1733 The future is promising
Standing on the stage and crying bitterly, Damien looked extremely embarrassed and embarrassed. All his emotions were displayed in front of the audience. His fragility, his struggle, his joy and his happiness, everything. They are all so real and so heavy, weighing heavily on my shoulders.
“When I shot this work, it was just an idea. I hope……”
Damien finally reorganized his emotions, and with a heavy cry, he continued to deliver his acceptance speech while tossing and turning incoherently. Sitting under the stage, Renly was slightly in a trance, watching Damien like this. Well, besides being happy, I also felt a little touched..
The impression of Damien in the previous life was still at the stage where he received praise from the entire Hollywood with "La La Land". Behind the shyness and social awkwardness, he was a dull otaku who devoted himself wholeheartedly to artistic creation. The confidence and determination deep inside can flow out through the lens.
But those are just fleeting glimpses drawn under the spotlight..
The Damien in front of him overturned those fixed impressions and revealed his inner fragility and youthfulness. On the road to chasing dreams and becoming an artistic creator, he was moving forward step by step with difficulty; in the distant place In the future, Damien will eventually be able to fit into the orbit of his previous life and become the center of attention under the spotlight. However, on this road, all the bumps and tribulations are blurred in the dazzling light..
In Damien's almost collapse acceptance speech, the 30th Sundance Film Festival finally came to an end..
“"Breaking Drummer" won the Jury Prize and the Audience Choice Award, and was loved by both professionals and ordinary audiences. It undoubtedly became the biggest winner of this year's film festival. It can be foreseen now that thanks to Renly's blessing, With the support of Sony Classics, this work will definitely attract more attention after its release; as for the prospects of the awards season, it depends on the operation of Sony Classics.
After the award ceremony ended, the bustling heat wave continued for nearly an hour. The guests present were discussing and chatting with each other lively, and the atmosphere was full of joy and joy..
As the biggest winner tonight, Damien naturally became the focus of everyone's attention. The endless flow of people was dazzling. He didn't even have time to sort out his emotions, and then he fell into one after another. After the ceremony, In celebration mode, Sundance is not much different from the Golden Globes and Oscars.
Damien finally found a gap, secretly left the scene, left the noisy and crowded indoor environment, and ran into the harsh and cold outdoors. The refreshing air poured into his dull lungs, despite the chills coming one after another. One, but finally able to feel the fresh air, this is when I feel breathing again.
Then Damien saw Renly.
At this time, Renly was standing not far from the entrance of the main venue. In front of him stood two young people who looked like movie fans. Faint laughter could be heard during the conversation, and the harmonious atmosphere was like gurgling hot spring water. It was like a sound, and there was a little warmth in the tranquility. This made Damien tilt his head and watch quietly. It seemed that Renly always had such a magic power that made the blade of time become gentle..
The two young men didn't stay too long. They waved goodbye to Renly with brisk steps. Renly was alone again..
Damien took steps forward. When he came to Renly, he realized that he didn't know what to say. He just wanted to get close to Renly, and then he did so..
Renly turned to look at him and smiled, "The party is over.？”
Damien shook his head helplessly, trying to complain that Renly had left him behind, but the words of complaint could not come out. He could only release the laser at Renly with extremely resentful eyes..
Renly's smile grew more and more, "You should learn to adapt. After the movie is released, there will be more similar occasions. Today can only be regarded as a basic level. If Sony Classics prepares to compete in the awards season, then the situation will be more serious. Maybe you have to attend two or three parties in one night.”
“What about you? "Damien's eyes widened and he looked at Renly in disbelief..
Renly didn't answer, but gave Damien a meaningful look, with a look of pride in his eyes..
Damien immediately caught Renly's eyes and said dumbfounded, "Are you...are you showing off?" After saying that, he muttered to himself, "I thought we could share things together. It shouldn't be like this. Why can you be lazy and I have to attend? I'm not good at it either. I don't know what to do. Really, I think you are more suitable than me." Those vague words muttered to themselves were on the lips and teeth. They collided with each other and couldn't explain it at all. After I finished complaining to myself, I felt better..
Suddenly it became quiet.
The pale yellow streetlight halo supported the dark night sky. There were no snowflakes, but a biting chill continued to float in the air, slightly stinging the exposed skin, and the world became peaceful..
“i am separating.”
Damien suddenly said. He had no intention of mentioning it. It was his personal matter and he didn't think it was necessary to mention it specifically. But he just had an impulse and said it like this. Surprisingly, he I thought I would feel uncomfortable, but I actually relaxed..
“None of us wanted to get to this point. We all tried to solve the problem. But in the end we couldn't. I moved out at Christmas..”
Damien continued speaking calmly, without any context, transitions, or even special subjects and pronouns, just talking like this; Renly did not make any comments, but just listened quietly..
Although Damien is not yet thirty years old this year, he has actually been married for more than three years..
Damien and his wife also met and dated while studying at Harvard University - just like Justin Hurwitz, who composed the soundtrack for "Crack Drummer". Jasmine-McGlade is also a The writer and director was also struggling at the beginning of his career; in 2009, Damien's directorial debut "Guy and Madeleine on the Park Bench" was a script co-written by the couple who were still dating at the time. , then Damien served as director and Jessamine served as producer.
After that, Jasmine also directed a feature film, "Maria, my love", which was released in 2011 but unfortunately failed to cause any response.
In the past five years, Damien and Jasmine have been chasing their dreams, but they have also suffered continuous blows in the cruel reality. Before, Damien went to the Oscar night to wait and see, but there was no end in sight. It meant struggling. Both he and Jasmine had been forced into a dead corner in life, and they were almost out of breath..
They are all persisting, they are all working hard, and they are all stubborn, but there is no light or hope in the dark tunnel of life. They are all exhausting each other, and gradually they cannot recognize their original appearance. , even the emotions that maintain each other have lost their flavor.
In the end, someone needs to make a choice, either to compromise or to give up or... to part ways..
At Christmas time, the conflict between them finally broke out, leaving each other bruised and bruised, and then ran away like lost dogs..
Who is wrong? No one was wrong, but we still got to this point after all..
At tonight's award ceremony, Damien fell apart because of Sundance and because of Jasmine: If this trophy could have been brought forward a year, would things have been different?？
“When I stood on the stage tonight, all I could think about was the last scene of 'Crazy Love'." Damien's words were stained with the coldness and loneliness of the night, and the deep sense of loss lingered, "Jacob and Anna They finally came together, but both parties were exhausted, and neither of them knew whether their choice was right..”
In Jacob and Anna, he saw the reflections of himself and Jasmine, and then his emotions completely broke out..
Renly turned to look at Damien, "There is never a right or wrong choice about relationships. We just look for missed and reunited moments in each other's lives, and then take those best, most painful and most intense moments. Stay in memory, that's all.”
Damien rubbed his head vigorously, and his instant noodle-style curly hair became more and more messy, "I know, I just... I just can't help but think, if 'Exploding Drummer' was sure to start filming, Jasmine can believe in me more and believe that this work can be successful; or, if I had shot the short film "Breaking Drummer" and found investment at Sundance, the pressure in our lives could be reduced.……”
Renly once again cast his gaze into the distance, staring at the hazy light on the far side, "So, if you could really do it all over again, would you choose to give up your dream? Or, would you still choose to become a director?？”
Damien was stunned. Countless possibilities emerged in his mind, but he still couldn't find the answer, and his smile turned bitter. "Now I finally know why everyone likes Hollywood movies, because Everyone likes a 'happily ever after' ending, like a fairy tale.”
“Isn’t that why everyone loves movies? Because movies are the real tool for creating dreams." Renly said with a smile..
“"Dream." Damien murmured softly, "Dream, dream, dream..." Then he turned to look at Renly, "You know, before I wrote 'The Boomstick', I was writing a script. , based on the story of Jessamine and I as a prototype, it tells the story of two young people pursuing their artistic dreams in New York, but... Unfortunately, no one took this script seriously because it was too self-centered and too self-centered.……”
Damien suddenly paused, "Huh, anyway, I stopped writing that script. Then I went to Los Angeles and met you. That script still lacked an ending, but now I know how to end it. I'm thinking about it. I'll go back and finish writing the script. Are you willing to star in this work?？”
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