1548 Wash away the lead
Chu Jiashu has never gone out of his way. Even in college, he always stayed within the framework and did not dare to take steps easily. It seemed that he had been accustomed to the constraints of the rules for a long time, so much so that he forgot about them. The taste of freedom, even the method of resistance has been forgotten.
It's a bit funny and absurd to say that he has never skipped class, but it is true. From kindergarten to college, he has never skipped class in his life, and he is even cautious about asking for leave when sick. I am afraid that physical delay will disrupt the rhythm of life. I will execute all plans step by step..
Therefore, he has never appreciated the night view of the Magic City, he has never joined young people’s parties, he has never squandered his youth wantonly, he has never laughed loudly and run away...even the slightest act of crossing the line is unacceptable. No. When he was lying on the hospital bed, he hated and regretted so much..
Even after traveling through time and being reborn as Renly Hall, that obsession still lingered. It wasn't until the collapse and reorganization of "The Explosive Drummer" that he was truly relieved. Now, he won't regret having lost those, but learn to cherish the present built step by step in the past, and learn to enjoy the present.
He wants to see the night in the magical city.
It's that simple.
Leaving Sinan Mansion, we walked along the spacious streets lined with sycamore trees, walking through the hazy night. There was a touch of water vapor and the unknown fragrance of flowers floating in the air. Under the milky yellow street lamps, there was a kind of warmth/ The ambiguous and fuzzy atmosphere is just like the image of the magical city outlined by Wang Jiawei in "In the Mood for Love", retro and quiet, elegant and noble, and the most amazing thing is that the contradictory temperament of death and vitality is also blended together.
It seemed that there had just been a drizzle, but it stopped just before he went out. The air was slightly cool, the ground was moist, and there was a halo of light. Fallen autumn leaves could be seen rotting in the mud on the roadside..
The streets in front of me are all familiar, awakening those scenes deep in my memory. At the end of the street, turning around, there is the famous bar corner of the Magic City. More than a dozen bars and clubs are bustling together in the four parallelogram blocks. At night, You can see all kinds of young people coming in and out.
If you walk straight ahead in the direction of your footsteps, you can reach Jing'an Temple in about 20 minutes and enter the prosperous central business district surrounded by shopping malls and buildings. The neon lights at night outline the thrilling prosperity and hustle and bustle, but also reflect it. Show the loneliness and loneliness under every light.
However, such familiar buildings and streets showed a different style in the halo of street lights and the long night. This was the first time he experienced it. The same life was different because of different ways, different perspectives and different perspectives. Attitudes, showing different looks and gestures, people always think that they understand their own lives, their families, and their own status very well, but sometimes, even they will deceive themselves..
In a daze, he became Chu Jiashu again, exploring the unknown of this familiar city with his own feet. Those dark and decadent memories became vivid again, and then filled with color bit by bit..
He went to a bar that he had always been curious about but had never visited. Like an ordinary young man, he sat under the colored lights outdoors and enjoyed a glass of whiskey and a night; he went to Twenty-Four A convenience store open every hour. I just want to explore what a convenience store looks like at midnight..
Despite the long journey and the busy schedule, he did not feel tired at all, but gradually relaxed; after walking in a big circle and returning to Sinan Mansion, he could not help but hum softly. Played an incomplete tune, the pace became cheerful.
It's still the incomplete tune. Since the late filming of "Breaking Drummer", this eight-beat melody has been spinning in my mind continuously, and later evolved into two eight-beat tunes. But the problem is that the two beats There was no way to blend the two eight-beat melody together, so it evolved into two different incomplete tunes..
Over and over again, it goes around in my mind, but it can never be extended into a complete track..
Until today, eight-beat tunes have finally begun to show more faces..
“In this world, nothing can ever come true; put things first (First-Things-First) and pursue what you deserve..”
This is the eight-beat lyrics, which are repeated back and forth continuously. After humming back and forth, the melody gradually becomes complete, and the lyrics flowing from deep in my heart also begin to become complete..
“Once upon a time, before the troubles of youth and frivolity came, everything was brand new; during the long nights, there was no end in sight for walking alone, and dreams were the only companions who stayed with us..
Painfully let go of my pride and persuade myself against my will to forgive.”
He is not a superhero. Whether it is Chu Jiashu or Ren Li, he has tried to give up, and even decided to give up. During countless long nights walking alone, alone and helpless, he then told himself that he should choose to give up. It's a smart thing to do. It's a wise thing to do. You should forgive yourself..
But, he still couldn't do it after all.
“I don't want to be famous, I just want to sing loudly. So I shout as loud as I can：
In this world, you can never achieve what you want; put first things first and pursue what you should get..”
In fact, his dream is very simple. He doesn't want to be famous, he doesn't want to be successful, and he doesn't want to be famous in history. He just wants to cherish every day of his life, chase his dreams, study performances, and sing to his heart's content. This is enough. This is what dreams are all about.
He knows this is idealism.
But as a human being in two lifetimes, he truly understood that it is impossible to achieve everything one wishes in life. He wants both dreams and glory, money and freedom. This is really too greedy. Everyone is greedy. In the pursuit of perfection, everyone is trying to succeed, but many times, the definition of perfection and success in secular society is too greedy, and people should not be so greedy..
He is not a hero. He is just an ordinary person with shortcomings, weaknesses, ambitions, and desires. His abilities are limited. He can only stick to his dreams carefully, chase his goals, and hope that his efforts will make a small difference. After making the choice, he walked towards the end without hesitation. Even if he was in poverty, even if he was relegated to the street, even if he accomplished nothing, he still had his own color after all..
So, is this idealism? Or realism？
“The story of "Drunken Country Ballad", for some people, it is a story about giving up; but for him, it is a story about persistence..
In his last life, he ended his life amid inactive complaints and regrets; in this life, he blossomed in the hardships and sufferings of wandering around, but along the way, those loneliness, those pains, those difficulties, those setbacks , but it has become the most wonderful scar that lights up life——
Compared with EGOT, he is more fortunate that he has completed his transformation in "transcendence"; compared with the Oscar statuette, the performance experience on the West End stage in London is more profound; compared with the box office and awards, he can star in his favorite film Works are more worthy of celebration.
Maybe some people say he is noble, maybe some say he is proud, maybe some say he is selfish, maybe some say he is stupid... But in fact, deep down, he is just persisting in his dream, so simple and pure, far from it. So complicated as imagined.
“In this world, you can never achieve what you want; put first things first and pursue what you should get..”
Again, again, and again, the eight-beat melody of the chorus makes the steps brisk..
When the prosperity has faded away, the beauty has been washed away, and after all the vicissitudes of life, when I suddenly look back, I realize that happiness can be very simple, and life can also be very simple. The only one who is truly complicated is myself. Returning to this land that carries me again In the land of countless memories, Renly was finally able to confirm that he had completely unburdened himself and truly learned to let go..
From an eight beat to a complete chorus, the tune began to become complete, but unfortunately, the inspiration was not able to continue and could not support the completion of the entire song. The main song part still needs more inspiration..
However, Renly didn't feel any regrets. The creative process was a kind of enjoyment. There was no need to rush it, and there was no need to feel frustrated. You could just wait patiently. Being able to unexpectedly complete the chorus tonight was already a surprise..
What's more, there is another eight-beat melody, which is still in its original state. There is still a long road ahead for future music creation. For the first time, Renly began to look forward to it. However, if he still With Don Quixote waiting for the second album, Renly can only say that they need to be more patient..
“young master！”
An unexpected exclamation sounded on the cold street. It was not loud, but it rippled in the quiet night. As soon as he shouted, the other party covered his mouth and cut off the last sound. , cast his gaze in disbelief, vividly displaying the shock and astonishment..
Turning around, Renly saw a young girl standing across the street, bathed in the warm glow of street lights, covering half of her face with her hands. She couldn't see her face clearly, but she could vaguely catch her eyes. , the uncontrollable shock spread like ripples, so Renly raised his right hand and greeted with a smile, "Hey, good evening. You are still wandering outside late at night. Be careful that your family will be worried. You should be early Go home and rest.”
On the quiet street, with Renly on the right and the girl on the left, the milky-yellow halo slowly rippled like water ripples. The shock and excitement in that moment made the coldness and coldness of the night gradually soften..
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