1643 at a loss
Renly was just hanging in mid-air, unable to leave, avoid, or cover up. He was just showing his fragility and embarrassment in front of everyone, but he had no time or mind to worry about this now. The whole person is falling apart like the end of the world.
Bitterness and pain, regret and despair, sadness and anger... all the emotions swarmed up, and it was impossible to sort out the complicated thoughts. He began to doubt himself, he began to question himself, he began to hate himself, he even began to deny himself, When the pain reaches its extreme, you can’t help but start to want to escape：
If he hadn't been reborn, wouldn't it be so painful?？
But the most terrifying thing is that he has nowhere to escape now. He is suspended in mid-air like a display. It seems that even the last bit of fig leaf has been torn away. He has no way to escape the attention of others, and he has no way to escape. With the shackles of my own soul, I can only face the violent wind and rain head-on..
Even though he is bruised and bruised, there is still nowhere to escape.
Renly drooped his limbs in helplessness and embarrassment. He couldn't even raise his hands to wipe the tears on his cheeks, because the helmet of his spacesuit blocked his hands, and the hot tears flowed freely, even on his cheeks. I started to feel a burning pain, my teeth were almost broken, but I still couldn't control the overwhelming emotions..
Gradually, a steaming mist formed from tears and breath, covering the helmet's mask with a layer of water vapor. Then the whole person curled up in his shell like a snail, biting his lower lip hard, and could faintly taste it. A smell of blood, but it still swallowed up all the sounds in the chest, making a muffled sound, hitting the heart like a drumstick..
What should he do?？
……
There was no sound at all on the entire set. All eyes were silently looking at Renly, who was crying until he lost his voice. The pain was as if his nose had been hit hard, and his eyes couldn't help but start to turn red..
They thought Renly didn't care, they thought Renly was invulnerable, they thought Renly was hard-hearted, but they were all wrong. It wasn't that Renly was unmoved, it was just that Renly pretended better, and in that calm Under the mask of self-control, the scars riddled with holes have never been shown. He just straightened his back and walked with his head held high..
Vanity Fair is like this, showing the bright side in front of everyone, and then turning those faces and figures into enviable templates of happiness, but it never shows the dark side behind the light. Even Those wounds and scars were all covered up, and each soul lost himself on the road to fame..
The scene in front of me is really too cruel.
Especially those staff members who questioned Renly's too calmness and couldn't bear to look away; but even if they averted their eyes, the depression at the scene and the silence without any crying slowly seeped out, making that This kind of tragic struggle and depression is so vividly outlined that it makes people almost breathless, and they don’t even know what words to use to express their feelings..
People saw the furious Renly losing control and beating Diesel severely; but people did not see that behind the calm Renly was suffering the pain of his friend who was still unconscious. Some things cannot be seen. It must be true; and for some things, the truth that people know is only one side of the whole story..
However, they don't know what to do？
Should they put Renly down? Then all of Renly's breakdown will truly be revealed to everyone.
Should they keep Renly hanging? Then Renly would be left alone to suffer all the pain..
Should they turn a blind eye? Should they come forward to comfort him? Should they just ignore it? Should they express concern? Should he turn around and leave, leaving a space of his own for Renly?？
After thinking about it, there was no correct answer. Only then did they realize that even themselves, as bystanders, were trapped in a helpless rut at this moment, let alone Renly who was in it. Even if they exhaust all their imaginations, bystanders who have not really experienced it will still not be able to fully empathize with them. Their comfort and sympathy are just another insignificant injury..
In Studio No. 18, all the work was suspended. Everyone just kept their original postures in silence, standing or sitting. They fell into silence collectively, full of bitterness but unable to find an accurate image. way of describing.
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Christopher's eyes couldn't help but get wet. He tried to say something several times, but finally closed his mouth. He turned to look at his wife who was wiping her tears, and silently pulled her into his arms. The warmth of the hug calmed me down a little.
“Did we do something wrong? "Christopher whispered in his wife's ear..
Shouldn't they be in such a hurry to reopen? No matter how much Thomas Tull urged, they could still get it over with, without any pressure or rush. In the scene just now, Christopher could clearly feel the shock that burst out from the inside out. It's so wonderful that people can't help but applaud, but hidden behind the performance is a truth that people can't bear to explore..
Emma Thomas patted her husband's back gently and comforted her softly, "Don't worry, Renly knows what he is doing." After a slight pause, "Maybe, he just needs to vent; he just needs some time..”
Christopher didn't say anything more. He just sighed softly and raised his eyes again, looking at the small figure hanging in the hypercube. At this time, he once again thought about the ins and outs of the scene just now, and his mood suddenly changed. It’s so complicated that it’s really hard to describe.
There were two working technicians standing on the side of the studio. They were responsible for pulling the wires and controlling Renly's every move in mid-air. The sudden accident made the two people a little confused. They didn't know whether they should put Renly down. ; but received no further instructions and finally tried to maintain the status quo..
Looking up at the helpless Renly, the two technicians also felt sad. The sadness and helplessness between their eyes could be conveyed without words..
I don't know how long it took, but Renly's voice came from the radio microphone again, "Sorry! Can you put me down first? I need to take care of myself again." The nasal words revealed a hint of instability. was fragile, and the final note was still a little trembling, but in the end he maintained his overall state and did not collapse again, expressing his wishes in a relatively calm manner..
He did not cover it up deliberately or mention it proactively, but expressed his thoughts in a direct yet roundabout way. This finally lifted the magic in Studio No. 18, and everyone began to move again, in a panic. He was at a loss, even more confused than Renly who was the party involved..
After getting Christopher's consent, the two wire technicians slowly lowered Renly to the ground..
Renly just stood there, making no special movements, waiting for the two technicians to come over and untie the wires for him; and then waiting for the staff to come over and take off his spacesuit and helmet..
The whole process was very long, lasting nearly ten minutes. The technicians and staff seemed a little nervous and clumsy, and the escape movement was never able to speed up; but Renly did not panic or be agitated, and just stood there quietly, Calmly show your embarrassment and embarrassment in front of everyone.
Despite his upright and graceful appearance, the gossips who cast curious glances at him couldn't help but become shy and looked away evasively, not daring to look directly at Renly's face and eyes..
Renly now looks very haggard, with red and swollen eyes, a scruffy beard, a pale face and gloomy eyebrows. His wet hair looks extremely messy, and his quick-drying underwear has long been soaked with sweat. He looks like he is exhausted mentally and physically. and helplessness slowly flowed out from deep in his heart; but Renly still straightened his back, opened his shoulders, and stood calmly on the spot, waiting for the staff to complete their work, faintly revealing a sense of strength..
After taking off all the wires and spacesuits, Renly nodded to Christopher again, then took steps, turned around and walked towards the bathroom step by step..
Standing in front of the bathroom mirror, looking at himself with a pale face, Renly gently twitched the corners of his mouth, but then they dropped weakly..
He knew that his current state was very bad, and he could not control his chaotic thoughts. Just standing in front of the mirror, his thoughts began to scatter. The helplessness and confusion that seemed to be at a loss were attacking his mental defense line all the time. If you are not careful, it may completely collapse and burst..
Just like just now.
But he had to tell himself that this would not help, that he needed to cheer up, that he needed to strengthen his faith. If even he didn't believe that Paul could wake up, then who else could? He needs to be like Paul, standing unswervingly behind himself at all times, never flinching even when he is against the whole world.
He needs to cheer up, because this is a battle with death and destiny, and his vulnerability and cowardice will only make this battle more difficult..
Although this is not an easy task, as long as you calm down for a moment, the image of Paul lying on the hospital bed can't help but reappear in your mind. The fragility that can be broken at a touch makes it impossible for the fear to settle down. What's more important is that , the waist and thighs where the Wia was restrained began to hurt again, and the bruises that had not completely dissipated seemed to start to throb again..
But that was one thing that was non-negotiable. He had to snap out of it! He must be strong! he must believe！
This is a promise he owes Paul.
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