2194 before sunrise
Heather Cross is the disease, Paul Walker is the accident, so what exactly is Edith Hall facing? That's a man-made disaster.
And Renly personally pushed Edith to hell.
Matthew opened his mouth slightly, but his voice couldn't help but get stuck in his throat, full of annoyance and anger, "No, Renly, don't blame yourself like a fool, this is not about you, this is not your fault, this It was Edith's choice, and you chose to side with her..”
“So, should I blame Edith? Is this Edith's fault?？”
“No! You know that's not the case! This is not your fault, nor is it Edith's fault. You should not make trouble unreasonably! It's society's fault, it's the world's fault. You're all just holding on to yourselves……”
“Then what? Then you told me that we should chase our dreams, and in the end it turned into a wisp of smoke, as if it had never existed..”
“yes! yes! Yes yes yes! That's what I mean! You should know! This is the dream Edith has been chasing, you can't be so selfish! You can't make mistakes yourself! You can’t take the disaster personally! This is Edith's story! This is Edith's life! don't want! Stop pretending you are the victim! This isn't about you! You should not have those responsibilities! Wake up, Sebastian! wake up！”
Matthew's sanity also began to burst, and he roared angrily at Renly: This is not the Renly he is familiar with, such a self-pitying and self-destructive guy, not that Renly, he looks like an idiot, except for standing where he is. beyond responsibility, the ability to solve problems is completely lost.
This isn't Renly.
At this moment, Renly is indeed no longer himself. He has completely lost his usual strength and rationality. His chaotic thoughts have completely destroyed his thinking ability..
After all, Renly is not omnipotent. After all, he has his own weaknesses and his own fears, just like he is not George and Elizabeth after all. He really cares about the fetters of family ties..
Those bonds and cares made him weak, but they also made him strong..
Matthew looked at Renly who was falling apart in front of him, and tears burst out of his eyes - he also missed Edith, and he also hoped that Edith could come back, but... Edith needed Renly to cheer up, and Renly needed He, so Matthew forced himself to straighten his back again.
“Renly, look at me！”
Matthew gently patted Renly on the shoulder, turned him over, and looked at Renly intently and seriously. Even if his eyes were blurred by tears, he did not shift, conveying his inner thoughts loudly and loudly..
“Remember? How did you do it? No matter how many difficulties and setbacks you encounter, no matter how great the hardships and tests you face, you never lose faith! You have realized your dreams, you have created impossible miracles, and you have achieved the meaning of life. That is because you have never doubted yourself, right?？”
Matthew's eyes brightened, and those lights shone brightly in the tears, and his strong faith stood up, "The same is true for Edith..”
“She is facing huge difficulties now, but she has not and will not be afraid, let alone shrink back! Because she is Edith Hall! Have you forgotten all this?？”
“You should believe in her, just like you believe in yourself. Because it is you who give her courage! It’s you who teaches her faith! Let her bravely formalize herself, and let her stand up bravely. In the end, she became the Edith she is now, realizing her own value there. Her excellence and greatness reflect your strength, do you understand? Your strength and her tenacity, you are both the same kind of people！”
“The difficulties Edith is facing now are far beyond our imagination. I can't imagine it, and I can't experience it. This is why she can become Edith Hall! Even if we want to help, our abilities are limited after all. She is creating a world that belongs to her, a world that we may not be able to understand or touch in our lifetime. That is where her value lies. Yes, she is struggling on the edge of the cliff now. , but at least, we should believe her, just like she believes you.”
Renly knows the truth, he knows it all; but when he actually faces it, he can still clearly feel the heart-breaking pain.
Deep down, he knew that if he had it to do over again, he would still support Edith——
Because that is Edith's dream. Is it to live safely according to other people's wishes, or to bloom brilliantly according to her own wishes? He will always choose the latter, even if his life may only be a short summer, this is his belief and his code. This is what he does, and he also supports Edith in doing so..
However, when the disaster really struck, the possibility of despair was slowly gnawing at his heart and soul. He became weak because he cared..
Slowly, Renly closed his eyes, letting the fragility and bitterness surge over him like a storm of blades, leaving him covered in bruises. He needed these wounds to keep himself awake and calm, and more importantly, he You need to regain your sanity so that you can truly help Edith.
This is not easy, but for Edith, he can do it, and he must do it: he will never give up before getting the exact information. Because he believes in Edith.
Heather Cross once told him, “When the musical notes are flowing, I will realize that there are some things that the darkness cannot take away from me..”
This sentence was engraved on Heather's tombstone. When Edith went to New Jersey to visit Heather, she read this sentence and liked it very much; she also told Renly, "Now I know why Heather is special. That's right, she is indeed irreplaceable. It's a pity that I didn't get to know her earlier..”
Now, Renly also knew that besides musical symbols, faith was something that the darkness could not take away..
Gradually, Renly forced himself to straighten his back. This was not easy. Every muscle in his body was protesting, and the fear in his heart was roaring crazily. But he still opened his shoulders and straightened his chest bit by bit. grit your teeth and cheer yourself up.
The faith deep in the soul gathered again little by little, igniting a small fire.
Then, Matthew's voice came to his ears again, "Renly！”
Renly opened his eyes, followed Matthew's line of sight and turned his head, and then he could see a hazy halo of light emerging from the far end of the horizon..
The clear light blue is like a cold stream accidentally overturned, diluting the thick ink, and then the ink slowly blurs out, revealing a trace of clear blue, spreading quietly and quietly. Noisy, faint but magnificent, it firmly attracts the attention and cannot be looked away at all..
Even my breathing couldn't help but stop..
Light blue, sky blue, aqua blue, azure blue, peacock blue, dark blue... The blue spreads out quietly like this, as if you are admiring a drop of indigo paint falling into the clear water, a smoke-like watercolor It penetrates bit by bit. Although the whole process is slow, it has a purely natural beauty. It shows the magic of nature to the extreme. No lens or language can show even one ten thousandth of the shock..
Then, a touch of orange-red appeared like this: a bright and vivid orange-red, and the fresh vitality surged softly and lightly..
tear apart！
Thousands of rays of light bloomed from the far end of the horizon, tearing through the dark night in a brutal and flamboyant manner. The raging and vast sunlight fully released its energy. Then, the dark night rolled back like a tide, and the blue sky soared and sprinted mightily. As he stood, the curtain of the sky was lifted bit by bit, showing the tranquility and crystal-clear cleanliness of the rolling clouds. In an instant, the whole world suddenly became brighter..
The surging golden mass still lingered slowly on the horizon, seeming to be squirming away from the gravity of the other half of the earth. Some of its clumsy movements seemed naive, and then it jumped out unexpectedly. A blazing fireball appeared, and a wave of air that was almost impossible to catch with the naked eye was released. The ocean, forest, and grass all surged like waves of wheat blown by the wind, and the cold and harshness of the night became softer. , even if the temperature has not yet felt a substantial increase, it has become a little less sharp..
The night passes; the sun rises. Then, it’s a brand new day.
Renly couldn't hold back, like a child, he stretched out his right hand and spread his fingers, trying to catch the sunlight in a daze, but when he closed his fingers, he couldn't catch anything, only a piece of air; however, he opened his palm and waited patiently, But you can see the sun dancing in your palms.
A touch of warmth was playing in the palm of the hand, like a child chasing in the park. The clear laughter like silver bells could not help but ring in the ears, and then the curvature of the corners of the mouth rose slightly, and between the eyebrows The weariness and sadness melt away and disintegrate in the warmth.
“Edith always liked the morning sun, but she could never take good photos of the morning sun, so she could only become a portrait photographer. I said that was because she had no fate with nature, but she had a fate with people, and she could always capture it. She can see the fleeting expressions of characters and the true emotions hidden deep in her heart. This is her talent and her advantage. Therefore, she became a top photographer, standing at the forefront of disasters and stretching out her Helping hand. I thought that she would never understand me, just like I would never understand her, but now it seems that I was wrong.”
Renly said in a brisk tone, complaining about Edith mercilessly, which made the smile on Matthew's lips rise..
Then, Matthew also stretched out his right hand, spread it flat upward, and waited patiently, waiting for a ray of sunshine to fall lightly on his palm, waiting for a glimmer of hope to show its appearance at the end of the night, even if it was "nine rounds." "Two out", but the game is still not over, how can they give up?？
“The sun is out." Matthew said softly, feeling the warmth of the ray of sunshine with his fingertips.
“Well, it's a new day.”
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