2215 timidity near hometown
A life of death, one step from heaven to another to hell. When Edith's feet stood at the gate of the Prince's Garden again, it felt like a lifetime ago. She couldn't even accurately describe her mood. The contradictory and complicated emotions were constantly rolling. , and then the steps couldn't help but stop..
She dare not knock on the door.
Deep inside, she was afraid, afraid that this was just a dream, and she might wake up again in a blink of an eye; afraid that her return might bring harm, and that the smoke and disaster would follow her back here; afraid that there would be no one in front of her, No one is looking forward to her return……
An impulse appeared in her mind, and she wanted to turn around and run away, trying to hide all her embarrassment..
But the pace slowed down for a moment, and the door was already opened, and then Edith saw Philip. The old wrinkled face seemed to have not changed at all, but she always felt different. There was a faint look in those calm and reserved eyes. There was a faint light flashing, and the surge of emotions hidden under the politeness was being suppressed with all her strength. There were no words or no need for words, which made Edith's nose feel slightly sour..
“Miss Edith." Philip nodded gently, his deep and hoarse voice revealing a hint of excitement..
Edith tried to say something, but found that her mind was blank, without any thoughts or ideas. In the end, she could only nod in response..
Then, a figure appeared at the far end of the entrance. Before Edith could look away, the figure opened its arms and sprinted over at full speed like a roc spreading its wings. A wave of heat rushed over her face, hugging her heavily.
“Edith Hall, you've made me regret it once, don't make me regret it a second time. I don't want to lose you. God damn it, do you understand?？”
Edith's whole body was surrounded and hugged by strong arms, and then she fell deeply into the cold breath. Her tight muscles slowly relaxed unconsciously, letting herself get lost in the strong warmth. In the meantime, I couldn't help but close my eyes and breath greedily.
It's still a little strange, but she is looking for familiarity, just like a newborn baby, using touch and smell to feel the smell and body temperature.
“I'm going to be out of breath." She joked aloud, the absurdity and strangeness deep in her heart surging like clear spring water.：
She is still not used to it. She is not used to escaping from a war-torn environment, nor is she used to going from the death aura of a corpse to being surrounded by living life. She is not used to the outpouring of joy. With joy, everything made her feel unreal, even ridiculous. Even though she knew that it was all normal, she still couldn't help but want to resist everything in front of her..
Those unfamiliar and familiar details collided together, creating a sense of tearing that left Edith at a loss..
She lightened the atmosphere with a little joke, but she still didn't know what she should do..
Chris took a half step back and gave way. This action made Edith slightly stunned, and then she realized that she was still standing at the door. She could keenly detect the subtle changes in the air, and it seemed that all eyes They were all projected towards her. She subconsciously took a step forward and finally entered the room. However, this short step was too difficult..
run away.
run away.
Edith's mind was filled with such thoughts. She didn't even know why she had such thoughts, but the impulse was growing wantonly in the depths of her mind like weeds, and she couldn't stop at all. This made her stop at the entrance. At the entrance, there is no way to move forward without retreating..
Then she saw Renly.
Renly stood there with some restraint and caution, looking at him calmly and intently, without much emotion, but he could still capture the panic that he was hesitant to speak. He tried to get closer but couldn't help but timidly concealed the fragility in his eyes. Very cleverly, it slightly reflects the scene at the entrance.
Edith saw her own figure in those eyes, which was stranger than she imagined - yes, strange. Some things are different after all, some time cannot be reversed after all, and some wounds cannot be pretended not to exist after all... They After all, it will no longer be what it used to be..
It was impossible for them to pretend that nothing happened. Those short five weeks were like a chasm between reality and illusion. Those wounds, those pains, and those darkness all existed objectively. Those who ignored them Existence will only make life fragmented.
They are still them, but they are no longer them..
Renly can understand this. Now Edith finally understands that the pain that belongs to Heather Cross and Paul Walker will never disappear, and the wounds caused by George and Elizabeth cannot pretend not to exist, and the head-on collision After something happens, you can't go back to some things.
Renly may never understand Edith, just like Edith can never understand Renly. Even if they experience the same emotional conflict, everyone's understanding and reaction will be different; what's more, Renly and Edith Sidu are experiencing their own path.
But they can clearly understand this, and then stay by each other's side unswervingly, never leaving or turning around. When needed, they can turn their heads and find that figure not far away to accompany them through the most difficult time. The toughest and darkest times.
Just like Don Quixote.
Realizing this, Edith's nervousness slowly relaxed: indeed, things were different, and she did not need to deny it; but even if things were different, she still did not need to be afraid, because she had never been not alone.
“Hey, I'm back." Edith raised her hand and said hello..
“Welcome home." Renly said with a gentle nod..
A simple sentence cannot heal all the wounds like magic. She still needs time and energy; but the impetuousness and strangeness in her heart are slowly disappearing. She is finally able to temporarily restrain those precautions and alienation, and then move forward. take a step.
step.
Edith took another step forward, and then directly entered the indoor area, finally entering a safe area where she could relax. Those tensions and uneasiness seemed to be slightly relieved. After a long journey and thousands of mountains, Wan Shui, she finally came home.
Edith noticed Renly's gaze, and he was looking at her vaguely, with a trace of confusion in his eyes, which made Edith express confusion.——
Renly rarely showed emotions, especially those negative emotions. Even Arthur and Edith couldn't see through Renly so easily; but just now, Edith was keenly aware of the abnormality, but couldn't I understood, so I asked with my eyes.
Renly shook his head slightly to show that it was okay, and pursed his lips slightly to reassure Edith. At the same time, a stone in his heart also fell.：
His eyes were always exploring Edith's right hand. It was complete and real. The fear in the nightmare had not really happened. Then, he further explored other parts of Edith's body. There was no missing part. She still has no obvious injuries on her arms and legs, and she still looks complete..
Although the appearance of integrity does not mean that the mind is intact, but... at least this is another good news.
Fear, after all, just remains in the nightmare.
Renly's fingertips curled up slightly. The emotion that was revealed in the moment was still slightly out of control. Before his fingers started to tremble, he curled his fingertips towards his palm and suppressed them forcefully..
Renly's movements were very secretive, and his ups and downs were fleeting, but Matthew and Philip, who had witnessed Renly's nightmare with their own eyes, could feel the invisible fluctuations. Renly noticed his sight and turned his head. Meeting Matthew's eyes, his eyebrows raised slightly, as if to say：
Don't worry, I won't go crazy suddenly.
That touch of joking and teasing was flickering, making Matthew roll his eyes, expressing strong complaints..
Edith couldn't find the answer to Renly, but she felt the warmth of her eyes. When she raised her head, she saw Chris who was watching her wholeheartedly. She showed a shallow smile to Chris, and her whole mood relaxed. She stopped and noticed the uneasiness and nervousness in Chris's eyes. She stood on tiptoes, pressed a kiss on Chris' lips, and said softly, "Don't worry, I won't go back for the time being. Even if I want to, they won't." would agree.”
Not only was Chris not happy, but he frowned slightly, showing worry, "You mean, you still want to go back again now?"？”
Edith was a little uncontrollably irritated, and her tone instantly became stiff, "Chris, I don't want to talk about this now.".”
But this time Chris did not back down, but said firmly, "I am willing to support you if you wish.".”
Edith was slightly stunned, obviously not expecting the answer, and just stared at Chris blankly, not knowing what to say for a moment.——
At first, they quarreled countless times because of their differences on this matter, but they could never reach a consensus, and even had a cold war for nearly two months. This time, after returning from death, she thought Chris would object even more. , so she didn’t want to discuss it now, but the result was something else. What happened?？
Arthur's voice broke the coldness at the entrance, "Can anyone tell me how long we have to stay at the door? I just think that if it takes longer, maybe Philip should move the refreshments - from your Just so you know, we have a lot to catch up on. I'd like to add a little sugar if you can, so... I'm going to go back and get my madeleines now, what do you think? Anyone ready to join me?？”
That serious look makes people laugh..
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