186 Wasted dreams
Heather's fingers were still not very flexible, and her fingertips seemed to have difficulty pressing the strings. Especially her little finger, which was always easy to slide the strings. This also made it impossible for the melody to proceed according to the plan of the music score, but she did not feel irritated at all. , practicing with concentration, as if preparing to attend a world-class concert.
The sunshine approaching noon was a bit dazzling, falling down scorchingly and draping softly on her shoulders. The awkward and stiff fingers were glowing with gleaming light. At this moment, it seemed that she had never lingered on the hospital bed, nor had she ever encountered anything. The blow of fate, the body glows with vitality, making people unable to take their eyes away.
The fragmented melody came intermittently. Heather tried to hum along with the musical notes, but because the melody was not coherent, the singing was a bit scattered. "So we have arrived, a lonely place where we can't go back..." Heather's voice It is immature and green, but it has the crispness and vitality of a first cry. The sadness floating among the musical notes slowly fills the air, "You are the face that makes me go through fire and water, and this is the name that the children will inherit."……”
The song only had time to sing half of the song, and then it stopped again. Heather did not give up, adjusted her gestures, and continued to play, "Form the charm, create the crown.".”
is a "beast"”.
It was the song "The Beast" that he composed when he was at Mount Sinai Hospital last time. But what really shocked Renly was that Heather was able to figure out how to play it again according to the score after only hearing him play it once. It is a kind of talent. The talent of musical sense and music theory, the talent of being able to recognize the melody innately..
This was the first time Renly discovered another side of Heather. He was a little surprised, but more of a surprise..
After just half of playing, Heather's fingers were already so sore that they began to lose control. She shook her palm hard, trying to regain control, with a trace of annoyance and annoyance appearing between her eyebrows..
Renly can show that trace of restlessness - he clearly wants to work hard, but is unable to do so; clearly wants to fight, but does not get a response; clearly wants to struggle, but is unable to do so..
That deep sense of powerlessness makes people angry and wants to destroy the whole world; but it makes people even more helpless because they are completely helpless. In Heather, Renly saw himself, who once wanted to get rid of that hospital bed so eagerly. The restraint, but was eventually consumed alive under that white. Slowly, cruelly.
Heather seemed to notice Renly's eyes, raised her head, and the two people's eyes collided through the glass..
Heather was not flustered, angry, or shy. She was just a little surprised. Her slightly flashing eyes immediately calmed down, and she just looked at Renly quietly. Those calm eyes had something to do with her age. Incompatible maturity and coldness, it's almost hard to believe that she is only fifteen years old this year.
The pain and torture of the disease caused her to experience vicissitudes that a fifteen-year-old should not have to face..
Facing Heather's gaze, Renly smiled and looked over calmly. He was not at all panicked because his "spectating" behavior was discovered on the spot, as if it was all natural. Then Renly stepped forward He walked quickly, bypassed the glass wall, walked into the entertainment room, and asked in a normal tone, "I'm learning the guitar."？”
Renly's calmness also affected Heather. She was stunned, then nodded, and responded lightly, "Yeah. However, I am not a performer, but more of a singer. The guitar is just for rehabilitation. That's all.”
“It sounds like you are an excellent singer." Renly shrugged, "In other words, you have the potential to become an excellent singer..”
Renly walked diagonally across from Heather, sat down, stretched out his right hand, and spread it flat in front of Heather, "I never knew you liked singing..”
Heather hesitated for a moment and tried to put the guitar into Renly's palm, but because the guitar was a little heavy, her wrist couldn't support it, so Renly took the initiative to take the guitar, "My biggest dream is to participate in 'American Idol' '." After saying this, Heather added anxiously, "Don't laugh at me.！”
Lu Li couldn't help but smile, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, but then he pursed his lips again, "Maybe you can try it next year." The minimum age limit for participating in "American Idol" is sixteen..
The smile on the corner of Heather's mouth was a little bitter. She wanted to argue, but then gave up. There is no need to explain, right?？
Renly's eyes fell on Heather. He could see the negative emotions in Heather. He lowered his eyes to cover up the mixed emotions, and then raised the strings on the bottom line of his fingertips. "You should use the fingertips and keep the first place." Each knuckle is bent at 90 degrees, so that only a little force is needed to achieve the best suppression effect." Renly seemed to have not noticed Heather's condition at all, explaining in the way of teaching ordinary people..
Heather looked at it carefully. Her slender fingers gently outlined the musical notes, which had a wonderful sense of beauty. The familiar melody slowly flowed out. It was really magical. Several simple notes were connected in a special way. , and then it can be turned into a moving melody, awakening the resonance deep in your heart..
Renly raised his head, looked at Heather, and gave a signal. Heather hesitated a little, so she missed the first four beats, but she immediately regained her composure and sang, "...in the darkness. In pursuit of destiny, I saw you scarred late last night, I saw you dancing in the arms of the devil.”
Heather's voice was a little tight at first, and she missed two beats in a row, but she quickly forced herself to calm down, closed her eyes, and listened intently to the strings of the guitar, as if her whole body was integrated into the melody. , the turbulent emotions swept over her, and the world suddenly became quiet, as if she was the only one left, standing on top of the world, singing loudly.
“So when you are weak, when you drop to your knees, I will do my best for the rest of time to keep your vows alive and true..”
For the same song, Heather and Renly have completely different styles. In Renly's performance, there is a hint of melancholy and a hint of loneliness; but Heather's performance gives a different feeling. The taste, that sharp pain is like a pendant, bit by bit, it penetrates into the bottom of my heart. The pain spreads out like ripples. The muscles all over the body have been tightened to the extreme, but I can't cry out. I grit my teeth and clenched my teeth. I persisted, and it seemed that I could reach the other shore as long as I persisted for a while longer, but... I could never see the end..
“So grass/your dream, how dare you forget our scars, I will become a beast for you, if you pay enough money, everything will not count, few dreams can be remembered.”
When Heather sang these lyrics, the desperate sadness turned into tears and fell down her cheeks unexpectedly. However, she did not wipe away the tears. She just sang loudly and sang to her heart's content. Her voice was trembling slightly, and her tone was It seemed a little off, but the pure emotion was completely released, making Renly feel sour inside..
The Heather in front of her was like a wounded beast. She longed for freedom and chased her dreams, but her scarred body slowed down her steps. She faltered, and in the end she stumbled, spilling hot blood all the way. Rhododendrons bloom all over the mountains and plains.
When the song was finished, Heather sat quietly on the spot, tears welling up again, but she stubbornly bit her lip and refused to let go. Only in this way, the tears would not fall down again, and she would not let go. Will reveal her inner vulnerability again.
Renly's fingertips stopped on the strings, and he could still faintly feel the touch of the rough strings on his fingertips, but he felt sad in his heart. He knew better than anyone else how Heather felt, her soul. Trapped in this body, freedom is tightly bound, with no way out and no hope..
“Did you know? I envy you, I really envy you." Heather's voice was trembling slightly, her fists were clenched tightly, and she was unwilling to relax at all, as if she would completely collapse if she relaxed just a little bit, "I envy you. You can move freely. I envy you that you can chase your dreams. I envy you that you can sing freely. I envy you that you can stand on the stage and use your soul to convey the emotions in the melody, and then let people touch your heart. So soft, but not hurt..." Heather's voice gradually disappeared, her emotions of frustration and anger were completely suppressed, and her shoulders slumped..
Renly's eyes felt a little warm, and he lowered his eyes in embarrassment. Everything was so familiar that it hit him unexpectedly..
For a moment, the entertainment room fell into silence, and a touch of loneliness and sadness flowed in the air..
Heather slowly raised her head and looked at Renly in front of her, feeling a little mixed..
Dreams are too far away for her, because reality is holding her throat tightly. Even survival has become a problem. She has no time or space to think about more things. Dreams are a luxury. .And what about Renly? He is trying his best to pursue his dream of being an actor. Musical talent is just a hobby for him. He is so wanton, so flamboyant, so indulgent, so...free.
“Sometimes, I really hate you." Heather said, breaking the brief silence, but after she finished speaking, she couldn't help laughing, causing Renly to chuckle and spread his hands. With a helpless look, "Geniuses are always jealous." These arrogant words made Heather roll her eyes again, expressing her strong dissatisfaction..
The smile slowly disappeared from the corner of his mouth, and Renly said seriously, "If you are willing, I can accompany you to participate in 'American Idol' next year. You know, I can also go and have a long experience, and meet Simon Kao by the way. Simon-Cowell）……”
Before Renly could finish speaking, Heather was immediately amused. She thought about the scene of Simon and Renly's confrontation and laughed even more happily. "I think Simon will definitely not be able to defeat you. He will be rogue then.".”
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