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“Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change.”
She understood.
This is a cry from the depths of her heart: for her dream, she can give up the Budapest castle, her treasure chest, or even the golden piano and Spanish red wine; for her dream, she can give up handmade treasures, the vast land, and even Can give up family and friends……
For the sake of her dream, she could give up her right to live. Instead of living like a zombie for ten years, she might as well live for one day with wanton abandon. She could give up her dream of fighting the disease. Instead of standing still and shrinking, she might as well break the shackles and give it a try. She could even Give up all efforts and struggles, just want to live out yourself, use your truest appearance, and persist every day, even if it is just one day.
“Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change.”
She understood, she understood everything, and the hot tears burst out, as if they had completely burst the dam and couldn't stop it, but she didn't want to stop it, she just let the tears flow freely, but she couldn't help the smile at the corner of her mouth. It rose up, and then she laughed happily and wantonly.
It is such a stupid thing to stop eating because of choking. No one will refuse to drink water forever because he is afraid of choking to death. But in real life, people always stop and refuse to try because of fear of failure, even before starting. , I denied the result, and then spent my life doing nothing - anyway, I will never live to be twenty years old, anyway, there is absolutely no possibility of curing my condition, anyway, I will never be a singer, anyway, my dream will never be possible……
Anyway, I can't become a professional athlete, and I can't make money by becoming a mathematician. Anyway, I'll just make do with whoever I marry. Anyway, I'll just make ends meet no matter how hard I work. Without the appreciation of the boss, this is how society is anyway, and it is impossible for society to change because of one person.……
People are always like this, categorically believing that they will not give up eating because of choking, but when faced with choices every day, they always make the decision to give up eating because of choking. Because they are afraid of failure, fear of change, and because they reject harm, they stay where they are. Not even willing to try, and then comforting myself, "Actually, this is the best."”.
If this is the case, the cold is the biggest killer of mankind, and no one can find an antidote; if this is the case, the end of life is death after all, and it is the same for everyone, so why start?？
For the first time, Heather realized how stupid she was. She was trapped in a small world of self-pity, as if the whole world owed her, as if the whole world had failed her, as if the whole world had betrayed herself. What a shame. madness! How ridiculous! How ridiculous！
What was the reason that made her give up the change? What was the reason that made her give up her efforts? What was the reason that made her give up her dream? What was the reason that made her give up her life? What was the reason that made her escape from the whole world?？
The laughter just overflowed, and she laughed until tears flowed down crazily. The hot temperature burned the back of her hand, but the temperature was so real, so real that she couldn't help but raise the back of her hand, and she could still clearly feel it when she looked at it. Every change in the back of the hand made me laugh happily..
However, because she was too excited to laugh, she started to cough violently. The coughing made her lungs hurt, but this pain was so real, telling her clearly: she still has feelings now, and still has a chance..
The moving voice in my ears is still humming wantonly, just like a bard walking around the world with a guitar, wandering on the streets, singing about life, and living a happy life, like a moveable feast, every day is different, There is happiness and sadness, happiness and pain, hope and disappointment. The colors of life are as colorful as a rainbow..
Listen, that is the most beautiful song in the world.
“My house in Budapest, my private treasure chest, my golden grand piano, my wonderful Spanish red wine, for you, you, I am willing to give up everything.”
When the music ended, Heather raised her hands and wiped away the embarrassed tears on her cheeks, but her smile bloomed without reservation..
Raising her head, through the haze of tears, Heather looked at the man in front of her quietly. His eyebrows were always so sparse, with a touch of softness in his elegance, but there was a sharpness that no one could see; his eyes The eyes are always so deep, with a hint of brightness in the depth, but they hide stories that people can never understand. That quiet and turbulent, momentary and eternal brilliance makes time linger in the smile at the corner of the mouth..
Her heart beat like never before, once, and again, so real, as if she could feel the sound of the heart beating against her chest, and she couldn't help but want to listen carefully..
“I told you, you could be a great singer." Heather said, her voice a little hoarse..
She didn't want to admit that hidden behind Renly's seemingly calm and carefree coolness and wantonness, there was a power that touched the soul, whether it was melody, lyrics, or singing, that powerful The power is almost irresistible, and one can easily fall into it and be unable to extricate himself..
Renly laughed dumbly, "I think you are the one who embraces the dream of being a singer..”
Heather chuckled. Renly's answer was not surprising. She nodded lightly, "Yes, I am." Frankly and sincerely, she admitted her biggest dream deep in her heart, "I I want to be a singer." Such simple words, without any deliberate ups and downs, are sonorous and powerful..
The smile on Renly's lips rose, and he nodded to Heather. He said nothing, but the affirmation and recognition flashing in his eyes could not be clearer..
“What was the name of the song just now? "Heather asked curiously.
Renly pursed his lips and gave an unusual answer, "'Budapest）’.”
“"Budapest." Heather repeated the word, "It's the capital of Hungary, Budapest."？”
Renly shrugged, "I have a castle there.”
This sentence made Heather laugh, and she chuckled, "There is also a golden piano." Renly nodded sincerely and confirmed, which made Heather smile even happier. She couldn't remember the last time. When did I feel so happy, "I like this song very much".”
“Lucky." Renly had a worried expression on his face, and a touch of humor filled it, "Did you hear anything?？”
“This is my story, isn't it? "Heather winked playfully and did not answer..
Renly spread his hands to show his innocence, "Yes, this is your freedom.”
Judging from the literal meaning of the lyrics, "Budapest" is a little love song sung by a man to a woman, who is willing to give up all romance and persistence for love; but Heather heard another layer of meaning in the lyrics, dreams The madness and purity, the madness and beauty of freedom, the wantonness and indulgence of life.
Find yourself, be yourself, insist on yourself. For all this, work hard. This is the most beautiful and romantic thing in the world that Heather can imagine..
Heather gradually faded her smile, trying to see some clues in Renly's eyes - why did he create this song? Why would he create such lyrics? Why did he choose this time to sing this song? Furthermore, why can he empathize with her situation?？
Is there a Budapest hidden deep in Renly's heart that houses his golden piano?？
“I read the newspaper and heard that you did a good job in Toronto." Heather lowered her eyes and changed the subject, "So, when will the movie be released in New York? If I have the chance, I would like to go to the cinema to watch it.”
This was an unexpected surprise. Ever since Renly came into contact with Heather, Heather had never left Mount Sinai Hospital. She seemed to be isolated from the world, completely cutting off all contact with the outside world. But now, Heather actually took the initiative to mention that she wanted to Going to the cinema? this is a good thing.
“We don't know yet." Renly suppressed his inner thoughts and replied calmly, "But we have found the publishing company, and they will arrange the schedule next. If nothing else, November? Or December? I will tell you when I have the news. But are you sure? Do you want to watch the movie 'Buried Alive'?？”
Heather originally thought Renly was asking, "Are you sure you want to go to the cinema?" Unexpectedly, the question turned out to be something else. She couldn't hold back her surprise, her eyes widened, and then she saw the smug look on Renly's mouth. smile, which made Heather roll her eyes speechlessly, "What? Do you think I look like a coward? Or do you think I can't watch thriller movies due to my current physical condition?？”
Renly smiled even brighter and waved his hand, "No, I just think that 'Buried Alive' is probably an R-rated movie..”
Another unexpected answer made Heather open her mouth, with a look of astonishment on her face. R-rated movies, simply put, are restricted/restricted/rated, and are recommended for people over seventeen years old. In other words, Heather is not old enough yet. Can't watch.
Heather was so surprised that she blurted out, "Why, you're naked from the front inside?"？”
“Pfft." This time it was Renly's turn to be surprised. The embarrassed look made Heather laugh heartily and finally breathed a sigh of relief..
When Kelly Barton came to the entertainment room, she saw this scene. Heather was laughing wantonly and looked... full of vitality. This was something Kelly had never seen before. Her face His face was full of question marks, and he walked in with a slight hesitation, "Uh... I don't want to disturb you, but, Heather, it's time for you to recover..”
“Yeah? No problem." Heather agreed simply and neatly, surprising Kelly again - every time she went to rehab in the past, Heather resisted it extremely, and even if she finally got it, she always looked sad. Today, what is going on?？
Kelly cast a questioning look at Renly. Renly shrugged and spread his hands to express his confusion, but the smile on his lips could not help but rise..
this is a good sign.
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