. You and I both know that I can't change your mind. , instead of pretending to be a bad guy to stop you, it’s better to pretend to be a good guy to help you.”
Those fierce and rough words had no deterrent effect at all, which made Edith chuckle and said extremely well-behaved, "Yes, yes, I know.".”
Arthur gritted his teeth fiercely, glanced at Edith, then turned to Renly, "Aren't you going to say something?？”
Renly had been sitting quietly beside him, never joining the conversation. Now that he heard Arthur's words, he looked towards Edith, "What's there?"？”
Not good, not bad, but a question.
Edith thought about it carefully. This was a question of temperature..
Renly had just noticed that Edith had not given any positive affirmation from beginning to end. She had just thrown out a series of assumptions. Even when Arthur asked, she did not answer directly. Instead, she used rhetorical questions to probe Arthur. position. This in itself explains Edith’s confusion and hesitation..
This is not surprising. She has just experienced the test of life and death. Edith has not had time to sort out her thoughts. She may also be in a state of confusion now and is looking for answers. In Renly's view, instead of answering Edith's questions, it is better to guide her. Edith thinks and lets herself find out.
Even Renly has no right answer. Because this is life - there is no right answer in life, and no one can give the right answer. You can only follow your heart, go step by step, and do things on different roads. Make different choices and different attempts to find the scenery that belongs to your own life path. Only when you reach the end can you find your own answer. What is really important is that every answer found in the end is correct..
“There... there is nothing." Edith said hesitantly, her eyes showing deep thought again, "There is no water, no food and no quiet. Everything is turbulent. The peace of one second may be necessary the next. Escape, there is panic, death, darkness, and many, many corpses. I don’t know, and I don’t know what is there. Maybe, there is the truth there, the truth that belongs to our society, and there is another one outside of us. world.”
“I...I, I just want to go back.”
Edith's words were a bit confusing, and she couldn't find a clear context even after turning over them. However, Renly and Arthur looked at her with great devotion. Those fragmented words contained her confusion and paranoia, as well as Wounds and scars they can't see.
“It's like being addicted, there is always a motivation driving me to try to go back." Edith was completely immersed in her own world, and the disturbing thoughts opened up, "But actually I am also afraid that I will also Fear, every minute and every second I spent there, I asked myself why I came back here again and again, but I never found the answer..”
Edith paused for a moment, "Can you give me the answer?" She raised her gaze, her eyes filled with confusion..
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