187 Budapest
Looking at Heather's bright smile, Renly spread his hands, "I think it's more likely that I couldn't even pass the audition, and then I was directly eliminated. Then you pass the test and go all the way to the end. , become the new American Idol and realize your dream.”
At first, Heather thought Renly was joking, and she smiled happily, but then she caught the focus and sincerity in Renly's eyes, which made the smile freeze at the corner of her mouth, and she was stunned for a moment. She stayed in place, and then her smile gradually turned bitter, rising on the tip of her tongue. The surge was so overwhelming that she could hardly resist, "Things are not that simple. I need help even eating and walking now. How can I go to the United States?" Idol' is participating in the competition？”
“It's that simple." Renly's voice was still gentlemanly and courteous, but at this time it was categorical and categorical, which made Heather suddenly raise her head and cast her gaze in shock, "That's 'American Idol'! It was a stage that tested your singing voice. You only need to step on the stage and sing loudly. No one will mind whether you are standing, sitting, or... lying down..”
Renly's joking tone was as usual, but this time Heather didn't laugh. Anger and irritation began to surge in her heart. She hesitated several times before finally bursting out at this moment, "What do you know? You are not sick. You're not the one lying on the hospital bed, you're not the one who even exposes your privacy to the nurse! You don't know anything! You can do whatever you want! You just stand! Making condescending and indifferent comments from the side is no different from those selfish and arrogant narcissists.！”
“I understand, I understand everything." Renly did not flinch at all, and looked at Heather firmly. The powerful force strangled Heather's neck, leaving her with almost no way to escape and could only freeze. looked at Renly, unable to take his eyes off.
“I know that when the sickle of death hangs around the neck, when basic survival becomes a luxury, dreams are luxury goods that have no effect, even worse than excrement. But I also know that if I give up even on myself, If we give up our dreams and hope, then everything will be meaningless. We are just hanging on, like walking zombies, struggling to stay alive. Eating, drinking and urinating is all that life has to offer. The brain has no meaning at all. /Ability, all that is left is the ability. There is no difference between one day and ten years, so it might as well end here.”
Renly's words were still gentle and gentle, but the tenacity hidden in them was resounding, making a sonorous and powerful sound in his ears. Heather looked at Renly's bright eyes and stayed there in shock, at the bottom of the bottomless abyss. The powerful energy burst out, so real, so urgent, so profound, penetrated her layers of armor and severely hit the softest part of her heart. How could he know? How could he guess all his thoughts?？
The shock was so overwhelming that she just sat there blankly, unable to say a word, and her soul began to tremble..
“I also know that in the end, when I feel sorry for myself and give up on myself, I will regret why I didn't at least try. Even just give it a try." Renly took a deep breath, and the turbulent emotions in his heart were almost uncontrollable. At this moment, , at this moment, he lost control for the first time, because he saw himself in Heather, himself in the previous life.
He didn't know how much pain Heather had endured, because the disease of "ALS" was far more terrifying than imagined; but he knew that in the last life, he did not even gradually lose his vitality. He died early He was sentenced to death, and the outcome of high paraplegia strangled his throat so hard that he didn't even have a chance to struggle; he knew even better that Heather could still fight, work hard, and struggle, she There are still opportunities, but once you miss them, you miss them forever..
“Is this your dream? If you don’t realize it yourself? Are you praying for someone to do it for you? Jesus? Buddha? Creator? Or your parents? "Renly clenched his fist tightly and suppressed the raging emotions forcibly. He knew that this was unfair to Heather. His words were too natural and mixed with too many personal emotions. He had no right. Criticizing Heather's life like this.
Heather caught a hint of struggling pain in the depths of Renly's sight. Although this touch was fleeting, it was quickly hidden behind the eyelashes, covered with a thin layer of mist, and could no longer be seen; However, Heather could clearly feel the emotion that penetrated deep into the bone marrow and made the soul begin to tremble. It was deep and turbulent, so real, so profound..
Caught off guard, Heather's eyes filled with tears, because she felt the same thing, and because she was touched in her heart. She suddenly realized that just as Renly could not judge her at will, he did not know what she had gone through; and vice versa. .What story was hidden behind Renly's wanton run? She had never understood it and refused to understand it. But in those few words just now, Heather felt the fear and vulnerability deep in Renly's heart..
like her.
Renly did not continue talking and looked at Heather quietly. He could see her hesitation and struggle, he could see her fear and vulnerability, and he could also see her pain and anger..
He knew that it was easier said than done. It took him a lifetime of hesitation and embarrassment before he suddenly woke up in this life and ran barefoot desperately; and now Heather was only fifteen years old, even older than him. I was seven years younger when he was sentenced to death. He couldn't ask for more from her. But Renly knew that if time could be turned back, he would be willing to give it all, just to exchange for a chance, not a chance to come back again, but A chance to take a chance, a chance to have a glimmer of hope - before it's too late.
He was lucky enough to get a second chance to start over, but what if Heather wasn't so lucky? More importantly, Heather's condition has not completely deteriorated yet. She still has opportunities, but there is not much time left for her..
The fingertips once again danced lightly on the strings, light and joyful, romantic and poetic, the low string sounds gently hitting the eardrums like drums, golden sunshine, fragrant coffee, green grass, colorful Flowers, black and white butterflies, running children...the vivid pictures were sketched in my mind unconsciously..
Heather couldn't help but raised her eyes, and her eyes fell on the slight smile on the corner of Renly's mouth. It was sparse and bright, with mottled golden halos gently rippling in her eyes, and messy thoughts in the brisk strings. disappear in smoke.
“My house in Budapest, my treasure chest, my golden grand piano, my wonderful Spanish wine, for you, you, I would give up everything……”
Renly hummed softly. The slightly lowered voice was slightly deep, but it was as elegant and mellow as the strings of a cello. He outlined the wonderful emotions in a few words, and Heather couldn't help but slowly closed her eyes. Eyes, imagine the ancient contract in Budapest, golden piano, dark red wine, glowing treasure box, footsteps walking on the dark brown carpet, quietly, the oil paintings hanging on both sides show the artistic taste of the owner. The carved sofa and copper teapot look quiet and peaceful, and the faint fragrance of tea lingers under the afternoon sun..
All this beauty is too good to be true.
“The land I own is so vast that it may be difficult for you to believe my sincerity, but for you, you, I am willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change, baby, if you hug me, everything Obstacles will disappear.”
The moving melody does not seem to have an overly complicated arrangement, but every section is as beautiful as poetry. It is pure to the extreme and simple to the extreme, but it bursts out the supreme realm of reducing complexity into simplicity. The brisk rhythm makes Heather's fingers He tapped his knees gently, and the rhythm started, and even his body couldn't help but began to shake slightly, as if he was wandering in a stream of flowing sunshine, warm and free, casual and lazy, his fingertips You can even touch the rounded arcs of the pebbles, the smooth lines of the flowing stream, and the smart trajectory of the breeze..
The world lit up little by little, and the golden sunshine penetrated the boundless darkness, slowly, slowly, slowly, awakening the vitality of all life..
“I have so many handmade treasures, the list is long, if you said those words, I would run to you in a heartbeat, oh, run to you, I'd give it all. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change, baby , if you hug me, all obstacles will disappear.”
Unable to hold it back, Heather chuckled, as if she saw the long list of parchments piled at Renly's feet. He was wearing retro French court clothes, holding a quill in his hand, and gently He checked the rare treasures above, then gently raised his chin and said with a proud look, "I am willing to give up everything." Those understated words were so decisive, with a hint of arrogance and coldness in his eyes..
The vivid picture really made people laugh. So, Heather curled up the corners of her mouth, letting the smile gently leak out, and even overflowed into her voice. She was cheerful and happy. Her body swayed to the rhythm, and her fingertips and toes were already pressing Unable to bear the loneliness, I started to tap dance.
“My friends and family, they don't understand, they worry about losing too much if you hold my hand, but for you, you, I'm willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change, baby, If you hug me, all barriers will disappear.”
Caught off guard, the happiness reached the extreme, the joy reached the extreme, and the beauty reached the extreme. Warm tears filled her eyes, but she still did not open her eyes. She just allowed the hot tears to fall from the depths of her closed eyes..
She understood, understood the call of the melody, understood the resonance of the lyrics, and understood Renly's comfort. At this moment, she truly understood, as if she had touched her own soul. After a long time, it was really long time no see.
Note: Budapest - Gee-Ezra）
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