1426 final farewell
Standing where he was, Renly was already riddled with wounds. He never said goodbye, never said goodbye to Chu Jiashu, never said goodbye to Heather, never said goodbye to the Hall family. He was so cowardly and timid, and kept his fear deep Buried deep in his heart, he carefully covered it up with a smile, and then pretended that he was soaring wantonly, but he was never truly free..
As a result, Andrew was unable to break through the shackles of the four hundred blows. Just like the filming of every previous work, the nightmare was always there, always there..
“I can't do it." For the first time, Renly showed his vulnerability. The vast pain completely submerged him like a tide, and he was almost suffocated. He couldn't even clench his fists. If you can't do that, how can you really say goodbye? He is never as strong as he appears on the surface, and he is never as wise as he appears on the surface. He is just a fool, a fool who stubbornly moves forward on the same path..
“Sorry. I...can't do it.”
he misses heather.
Chu Jiashu didn't speak, and Heather didn't speak either. They just looked at Renli who had removed all his guard in front of him quietly, letting all those negative emotions be released..
After a long time, Renly finally calmed down again, raised his eyes, and looked at the boundless darkness around him with confusion and confusion, and finally fell on Heather, "I have to do this, right?？”
Heather smiled and nodded gently, "Renly, you know these truths." She turned her head and looked around, "This is your consciousness, this is your world, all of this belongs to you. thoughts, my words are also your thoughts. So, you know what to do.”
Renly closed his eyes in pain.
Indeed, he knew what the root of the matter was, that kind of restraint, that kind of confinement, that kind of oppression, that lingering nightmare, like the lingering smoke, entangled the soul, and then led him step by step towards the end of self-destruction. , but he couldn't refuse or stop. Just like Nina in "Black Swan", she knew clearly that there was a cliff in front of her, but she still jumped down regardless of her own safety..
Finally, shattered to pieces.
That's it for Andrew: either destruction or breakthrough, no other choice.
And the only way to break free is to return to yourself.
It's all supposed to be about the drums and the drums, not Fletcher.
He should challenge himself, he should break through the rhythm, and he should persevere; more importantly, he should completely forget Fletcher. His goal is Buddy Rich, not a little school teacher. Achieve greatness, not just a music school——
He should focus on himself and achieve his own glory after making a breakthrough, then Fletcher will no longer be important, just an insignificant obstacle; he should...should stand up bravely, insist on himself, and overthrow Fletcher , beyond Fletcher, reborn.
He should kill his father.
The road to self-breakthrough has never been easy, but only by knowing oneself, insisting on oneself, embracing oneself, and truly finding and recognizing the truest self can breakthroughs be possible.，
So is Andrew. So is he.
He should say goodbye to Chu Jiashu, and he should also say goodbye to Heather.
This is really difficult.
“I see the sky fade away, I hear the breeze sigh, and when the white snow buries my fallen brother, I will whisper the last goodbye (The-Last-Goodby)）.”
Renly slowly raised his head and raised his gaze. The chaos and confusion in his eyes dissipated little by little. The black fog was rolling away, and the gloomy temperament of his whole body became sunny again. The relaxation There was a sad and relaxed smile hidden in the corner of his mouth, and his eyes were clear and bright as he looked at Chu Jiashu directly in front of him..
It seems that a long time has passed since the last time I looked at Chu Jiashu seriously. The once familiar face has become blurred, and now a clear outline is outlined in the sight again. It is a bit unfamiliar, but it is slowly getting closer. It awakens those familiar things in my mind, as if I'm really looking in the mirror..
“Night is slowly falling, day is approaching again, the journey ahead calls, I will set off again, over the mountains and ridges again, across the Evernight Continent, and run towards the sea along the long flowing stream..
Bathed in the stars, with snowflakes flying and the cold wind whispering, I will set off to go home. Although the road ahead is unclear and unknown along the way, the day of farewell will eventually come..
I have gone through thousands of mountains and rivers, experienced ups and downs, but I have never regretted it, nor have I forgotten all the partners who have walked side by side..”
The smile on his lips rose little by little. Renly raised his right hand and waved it gently, "Jiashu.”
“Renli." Chu Jiashu showed a bright smile, looking a little shy and reserved. After a moment of pause, Chu Jiashu's eyes fell into the depths of Renli's eyes and said seriously, "You can do it. Good.”
Involuntarily, Renly let out a low chuckle and tried to say something, but the thoughts in his mind were so turbulent and complicated that he didn't even know where to start. In the end, he could only have mixed feelings. He gently nodded his head to express his response, but whether it meant approval, gratitude, or something else, even he himself couldn't tell clearly..
Chu Jiashu raised his right fist, tightened it, and tightened it again. The light of happiness in his eyes brightened little by little, and he said softly, "Come on.".”
Suddenly, Renly realized that he had arrived. He gritted his teeth tightly and shook his head slightly, but Chu Jiashu didn't care at all, and his smile became brighter, "This day should have come a long time ago, right?？”
“Night is slowly falling, day is approaching again, the journey ahead calls, I will set off again, over the mountains and ridges again, across the Evernight Continent, and run towards the sea along the long flowing stream..
I will be full of memories, I will be full of blessings, and embark on the journey home. Although the road ahead is unclear and unknown along the way, the day of farewell will eventually come..
I would like to express my sincere farewell.”
It's time to say goodbye.
Slowly, Chu Jiashu walked towards the direction of Ren Li, one step after another, slowly approaching, the firm steps becoming brighter and brighter, as if lingering in a golden mist. , with a touch of warmth, getting closer and closer, even at the end, his footsteps did not stop, and he just bumped into Renly.
A gentle farewell came to my ears, "Goodbye.”
Then, the two people completely merge into one.
Then another clear and loud voice came to my ears, "Renly, goodbye. But this is not a farewell." Then, that voice dissipated like smoke, completely disappearing..
Goodbye. This is the last farewell..
Unexpectedly, tears broke through Renly's eyes. The bitterness and pain, the dullness and sadness, the despair and unwillingness, the torture and depression, the sorrow and regret, all began to surge up, and he stood there, He just burst into tears.
From the last life to this life, from Chu Jiashu to Renly, he finally completed his final farewell.
“I see the sky fade away, I hear the breeze sighing, and when the white snow buries my fallen brother, I whisper the last farewell..”
“Goodbye." Renly murmured softly, but his voice was completely muffled. The collision between his lips and teeth seemed to make even his heart curl up, making him unable to breathe at all..
Goodbye. Goodbye！
That golden ray of light is getting brighter and brighter. Just one ray of light is enough to illuminate the entire space. The darkness recedes like a tide, and then the whole world becomes brighter and wider. Little by little, the fragments of memories are lit up, dotted like stars in the vast sky..
Chu Jiashu’s, Heather’s, Ding Yanan’s, Arthur’s, Edith’s, Paul’s, Ryan’s, Rooney’s, Matthew’s, Andre’s, and countless others, even appeared. "Buried alive", "crazy in love", "detached", "gravity", "drunk country folk", "exploding drummer", etc., etc., each and every vivid memory fragment gathered together like this Get up and light up the whole world, bright and warm, happy and moving.
Blooming like summer flowers.
Renly stood up straight, raised his head and looked at the golden halo in front of him. He hesitated for a moment, and then took steps towards the golden light in front of him, flying faster and faster. The faster, until the whole body begins to faintly burn, burning the vitality like a flame, releasing the power of the soul without reservation..
In a daze, he seemed to have returned to that day twenty-three years ago. He thought he was dead, but saw a beam of light. Then he ran with all his strength, forgetting everything, and didn't know why. There is no reason, it seems that just the remaining desire/desire for survival is driving me, and I run regardless..
Finally, he rushed into that ball of light again. However, this time the scene in front of him seemed completely different - all the memories of the two worlds were completely disrupted and condensed into the same world, sad. The happy, the bitter and the sweet, the bad and the beautiful, all of them are clearly presented before your eyes like never before, flashing by like a revolving lantern..
He saw Chu Jiashu.
He also saw Heather.
They are all still here. This is goodbye, not farewell.
Now, he finally understood the meaning of this sentence. He once refused to take this step because of fear and cowardice. He was always worried that this was a dream and that after waking up, he would return to the dream of the past. But now, he is not here Worried.
Not because he firmly believes that the present is "reality", but because he is no longer afraid of going back to the past, he is who he is, whether it is Chu Jiashu or Renly, this is him. Even the bits and pieces left on the body and spirit The scars are all his, his unique mark. He will not deny it, nor does he want to deny it..
This is the truest and most complete version of him.
The smile on the corner of his mouth bloomed widely, but when he raised his right hand and touched it, his cheek was filled with tears..
Note: The-Last-Goodby——Billy-Boyd）
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