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vomit.
My whole stomach was churning, as if I wanted to vomit out all the food left in the past few days, but the pool in front of me was empty, only a little sour water. However, I still couldn't stop retching. , like a fist stuck deep in the throat, blocking all breathing and sounds, but in the end, even the tears had completely disappeared, leaving only the burning in the eyes..
retching.
He just stood in front of the bathroom sink, retching uncontrollably until his internal organs seemed to have been completely emptied, and there was no trace of anything or weight in his entire abdominal cavity. Then he stopped, and then his whole body It's as if the strength in my body has been directly taken away. The pain in my waist and thighs is amplified little by little. It seems that I don't even have the strength to stand. The only thought in my mind now is to let go..
Many times, giving up makes things easier.
Renly pressed his back firmly against the wall, barely able to support his body. His wet hair was hanging down, wet and cold, and his body could hardly stop shaking. He was so embarrassed..
Slowly closing his eyes, for a moment, the darkness that surged in like a tide relaxed his limbs. His nerves were still tense to the extreme, but he quietly found a moment of relaxation. His breathing came back, but it was just Feeling the turbid and heavy air, feeling like needles pricking your lungs.
If he gives up, things seem to be over; but through the superficial ease, you can see that behind the giving up is the gray color of despair and pain. He is just numbing himself, like a zombie. So, he will not give up! He refuses to give up! He will never surrender easily.
Involuntarily, the urge to retching surged up again, but at this time there was nothing left to vomit, and the whole throat was so hot that it hurt..
Life is never that easy, but he is never that easily defeated either.
He stood up straight again and walked to the sink. Standing there, Renly looked at himself in the mirror carefully. Those traces of embarrassment could still be found in the corners, wet and sticky on his forehead. The broken hair on his temples looked as if he had just been fished out of the water; but he knew that he could be strong, and it was far from the end of the world, let alone the end. He will not surrender until the last drop of blood！
Lower your head and splash your face with cold tap water to calm your eyes and face a little, and cool down your chaotic and hot brain a little; straighten your spine, open your chest, straighten your knees, and stabilize your slightly sore and stiff waist again, drifting The unstable center of gravity stabilized again.
He raised his head and stared at the eyes in the mirror. His scattered focus slowly gathered, and he regained his usual calmness and self-control..
Now that the storm has arrived, let them see who can have the last laugh and who can persist until the last moment.！
Taking a long, long breath, Renly turned around and appeared in front of the crew again..
He walked towards the direction of the tesseract with steady steps. There were seemingly invisible sights on both sides. Renly did not avoid them. Not only did he not, but he also took the initiative to turn his head to meet those sights. His upright posture made the other party stunned. I was stunned, and for a moment I didn’t know how to respond..
Renly's footsteps came to Christopher's side again, "How was the scene just now? Do you need to change the camera angle and shoot it again?？”
Christopher obviously hasn't come back to his senses yet, "Uh... uh... no, of course not! All the angles are in place, it's perfect, everything is fine, no, it should be very good! We can proceed now. A scene has been filmed." He subconsciously poured out all his thoughts. After he finished speaking, he realized what he was doing. He was slightly stunned and asked hesitantly, "Renly, are you sure you're okay?？”
This is the second time: the same greeting.
As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Christopher explained clumsily, "What I mean is, we can rest for a day or two... No, no, it's a period of time. After everything has stabilized, we can start shooting again. I think the crew can wait for a while.”
Christopher has never been an eloquent person, but behind those simple words, you can really feel the warm care..
Renly showed a shallow smile. Although there was still lingering fatigue in the smile, and the exhaustion of physical strength and energy could be felt, but at least the heaviness was disappearing, and the corners of his mouth finally raised, "No need. Worry, Chris, if I'm not doing well, I'll let you know. I wouldn't want to give a bad performance, that would be irresponsible to the entire crew..”
Then, Renly added, "Not to mention, Paul himself is like this." Paul is like a taboo word among the "Interstellar" crew. No one dares to mention it, for fear of accidentally stepping on a landmine; but Now Renly has taken the initiative to bring it up. The outburst and venting just now have finally made the weight on his shoulders a little lighter..
Inadvertently, Renly remembered that when he was filming "Transcendence", Paul went to visit the crew. At that time, he saw Renly living in a chaotic neighborhood in order to experience the character's life. It was a mixture of wonder and worry. Even with the passage of time, it still remains the same. Lifelike; and it seemed the same way when Paul took Anne Silliman to the pioneer village to watch the opening scene of "The Ballad of Drunkenness".
His relationship with Paul was always like this.
He was the real him, and Paul was the real Paul. This unfettered freedom always made them feel comfortable. This was the case before, and it should be the same now....
Without saying anything more, Renly returned to the topic, "Then, let's continue filming, right?？”
Christopher nodded blankly in agreement..
Renly smiled and said, "Understood." Then he walked towards the Wia equipment in front of him..
Christopher was a little at a loss. He looked at Emma and then at Renly. He couldn't help but call out, "Renly..." This made Renly stop and turn around, but Christopher Suddenly I didn't know what to say. After thinking about it, I just said dryly, "Be careful.".”
Renly nodded, then stepped forward again.
Christopher couldn't help scratching his head depressedly: Be careful? What kind of comfort is this, and what should I be careful about? It’s better not to say such a meaningless consolation.！
Emma patted her husband on the shoulder and whispered, "Concentrate on shooting..”
Their eyes fell on Renly's back again. Both Christopher and Emma had a new understanding of this young actor. They were full of mixed emotions but could not find an accurate footing. In the end, they just turned into a sigh..
The entire crew seemed a little sluggish, not in the movements, but in the atmosphere. It seemed that after just experiencing shock and struggle, they couldn't recover from their thoughts for a long time, and the atmosphere became solemn, and even the mood and reactions began to slow down; But fortunately, most of the parameters have been set for the shooting of the scene just now. Now we continue to shoot. It only requires minor adjustments. No need to worry. This finally did not affect the shooting work..
Renly put on the wire equipment again and returned to the mid-air. As the wire rose little by little, the ground gradually disappeared in sight, and the figures who raised their heads and looked up at him became more and more... He becomes smaller and smaller, overlooking all living beings from the perspective of God, and seems to be able to control life and death..
Arriving at the position where he had just performed again, Renly hung in mid-air, closed his eyes, adjusted his breathing, and re-adjusted himself to the proper performance state..
Immersed in the struggle of sadness and pain, entangled with the lingering sorrow, and then gradually exhausted amidst the crying and roaring, I can only float helplessly and blankly in the five-dimensional space, and I am at a loss. I don’t know the way forward, everything is in contrast to real life.
“Ready! "Renly made a gesture towards the camera to confirm that he was ready, and then grabbed the bookshelf again. In order to ensure that the scene could be continued and there would be no flaws in the editing, he needed to extend the track of the performance forward. a few seconds, and then perform the whole scene coherently.
“Start filming！”
Christopher's voice came from below.
Renly was just floating in mid-air, with no movements or expressions. He seemed to be out of the performance state. This slight stagnation made the sound of the film spinning become particularly obvious, and the on-site staff were a little surprised - but Looking back on everything that just happened, it doesn’t seem so surprising anymore.
one second.
two seconds.
After waiting for a while, the sound engineer was the first to notice the difference. There was a trivial noise coming from the microphone.——
It seemed to be the sound of gasping for breath, and the breath slapped into the radio microphone, but it was short and violent. This made the sound of the air flow not too turbulent, and you could clearly feel the lack of strength, just like asthma, and on the one hand, there was urgency. He was inhaling and exhaling, but on one side he felt breathless and depressed. All that anxiety and embarrassment was reflected in the sound of breathing..
Mixed with it, you can also faintly feel the sound of retching. Just one retching cuts off the breathing rhythm, and then you fall into a suffocation dilemma, which further makes the sound of inhalation become thicker and heavier, and you are trapped in a vicious cycle. , you can feel the turbulence and boiling in your belly without looking with your eyes..
Because the crying and shouting were so intense that the body began to have a violent resistance reaction.
So simple yet so true.
Involuntarily, my mind once again recalled the helpless and helpless figure that had just been suspended in mid-air..
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