2178 personal dilemma
After resurrecting his life, Renly seemed to be born with an ability: the ability to irritate others, the kind of calmness and pride that burst out from the inside out. Even George and Elizabeth, who had practiced self-cultivation for many years, could not resist his "attack." ”, let alone an ordinary person like Randall.？
Facing Randall, Renly looked like he was bullying a kindergartener..
Randall's cheeks turned slightly red and he stared at Renly blankly. He was choked and speechless. His whole mind seemed to be completely blank. He didn't even know how to respond. He didn't even remember what Renly had just said. What? I just lost ground in the pressing words, and then the anger surged in my chest. I was full of anger but couldn't find an outlet. My only thought was to smash that mask..
“hypocrite! " Randall said through gritted teeth, his eyes full of contempt and ridicule, and he launched an attack angrily - he didn't know how things developed to this point, but the idea of shattering the mask had already occupied his head, so he couldn't help but Attacked rationally.
Originally, Randall thought that Renly would be in a state of chaos - if not, at least he would have mood swings, but Renly did not. His calm and calm posture seemed to have no warmth, just like a robot without life or emotions. , so cold that Randall shuddered..
“You are a damn hypocrite! "Randall shouted again uncontrollably. The fear deep in his heart was quietly growing. He didn't even realize that his hands had been clenched into fists, and he stepped back unconsciously. His panicked and frightened expression seemed to have seen... demon.
The smile on Renly's lips rose slightly, "...and what about you?？”
Renly did not respond directly, because it was not worth it, and because it was unnecessary. Therefore, Renly just ended with a rhetorical question, then withdrew his gaze and ignored Randall, "Ben, John, Let's go back, we have work tomorrow." He caught Zoe's anxious figure from the corner of his eyes, Renly smiled at Zoe, and his eyes flashed to express comfort, "If you are not sure about the direction, You can go to the bar on the corner and ask. It's still open and they might be willing to help. Good luck.！”
Without stopping any longer, Renly sat directly in the passenger seat, followed by John and Whishaw..
John endured and endured, but in the end he couldn't hold it back. He rolled down the window and said to Randall with a ferocious expression, "Young man, we don't owe you anything, including an explanation." After saying this, John He retracted his head, rolled up the window again, started the engine and drove away..
The cold began to invade gradually. A gust of cold wind whirled around Xuan'er. Goosebumps appeared on the surface of the skin. Thin cold air penetrated into the blood along the pores. It seemed that the toes could no longer be felt. Randall couldn't help but shudder. , the overheated brain finally cooled down.
What did he do?？
Subconsciously looking left and right, Randall only saw Zoe's back, "Zoe, Zoe!" Randall called repeatedly, but failed to make Zoe stop. He finally started to become anxious. He chased after him in stride, "Zoe!" He grabbed Zoe's arm with force and pulled her over. Then Zoe looked face to face, but Randall was stunned and stood helpless. Stunned in place.
Zoe stared at Randall with tears streaming down her face. She did not speak, but stared at Randall with wide eyes. The silent accusation hit Randall hard in his heart..
“Why? "Zoe asked calmly, "Why are you doing this?？”
Randall couldn't answer.
“Don't you know what happened tonight? They are not obligated to stop, nor do they have to! If they were really hypocrites, they could have just left and we'd never know who was in that car! Just like the strangers who left before! But they stopped, and for what? To create reputation? Just saving two strangers standing on the side of the road? Is this just a show? You and I should both know whether this is true or false.！”
Zoe’s tears couldn’t stop at all.
“You hurt him, do you understand? You hurt him badly! You don’t understand him, and you have no right to attack him, because you never know what he is enduring. Etiquette, that is his politeness, and it is also his protective color. His perfection comes precisely from his imperfections, those Real scars, you don't understand, right? Because you have never understood the album 'Don Quixote', and you have never known what the so-called perfection means to him..”
Zoe couldn't describe her feelings in words at all. The despair was as if the whole world was collapsing and she couldn't stop it..
“I don’t understand. Indeed, I don’t understand! Because I don’t want to understand and I don’t want to understand! "Randall was irritated and angry, and he grabbed his hair fiercely, "Renly, Renly, Renly, everything is Renly, your whole world is all Renly, but you I never knew that it was just an illusion of his and you could never be with him! He will never look you in the eye, do you understand? do you understand！”
“I see! Of course I understand! It was just a dream, a dream that was too beautiful to be true, just like the story of Cinderella will never go out of style. Master Renly was just a dream of mine, the most perfect and happiest dream. But that dream was also my dream. The motivation to continue living and fighting, do you understand? What does the term Don Quixote mean? Your lack of understanding just proves the meaning of Don Quixote - no one can understand us, everyone thinks we are crazy, but we are not, we are just trying to be real Own.”
Zoe's thoughts were clearer than ever before, and she looked at Randall with disappointment and sadness, "But you just hurt him again, and you hurt me again.".”
“I didn't mean to hurt you, I just... I just like you." Randall finally spoke out, and the words hidden in his heart finally came out, "I can never be as good as him, I know, I Everyone knows that I can only wait by your side silently, hoping that you can see me, I just... like you.”
Zoe looked at Randall in disbelief. Because she was too shocked and too surprised, her whole mind was in a mess, but her eyes became more and more sad, and the tears that had stopped fell again, and her eyes were filled with tears. A look of pain flashed on his face, "But you have never understood me. You don't even know what Don Quixote means to me. So, what do you like about me? Are you sure you know?？”
Randall opened his mouth slightly, but Zoe said nothing more, broke away from Randall's right hand, turned around and walked towards the bar on the corner of the street..
Randall stood there, staring at Zoe's back, as if he was lost..
……
The road is running.The road is running..
The sound of tires grinding against the gravel on the ground was making a slight sound, which further highlighted the quietness and peace of the night, but also caused the silence to slowly spread..
John didn't speak, and Whishaw didn't speak either - because Renly didn't speak. They were exchanging glances through the rearview mirror, but they didn't dare to speak..
As actors, John has been in the industry for 25 years and Whishaw has been in the industry for 15 years. They have both been in the vanity industry for a long time. To be honest, they feel the same way about the difficulties faced by public figures - they are not complaining or disapproving. Satisfied, but different locations have different situations.
Don’t public figures have emotions? No, of course they have their own emotions, and they even need to bear more negative emotions, but as public figures, they cannot vent their emotions on innocent ordinary people at will. Sometimes, even if the people are making trouble unreasonably, they must Maintain a good posture, otherwise they will become the party being blamed. In the era of social networks, this situation has become even more serious. If you are not careful, it will turn into a "witch trial", but no one has ever really cared whether they are also experiencing troughs and depressions. Or facing difficulties.
It is true that as public figures, they enjoy the spotlight. Fame, glory and money seem to be easily available without much effort. This also makes ordinary people more demanding and strict with them - so they are not complaining, they are just saying express a fact：
Everyone has their own predicament, gains and rewards, happiness and pain, only they can feel it.
Renly's performance is too gentlemanly, but he is accused of being cold and unemotional; but if Renly's performance is not gentlemanly enough - just like the promotion in the Magic City in June this year, then he will be accused of being a big name and rude, hurting the audience's emotions , which also puts them into the dilemma of "not being human inside and outside".
So, what should Renly do? Or in other words, what do ordinary people expect Renly to do?？
Both John and Whishaw have personally experienced similar situations, but the problem is that Renly has reached a height that is difficult to reach in the entire history of film, which also means that ordinary people have put forward more demands for Renly, and there are thousands of people with different faces. , far beyond what John and Whishaw faced - so how could Renly possibly meet everyone's expectations? The only thing he can do is to stick to himself, the most authentic and decent self.
But Renly's persistence has been repeatedly attacked by others. This is definitely not a beautiful thing. People see Renly's brilliance standing under the spotlight, but they can't see the dirty things outside the spotlight. Gu, even John, even Whishaw, can feel the anger and sadness at this time.
In the silence, Whishaw and John didn't know how to comfort Renly. The indescribable helplessness was mixed with sadness. Their emotions slowly settled down, and tonight's movie clips appeared in their minds again. : Buster Keaton’s expressionless face reveals sadness and bitterness, just like a clown.
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