1650 As if a world away
Standing at the door of the ward, Renly paused for a moment. He put his right hand on the door handle, but suddenly he was afraid and did not dare to enter; but he still pressed his right hand, "click", and the door lock was released. The sound accentuated the tranquility of the entire ward, exploding above the eardrums like thunder..
If his actions woke Paul up like this, would that be a good thing?？
Then he was disappointed. He opened the door and saw Paul lying on the hospital bed, still peaceful and calm. It seemed that time had been blocked outside the ward and never changed. He just stood at the door of the ward, quietly. He looked at Paul as if there was a cliff directly in front of him, unable to move forward..
“Hey." Renly tried his best to put on a shallow smile, said hello, and then just stood there numbly..
I looked at the decoration and furnishings in the ward uncomfortably, but the boring furniture still stayed in my sight. I looked at it for a long time, as if I was visiting a friend's home for the first time. In the end, I still didn't hear the owner's greeting, so I could only He sat down on the sofa next to the hospital bed..
His eyes were still busy, carefully looking at every corner around the hospital bed. Even the white sheets could capture the details of the texture. It was not until everything around him had been studied that he looked again nervously and cautiously. Looking at Paul, you can see the slightly swollen face.
Renly had stood outside the ward and visited Paul through the glass window before, but now when he looked up close, he seemed to see a completely different person.：
The head was wrapped with thick white gauze, which changed the entire head shape; I don't know whether it was due to bruises or edema, but the cheeks were slightly swollen, so that the position of the facial features seemed to have changed; the eyes were closed tightly, and the The familiar blue eyes have lost their luster.
This kind of Paul was so unfamiliar, not what he was familiar with at all, that Renly was stunned in place, all thoughts in his mind temporarily disappeared without a trace, and he just looked at Paul quietly, Then he found familiar traces in the outline of those eyebrows and confirmed that this was his best friend. Involuntarily, his nose began to feel sour..
Renly pulled a faint smile from the corner of his mouth to hide his embarrassment and embarrassment. He cleared his throat and said hesitantly while trying to collect his thoughts, "Hey, it's me..”
When he had just met with Derek Shepherd, the doctor told Renly, "You need to talk to him. Nothing, even the random things in life, the past and present, or the next plan, has no meaning." He can hear all the questions. You need to establish contact with him. You need to let him understand that there is still someone waiting for him..”
Isn't this a treatment for people in a vegetative state?？
But Renly did not raise his own questions. Deep down, he was afraid that this idea might become a reality. So, he chose to shut up and just nodded to express his understanding..
Walking all the way from the doctor's office, there were countless thoughts in my mind. Before I even had time to speak, my whole brain was filled with thousands of words and threads.：
About the project idea that a group of their friends came together to collaborate on, about Diesel's humiliation, about the recent changes in Meadow, about the small fishing village in Florida where they previously provided help, about this year's surfing competition on the north shore of Honolulu, About the plan to travel around the island in Iceland, about my special experience on the set of Diao Wei Ya, about the plan to try skydiving after recovery, about the collective frustration of media reporters……
Ideas popped out one after another, pouring out in a steady stream, almost overflowing. Recently, too many things had happened in his life and Paul's life, and it seemed that he couldn't tell them all in one day and one night. Paul has many, many things that need to be updated immediately.
However, sitting next to Paul at this moment, all the words were just boiling and boiling in his mind, but he couldn't say a word, just like a fool..
When filming "Interstellar" today, all the negative emotions were vented. Just like the toxins were removed, Renly finally found the long-lost peace; however, sitting next to Paul at this time, the faint sadness still filled the air. Kailai, all the calmness and indifference were just temporary shelters. Standing in front of Paul, the helplessness broke through the water again and spread bit by bit..
Opening his mouth, Renly tried to say something, but it seemed as if he had lost his voice. In the end, he could only helplessly droop his shoulders, lean back heavily on the chair again, and look at Paul with a sad face. For a long time, he let the feeling Silent and oppressive silence slowly spread in the ward..
Twitching the corner of his mouth, Renly tried to maintain a relaxed tone, "...Hey, say something..”
Paul's honest and hearty laughter seemed to echo in his mind, "Haha. You better say something. You know, I've never been good at talking..”
“I hate hospitals. No, I hate hospitals. But you always make me have to face the hospital. Heather is like this, you are like this, you are all bad friends.……”
Renly showed an expression of disgust and started to complain to Paul..
“Heather, she was going to attend the Grammys with me, she was going to perform 'Beast' on the 'American Idol' stage, but she didn't wait, she didn't even say 'goodbye'……
The same is true for you now. It was obviously you who first said that we would prepare a movie project together, but then you left everything to me. This is unfair. So what is going on now? Are you going to wait for me to finish preparing everything, and then you can join in and eat the ready-made food easily? Then it’s agreed, I’m the leading actor and you’re the second leading actor. If you slow down a little bit, Ryan and Jack will steal all your scenes..
……I was chatting with Cheryl yesterday and found out, you used to be a troublemaker too? Did you ever come close to tearing your dad's car apart? And it almost blew up the entire garage. Ha! God, what happened to you once you got into Hollywood that you became so boring? Hollywood is so boring. You should let your personality shine and make those Barbie dolls come alive.！
And Meadow. Meadow……
Mei Duo is really a big girl, you know? Yesterday, Mei Duo and I went to a convenience store to buy things. A young man actually asked her for her phone number, but I scolded her and ran away. Haha. Mei Duo looked at my expression at that time, as if I saw a monster. This must be all your fault. I'm just fulfilling my responsibilities on your behalf. If it weren't for worrying about you, I would definitely encourage Mei Duo to nod. He is a handsome young man..”
There was no pattern or any train of thought. He was just chattering in a haphazard way, without even making any sense. He himself didn’t know where these words came from, but as he spoke, his eyes became moist. An indescribable sadness slowly filled my chest..
“paul i……”
The words were stuck in his throat, and all the thoughts surging in his mind became a mess. After struggling for a long time, he finally couldn't find a clue, "I……”
Paul, I still have many, many stories I want to share with you; Paul, a lot of things have really happened recently, are you sure you don’t want to know about them; Paul, life changes too fast and there are too few things worth remembering. , but at least there are things worth fighting for; Paul, Meadow really needs you to be by her side; Paul... I really miss you..
“paul i miss you.”
Such a simple sentence, but as heavy as a thousand words, stayed on the tip of the tongue, unable to make a sound for a long time. In the end, it just turned into a mist of water vapor that blurred the vision, and then just froze in place..
Time stopped at his fingertips, and Renly's thoughts began to blur. Was the accident three days ago or five days ago? But he couldn't remember clearly. Day after day, one thing after another, they seemed to be in a stormy sea, being pushed forward by the waves, so much so that they simply forgot to identify the direction and location. When they reacted, I can no longer find my bearings..
“My friend, I haven't seen you for a long time. When we meet again, I will express my heartfelt feelings. Looking back on the past, it is a long road. When we meet again, I will talk all night long. See-You-Again）.”
In just a few days, it feels like a lifetime ago.
The time that stayed on Paul seemed to be frozen forever, while the time that stayed on them seemed to fly at the speed of light. He didn't know that Meadow was deeply immersed in self-blame and suddenly grew up overnight; He didn't know that the whole world was shocked by his accident; he didn't know that his vacancy was so huge; he didn't know that his sleep had changed the lives of everyone around him; he didn't know that Renly's world in danger……
If they were destined to meet again in the future, he hoped that they could sit down and have a long chat, quietly telling the interesting and boring trivial matters of life, from the starting point of acquaintance, to the germination of friendship, to the bond of friendship. They are friends, but they are More than just friends, they are becoming part of each other's lives.
“Why was it so hasty to say goodbye, why was it so helpless to say goodbye, why did I turn around and leave when I was most helpless? Only by truly feeling such pain can you understand how to speak. Even though I understand that you have found a place of peace, the pain still lingers..”
He has experienced too much, but he still doesn’t understand how to learn to accept it. From Chu Jiashu to Heather to Paul, he thought he had learned to grow, but the subject of separation was still too difficult, just like what was left behind The scar on the chest heals ten times a hundred times slower, and may even never heal..
He needs them to stay. It was like this before, it is like this now, and it will be like this in the future. He can't go on with just his own strength..
“Move forward bravely, please give me the strong courage to move forward bravely.”
Note: See-You-Again——Charlie-Puth, Piano-Demo-Version）
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