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His hands were covered with blood. They were not props, but real wounds. Those sharp stings were silently reminding Renly that this was reality. He could even feel the slippery and sticky blood on his fingertips, making his fingertips feel the same. The touch of the drumstick became magical; but the brain was sober as never before. There was no struggle, no pain, and no confusion. Everything became clear..
It was as if... it was as if he could capture the traces of dust dancing under the light. Even the trivial sounds of air movement were beating in the eardrums like drizzle and gurgling streams. His pupils seemed to be able to capture the flow of light. The trajectory of the scene was not missed at all, and the entire photography team had a panoramic view of the scene..
The whole process of the performance just replayed in my mind again, like a slideshow. The pain, persistence, concentration, suffering and... breakthroughs were all presented in detail, even the imprisonments. Struggles within shackles and cages are no exception..
God, he's so madly in love with acting.
A melody began to flow in the depths of his mind, over and over again, and he couldn't help but think of those days when he was crazy about dramas..
“"Buried Alive", he trapped himself in the coffin for eight hours. There were even fragments during the filming process, which completely blurred the line between reality and illusion, as if he had experienced the pain and suffering of death again, and this Once I watched myself being buried alive. The torture that penetrated deep into the bone marrow and tore the soul, even now when I think about it, I still can't help but shudder..
“"Fast and Furious 5", he and Vin Diesel fought for their lives with real swords and guns. The bloody fight could even be clearly smelled, so that both of them became red-eyed and completely confused. Fighting selflessly, if there is a slight error, then he and Diesel may not be what they are now, and maybe they will have to lose a certain part of their bodies before they can stop..
“"I am fighting cancer." He was immersed in the torment of his illness, and in a trance he returned to the hospital bed in his previous life, trapping himself firmly in a palm-sized area, almost giving up on survival. Perseverance even triggered the body's pain response, truly experiencing the painful torture of chemotherapy, struggling weakly and desperately on the line of death, with no hope..
“"Gravity" confused the difference between reality and memory, and returned to Chu Jiashu's body. Even Heather's memory was like a nightmare, entangled and unable to get rid of it. At a certain moment, he almost thought that " "Renly Hall"'s life is a dream, everything has never changed. When he opens his eyes again, everything returns to the cruel reality of high paraplegia..
There is also "Pacific War", and "Crazy in Love", and "Detachment", and "Drunk Country Ballads", and... "Exploding Drummer", which is currently being filmed, once and again, he always will Pushing myself to the edge of the cliff, dancing wildly on the tip of a knife, struggling on a high-altitude rope, the boundary between illusion and reality is always looming, and then I fall into the panic and confusion of schizophrenia, unable to extricate myself, let alone escape..
He released all his life energy into the performance, like a moth to a flame.
“You light up my life like bullets piercing my heart; fragments of you are left in my body; what’s even crazier is that I love deeply, those scarred holes, those scarred holes.”
The melody gurgled in the depths of his mind like clear spring water. He couldn't help but close his eyes and hum softly. It seemed that he could still feel Andrew's drumbeat in his ears. The musical notes and rhythm were so cleverly combined. , those sentences that come from the depths of the soul blurt out like this.
Every performance was like being shot. The powerful collisions and explosions left Renly with scars all over his body, but the fierce and hot sparks lit up his life, blooming with endless rays of light. Those left behind in the blood and muscles The bullet fragments in the body are causing a dull pain all the time..
But he never tires of doing the craziest things and indulges in them.
Perhaps, he is indeed a madman, releasing all his energy wantonly and flamboyantly in front of the camera, and then looking at the countless wounds left on his body, looking at the gurgling red blood, and feeling the dull pain. and bitterness, but he enjoys it because he is so real and so definitely alive.
Live. Rather than survive.
If a thousand arrows piercing the heart can bring about a vigorous ode to life, he will choose to nod without hesitation. Rather than being trapped in a cage and living an ignoble life, it is better to exist for a moment with a thousand feet of light..
So, he opened his arms, embraced the pain and torture, and faced the struggles and entanglements. Even if he had to do it over again, he would still not regret it: he would still lock himself in the coffin for eight hours. He will still fight for his life with Diesel, he will still be ups and downs in chemotherapy, and he will still practice the drums to the point of becoming obsessive..
If that's the definition of a madman, then yes, he is a madman.
“I need to know that your heart breaks for me, that the truth is that I've always been trapped, hurting just to find boundaries, and that's what bothers me. I need to know that I leave wounds, and I wonder if you're finally free, if you're still the same Kiss me like you once kissed me, do you still guard my secret?？”
He dedicated his life to performance, and the performance gave back colorful colors, and they were entangled together like fate. Perhaps, he was destined to become an actor, and he was destined to be in the world of performance. blooming in it, he will be destined to live on that stage.
“I always mean what I mean and it causes endless trouble.”
He was always too honest, too straightforward, and too devoted. He never seemed to turn around or discount in the world of acting, which caused countless troubles; but it was precisely this calmness that allowed him to get where he is today step by step. , he has achieved what he is now, and he will not regret it and there is no need to regret it..
“You light up my life like a bullet piercing my heart; fragments of you are left in my body, and what’s even crazier is that I love you deeply, those scarred holes, those scarred holes.”
The smile on the corner of his mouth could not help but rise slightly, just like Heather said, "When the musical notes are flowing, I will realize that there are some things that the darkness cannot take away from me after all"; and When the performance is flowing in his blood, he will also deeply feel that there are some things that illness and torture cannot take away from him after all..
From a certain point of view, he and Heather are both madmen. Heather released all her life energy for her dream, and finally put the weight of her dream on Renly's shoulders; now, Renly is carrying The dream that belongs to both of them continues to move forward, just like the promise in the song "Beast".
This is their secret.
The turbulent melody and lyrics in my mind sound like lovers hurting each other without any regrets, but after chewing it carefully, it turns out that it is not the bitter entanglement between dreams and reality.？
In real life, how many people have dreams? How many people can realize their dreams? How many people can stick to their dreams? The cruelty and coldness of reality are everywhere, from "Drunken Country Folk" to "Exploding Drummer", from Heather to Renly, everything confirms this, but after all, even if you just "had a dream", life will also be different.
Although he had just finished an extremely difficult and torturous performance, Renly's physical strength and energy had reached a subtle critical point. Deep fatigue surged up like a tide, but the joy and happiness deep in his heart were Irreplaceable, for the first time since the "Pacific War", Renly felt unprecedented relaxation and comfort..
Inadvertently, he finally pierced the window paper again, and opened the door to a whole new world with scars, hobbled, and blood all over his body, and then he peeked into a higher-level acting world. That kind of joy and joy is... No language can express it accurately.
The muscles of his body showed slight soreness and fatigue, but Renly didn't want to rest at all. Instead, he was gearing up and couldn't wait to continue experiencing it. He carefully and slowly savored the state and realm of the performance, and refined the To realize more, I just want to immerse myself in it and wander around..
The beauty of this moment makes all the pain and suffering become graceful and beautiful.
……
There was still no sound in the Alice Tully Hall. Damien seemed to have completely forgotten that this was a filming. He just stood there blankly, staring at the stage, those performances, and those performances. Those emotions, those breakthroughs, once again awakened those high school memories in his mind, but now, he couldn't tell clearly whether he felt hatred for the teacher who was Fletcher's prototype, or... gratitude.
But in the end, Damien came back to his senses. He coughed twice in embarrassment to cover up his panic, and then stammered, "...Kaka! Kaka!" Then he paused again. , "This scene, um... I mean, this scene is very good, but... but we still need to reshoot the scene.”
In fact, these words were completely unconscious. Even Damien himself didn't know what he was saying, but after he said it, he fully reacted and his cheeks couldn't help but feel slightly hot.——
In the scene just now, Renly and Simmons' performances were absolutely top-notch. Although all eyes were still focused on Renly, no one could compare to that dazzling and powerful aura; but Simmons still gritted his teeth. Ya Guan gave an unparalleled performance, fully interpreting the position changes of Andrew and Fletcher..
Now, both actors seem a little exhausted. But Damien still asked for retakes. Is this too much?？
Note: Bullets - Vega4）
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